sad/chill mix

Nod's personal fav's

Blue

Produced/Remixed/Mixed by me, bloss 
Check out my acc: https://soundcloud.com/bloss_souncloud

buzzin’ (ft. bexey) [prod. learic spellman]

I can't feel love

lyrics:
I don't think love was for me
Even if they said it
Even if they meant it
Home is where the fire is
look into my iris
I'll be runnin from the flames
run me down I'll go insane
she had raise me up
just to shut me down again
how you call yourself a friend
if you plannin out the fuckin end
just to much to think I might shut down again (edited)

bitch if you call now I'd leave it unheard
send a text I'd leave it unread
unread, ongod.
I'm going home, I'm killin time
trace veins on skin of mine
it's fine
it's only ever a thought
but I could be convinced
like persuade me persuade me
I wanna die baby
and as of lately
I've been feeling pressure on my back
I can feel that pressure and I might crack

cause fuck I tried but it wasn't enough

I don't think love was for me
Even if they said it
Even if they meant it
Home is where the fire is
look into my iris
I'll be runnin from the flames
run me down I'll go insane
she had raise me up
just to shut me down again
how you call yourself a friend
if you plannin out the fuckin end
just to much to think I might shut down again

I Cant Feel <3 (prod. Wetmall)

Fixed.
Soundcloud free for non profit

stressin for what
stressin for something
stressing for someone
ooo
guess I'm stressed from my spine to my back I can feel it all
I hold my head up with these heavy thoughts that try to bring me down down down
I'm always bringing me down
not on purpose its just easy
for thoughts to spiral outta control

FUCK
I'm sick of me
I don't wanna wake up again
Just let me rot in my bed
I swear its fine oh and love of mine
i'll meet your mom in time
I just need some help
Cuz i'm locked in this hell of mine
tell your mom I'm sorry
for missing dinner parties
but this heartache dont come for free
babe I know your mad
just don't hate me

Hate me now and love me later
I don't wanna play these games with you
babe I know I fucked it up again
like wasn't it obvious that II won't come around
I'm a fuckup if you styick with me I'll probably take us both on down

Tell Your Mom I'm Sorry (prod. Michael Harrison)

Jon Waltz - Bang

Free non profit soundcloud only

lyrics
Yeah I came in on the low
uh 
faded i'm faded I know
yuh
she want it she want it it shows
yo
winnin me back she is snappin a tit
talkin and talkin a vox on this bitch
fuckin and dippin I block on that bitch
Whippin and skrrrtin I'm lovin this shit

certain I'm killin it
persian I'm wearin it
money I'm earnin it
dankish I'm burning it
yeah we smoking doinks in amish
help us get through broken promise
wish yall could be fuckin honest
workin from the dusk to dawn its

quite exhaustin
got me lost in
something else on my mind
I'm runnin away like all the time

and you are not the tell your mom I'm sorry type
it's not a love song this shit hyhpe
i'm talking that netflix vibe
she might ride
I barely know her name
yet I already know her game
she been playin fatal hearts
you cannot play with fate of cards uh

I've been movin it all 
via action not no nappin
you been daydreamin
I'm been chasin a dream
catch me on that bigscreen
 kill you with my laser beam
no we ain't the same team
now I'm blowin up the scene

Faded Ik (prod. Probelad + pora!)

me and @xelfiy slidin thru raygun mk II and double tapped up

@4ever-collective
lyrics

laser guns I'll take your funds
I'm makin fun
terrorizin you cause fuck it 
chop em up body in the bucket
piece on the waist I tuck it
I told your bitch to
switch it up I need a change up hoe
I'm brinin change up tho
like wheres the cash at
I'm here to make my money
profits off of dummies
I ain't scammin tho 
yeah you really funny
I keep it real I keep it muddy
kraken out the bottle
keep it like full throttle
gods plan if we

nevermind I make my fate
I took the bus to yodieland
I woke up in another state
just to see my homies damn
now we like 4th floor penthouse
from a basement that was like down south

Okay my day look like
Kill a bitch kill a bitch
That's a "it g ma"
It g ma killer whale
Don't you go n tell a tale
I got power like Shinobi
Comin at me, you don't know me

so fuck it baby
i've been goin crazy
she's that alice in that wonderland 
she thinks that I'm her peter pan
nah bitch I'm more like evil superman
thinkin I'm the devil damn
some you don't get it 
talkin but you outta credit

I'm perked up 
like who's who
Like who am I? 
I'm Villainous
I'm Killin us
I'm Off one 
I'm off my rocker

I'mdoin 60 in a 40 off a perk and a xan
fuck you bitch
I'll get a new whip
and II'mma do it again cause I can

[xelfiy]
Your plug bring you funny stuff 
My plug bring me laser guns 
Tag on the back of that bitch said just for fun 
Yeah
Are shit come in pack a punched 
We are not really no average
This ain’t no regular bag of runts
We Must be more then savages
Should of seen us back up on rust 
Life gone change that shit get rough 
I’m wit my big dogs they go ruff ruff ruff ruff
Huh
Boy a keyboard warrior
He always bought them bluffs
I been threw some shit man
I’m not tryina say I’m tough 
But spin back round to my city and we gone have to see what’s up
She tryina blow my phone up
I know what the fuck is up
Why you throwing shade on my bread 
Just go get yos up 
Mhm
throwing shade around my girl 
Man just go get yo rizz up
Boy got shook up by a pop
Yeah he fizzed up

LASER GUNS FT. XELFIY (PROD. GRAVES)

prod. @hollowprpl
<3
@4ever-collective
<3
man he's tweakin just another stressed burnout twenty somethin
take the feels and pop em till the money comin
finance, I'm stressed out
vivance, I'm locked in
high man off toxins
ghost me I'm toxic

I'm talkin to my demons
they just wan get even
I just wanna put that shit to rest
lay my head up on my desk
man i'm daydreamin
but when I wake my head is screamin
need nicotine
 habit i broke in a dream

brokedown dreams to match my broke down car
it might start but it won't run far
I might cry but it won't last long
made my choice but I know it was wrong

burnin, I'm fightin the sun
word in, I'm talkin to god
hurtin, it's cuttin up nod
burden,  this shit gets old
talkin, I might grow mold

Im sitting in silence
I'm slitting my eyelids
I'm watching the time tick
I'm back in my minds tricks
is it the real or the fake
it shows me what isn't the way
beretta to the back of my
back of my brain
packin the pain
lackin the grit
actin a bit

she got blue eyes like the devils water
aye yeah I been fuckin on the devils daughter
cause this shits all for show
you want the real me well what a joke
you think you feel me well thats just hope
and I been hopin a lot

IT'S BEEN A MONTH THIS SHIT AIN'T OVER WORKIN ON THE SAME TRACK TILL I FEEL OLDER
BUT  that PROGRESS COMES SPARINGLY 
BUT IT'S I THATS BEEN COMPARING ME
FIGURE OF SPEECH THE EYES THAT STARE AT ME
FIGURE I'M GHOST THE WISE WON'T BEAR WITH ME

AND I CANNOT TEACH OR PREACH
THE WAY TO BE
THAT WEIGHS ON ME
FAT FUCK TIPPIN THE SCALES THATS WEIGHT ON ME
THEY WON'T WAIT ON ME
I HAD MY CHANCE
SHE WANTED TO DANCE

YUH I'M IN MY HEAD AGAIN
VISIONS OF THE PAST I'M DEAD AGAIN

POKIN AND PRODDIN 
MY BRAINS BEEN ROBBIN
ME OF THE GOOD TIMES
I THINK OF THE BAD TIMES

 I WAS WHOLE WHEN I WAS BAPTISED
GUESS GOD CUT LOOSE I GOT BAD TIES
JUSTIFIED BY A NOOSE
I SIT AND I TELL MYSELF BAD LIES

Bad Ties (prod. Hollowprpl)

where you said you going , he cant fuck you like I can. 

Prod. Willie G & xxxtentacion

Teeth (Interlude)

I can never finish anytthing, expect releases never.

king prod scotty splash of course.

lyrics:
infinite words but I'm still so speechless
fuck it it hurts when I see you leavin
i know i got work yeah I got demons

baby I got demons hold my hand at night and whisper scary stories
I'm a freak and I'm sorry for the sorries
she wanna eat my heart to taste the heartache
she'll leave a mess and claim it's just what I make
I make my own heartbreak
I sold my sad ideas to myself like it was shark tank

I barely graduated fuck academy
gifted burnout fuck it's so sad to see
I could've been something, and made my momma proud of me
but I let time slip on right out of me


you fear a futures past that you havent even met yet
you fear a love that you haven't even said yet
you know theres better and you wanna forget it
cause half the time you speak you tend to really regret it

and regrets builds up
and resent sets in
and at one point
we might have been friends
but they're over it
and  I knew that this would end
and I'm not so over it
and I'm sorry if 

infinite words (prod. scotty splash)

the way i see things (prod. kryptik)

Snow

Snow (Feat. Killstation)

Gustav Ahr's Album

overdose ft lil peep & lil tracy (prod by yung cortex)

A single off the upcoming EP titled AsWeGrieve
Prod. by @ghostemane
Enjoy.

Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
Highschool in class think of droppin out,
But that be somethin I could never really talk about,
Everybody always said it aint an option how,
I could walk up in the office sign the doc and bounce,
Cuz 9th grade when the drama would rise up out,
The fuckin ground like a zombie I'd walk around,
And people eye me down,
Its like they talk about me without givin a fuck bout what they talk about,

(Chorus)
Said I been feelin like I got nobody by my side,
While I be all up on my grind through early mornin late a night,
And I aint tryna justify shit,
Can't provide with empty pockets,
Pray to god that all the nonsense in this world will fuckin stop,

(Verse 2)
I grew up around an abundance of,
Preppy motha fuckas never been one of em,
So because I wasn't conformin,
Didn't play sports or,
Listen to the stuff they bump,
Or rock the shit they rock,
Or talk the way they talk,
I was an easy target so they always pickin on me,
I had to brush it off like a dusty mop,
I let it slide givin time Ida got fed up,
Cuz I be walkin in the hallway hearin this shit all day,
There's a limit that come with the shit that yall say,
People callin me a faggot for rappin and tellin me to kill myself like it don't even matter,
One day I said fuck it,
Threw a middle finger up,
At one the bullies on the bus when I was walkin way from it,
At first I was pissed that I been learnin to live with these people tellin me that I aint worthy of shit,

(Chorus 2x)
Said I been feelin like I got nobody by my side,
While I be all up on my grind through early mornin late a night,
And I aint tryna justify shit,
Can't provide with empty pockets,
Pray to god that all the nonsense in this world will fuckin stop,

(Verse 3)
Then a year later same deal but I started to smoke,
Chillin with my homies turned into us tryna get stoned,
Fridays were the days we would always wanna buy eights so we get high then buy food to keep us full,
I was smokin for a minute I dont know how often,
But my mom knew I was so it was causin problems,
I would always call her out like no your wrong its not a big fuckin deal I can do what I want,
And I regret that shit,
Soon enough a bad experience put me in depression wishin it would just end,
Used to wonder was it dust but it probably wasn't,
Coulda been that it was strong shit that I couldn't fuck with,
So I quit,
Bout 2 years later started smokin again,
And the same shit happened,
Landed me in therapy the first time around thankfully was already in a better program at the school the people there for me pushed for that,
So I would go to class in the afternoon until Im done and graduate,
All I have to say,
That Ida made it too far just to throw it all away and thats the thing,
Yeah we all feel lost sometimes but Im back up on the path I made,
Don't give a fuck what you have to say,
Makin music and improving on my craft can be challenging,
But Im trying hard thats the key,

(Chorus 2x)
Said I been feelin like I got nobody by my side,
While I be all up on my grind through early mornin late a night,
And I aint tryna justify shit,
Can't provide with empty pockets,
Pray to god that all the nonsense in this world will fuckin stop

HIGHSCHOOL (prod. GHOSTEMANE)

RiverKinn
"Sleepless"
Instruments and Production by RiverKinn

THE FOX WITH CLOVEN HOOVES
Download: bit.ly/2tKVuKQ

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Tears in my eyes as I lay in my bed
And I cling to the memory of you in my head
When this loneliness just becomes too much to take
I pray that I sleep and hope I never wake
I recount every misstep and mistake
How I pushed to the point that made everything break
It's no surprise to me, I should have guessed
It's the reason why I've been so fucking depressed

I can't forget the way you looked
In all those photographs we took
I kept them hidden for so long
Between the pages of your books
And I never read a single page
I'd memorize the things you'd say
I'll take your secrets to my grave
But could you say the same when there's

Tears in my eyes as I lay in my bed
And I cling to the memory of you in my head
When this loneliness just becomes too much to take
I pray that I sleep and hope I never wake
I recount every misstep and mistake
How I pushed to the point that made everything break
It's no surprise to me, I should have guessed
It's the reason why I've been so fucking depressed
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@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXVIII

Sleepless

Prod. stranger

Lyrics:

(Verse)
Told her you don't need a mirror to admire what you are,
Nature gave us all a mirror it's the sky it's the stars,
So when we were laying down on my car in that empty parking lot,
Lookin up it made you smile from the start,
Baby we are equal,
I think they lost touch,
Society is all fucked,
Don't realize they more than just a body with some thoughts,
personalities colliding egos thriving that's the false self,
I'm sorry to the ones who hate me but I wish you all well,
The colors more intense the simple minded folks resent you for the highs you hold to get you through the highs and lows you been,
I mix the alcoholic beverage marijuana rolled to test it,
If that time I smoked was wet then whys it pop up when it isn't,
If I'm honest my perception of your mind is it's receptive,
When you smile I'm lost in heaven places I ain't know existed,
Like our minds are just reflections and our vibes are close to replicas,
Decide if we're whats best for us if not then don't forget this yeah,

(Chorus 2x)
You sway like the trees,
And I'm in love

(Verse 2)
Love is such a trip,
It's like a drug becomes addictive,
When we touch I feel connected to another fuckin sense,
Protect you from the stuff you been through,
Help you love when you're resentful,
Feel like love is a dimension not enough these fuckas visit,
Beautiful but don't express it,
Being vulnerables expected,
But the fear of being hurt can keep you closing off whatever,
An emotional depression could result in us regretting saying love you to begin with yeah it sucks but it can happen,
Spending months with yous a blessing,
In a land we manifested,
Where the whethers always 70 and issues never enter,
By the lake looks iridescent so majestic souls and energy,
And every golden memory we shored this moments precious,
Try to hold it close forever til we gotta go our separate ways back to the matrix set in place we'll meet back one a later date,
Relive that blissful feeling that we get,
Ain't no concealing it revealed it to the rest of us,
I hope we know whats best for us

(Chorus 2x)
You sway like the trees,
And I'm in love

iridescent (prod. stranger)

produced by sarcastic sounds

lyrics:

Seen a free man get down and kiss the road
For mama to be sleeping sound how far you'll go 
Take the tongue out my mouth cut off my toes
Take away all that skin and leave me cold

Plenty thing bout this life I'll never know
But that's more than fine
I just need to know the formula for getting by
So many codes
The wise could supply
Making millions to suicide
No one can hide
Order number 9
To the private jet
It's such a large divide
But I guess that's the prize we fetch
Everybody want it all
Jealousy our ready set go
Doggin like it's petco
Dodge the lasers get low
The slightly graze my suit coat
They taking heads now
Crazy how far people go
Just to get the bread now
Guess it's always been that way
My head just figured it out

Seen a free man get down and kiss the road
For mama to be sleeping sound how far you'll go 
Take the tongue out my mouth cut off my toes
Take away all that skin and leave me cold

I wanna ball ya
Maybe I'm looking to god
Give it a shot
Give it my all ya
Taking my time I don't fall down
Money is maxed out
Came for the love is a ghost town
So proud
Making the music is deep down
Without the money I'd freeze 
I couldn't eat
I wouldn't be here to speak now
I hate it but that's how we worked out
I can't trade you seeds and get some fur pelts
Have to drop a rack and rock the goose until the snow melt
Price you pay for living by the snow belt
Wasting away
I will never bow down
Until it's if I don't I let my fam down
Wait for the day
People say you sold out
Just to keep a morning shower and a clean mouth
I can't erase
All the moves I made now
Calendar my life and make the days count
All I can say
Is man I'm feeling great now
I forgot how a smile on my face felt

Seen a free man get down and kiss the road
For mama to be sleeping sound how far you'll go 
Take the tongue out my mouth cut off my toes
Take away all that skin and leave me cold

quite a hike (prod. sarcastic sounds)

some of the bars of all time
@4EVER-COLLECTIVE