november playlist part 4

(wraith)
You called it
I managed to make it worse
I guess I never learn
I guess I never learn
My problems
Bounce around my head in words
A repeating verse
All I’ve ever heard

I’m just tryna keep my head above the fucking water
I’m fodder, sorry father, another goner, a bother

Everything I speak about
you swear is in my head
Rewrite everything I said
Just to spin it into weapons
I’m feeling reckless
All on the offense
None to the caution
Hell with defenses

You called it
I managed to make it worse
I guess I never learn
I guess I never learn
My problems
Bounce around my head in words
A repeating verse
All I’ve ever heard

(grace horn)
you didnt want me at my worst
so you dont deserve me at my best
or even when im mediocre
i dont wanna spend another day sober
but
drinking the pain away never did work
for me so im puffing between every breath
maybe its me cuz im fucked in the head
but maybe its you cuz im trying my best

gettin better
spent years in this weathered
old shell of a body
im torn and im tethered to earth

bury me 6 feet beneath all the dirt
frequent assumptions that stick to the worst

if i had the chance to run it back then i would take the lead and run it differently
and ive been slowly goin goin thru the motions no emotions stick it to the mission please
im too lethal toxic can u step away do not approach come back whenever tensions eased
you could get a wrench socket power drill and still cant find a single point in fixin me uhohh

i tried to talk to you
but confrontation never works
i guess ill eat my words
before you eat me first

still waters of
corahbeiy have caused the dearth
the plague wiped out our fertile
ground and killed the birth

tethered w/ grace horn (dash)

w/ @breckenford
produced by cxrter & chrismarek
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(brecken)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
what i been workin for if i can't ever feel like its allowed
i been fighting just to sleep
got me foldin’ all my sheets
i swear i don't feel like me
why’d they wonder why i leave
i tell them this everyday, but they still seem like its a scheme
i don't wanna feel like this 
i swear that's up in my dreams

(will i get there?)

please god, tell me that it's gon be over soon
everyday i get home, and i don't wanna move
every bone in my body feels like it’s been bruised
and i can't take this no more, but lowkey it's been a mood
that i been stuck up in so long that i can’t attempt to prove
no more lies about the the way that i hope i'll be feeling soon
i promise that i’mma change every single thing overdue
nevermind the fact that i can't even speak on what i do

i’m tryna get to sleep without waking up spinning in my room
i know you hate it when i tell you what i did, but it’s all true
i can't go outside to take a walk without thinking of you
yea maybe that's just what i’ll do
i can't tell you that love life is like everything i knew
if i gotta act like everythings okay, then it's not cool
i just wanna be myself when i'm around somebody new
(yea talkin about you)
it’s not cool when you act like that
and if i had the chance again i would never go back
I know it's hard to believe from what i did in my past
but lemme open up the curtains tell you everything i lack
it's a lot
sit back relax
lemme tell you how i feel about my past

street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em (proud)
street lights, green lights 
they been making me wanna get out
i can't take it no more
i feel like i'll never make em proud
i can't even choose my own outfit, it’s navy blue
take off neon colored t shirts every night before i snooze
and that's what i been used to 
how i take off my shoes
it must be time to let loose
of what i do

everything i do (cxrter x chrismarek)

prod. michael harrison

lyrics

cause i dont know if i was ever someone u wanted
hope u stare into my eyes realize that im not fine would you cry if i off it
late night drives with the windows down cant remember when i lost it
been in my head so long would you miss me once I’m gone stay calm when the shock hits

am i worth saving
reflection in the mirror says he hates me
a shell of me walks through life bravely
knowing how brittle ive been lately
its crazy
i dont cry, its just to tiring
i wont lie, its eating every part of me
cause i tried, but failing too damaging
now i shy, at the thought of someone loving me

cause i dont know if i was ever someone u wanted
hope u stare into my eyes realize that im not fine would you cry if i off it
late night drives with the windows down cant remember when i lost it
been in my head so long would you miss me once I’m gone stay calm when the shock hits

brittle (michael harrison)

thank you for listening
thank you for being here

prodby @chillsebs

though at war, he's been indoors, the body sore, and torn, and dormant
if i don't wanna talk about it, least i'm being honest
thorns of those adored remain accomplice to the hardship
he's always fallen short of pulling swords from out the garden
the polishing of floors becomes reflective that he's tarnished
back it up before the words contort from what i wanted
evenings on a porch he's never bore of taking part in
endorsement of that orange supports the forging of despondence

time clots when you have the stopwatch break
i won't be disappointed if you show up late
the kettles had been settled in support of the weight
his temple thus embezzled of it's coriander brain

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

split at the waist, forced to guard, stood in place
and every morning that breaks subjects his soul to ablaze
he'd prefer being burnt to a pile of sage,
where the ache in the air is relieved of it's grave

missing targets that he really shouldn't
uncompressed when melodies are fluid
stake it like it's weak against the turmeric
beings want his blood for their consuming
puppet felt the tug and pull of nothing
ponders why and how he's always running
shit had changed with loss and gain of loving
mercy at the gravity of what is

i really think i'mma erode, the moment i've struck any gold, aye
just let me go, just let me go, you do not know me
hope is a torturous road, but gonna see where it goes, babe
she left me alone, now nobody knows
absent of warning

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

pendragon (chill sebs x poppy ozu)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

lyrics

I feel like the dirt
I question my worth
I wear and I tear
My favorite shirt
I hope that I can
She thinks I’m the man
I’m letting her down and
I feel like the worst

No it ain’t safe to say yet
Hung up on yesterday its
Still in my head
I’m sorry 
Hate when I’m so mistaken
Trying to savor faces 
Hoping you don’t replace me
I can do better baby
I can do better maybe

Maybe heavens worth the tests
But fuck, this smith and wesson
Has a way for testing what is next
Swallow my breath
I put the world in my hands
I feel like a mess
But she swears I’m the man
I’m doing my best
At least as well as I can
I barely stand
The fucking shell that I am

The Man (prod. wraithontheporch)

lyrics

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere

life, keeps fucking me over like left and right
man sometimes i just wanna fuckin die 
i waste my time inside
i barely show my face
i feel so out of place
like an alien up in space
man i just want a taste of a normal life

like how’s i supposed to know
u were gonna go
a target placed on me it’s like u were aiming for my throat
throat, mine closed up i couldn’t say no more
fuck i think i passed out and smacked my head upon the floor

what was i fuckin thinkin huh
love blinded me and it’s obvious 
holdin back tears and it’s bad for us
i’m done
if i can’t count on u
then, then what would u have me do?

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere (2x)

typical (sorrowbringer)

ANGELCORE

prolly a one off but been listening to ericdoa recently n wanted to try somethin similar
couple weeks off for a halloween based drop but better late than never

o and i got the pass from multiple bi/gay homies <3

Lyrics:

she tryna get chased far 
in a scream mask
i'm like take a second 
you don't mean that
she on her 41st dude
like a sea bass
lookin at me for next (tf?????)
"where the cream at"
he heard the shit i'm droppin and quickly started his suckin up
no go on tell me what you think i can take it u little pussy fuck
smash bros in the basement ur weird for maining jigglypuff
rather watch a movie in a blanket w a girl i love

spark it up
pass the blunt
i can never do enough
she tryna get her hand down my pants but imma pry it off
her guy is kinda upset
he's a little quick to punch
lay him out
calm him down
it's not me who's fucking up

yuh

it's not me who's fucking up
slow down
hoe bag 
this dick up for no grabs
find you unappealing you would think I was a whole ***
monogamous as fuck check my discog if you don't know that
draw a line yea i bet you'll fuckin toe that
repeat a bar like the shit you said was all that
he can't hit what i do like it's kovaak's
tistic like i'm chris chan 
where my girl at

she tryna get chased far 
in a scream mask
i'm like take a second 
you don't mean that
she on her 41st dude
like a sea bass
lookin at me for next (tf?????)
"where the cream at"
he heard the shit i'm droppin and quickly started his suckin up
no go on tell me what you think i can take it u little pussy fuck
smash bros in the basement ur weird for maining jigglypuff
rather watch a movie in a blanket w a girl i love

it's not me who's fucking up
slow down
hoe bag 
this dick up for no grabs
find you unappealing you would think I was a whole ***
monogamous as fuck check my discog if you don't know that

ghostface (prod. nightiger)

Told that ho to shutup why u taking all my swaag
put it in your face why you gotta take it back
spent it on a ring but ill make it back
run up 100 bands put it in my stash
im just gon take my life you wont even hear me
when the job is done hope you miss me dearly
hope you hate it when i end it all cuz i gotta go
hope you open up your phone before i die cuz i gave you a DEATH NOTE
(Woah woah) Dont go and shame me now
Im a loser im a liar im a drug abuser now
gurl u gotta slow down
ur going way 2 fast
girl u know ill leave it ill just put it in the past

I almost gave you my death note

i dont have a fucking ego

cash (prod. kiiisho)

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p.s: my biggest beat pack so far :)

00:00 - 19 oct +miriyami
00:56 - 24 oct
01:52 - 24 oct
02:29 - 24 oct
03:46 - 25 oct +blesouja
04:40 - 1 nov
05:36 - 2 nov
06:34 - 2 nov
07:30 - 4 nov
08:24 - 4 nov
09:21 - 6 nov
10:15 - 6 nov +enyoli +extroumn
11:14 - 9 nov
12:05 - 10 nov +enyoli
12:59 - 11 nov
13:52 - 13 nov
14:50 - 14 nov +v7x
15:42 - 17 nov
16:42 - 17 nov
17:34 - 20 nov
18:32 - 13 nov

nov pack 25

all platforms 12/13
prod. guttertrvsh x sorrow bringer
album art by avxid <3

lyrics:

dobry:
throw me to the wolves and watch as i die
where's my comfort?
there's no comfort in this
(you fucked me up)
i can't breathe
shoot me up with enough drugs to help me be
i love it when you fuck with my mental
til you fuck with my mental
show me up

kotaray:
all my demons they cut me down
you can forget it, i'll never settle down
all my veins keeps on hurting as im falling south
desperation as my head keeps on fading out

where did i go?
ive seen my life spill out on the floor
dead in my home, hell i see nothing in my door
hello desperation are you hearing me out?
im talking to myself all my demons on their way down
im trapped out of my mind
let me tell you all the lies
that get me high

avxid:
i could throw up
im no one
its blown up
in my face
i erase 
what you say
from my brain
itll be safe

baby could you look me in the eyes
i aint gonna sleep tonight
i got shard of glass just digging in my eyes
oh ive grown but still i cry

whyd you burn it down i swear theres nothin left
i got metal sticking to my chest
i can feel it when i take a breath
its a bad time inside my head

i can see the torch lights
i can watch it catch fire
it was fun, i wont be here for long
it was fun, but i wont be here for long

ryn:
been so long i know i might break
feel my blood rushing thru my veins
so many things i didnt say
its been years it still brings me pain
tear stains on my shirt i know i cant help it
im crying on my own maybe im just selfish
i wish i showed you how i really felt
but these scars made it so i couldn't get help

kairu:
i tried to help you, i couldnt reach you
i put us through hell, i didnt mean to
and i hate myself, for what ive been through
but im with you now, so can we make it out?

2 drinks in me, but i feel fine
i start to weave through dotted lines
i feel it taking hold of me
i fear im running out of help
i need you, it hurts, to bleed through
the bandages we made, over time and time again

4 drinks in me, you're on my mind
it's hard to sleep alone at night
i fear my heart is growing weak
it longs for you and nothing else
compares to, the pain, we've been through
but still i hope you know, that ill always want you close 


syon:
to me youre colder then dark 
my demons know who you are 
god damn i know from hell then 
they need help from the start 
and god knows that im not going to make it 
so why have me spend it all down here 
i am alone and i dont feel like breaking out
you hit my phone and im letting it ring out 
like you didnt care about me then, so why the fuck do you care now?

gutter:
i dug in deep, but i found nothing new inside my soul
you cast me off then i found myself just rotting inside this hole
i fucked up but you left wounds that wont recover on their own
now i cant fall asleep without your face as my eyelids start to fall
i pushed myself deep underground
you could find me there and rip me out
but you dont care enough to save me too
i guess i played myself, i guess my part's the fool

so ill just dive in deep into this ashen lake
this fire consumes all my love and all of your hate
she'll proclaim me a witch, they'll burn me at the stake
once im but a husk im sure then she'll feel safe
i hope it hurts it too much
i hope that im ashamed
i know that i deserve
all of this torturous pain
i hope i learn it well
when i go down in flames
if i cant fix this mess
then hell was all in vain

hell was better than this (with Dobry!, KOTARAY, AVXiD, ryn., kairu & syon)

say sum(prod.lilzipe)

All songs produced by hxlloghxst & Lil Dreezy
karen broca : written by me 
are you listening? : written by me and xert
are we okay? : written by me and xert
i bring pressure 2 : written by me
flow steerer : written by me
it's getting dark in here mr krabs  : written by me
it will get better : written by me
almost morning : written by me
in another life : written by me
in a land unholy : written by me
happy holidays :) 

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ghostface (prod. nightiger)

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