weepings

Ignorance And Irrelevance

only

"you don't know my name but you take up my mind"
happy valentines day i guess
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(LYRICS)
i do the same shit everyday
someone please kill me, please take me away
sit in my room all day and decay
wishing that this could all go away

theres only one thing that ties me down
that gives me a smile in this world of frowns

you don't know who you are, and that is the problem
making me sink down straight to the bottom
all day and all night, your still on my mind
you don't know my name but you take up my mind

i do the same shit everyday
someone please kill me, please take me away
sit in my room all day and decay
wishing that this could all go away
x2

plunder my heart (Prod. F U S I O N)

"i don't even have words to describe, the feeling that i get when i look into your eyes."

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[hook]
all alone again
rolling the blunt, its half past ten
sitting alone
drown in my sorrow
i just hope that I wont wake tommorow
x2

[verse 1]
im just hoping that i wont wake tommorrow
said i loved ya cause you shine bright like apollo
honestly your the only thing i like
cause this motherfucking world makes me grip my fucking knife.

all alone in this world just watch me bleed
shawty said she love me, whats it mean to me?
whats it mean to you?
cause you dont fucking love me like you used to do
and honestly that shit fucking hurts
got me losing it got me rolling round in dirt
30 puffs just to take away the hurt
i just said i love you, man shit just hurts
this shit just hurts yuh

[verse 2]
all alone in my room
no one hits up my line
someone please kill me im wasting my time
crying all day, sleeping all night
im so useless, i cant fucking fight
the feelings that i get when i look at your face
your so divine make me melt in my place
i dont even have words to describe, the feeling that i get when i look into your eyes
but now im

[hook]
all alone again
rolling the blunt, its half past ten
sitting alone
drown in my sorrow
i just hope that I wont wake tomorrow

all alone again. (Prod. TREETIME)

"i'm so desolated from all that's around me"
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[verse 1]
they always see me walking alone but don't join me
there's nobody hitting up my phone, just ignore me
sorry that i wasted your time, y'all deplore me
i'm so fucking broken inside, don't restore me
i'm so desolated from all that's around me
all my concentration goes into being happy
i'm so fucking done with this world just end me
laying so contently in the grave i envy

[chorus]
honestly, i'm addicted to the pain
i see no other way
lost inside my ways
roll another joint 
take another hit
its temporary fix
until the pain fucking inflicts

[verse 2]
i'm just so tired of sleeping all day, crying all night I do this every day
got the weed sparkin, throat dry like my phone, fucked up my life now i am all alone
talking bout loneliness? I got the belt
fix up my brain and then send me to hell
i think my sanity might just dispel
i think my anger just makes me rebel
~
wonder why i'm so weak
look into your eyes and i'm feeling so empty
you said that you like me why the fuck you gotta tempt me
i'll do this alone who the fuck said you could help me

[chorus]
honestly, i'm addicted to the pain
i see no other way
lost inside my ways
roll another joint 
take another hit
its temporary fix
until the pain fucking inflicts

[verse 2]
 (Slowed)
i'm just so tired of sleeping all day, crying all night I do this every day
got the weed sparkin, throat dry like my phone, fucked up my life now i am all alone
talking bout loneliness? I got the belt
fix up my brain and then send me to hell
i think my sanity might just dispel
i think my anger just makes me rebel

addicted to the pain (Prod. Yusei)

"being happy's not for me"

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Lyrics:
[hook]
fuck it up, i always fuck it up
thats why i always smoke til the suns up
thats why i always run from the troubles
thats why i always cry when i see couples
x2

[verse 1]
being happy's not for me,  i wont fucking lie i feel like no one cares for me
reaching out so desperately, getting attention but that attention's  not for me 
i see
all alone again, with my thoughts in my head
i think i'd rather be dead, but hope engulfs me instead
but that hope don't set me free, hope just makes it worse i swear it makes me dread to be
 
[bridge]
sitting oh so calmly as the rain falls down
thinking about you as i say out loud
oh how i miss you, i want you back in my life
but i fucked it all up one to many times

[hook]

fuck it up, i always fuck it up

thats why i always smoke til the suns up

thats why i always run from the troubles

thats why i always cry when i see couples

x2

fuck it up (prod. TREETIME)

"but now that i have the taste of love in my mouth
i won't ever give up on you"

why wont you love me? (prod. TreeTime)
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lyrics:

[hook 1]
always thinking bout you when i'm all alone
vision getting blurry just like the unknown
i cant fucking think when im all alone
i cant fucking think when im all alone

[verse 1]
when im with you, you make me all happy, make me all happy
but now that im alone i feel so fucking crappy, feel so fucking crappy
~
but now that i have the taste of love in my mouth
i won't ever give up on you, till i'm dead from self
harm that i might inflict on myself if you leave me
i can't fight these feelings no more, please answer me

[bridge]
please answer me, please pick up your phone, please answer me, please dont leave me alone
x2

[hook 2]
always thinking bout you when i'm all alone
vision getting blurry just like the unknown
i cant fucking think when im all alone
i cant fucking think when im all alone

[verse 2]
i just want to die, say this everynight
trapped inside my mind, feelings might ignite
fear from deep inside
trapped inside my room, i swear its my tomb
tulip flowers bloom, all my love for you
causes fucking gloom, this might be my doom
fucked up in the head, i'd rather be dead
needle in the thread, come pull me instead
so I stay undead, end feelings I dread
i cant take no more, its harder than before
blood all on the floor, but they ignore

[hook 3]

always thinking bout you when i'm all alone
vision getting blurry just like the unknown
i cant fucking think when im all alone
i cant fucking think when im all alone

why wont you love me? [prod. TREETIME]

[verse 1]
i dont think you get it
life changing so fast, u wit it?
stuck it the past now forget it
take one more step and your dead its
unfortunate how the storys fold out
heroines use heroin to fade out
bury themselves with the dough
so scared of letting it go
let it all go
just fade away
let the light take you to the better days
days come and go and you still there sit all alone
get the fuck off your phone, open your eyes
travel the globe, consume something that isn't chemical

[Bridge]
take a step back, is it all ethical?
fucked up my life and i have to let go

[Chorus]
I right or am I wrong to say
every single person will just run away
watch the people that wallow in their shit
not one of them will stand up and submit

anesthetized [prod. misery]

[chorus]
im looking at the nightsky
and taking in the sight of stars
i hope this aint the last time
cause im sensing us growing far
baby your my superstar

[bridge]
im sorry for everything i fucked up, im so fucked up now
how about now we talk it all out missing my life without you with me

[verse 1]
I want to be noticed i want to be claimed
if you havent heard then ill say it again 
wanting attention is human instinct
if you think i care bout you what the fuck u think

[bridge extended]
im sorry for everything i fucked up, im so fucked up now
how about now we talk it all out missing my life without you with me
asking myself how the fuck im gon get help for the life i have now, are you with me?


[chorus]
im looking at the nightsky
and taking in the sight of stars
i hope this aint the last time
cause im sensing us growing far
baby your my superstar

superstar [prod. misery]

it's all gone ft. soyboy [prod zeeky]
soyboy: https://soundcloud.com/prodsoyboy
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lyrics

[hook - weepings]
She's a piece of work, Artwork that is so perfect I get
nervous and nauseous from the sights of it
I can no longer fight when i'm dying within
x2

[verse 1 - soyboy]
my mind is telling me to move on
but i don't know if i want to move on
the high im chasing, is just time thats wasted
and when you think you have it, it's all gone
it's all gone
it's all gone
it's all gone
it's all gone

[hook]
She's a piece of work, Artwork that is so perfect I get
nervous and nauseous from the sights of it
I can no longer fight when i'm dying within
x2

[outro - soyboy]
and i will wait for hours at your house tonight
blindly searching for a sign you're all right
i just don't have it in me to move on
i just don't have it in me to move on

it's all gone ft. soyboy [prod zeeky]

𝔫𝔲𝔪𝔟 𝔞𝔩𝔩 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔭𝔞𝔦𝔫 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥 𝔢𝔩𝔢𝔠𝔱𝔯𝔦𝔠 𝔤𝔲𝔦𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔰
ℑ 𝔭𝔦𝔠𝓴 𝔞𝔴𝔞𝔶 𝔭𝔯𝔬𝔟𝔩𝔢𝔪𝔰 𝔴𝔥𝔦𝔩𝔢 𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔰𝔢 𝔰𝔬𝔫𝔤𝔰
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lyrics

[verse 1]
hope you can hear what i'm speaking out now,
how can i erase all the sadness inside
good question you just need to realize
that nothing is perfect nobody deserves all the pain
smoke just to numb it all, blood rush to brain
nothings impossible go and obtain it
do whats seen fit and and with constant maintaing
it is possible to get what your craving, fucking amazing

[verse 2]
its been a long journey
I don't want to act like it hasn't been hard
numb all the pain with electric guitars
I pick away problems while singing these songs
i just want to say you can do what you want if you just see it all through
your life decisions are all up to you
if you don't get the outcome you wanted, pursue

hope [prod. Fallen Leaves]

TataClique: https://soundcloud.com/tata_clique 

"𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓫𝓮 𝓲'𝓵𝓵 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓲𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓭, 𝓹𝓲𝓬𝓴 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓹𝓲𝓹𝓮 𝓾𝓹 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓭𝓮𝓬𝓲𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓮"
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[verse 1]
feeling invincible when I puff chemicals
numb out the pain that depression caused
no matter how hard i look cant find the cause, all answers I disregard
played with occam's razor now i am scarred
took away the one thing that kept me charged, helped me see light when it was all dark
whats it matter to ya hide your remarks

[chorus]
i dont want to be like this everyday
i pack my bags and head back home, i cant find my way
was it a left or was it a right, nothing to do to make it all right
losing the hope to go out and fight
i just found what i lost but im dying in spite

[verse 2]
im staring at the moonlight and watching stars at night
the sky gives me such comfort, puts my problems in sight
so if i need some more answers, ill find them in the shadows
i aint walking through those shallows, blighten fingers that write

[bridge]
i need to solve all my problems, nobody else gonna solve them for me
honestly i want to leave, this relationship ain't working for me
everyone saying dont pick up the phone, but im stupid and all fucking alone
maybe i'll leave it to weed, pick the pipe up and decisions are free

[chorus]
i dont want to be like this everyday
i pack my bags and head back home, i cant find my way
was it a left or was it a right, nothing to do to make it all right
losing the hope to go out and fight
i just found what i lost but im dying in spite

i don't want to be like this [prod. TataClique]

[hook]
asking myself are you really worth it?
going through shit i dont wanna act quick
ponder decisions so long while im stoned
i just wanna go home i dont answer the phone
x2

[verse 1]
so long now
get the fuck out my face, im gone now
dreams vs reality waiting for her is my destiny
bi polar with the shit, cannot find a bitch that can satisfy my dick
waiting all alone while im getting so damn stoned 
cause i need to fill the void that was caused by that chick

[hook]
asking myself are you really worth it?
going through shit i dont wanna act quick
ponder decisions so long while im stoned
i just wanna go home i dont answer the phone
x2

[verse 2]
open your eyes
reach past the stars, the limits not the sky
looking for you but you're still in disquise
switch out the mask for each friend, it is lies
there it all lies blood and the gore from that bitches demise
hate everything that isn't a surprise
she kept inside all, of her secrets that she held so tight

[hook]
asking myself are you really worth it?
going through shit i dont wanna act quick
ponder decisions so long while im stoned
i just wanna go home i dont answer the phone
x2

are you really worth it [prod. TreeTime]

[hook]
all these drugs gonna put me in a coffin
when im smoking all these blunts I aint coughin
yes my fuckin mind you be crossin
thinkin bout you all the time when im tossing
x2

[verse 1]
n turing at night, turn off the light meet where darkness resides
dont got the hope to continue to fight my fear of failure is my demise out of sight
corners untapped in my brain  lysergic acid tap into again
bring out the worst of me and all my friends
forced to fix my problems and to transcend
no more pretending
its never-ending 
think about life when im fucking descending

[bridge]
its just so hard to push on
thats why im singing these songs

[hook]
all these drugs gonna put me in a coffin
when im smoking all these blunts I aint coughin
yes my fuckin mind you be crossin
thinkin bout you all the time when im tossing
x2

[outro]
aint got the time in the day, to fix all my problems might as well decay
smoking all day, sit in my room its my tomb as they say

Coffin (Prod. Xtravulous)

[hook]
you got me thrown 
say what you want and then leave me alone
calling my phone
answer and act like im not even home
might just get stoned
regret the carcinogens i have blown
dont wanna know
fucked up my life and i cannot reload

[verse 1]
lately my minds been a mess
pack bowls just to lighten the stress
yes, figured one day i'd be blessed
anxiety melt away with the stress 
waiting till the day I cannot suppress
feelings cause ill be the one dying next
hope to see you will see my side thats best
learn to love and deal with all of the stress

[bridge]
I change my mind to often 
better off laying in coffin
indecisive that's the price of wanting everything to change
but i dont know what I to keep the same
its so hard hating everything
better off without a wedding ring
better off not seeing anything
dont think i can keep on carrying

[hook]
you got me thrown 
say what you want and then leave me alone
calling my phone
answer and act like im not even home
might just get stoned
regret the carcinogens i have blown
dont wanna know
fucked up my life and i cannot reload
x3

lately my minds been a mess (prod. Xtravulous X TundraBeats)

should have posted this when i was happy :( too late.

[verse 1]
never say that i fear for my death
but honestly the fear of the unknown gets me so stressed
finally in a place in life,
where i can step out of my house and sense no strife
I am alone but not getting stoned, i've lost so much weight now im feeling like stone
bad to the bone but soft on the inside like cherry dipped cone

[hook]
finally i can say im happy
dress clean but my hair so nappy
finally i can say im happy
no longer do i feel so sappy
x2

[verse 2]
story's not done pursue my dreams, my journey's just begun
hoping that you will tune in till its done
rise up so fast like a bullet from gun
i do not care, if you think i wont make it beware
weepings rise up from the bottom like stairs 
and i will not give up till im make my way there
im self aware, im not the best but theres time you can spare
my last girl said that I really dont care cause i've been making music stead of them repairs
and you'll find that i find no time to make those prayers

[hook]
finally i can say im happy
dress clean but my hair so nappy
finally i can say im happy
no longer do i feel so sappy
x1

happy [prod. brayden potts]

soyboy: https://soundcloud.com/prodsoyboy

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lyrics:
[chorus - weepings]
lookin at my doormat
wishing that you'd come back
I know I aint all that come on
lookin at the night sky
baby it is all right
i know that you wanna go home
but stick it out
you dont really know me like i know myself
I promise you im better than you think I am
i am here forever this aint no scam

[verse 1 - weepings]
smoked up now im tipsy
I know i am better for you baby
the weather its been wetter lately
but when we are together you'll save me
running out of time and im feeling so blind
im so fucked up in the mind
i cant do this all the time
gotta keep my state of mind
happily defined
so im not fucking confined

[verse 2 - weepings]
running away from my problems
when will i finally solve them
just give me the answer to every single question i have
and im glad that you stuck around so long
i knew this bond was strong
but this not elastic
it is like plastic
stretch and it breaks just like this song

[verse 3 - soyboy]
and id like to think that i have what it takes to keep on solid ground when everything around me breaks.
and i took account of all the things that i could try to save
but in the end you just push me away.
dont push me away, no

[verse 4 - soyboy]
Running away from my problems 
when will i finally solve them
piling up on me like leaves in your front yard in autumn
and thats just the way life is, you said to me i think you meant it well.
and i dont want to wake up even when im not dreaming, my minds full of demons
yeah im so tired all the time, from the war inside my mind
yeah im so tired all the time yeah im so tired all the time yeah

[chorus - weepings]
lookin at my doormat
wishing that you'd come back
I know I aint all that come on
lookin at the night sky
baby it is all right
i know that you wanna go home
but stick it out
you dont really know me like i know myself
I promise you im better than you think I am
i am here forever this aint no scam

running away from my problems ft. soyboy [prod. born hero]

TataClique: https://soundcloud.com/tata_clique

"𝕴 𝖆𝖑𝖜𝖆𝖞𝖘 𝖉𝖔 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖙𝖔 𝖒𝖞𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋, 𝖊𝖒𝖕𝖙𝖞 𝖑𝖎𝖖𝖚𝖔𝖗 𝖇𝖔𝖙𝖙𝖑𝖊𝖘 𝖏𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝖘𝖎𝖙𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖔𝖓 𝖒𝖞 𝖘𝖍𝖊𝖑𝖋"

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Lyrics:
[chorus]
do a line wit a bitch, she so bad
fall asleep on the come down next to her in my bed
i dont really want the address, come over fuck and were done its
so sad my trust is so bad, we will only get hurt in the end

[verse 1]
I always do this to myself, empty liquor bottles just sitting on my shelf
flush away my demons but i flush away all else that i hold dear, and to be clear i need some fucking help

[chorus]
do a line wit a bitch, she so bad
fall asleep on the come down next to her in my bed
i dont really want the address, come over fuck and were done its
so sad my trust is so bad, we will only get hurt in the end

[verse]
everything so complicated 
nothing in my vision i love, all the space is vacant
fill my heart with chemicals, its like i'm on vacation
so sorry if you're waiting on me, you have to be patient

[bridge]
I need to stop my fucking self
my way of coping is detrimental to my health

[chorus SLOWED]
do a line wit a bitch, she so bad
fall asleep on the come down next to her in my bed
i dont really want the address, come over fuck and were done its
so sad my trust is so bad, we will only get hurt in the end

we will only get hurt in the end [prod. TataClique]

[chorus]
call you up on the house phone
ask how you've been, you ignore and your gone 
wanted to leave one more message, sorry for all the things i have done wrong
stop acting so serious, left for one week now i'm delirious
things have gone in the path of life, left me for him it renewed our strife

[bridge]
why'd i expect you to wait so long
express my anger all in this song
fucked it all up i knew im wrong
sorry for all that i have done

[verse 1]
breathing in chemical smoke, she called my phone I wont answer it, nope
seems now the tables have turned, now you are chasing me, relationship is adjourned.
sorry for things in the past I 
see through your plastic now as i remissness back
flash to the times where we'd meet in pitch black, kiss at the park and then make our way back.
wish i saw the fucking knife in my back
wish I saw through your psych-otic act
how the fuck could i have ever loved that

[chorus]
call you up on the house phone
ask how you've been, you ignore and your gone 
wanted to leave one more message, sorry for all the things i have done wrong
stop acting so serious, left for one week now i'm delirious
things have gone in the path of life, left me for him it renewed our strife

deprived [prod. drippy]

[chorus]
ohhh i've been feelin down
pick my head up off the ground
I dont want to keep on moving fowards
I got no words, I've been drowned

[verse 1]
i've been lookin out the window
feeling anxious, im so thankless, yes i've been low
light the blunt, puffin til i feel the inflow
who you think i am, of course im smokin indo

[bridge]
who you want me to be?
everone's sending mixxed signals to me
I sit back and watch as i fall to despair
I drown in my feelings, and nobody(nobody) cares

[verse 2]
see the picture in your locket
taken of the time we spent in august
now your with another guy, im so lost its
hard to move on, drinking till I have to vomit
always thinking bout the past now
3 months gone, its moving to fast now
numb the pain with hash till i pass out
love the feeling it creates when i just fucking blackout

[chorus]
ohhh i've been feelin down
pick my head up off the ground
I dont want to keep on moving fowards
I got no words, I've been drowned

weepings

Yog Soth