The song 'Addicted' by Stephanie Müller portrays a tumultuous relationship where conflicts and drama fuel a passionate and addictive connection between two individuals. The lyrics depict a cycle of intense emotions, from anger to surrender, highlighting the paradoxical nature of their love that thrives on chaos and intensity, ultimately leading to a destructive yet irresistible bond.

The slamming door still echoes in the hall
The bitter words, like shadows on the wall
A silence hangs, a battlefield of pride
Nowhere to run, and nowhere left to hide
Then a meeting, a glance, a conversation's end
A shift in the universe, a message you would send...

And the air gets thick, my heart begins to race
I see the surrender burning in your face
We don't speak a word, there's nothing left to say
This familiar ritual begins to play...

Oh, we're addicted to the aftermath
The violent calm, the twisted, healing path
After the drama, comes this electric spark
Catching fire in the silence and the dark
It's a fever, it's a rush, it's a dangerous high
The moment anger melts into a sigh
Yeah, we're addicted to the aftermath
We break it just to feel the fire on the path.

The space between us crackles like a live wire
A culmination of a burning, fierce desire
All the accusations, all the pushing and the shove
Just seem to fuel this overwhelming love
It's a paradox, a beautifully messed up truth
The aftermath of sorrow breeds the moment of our youth.

And the world just fades to grey, there's only you and I
And this compulsive need to let the feeling multiply...

Oh, we're addicted to the aftermath
The violent calm, the twisted, healing path
After the drama, comes this electric spark
Catching fire in the silence and the dark
It's a fever, it's a rush, it's a dangerous high
The moment anger melts into a sigh
Yeah, we're addicted to the aftermath
We break it just to feel the fire on the path.

Is this love, or is it just the fall?
The highest high before we lose it all?
I know it's toxic, I know it's a crime
To need the devastation every single time
But for this golden, terrifying, perfect rush...
I'd burn it all to ashes, I'd give in without a push.

WE ARE ADDICTED TO THE AFTERMATH!
THE VIOLENT CALM, THE ONLY PATH!
AFTER THE DRAMA, COMES THIS ELECTRIC SPARK!
I'M ALIVE IN THE SILENCE AND THE DARK!
IT'S A FEVER! IT'S A RUSH! IT'S A DANGEROUS HIGH!
THE MOMENT ANGER MELTS INTO A SIGH!
YEAH, WE'RE ADDICTED TO THE AFTERMATH!
WE BREAK IT JUST TO FEEL... WE FIGHT TO FEEL... WE BURN TO FEEL THE FIRE ON THE PATH!

Addicted...
To the aftermath...
Just to feel the fire...
Just to feel...

Addicted

The streetlights paint the sidewalk gold
Another story going untold
I hear the echoes down the hall
Waiting for you to break this wall

And I'll be standing close, when all your hope is lost
I'll be the steady ground, when there is no one else around
Yes, I'll be standing close, no matter what it costs
Just take my hand, and understand

I still recall our summer days
Laughing under sun's warm gaze
Now winter's chill is in the air
But I'll still be right here, I swear

And I'll be standing close, when all your hope is lost
I'll be the steady ground, when there is no one else around
Yes, I'll be standing close, no matter what it costs
Just take my hand, and understand

Through every crack and every flaw
I'll be the one who breaks your fall
The doubts that keep you up at night
We'll face them in the morning light

I'll be standing close, when all your hope is lost
I'll be your steady ground, when there is no one else around
I'll be standing close, no matter what it costs
Just take my hand, and understand

Just understand...
I'll be your steady ground...

Standing close

A goodbye is always a heavy weight,
But this one cuts deeper, it's a different kind of ache.
We had a connection, so rare and so true,
And saying this now is the hardest thing to do.
I know this wasn't an easy choice for you to make,
But the finality of it leaves my heart about to break.

Oh, our time is coming to a close.
There isn't a day that goes by, heaven knows.
Your passion was a fire, a contagious spark,
And together we built a masterpiece out of the dark.
I'm so proud of what we became,
And I know you feel the same.

It all started with a simple plan,
A project, an adventure, but then it began.
It grew into something I never foresaw,
Filled with beautiful moments that leave me in awe.
We were so close, a bond I'll hold tight,
I'll carry it with me, every day and every night.

Oh, our time is coming to a close.
There isn't a day that goes by, heaven knows.
Your passion was a fire, a contagious spark,
And together we built a masterpiece out of the dark.
I'm so proud of what we became,
And I know you feel the same.

And now you're taking the lead,
You'll nurture and make it grow.
I have no doubt you'll succeed,
I want you to know.

I wish you all the best, from the bottom of my heart.
Thank you for our time, though we're apart.
I'm gonna miss you...
Yes, I'm gonna miss you.
One last hug. 

Goodbye

I remember the shadows, the quiet dread
A silent, frantic voice inside my head
A cage of my own making, cold and tight
Then a single spark of clarity, so bright

And where love is, there is never fear
It washed over me, and dried every tear
A warmth I'd never known, a glorious light
This overwhelming feeling, shining ever so bright
Oh, I wish you this feeling, before your time is done
This endless, brilliant love, under the sun

I searched in faces, I looked for a sign
For something outside me to call "mine"
But the treasure wasn't hidden in someone's eyes
It was a quiet power, my own sunrise

'Cause where love is, there is never fear
It washed over me, and dried every tear
A warmth I'd never known, a glorious light
This overwhelming feeling, shining ever so bright
Oh, I wish you this feeling, before your time is done
This endless, brilliant love, under the sun

And you have to find it first, deep in your own soul
You have to make your broken pieces whole
It's not out there, it's a flame you must fan
And only then... oh, only then you can...

Share this love where there is no fear
You can hold their hand, and whisper in their ear
This warmth I was given, this glorious light
This overwhelming feeling, we can share tonight
Oh, I wish you this feeling, I wish you this grace
To find your own love, in your own space

Only in you...
Never outside...
Find it... and share it...
Where love is...
Where love is.

Where Love Is

I was the secret, the second life
The patch of sun for a man at night
He said he lived in a house of glass
With a fragile heart he had to pass
He told me, "I can lead her where I will"
A silent void for him to fill
And I felt chosen, I felt so strong
To hold the man who couldn't be alone

I was the scaffolding, holding up the man
Propping up the ruin, with my trembling hands
He leaned on my weakness, I called it a plan
I was the scaffolding, not part of the land
Just a temporary structure, in the shifting sand

He'd talk in circles of his despair
Of mental clouds and the heavy air
And I drank the poison, I felt his pain
While his wife at home was chasing rain
She forgave a ghost, she never knew
The man in my arms, so untrue
He built his cage and called it fate
And used her love as a welcome plate

I was the scaffolding, holding up the man
Propping up the ruin, with my trembling hands
He leaned on my weakness, I called it a plan
I was the scaffolding, not part of the land
Just a temporary structure, in the shifting sand

And when I finally walked away
I saw the game the clear of day
He didn't crumble, he didn't break
He just turned back for heaven's sake
To the one who'd always let him in
To the co-dependent, toxic spin
I was just a tool, a fleeting beam
In the architecture of his dream

Now he's back home, playing his part
A mended man with a broken heart
And I'm just ghost, a story told
A piece of scaffolding, bought and sold.
Just scaffolding... rusting in the cold.
Yeah, just scaffolding... a story never told.

The Secret

You thought this was a competition, that I wanted to win
But I was already walking away from all his lies and his spin
You held on tighter when you felt me near
While I was already seeing things crystal clear

If you need to feel like you won, that’s fine
But the man you’re keeping was never mine
What you call a prize, I just see a man who’s untrue
And that’s not something I’d ever choose

You can have him, I don’t want him
A love built on lies is not for me
You can keep your victory, it’s empty
I want something real, can’t you see?
I’m not fighting, I’m not bitter
I just know what real love should be
And it’s not hiding, it’s not secrets
It’s not someone who couldn’t choose me

He told me he was missing passion, missing a real mind
He took my care and understanding, then left it all behind
He went back to play the husband, faithful and so true
But I know the man behind the mask, and I don’t want him, too

So hang his picture on your wall, tell everyone you’ve won
But a man who lives a double life is not a someone
I’d rather be alone and free, standing in the light
Than share a shadow with a man who never chooses right

You can have him, I don’t want him
A love built on lies is not for me
You can keep your victory, it’s empty
I want something real, can’t you see?
I’m not fighting, I’m not bitter
I just know what real love should be
And it’s not hiding, it’s not secrets
It’s not someone who couldn’t choose me

My peace is worth more than your trophy
My truth is worth more than his name
I’m not losing, I’m just choosing
A different, better game

You can have him…
I have my freedom.
And I’m already winning.

Not A Prize

I built a castle on your shifting sand
On promises I couldn't understand
You called it love, I called it a war
Always left me wanting more, always keeping score
I was a satellite to your chaotic sun
Blinded by the light of what you'd never done

But I found a strength I never knew I had
A fire in my soul, it burns away the sad
No more dancing in your shadows, no more playing your game
I learned to say my own name, a whisper turned to a flame
This isn't a wound, it's a well-earned scar
And I'm finally following my own North Star

You spoke in riddles, a master of the haze
I got lost in your confusing, circular maze
But the fog has lifted, the air is clear and cold
A story of my own worth, finally being told
I packed my bags with dignity and grace
And left your haunted, hollow, empty space

'Cause I found a strength I never knew I had
A fire in my soul, it burns away the sad
No more dancing in your shadows, no more playing your game
I learned to say my own name, a whisper turned to a flame
This isn't a wound, it's a well-earned scar
And I'm finally following my own North Star

It wasn't easy walking through that door
With my heart in pieces on the floor
But piece by piece, I picked them up
And drank the truth from my own cup
The silence now is not a scream
It's the peacefulness of a healed-over dream

My own North Star... it's burning bright
Guiding me into my own light
My own North Star... I know the way
I found my strength, and I'm here to stay.

Shadows

You spoke in futures, painted clear and true
Said "a hundred percent, it's me and you"
I let my walls down, I began to fall
Then I heard the echo of a distant call
You got quiet, and the ground gave way
The same old pattern on a different day

My body knows it before my mind
A knot inside me starts to wind
A heavy chest, a shallow breath
A silent dance with emotional death

Broken compass in your hands
You're a stranger making promises and plans
You talk of loyalty, but you live a lie
With one foot out and a fear-filled eye
You're so afraid to be alone
So you build your house in a twilight zone
And my heart, my hope, is a blinding light
Trying to love you through the endless night

I see the ghost of her in the space between
A half-felt goodbye, a silent, unclean scene
You say you're tangled, you say you're scared to lose
But you're using my love as a bridge you refuse to choose
I was your potential, your shiny, new door
But you can't let go of the one that came before

My body knows it before my mind
A knot inside me starts to wind
A heavy chest, a shallow breath
A silent dance with emotional death

Broken compass in your hands
You're a stranger making promises and plans
You talk of loyalty, but you live a lie
With one foot out and a fear-filled eye
You're so afraid to be alone
So you build your house in a twilight zone
And my heart, my hope, is a blinding light
Trying to love you through the endless night

And the only proof, the only solid ground
Would be the sound of a door when it slams shut
You facing your empty fears, alone in a tiny room
But a physical space can't heal an emotional tomb
'Cause I'm not a prize you win by moving out
I'm a woman you choose, without a single doubt

This broken compass, I'm taking it back
I'm done with walking your blurry track
I believed in loyalty, I lived authentically
While you were hiding in your fear, you lost the best of me
You're so afraid to be alone
But now you are, and I am finally gone.

My compass points to me now.
True North.
I'm done.

You're so afraid

You paint the world in shades of grey
And you're the victim of the day
A tragic hero in your own sad play
But I'm not watching anymore, no way
You'd spin a tale, so slick and smooth
And all your lies, you'd somehow prove
I'd question my own sanity's groove
Trying to find the truth I couldn't move

Oh, I see you now, I see you clear
Behind the "sorry"s and the crocodile tear
It's just "I'm sorry that you feel that way"
Another script you learn to play
You're just a king of a house of cards
A hall of smoke and broken shards
I built you up, I played my part
But your performance ends, it's torn apart

Your ego is a hungry, endless space
That leaves no room for any other face
You have no respect, no sense of grace
Just a desperate, never-ending race
To be the star, the wounded, the misunderstood
And for a time, I thought you really stood
For something real, I thought you could
But you're just made of rotten wood

Oh, I see you now, I see you clear
Behind the "sorry"s and the crocodile tear
It's just "I'm sorry that you feel that way"
Another script you learn to play
You're just a king of a house of cards
A hall of smoke and broken shards
I built you up, I played my part
But your performance ends, it's torn apart

And you let me doubt my mind, my sight
In the shadows of your gaslight
I was bending over backwards, trying to be fair
While you were just standing, sucking all the air
But the fog has lifted, the spell is broke
You're not a victim, that's the cruelest joke
You're just a man who's too afraid to blame
Anything but his own name

Oh, I SEE you now, I SEE you clear!
Your paper-thin apologies, I can't even hear!
"It's sorry that I feel this way?"
No, the fault was yours, now I can say!
You were the king of a house of cards!
I'm burning down your broken shards!
I built you up, I played my part
But my performance ends, it's torn apart

It's torn apart...
Yeah, I see you now.
And the reflection in the mirror...
It's finally mine again.
All mine.

Sorry

Music is my medium to express my feelings and emotions. Every woman has a long and arduous journey behind her, is currently in a difficult situation, or is facing a new challenge. The lyrics I have written myself reflect my experiences and my past. With the help of AI, they were transformed into song lyrics, and the music was also generated by AI. I hope my music can offer you solace and comfort during these difficult times. Don't forget: Where there is love, there is never fear. Recognize your worth!

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