Wake me up when September ends

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weepings

@guardinmusic
Prod by: @sinxi x Tagliatore

lyrics-

yung van-
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault, yeah
I ain’t felt love since I was a kid
Yeah, you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
guardin-

Yeah I got an ice heart
Fuck all your feelings I’ll tear them apart
What nice start
I’m unaware that I do this I’m sorry sweet heart
I’m a boggart
Keep to myself up until I depart
Can I restart?
I only see dark at the end of the tunnel

And I cannot focus on all these fucking emotions
They constantly go unspoken, for I do fear being open
And I can feel my throat closing
As my heart starts decomposing
A Hollow being just floating
As my demise is approaching us

yung van - 
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one
No matter what I do I always fuck this up
I don’t think I’ll ever really love someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day
I’ve been in my bedroom for 8 days
I don’t wanna text you I’m afraid, yeah
You don’t wanna love me, that’s okay
I don’t even love myself to this day

I ain’t ever love since I was a kid
Yeah you told me that you love me but you never did
I’ve got mines around my heart but you didn’t set them off
I guess what I’m tryna say is it’s all my fault
Not a nice guy, but I act like one
No matter what I do I always hurt someone
So, I turned off all my feelings made my heart go numb
I ain’t ever let myself love no one

Goblin Kid

Something’s in the Way

VInyl & CD pre-sales

lyrics
--------
i am quickly realizing
all the problems that i'm facing
all exist inside this hatred
for myself my thoughts are racing
is there anybody out there
feeling dim, dark & depleting
what is safe cause all i fear is near
& death i'll soon be greeting
i truly wish the flickering would stop
& i could catch my breath
but this films left on repeat again
somehow you soon forget 
you've damn near downed your second bottle
drunken words in full effect
these sober thoughts have always lived here
driving by until they wreck

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

i think the sky is falling
but it's my imagination
overcasting on & off again
to form a new foundation
hopefully i reconstruct myself
it might take quite a while
obsolete upon comparison
these scars all stretch for miles
i'll never find the person i was then
he's buried deep below
subterranean inhabitant
i hope he likes the snow
did the soul inside his body
ever find his way back home
am i talking in third person
yeah i guess we'll never know

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

dim, dark, depleting

lyrics
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i'm getting bit up by all of the mosquitoes
blister my skin drink my blood like a needle
collect my dna in a vile
clone me again make me less suicidal
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child
six flags, suplexes, eddie guerrero
now it's just sex, some caffeine and the narrow
stairs album by the band death cab for cutie
i fear that eventually someone will shoot me
a loop of that scene from american beauty
but this ones for real it's not just from a movie
my anxietys got the worst of me lately
i don't know how the fuck you expect to save me
cause i can't save myself and honestly baby
i want you to know that i hate me
 
if you made it this far then you're probably still dreaming
listen to this when you feel like you need it
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child

mosquito

lyrics
--------
lost boy hoping i find my way home
lost sight of why i'm here & where the fuck i should go
one hundred twenty miles from my area code
spilt whiskey on my shirt inside this evergreen home
might tumble down & fall beneath the thick of the mist
a silhouette sat in the distance comes & swings with a miss
i climb trees just to save myself from what could've been
& hide high upon this mountain with a pad & a pen

the drifter lives down the road
& if he follows me home
then i'll pack everything & leave till i know
that i am safe beside my company although he's below
& then he'll gut me like a pig & leave my bones to the crows
& this time i've convinced myself that i'm gonna die
oh i don't think that it's alright but i'll just pray to the sky
i'll find a god in what i sing & sing it every night
and maybe time will tell my story i won't put up a fight

cause fear leads me towards destruction
crippled unable to function
full of unwanted assumptions
petrified by my consumptions
used to hide along the meadow
and now i practice my falsetto
i've been like this from the get-go
i don't ever wanna let go

the walls we build hide all the bodies
of everyone who lives inside me

the drifter

ion real fw the outside
ion freak I come up wit an alabi

PROD BY ME & LENOXBEATMAKER

Tommy Ice - Digital

prod heydium <3

lyrics: 

yeah i struggle a lot with myself
i spend a lot of time stuck in this hell
caught up between realities
i try not to become another victim of mentality
but i tell you what..
this life is slowly killin me

da da da da
this shits too much
da da da da 
like i rlly give af?

how do i make this something real?
i fuck with the aesthetic
i just dont get the appeal...
and its kinda fuckin me up
hardly livin wit the liquor and the drugs
this life has never been enough
i hate myself and it fuckin sucks
yeah its been so long man, stuck in this rut
i could die tomorrow
yeah, nobody give af 

yeah nobody give af...
nobody give af...

NOBODY GIVE AF

Spotify

nobody give af [+heydium]

Spine

Spine (Ft. Weepings & Yokai Dreams) [Prod. Rajaste & sxber]

@noxious-nights - 1st
@navyxower - 2nd
@yoimn3ver - 3rd
@soulfadexo - 4th
@emptychest - 5th

(noxiousnights)
I lost it all 
But I act like i'm okay
Even life is dying
So how am I still there ?
I take control
I can't put up with that shit
I'll be doing my best
Lately that's how I live
If you believe what i say then you got it all wrong
Only truth that i talk is written in those damn songs
She's been coughing like she's dying when she hits the bong
I'm playing with her hair and i help her staying strong
No, I promise saying how i fucking feel never helped me at all
I have this burning pain so i'm never feelin cold
I gotta move up North, all year long i wanna be in the snow
my body's gonna rot, will my story be told?

(NAVYXOWER)
blatantly, suffering, daily
WAKING UP, TO DREAMS THAT FUCKIN SCARE ME
holding on to you can fuckin save me
MAKING UP UR MIND, I NEED SOME HELP PLEASE!

i just wanna do, somethin right in my life
dont want no broken dreams, just keep my memories in line!
CONTEMPLATING LIFE
MY VISIONS GONNA DIE
DONT LET GO OF MY HEART
DYING RIGHT INSIDE

(teddyboi)
i got scars on my arms, i got scars on my thighs
people call it a nightmare, i call it my life
ptsd and substances, they coincide
i met the devil, he told me go inside
he put me in a chair, and said "this fuckers gotta die"

im not good at answering texts
tell me you love me, i leave you on read
plug tells me these are strong
tell me when i should care
id rather be high & dead
than comprehend that you were there
its all abt the music
aint nobody care

(soulfade)
Snow White ate a poison apple
Losing all at a downfall
Not fair for losing control
Might be just a “be all, end all”
Like lost babes in the woods
Pale wolves come rushing on in
I know what could’ve gone worse
Time is strange, but I know it’ll last

(emptychest)
what else is there 2 say? 
im okay
u still stalk my stories every damn day
ay taking hits
take a hint, take a hint
youre acidic
i love the way the smoke burns in my throat
i love the way it hurts and the way i ignore it, ignore it 
do you like how i hurt? do you like how i hurt? yeah.
does he like how i try? does he like how i try? no..

Shattered Dreams w/ noxiousnights, NAVYXOWER, teddyboi, soulfade & emptychest [+ sogimura]

lyrics

i been smoking stem thru the day
barely feel it im a heavy weight
and i dont drink water wanna feel it in my brain
im a dehydrated bitch 
what u got some shit to say
im not healthy and i know that
im not healthy and i love that
liqour pouring and i felt that
done a lot of t breaks and i failed em

i been on my shit on my drink
i been fucking up these cups
im a lot im a cunt
why the fuck u acting tough
its enough its enough its enough enough enough 
im smoking stem in this bitch and im feeling awful rough 

Yuh huh I'm a wizard with these mixers
I make several drinks in a night I'm feeling shitfaced
Hopping on a beat from my bro I call em brethren 
Hit me for a sesh and I send that cash and it's no question

I got fuck all followers 
But prods still offer me beats
I get on these beats 
And turn into a beast
I'm all up in these sheets
And blood all up on these sheets
She gon punch me in the face and it gon make me cream

Maybe it's fueled by the substance
Who really gives a fuck
Know that I'm in my shit
Know that I'm going hard
Disrespect my name
And run it thru the dirt
I don't give a shit
Just know u fucked me first
Hold up hold up
Rum gonna fuel this hold up
Roll up roll out
Transformers shit we all out
im smoking on gas out the bag now
she wanna fuck i say not now
she press against my pants and i take a shower to go and calm down

i get sick of people easily
but i dont mind ur company
wont u stay the night with me
take it to the level that u want to 
if im being honest i just really wanna please u

enough. (viera x jolst)

Little Games (Prod. Holyvexy)

[+] there's a mirror in my living room...
* featuring @pinkcig + @emofruits * produced by @jolst*

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reflections

reflections (feat. pink cig + emo fruits) [prod. jolst]

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https://soundcloud.com/xweepings
https://soundcloud.com/imgeist
https://soundcloud.com/saphir1996

Girl I put my trust in you but the time we spent just left me bruised
when I lost my grip I lost you too
Now i’m by myself tryna start a new
No I won’t change for nobody 
I been lifting up my spirts stackin up my money
I be pourin out these spirits til im feelin funny
Drown these thoughts from the past with a glass and a smoke
The words that you spoke
i thought that you meant them
Lied to my face and you forgot to mention
You would leave me for a better man
Please take me away from this life and this strife I don’t wanna stand

Take me away
Don’t change for nobody
Still feel the pain
But I count my money
Won’t let me share my words
Feeling just like a curse
I’m spitting on my verse
Set in stone like a hearse
No
But I dont care if u call
Cause im still barely breathing 
i 2 step but I wont fall
i guess these looks could be deceiving

alright that’s enough  
act so tough
till it’s time to take the blame 
and sure, i’ll show up 
but i’m walking right out 
if they don’t know my name 

oh love you know i’d never change 
i’ve grown so much 
been carved by pain 
i’ve bled every song out my veins 
you’re all just copies of the same 
 
i can’t afford to trust 
its set in stone 
so leave it love 
it’s all but said and done 
but u know i wont change my ways 
i go   
i drive with my ego 
it always brings me home 
so i’m just fine alone

Take me away
Don’t change for nobody
Still feel the pain
But I count my money
Won’t let me share my words
Feeling just like a curse
I’m spitting on my verse
Set in stone like a hearse
No
But I dont care if u call
Cause im still barely breathing 
i 2 step but I wont fall
i guess these looks could be deceiving

I gotta save myself from ever going backwards
Know some people in my past that were more like actors
I didn't know my value, But now I've got standards
Got no time for chit chat; I dont like to banter 
I won't change myself for a soul in this life
I'm gon chase my goals, feel the fire in my eyes
Fuck a fake bitch fill your head with lies
The prettiest of eyes is a snake in disguise

take me away w/ Weepings, I'm Geist & Saphir (p. JOLLY WRLD x Weepings)

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/yunnygoldz

Lyrics:
She's got a dress made of leaves, blood dripping
Pentagram occultic circle; not Christian
She's got tricks up her sleeve; coalition
Candle lit Forest meeting tradition

Blood Chants and that girl sprouts trees as limbs
Eyes glow green, Got bark as skin
Hear the crows in the distance
Sunset dims
Dark engulfs the forest rims
But the ritual still bleeding light
Forest hit with blight
That girl seeps the life out these nature sprites
Evil spirits swirl around
This ain't the work of Christ
Got to take the chance to leave before she takes my life

She's got a dress made of leaves, blood dripping
Pentagram occultic circle; not Christian
She's got tricks up her sleeve; coalition
Candle lit Forest meeting tradition

Well I ran when I could
Made my way out the woods
Left without a fight, still got thorns in my foot
Didn't dip out empty handed, I had stolen her book
Flip through all the pages, Learn the knowledge I took

The Ritual [prod. yunny goldz]

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I’m sorry that I told you I was alright
I don’t want you to think that I’m not ok
But I thought when I got older I’d have peace of mind
Now I’m 24 and I still don’t feel right.

I’m anxious and so lost without you
Hide myself but what can you do
When depression always finds you
When that monster lives inside you

I don’t wanna be alone
The sun sets when you go
This world is dark and so cold
I can’t be here on my own
Please stay the night
Bring back your light
Don’t you give up on me
Just one more time
Don’t say goodbye 
Don’t take your love from me

Don't take away your love from me
Time's flying by
It's a new year at the blink of an eye
Still at the same spot
Still at the same job
It's like I didn't even try
Truthfully struggling with getting by
Double my dose and pretend that I'm fine
It's all in my mind
But I'm not alright
I got the blood on my hands
My own dreams I smite, in the pale moonlight
I gave myself to you
You ain't appreciate my time when i was there for you
But still I'd take you back in a second
I guess I never really learned my fucking lesson

I don’t wanna be alone
The sun sets when you go
This world is dark and so cold
I can’t be here on my own
Please stay the night
Bring back your light
Don’t you give up on me
Just one more time
Don’t say goodbye 
Don’t take your love from me

Don't take away your love from me
Baby girl where did you go
You left me here all alone
You were my light, now I'm in the dark
Where'd I go wrong I don't know
(Where'd I go wrong I don't know)
(Maybe I'm better alone)

DARK WORLD w/ Seth Witcher & Weepings (p. JOLLY WRLD x Weepings)

Love hurts.

Lyrics:
And I know you miss them too; Reminisce about me and you
Ohhhhhh
And baby I still think back to when you held my hand
Oh no what happened to our plans
We carved our names into the sand
But the waves came crashing over us
With little time to adjust
Fearful of commitment; Tender love felt like handcuffs
I'm sorry I turned distant
I wish that things were different
But if you called my phone I would answer in an instant

Girl I'm not saying that that I want you back
I just miss the things we had
And I know you miss them too; Reminisce about me and you
Yes I know I have to let go of the past, why can't things be everlasting
Am I alright alone? I don't know
I'm still grasping ... the fact that I may never see you again
The fact that you left me with scars to mend
The fact that there is no more time to spend
The fact that our relationship's at an end

We threw everything we've built out the window
No one taught me how to cope when I feel low
So I'm fucking up my lungs with this indo
And I'm breaking all my bones
Must relearn to be alone
But remember you were home

Girl I'm not saying that that I want you back
I just miss the things we had
And I know you miss them too; Reminisce about me and you
Yes I know I have to let go of the past, why can't things be everlasting
Am I alright alone? I don't know I'm still grasping

Now we are on our separate paths ... God I hope our paths cross again
But for now this is the end of our story
There was a time when you calmed the waves for me
But without you girl; It's back to being stormy

why can't things be everlasting? [prod. neverforever]

lyrics⬇️
crushing the thoughts that been breaking me down
how could i write so much and you never liked my sound
voluntarily always around
but now ur making me feel a way so i gotta get out

lie on the cold ground
duplicate that feeling that you thought you found
maybe this my chance maybe right now
yea or I’ll suffocate in advance if i dont fight it out
even lookin at these plants i i feel like i dont amount 
to all the beauty that they hold cuz i cant even count all the times that i would fold at the fault of my mouth
even when i promised everyone it wouldn’t go south

late gigs knowing that you wont be there

paint a pictire for me knowing that i will not fear

yea cuz i wont breathe ur judgy person air
for once it might be nice to be all the way out your hair

ill push back i dont like it when it feel like that

no crash pad when im falling i fall down hard flat
i dont even have the energy to feel bad
i dont see anyone who wanted a rematch
i been pushin in my memories like way back
Yea u dont want anything like this you want a price tag
money dont mean anything if you cant even buy that 
promise youd be runnin from me if you knew what i had

i live i laugh
but i dont wanna use the stuff that hurts the people most
wait until the night pass
then ill stay low
cuz thats the way that itll last

(Weepings)

We've been on and off like every other week I fucking swear
Girl you got me crashing out; You got me growing out my hair
I'm doing all these drugs to pretend like I don't care ...
But I do too much
Girl I know you fucked him I feel nauseous but I still miss your touch 
Smoking on some potent pop some oxy till my brain turn dust
I'm bleeding out my back I'm just your toy and my heart soft like plush
A puppet on your string an I will wait for you to treat me such
~
Cuz if the pain I feel is cause by your hands I don't mind
I showed you my darkest parts and you left me behind
Who knew that my love for you would leave me feeling blind
Girl no matter where I go you're still stuck in my mind
~
And flashback to the moment that I met you
Even then I knew I cannot forget you
I remember how you looked at me the night I loved you
But now I fear I'm falling short
Back and forth, every time we speak it feels like we in court
God it hurts, Knowing that the girl I love left me in dirt
What am I holding onto still, like bro ... that hoe left me first
I could never trust another soul, like I trusted you
I still got love for you
I wish you loved me too
Girl honestly I can't see my future with another fucking person in this life

voluntarily w/ Weepings (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

Ignorance And Irrelevance

only

"you don't know my name but you take up my mind"
happy valentines day i guess
________________________
(LYRICS)
i do the same shit everyday
someone please kill me, please take me away
sit in my room all day and decay
wishing that this could all go away

theres only one thing that ties me down
that gives me a smile in this world of frowns

you don't know who you are, and that is the problem
making me sink down straight to the bottom
all day and all night, your still on my mind
you don't know my name but you take up my mind

i do the same shit everyday
someone please kill me, please take me away
sit in my room all day and decay
wishing that this could all go away
x2

plunder my heart (Prod. F U S I O N)

"i don't even have words to describe, the feeling that i get when i look into your eyes."

___________________________________________________________________
[hook]
all alone again
rolling the blunt, its half past ten
sitting alone
drown in my sorrow
i just hope that I wont wake tommorow
x2

[verse 1]
im just hoping that i wont wake tommorrow
said i loved ya cause you shine bright like apollo
honestly your the only thing i like
cause this motherfucking world makes me grip my fucking knife.

all alone in this world just watch me bleed
shawty said she love me, whats it mean to me?
whats it mean to you?
cause you dont fucking love me like you used to do
and honestly that shit fucking hurts
got me losing it got me rolling round in dirt
30 puffs just to take away the hurt
i just said i love you, man shit just hurts
this shit just hurts yuh

[verse 2]
all alone in my room
no one hits up my line
someone please kill me im wasting my time
crying all day, sleeping all night
im so useless, i cant fucking fight
the feelings that i get when i look at your face
your so divine make me melt in my place
i dont even have words to describe, the feeling that i get when i look into your eyes
but now im

[hook]
all alone again
rolling the blunt, its half past ten
sitting alone
drown in my sorrow
i just hope that I wont wake tomorrow

all alone again. (Prod. TREETIME)

"i'm so desolated from all that's around me"
______________________________________________________
[verse 1]
they always see me walking alone but don't join me
there's nobody hitting up my phone, just ignore me
sorry that i wasted your time, y'all deplore me
i'm so fucking broken inside, don't restore me
i'm so desolated from all that's around me
all my concentration goes into being happy
i'm so fucking done with this world just end me
laying so contently in the grave i envy

[chorus]
honestly, i'm addicted to the pain
i see no other way
lost inside my ways
roll another joint 
take another hit
its temporary fix
until the pain fucking inflicts

[verse 2]
i'm just so tired of sleeping all day, crying all night I do this every day
got the weed sparkin, throat dry like my phone, fucked up my life now i am all alone
talking bout loneliness? I got the belt
fix up my brain and then send me to hell
i think my sanity might just dispel
i think my anger just makes me rebel
~
wonder why i'm so weak
look into your eyes and i'm feeling so empty
you said that you like me why the fuck you gotta tempt me
i'll do this alone who the fuck said you could help me

[chorus]
honestly, i'm addicted to the pain
i see no other way
lost inside my ways
roll another joint 
take another hit
its temporary fix
until the pain fucking inflicts

[verse 2]
 (Slowed)
i'm just so tired of sleeping all day, crying all night I do this every day
got the weed sparkin, throat dry like my phone, fucked up my life now i am all alone
talking bout loneliness? I got the belt
fix up my brain and then send me to hell
i think my sanity might just dispel
i think my anger just makes me rebel

Spine (Ft. Weepings & Yokai Dreams) [Prod. Rajaste & sxber]

Ekeon