produced by rrarebear & lxst boy

-lyrics-
(Lxst Boy)
Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you

Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

And don't
Say you're not strong enough
Cause I know God is working on the both of us
And it shows
I can feel your voice vibrating my bones
When you sing while you dance in my coat
Oh, girl you look so beautiful
Perfect timing, almost like you were a miracle
I was made for you

Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

(KID E$s)
Folding my papers, I made a crane
Look, ripped out pages
I'll sing the same hook
Over and over
Hate when I'm sober
Love when I'm high, but I hate when it's over
Love that you hate me, loved in a daydream
Fall in a spaceship, fall in a grave thing
Living life with my eyes, love-frozen
I'll be filling planes, last thrown up from

(Lxst Boy)
Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

Paper planes, through your window
Notes I wrote in colored pencil
I would change anything for you
Take away, this heart of tinfoil
Big mistakes, I'm making up for
Everything, I'd do it all for you

Paper Planes w/ KID E$s

prod. metlast

if I cover my eyes
i wont see the wreck, but still
open your mind to the fears, that I'm willing
driving at night scares me to death
why
anxiety lays, in my head all the time

don't lie
you can see the smile from my eyes, eyes
its so hard to comply
with you
and all the things thats going on in the world its true

ill cry
hold my hand through the night
me and u
we'll make it through the fire
the power amongst us
the people in power, just making everyone cower

can you see the welt
baby please just be yourself
patient 23 is creeping back, its so hard to shelf
all of my past
all of the stress and tears
no one is left

my best friend is lost in my head
I guess that I regret
my decisions and my past
cause we're the reason no one left
 
nothing is changing
baby just hold my hand
and hold your breath
and hope to God there's something left

all i see

lyrics ⬇️ 
thought that you would like that
you just want a price tag
i feel like a lit match i dont wanna fight
back
but if i gotta ima scream right where the mic stand
if you talkin trauma then u speakin with the right man
hes right in front of you holdin on your cold hands
and i can feel ur attitude when givin u an eye exam
but i dont wanna lose i dont wanna kick the can
i got a lot to prove
guess i got a lot to tell
i wish that i could change 
toss it in a wishing well
i couldnt take the blame
oh my gosh im givin hell
and thats what they gon say everytime i tell my tale
ever since i was a little kid i felt like ima fail
ima try and do it again and then ill double fail
i was just a youngin skippin rocks and now im skippin meals
it might come as a shock ik there’s no appeal 

i dont eat no veggies i aint eatin on no kale
thats why they hate the sight of me im lookin way too frail
i got no one thats proud of me so ima leave a trail
my father said it readily but i know what he fears
he dont want his son to drive 100 off the rails
he dont want his son to be smokin with his peers
he dont his son to be all focused on em cheers
he just want his son to thank the lord for all his years
and now theres only one that ima fear and ima fear that
the most high and when im high i really feel bad
smoke to cope but then i cry when i relapse
and if theres hope i pray to god he help find that

cuz i been trying really hard and i get nothin back
got me rippin out my heart and now im going mad
i dont think that theres a single thing that i could do to make you glad
doing what i can
and you said that i cant stand up like a man
i dont want a life change i would rather scram
think i got no gratitude but look at where i am
but i know i need something to change to fees the fam
and

if you talkin trauma then u speakin with the right man
hes right in front of you holdin on your cold hands
and i can feel ur attitude when givin u an eye exam
but i dont wanna lose i dont wanna kick the can
i got a lot to prove
guess i got a lot to tell
i wish that i could change 
toss it in a wishing well
i couldnt take the blame
oh my gosh im givin hell
and thats what they gon say everytime i tell my tale
ever since i was a little kid i felt like ima fail
ima try and do it again and then ill double fail
i was just a youngin skippin rocks and now im skippin meals
it might come as a shock ik there’s no appeal

no appeal

Wake Up w/ Brecken

prod yunnygoldz

lyrics ⬇️ 
lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat
just look at my characteristics 
i swear i got nothin to show
a lot less than most
not what you expected not even close
when i look in your eyes mine dont wanna close
if i love you then everyone knows
that i wont make it there without a new dose

yea i swear you look beautiful in every single pose
not an angle to imagine that i think uou could blow
but everything explodes when your over 
and nothing ignites as we planned
i can tell how tonights gonna be in advance 

ive lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat

whys it so hard just to look ahead in my life for a minute 
everyones upset i dont know why theyre livid
can you tell me when it’s finished 
oh they think im trippin out on the barstreet
but really im just chillin with grayson
so when you tell me that you love me
it only seems like its partly

hardly ever wanna step foot inside house now days
and i dont wanna look up
yea
cuz i would rather hide my face
and its hard not to tear up
when i think about everything i fail in my life in your eyes
but its okay
and i cant even flinch when they hit me with those words in my face cuz i know that theyre coming
doesnt matter what i think cuz im a still a disgrace according to their wording
but im hurting, tell em everyday and only thing they say is sure thing

tell me when it’s finished

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

Listen on Spotify!

Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

This Is It

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

<3
@4ever-collective
@Xelfiy
@20ofive

lyrics
Xelfiy:
it aint your fault at all
I keep my heart locked up inside this vault

I keep it away from yall
it aint your fault at all
I keep my heart locked up inside this vault

it aint your fault at all
I keep my heart locked up inside this vault
to keep it away from yall


Nod:
it's not your fault at all
secrets down the hall
I keep em locked up and away from you

like I don't got much time
and I don't wanna get close
leave me all behind
and forget about my echoes

please don't find me
please don't find me
hope my death on time
and not untimely

put my hope in a box
next to the rope and some scotch
baby photos, I might throw up
how'd we get to here

I was 17 I swear it's only been a year
I lost track of time
I was supposed to end up dead 
or somewhat sorta fine

I guess it's why I sorta walk the line
you can take my heart cause it don't feel like mine
I'm breaking arms with weight on mind
punchin walls and missing calls
so please just take your time

and when I don't return just know it's fine
leave me in the dark
 I know I'm lost and I'm not far
this my final arc
thinkin this is where we part 


20oFive:
i apoligize
for all but every time
for when tears fill youre eyes
and not to my suprise
its my fault
i know that im cause of it all

memories replay
my eyes they trace youre face
i woulve gave it all
but its to much for me to take
i hate
my fucking brain it aches
i know its my mistake
and im the one to blame
im the one to blame

it aint youre fault at all
i keep my locked up inside this vault
to keep it away from ya

it aint youre fault at all
i keep my locked up inside this vault
to keep it away from ya

not your fault ft. Xelfiy X 20ofive (prod. Acey)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

some of the bars of all time
@4EVER-COLLECTIVE