Big love to:  https://soundcloud.com/akacarpenter
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

My album Melancholy is officially stream-able on all music platforms. Thank you to everyone who was involved in the creative process of this album.
Enjoy.

i fell in love

Lungs

Art by Idleglance (sempai)

LYRICS
I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it
I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it

good thing I look like this
good thing I look like this
cause I don't give no fucks
and I don’t take no shit
my girl see me amok
gave me her final kiss
she knew something was up
but she still want my kids

I roll a blunt to get away just for a starry night
I roll a joint to get away just for a moments time
I smoke the bong to get away from this so boring life
I smoke a dab so I can pass out and just fucking die

I need a Lyft
like Uber quick
or else I’m pissed
I got a mission that I must finish
I got a feelin' that there’s something out there that I missed
but I’m not worried, lines are blurry on the life I live
good thing I look like this
good thing I keep control
good thing I flick my wrist
good thing I rest my soul
good thing I finally got the break I need
I risked it all
I kept my patience
didn’t say shit
now I’m boutta ball

I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it
I don’t mind the weight of it all
I don’t mind the weight of it

Lay down like this baby lemme fuck that face
turn up like this baby lemme fuck that waist
and when I leave you baby
I’ll be gone no trace
and when I leave you baby
I’ll be gone no place

good thing I look like this
good thing I look like this
cause I don't give no fucks
and I don’t take no shit
my girl see me amok
gave me her final kiss
she knew something was up
but she still want my kids

I roll a blunt to get away just for a starry night
I roll a joint to get away just for a moments time
I smoke the bong to get away from this so boring life
I smoke a dab so I can pass out and just fucking die

Ego Death (prod. puhf)

ON ALL MAJOR PLATFORMS🖤

LYRICS :

oh rev please don't cry
OH REV PLEASE DON'T CRY!
oh rev please don't cry
OH REV PLEASE DON'T CRY!

Too down, baby let me go
I just took a pill and then I woke up on the floor
17 grams I won't ever let her go
I get high all day just so I can get low x2

I'm out my mind can't take it
stop drinking but afraid I'll start shaking
Dope don't work no more i'm anxious
pills don't work but still I take them
these rules I live by dangerous
If I slip my life might take it
Hate these thoughts I hate these places
That you take me to I'm anxious

Oh rev, please don't cry, let us fill your head with lies
you can do it one more time
just take one hit and you'll be fine
instead, take your life turn it over get inside
please come back don't waste your time
we all get down and sad sometimes

but I know
that this ain't good for me
yeah i know 
drugs make the worst of me
i'm so low
why are you hurting me?
I'm so low
I don't deserve to be

Oh Rev please don't cry x 4
"Please, don't let me keep you a prisoner here. It's okay now, forget about me. You know what? No, I want you to remember me. Just once in a while."

Too down, baby let me go
I just took a pill and then I woke up on the floor
17 grams I won't ever let her go
I get high all day just so I can get low x2

Fucked up I hate this maybe I'm
Too gone can't take this borderline
These drugs make me feel alright
No I can't stop but I'm fine x4

REANIMATION (prod. V-E beats)

Wh1te W0lf x s0cliché - Jouhatsu (prod. justletmedie)

Flight Mode

prod. ocin
guitars: yago

(I always found it hard 
The answers 
X2) 

I always found it hard to find 
The answers 
To all the problems they describe 
No answers 
Could ever save us from our lies girl 
Could ever save us from the night girl 
Cause every fucking road 

We can’t go wrong 
Feel it in your back now 
I can’t go wrong 
No more luck I’m growing fast now 
I can’t go wrong 
Feel it in your head now 
We can’t go wrong 
I can’t 

I can’t tell what’s real no more 
I can’t feel love am I insane? 
All these thoughts consume my brain 
You should leave me here in the rain girl 
Leave me alone, I’m in my zone 
No matter what I’ll find a way 
way 

Can’t go wrong 
Feel it in your back now 
I can’t go wrong 
No more luck I’m growing fast now 
I can’t go wrong 
feel it in your head now 
we can’t go wrong 
I can’t

can't go wrong

ON ALL PLATFORMS 
LYRICS- 
I don't like this, I don't like this no no no 
Fucked up in my head no I don't think that imma make it
fetty hit my line oh boy I think i need to take it 
faded I aint coming back my memory erase it 
this time I'll be gone for good there's no need to be patient
I know, I know that I could've looked the other way 
but where's the fun in giving up if there ain't ever hell to pay
I know, I know what my family is gonna say 
you had so much potential for a drug you threw it all away
I think I know right from wrong (right from wrong)
voices in my head won't stop
please don't cry it won't be long (please don't cry)
fuck with me and sing along
 imma cut ties to the ones I leave Imma do my thing I might go
please don't leave me hanging baby I ain't nothin like you
I can't take this anymore your blade is cutting right through
one day I'll sit back and say there ain't no way that I'll go on x2

do my thing I might go please don't leave me hanging baby I aint nothin like you I ain't nothin like you x2

Produced by LeLxx

hang me from the ballad

Hate

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Check out my homie: https://soundcloud.com/yates-xv

--

Lyrics

RIVILIN:


Yeah, separation comes all the time, 
like a book without the pages, im just left hung up in stages
always trying to find ways to mend the spine
you got a collar on my neck with medication just to try and fix my mind

So won’t you paint my shadow on the wall in blood-red
so maybe one day I can look at it and just say that im fine
so won’t you sketch me on your canvas till I’m perfect
until you cover the outlines till im nothing, till im nothing to you

So won’t you, yeah won’t you, yeah just leave me the fuck alone
Cus im better here on my own, because im better here, better here
Cus you know that, yeah you know that, I always welcome you with open arms
It’s time I let go and brace the calm, but you know that it hurts, that it hurts.


remember the time you drove me to the hospital
yeah I try to be a minute but I can’t deal with commitment
yeah everyone needs some help sometimes
yeah but you weren’t helping me you just want to take and leave

like a ghost, in the background, I float around
bouncing from wall to wall I don’t want to be a letdown
always hitting me up on the flip phone
Yeah I never answer cus I don’t wanna be dependent on

YATES XV:

I know it’s off-topic
But I don’t feel nothin
I was at the top now I’m sitting at the bottom
She saying that I’m dark like my hearts gone rotten
I’m in my fuckin head but I’m Steady fucking Poppin
White oxycodone
I don’t open up
These drugs that I’m takin
Make me feel loved
I don’t wanna dream
I just wanna run it up
See me in my past life
Lookin like a god

Man it’s so fuckin funny
All the shit that I’ve done
Say I’ve lived my life
I just sit in the cut
All these drugs that I’m takin
Got me messed up
And I know I’m not happy
But I’m smiling
Just for fun

So tell me that I’m happy
Tell me I’m all good
Explain away my pain
Let me know it’s all good
Fuck I need help
But I’m barely fuckin breathing
I don’t want help
When the pills give me feeling

can't go wrong

Ocin

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