i'm so sorry for what i've done
i'm so sorry for my choices
i'm so sorry for my head 
i'm so sorry i chose the end 
it's the voices  
oh they keep on speaking im tired
and i sit in my room in the silence 

what the fuck should i do
when i don't know what to do 
who should i hurt me or u 
how was i such a fool
kept on thinking i was fine 
even tho you made me smile 
there's was something wrong all the time
i don't blame you
so don't blame me either 
i can't love you
but i can't hate you either

love isn't enough (pekarot)

@prodskellington 🖤
mixed & mastered by me 💛

~~lyrics~~
i have the right to prove
moving on from the past
sick of the attitudes; glass infused with laughing gas
these days swear i'm gone, but it's alright
cause i can see my fate in the moonlight

rainfall creeps in the back
blood on the coat as it hangs on the rack
know i'm not a clone, cause my heart don't match
the pattern of her's was a different path

too little people; too little changes
can't find the energy to make arrangements
say that i'm evil; is that a statement?
or are you lost in the thought of society's cave-ins

why did i sacrifice all that i had
all your advice, wasn't the best
it grew way too much for me; i'm a selfish cunt.

(run, run,)

i have the right to prove
moving on from the past
sick of the attitudes; glass infused with laughing gas
these days swear i'm gone, but it's alright
cause i can see my fate in the moonlight

laughing gas (skellington)

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lyrics - 

this ain't working
my stomach's fucking hurting
grab my backpack
i never really fucked with that
i ain't used to this shit
i know this ain't you
what's your purpose?
i see you float around too

where you gonna go when you up and leave home?
you say it's such a bleak and lonely road
but i don't believe that you know who you are
you'll never know if you're enough

you'll always find your way home
you say you're so fucking alone
you left everyone behind
and you only just realized

this ain't working
my stomach's fucking hurting
grab my backpack
i never really fucked with that
i ain't used to this shit
i know this ain't you
what's your purpose?
i see you float around too

i'm so sick of always trying to pursue you
let me go, just let me down
i never knew you
i won’t ever stick around, it’s not like you do
pull me up and tear me down it’s what I’m used to
so pull me out and let me down
can't help but change when you’re not around
i hate my face
man I hate this town
let me go
let me drown

float (feat. hiraeth)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

originally performed by sewerperson
produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

she gets high 
every other night
and just cries
girl I'll be with u tonight
im en route
im near the drop off

every day I fuse into one this month
i can't keep control if the speed too much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i can't even see my fingers front my face in these lights

everything's different than it had been before
unroll my backwoods and break my meteors
friends like this family I never knew before
life on this planet ain't felt this new before 

get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl I'll be with u tonight
im en route yeah
im around the block
yeah im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down yeah
i cannot stand for this shame
im to proud
im locked up so I kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down
guess she know me too well

im bleeding im falling 
im tearing apart
past the andromeda 
im in the stars
one u look down 
on the earth from this far
u can see just how small 
of a person u are

u could stay girl it's cold, 
can u see the lightning?
i just talk then I leave
im not tryna slide in
i distract then I bleed
if she got me hitting
don't get me wrong
we all human
but in uninviting

tell me if I take too long
i just wanna turn u on
turn u on
rip thru the phone book
she grip me by the heart
plenty left me broken
but the way u do it
turns me on
why's this summer so long



locked_ down_ x turn_ u_ on_ (ztope)

everything by me
been working on a lot
seriously way more to come
hope you enjoy. 
thank you so much for listening.
your support means beyond any means to me.

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; 
remind me
quiet lifestyle, but defiled by this thoughts of mine
memories are heaven
'till you are what you forgot in time
don't care..
you don't care
you don't care, anymore.

i can see appeal
conflicted with the feeling
a burden on myself
it feels like i just killed me
get over that hill
down another cup of coffee
relive how it felt
to think, see, hear, and feel nothing

over-sensitized and ill
aye, when's it my turn to heal?
insinuate that better place you've always dreamt of only kills
until we fall and call it quits
by stone or gun that don't exist
i was here for all of this
(i was here for all of this)

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; remind me

how i got here, and who i am to stand by
'cause with fragile ears and hearts,
we've always been paralyzed, paralyzed
no wonder, why.

(killing me off slowly)
(putting my dreams behind me)
(i find it so damn unlikely)
(remind me)

all of this

produced by ztope and killedmyself
completely non profit

lyrics

ice and mud is giving way
its a waterslide

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

i guess these circumstances arent exactly normal, i can give u that
faint roads, the pain grows, always clawing at the scabs 
i play a song from my memory
something inside me still struggling
somehow i grip on the muddy reeds
nothing could take it away from me

i found shelter all alone
on a shore in freezing clothes
20 miles barefoot snow

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time

swept away (ztope x killedmyself)

lyrics

stay, dont break
i know you cant see my face but im tearing up
i just poured some deadly in my cup
i hope before i die i figure out if ur the one cuz

life moves fast
ready or not
i cant go to college sorry mom theres money to be got
and ill get a lot
i hope you know a songs coming out of every shot
all these shots
i hope i break the bank before she break my heart
and i hope we can rebuild from where we last left off
instead of going back to the start
me and you came so far we cant see the start
baby just look at the stars
ill put them inside of a car
she said i look distracted
i look at you
"bae i dont know where we are"
i want this everlasting
love thats true
but i cant feel my heart

said its my first drink this week
she mad it just turned sunday
im rolling some shit look like bayleaf
think you should come over to my place
dont know why you stressing out
baby you got all my love
ill pour some liquor out
this shit made my brain turn numb
i still smoke a lot but im smoking less than last year
i dont talk a lot cuz im rapping more this past year
she said i have a way with my words
trying my best but im feeling the worst
i see the crows and i know its a curse
i see the crows and i know its an omen
my body young but i drink like an old man
they think im lame cuz i rap bout emotions
i made a wave now theyre sick from the motion
seasick just throwing up in the ocean
you can call me if you need it
ill be here just sipping potions

stay, dont break
i know you cant see my face but im tearing up
i just poured some deadly in my cup
i hope before i die i figure out this shit cuz

life moves fast
ready or not
i cant go to college sorry mom theres money to be got
and ill get a lot
i hope you know a songs coming out of every shot
all these shots
i hope i break the bank before she break my heart
and i hope we can rebuild from where we last left off
instead of going back to the start
me and you came so far we cant see the start
baby just look at the stars
ill put them inside of a car
she said i look distracted
i look at you
"bae i dont know where we are"
i want this everlasting
love thats true
but i cant feel my heart

everlasting (p. under the maple tree)

force of habit

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