prod by marlon & jacob vallen

its hard to feel proud
wonder when i fell behind
i cant find a reason now
between the lines

need something i can lean on
just something for myself
people change, it seems im the only one that cant move on at all

sleep away my days, its got me feeling useless
theres alot to say, when i dont i feel like a nuisance 

sleep away i lay awake
don't follow me, my dream is fake
my blood still flows it circulates
clown on stage 

not everything revolves around you, its a hard truth to tell, all this circus has to end
i've been barely proud of myself, this is where i dwell, no more masks we used to lend
from now on it's only no repent, i just do my thing, then i got no one to blame
but in the end i did resent, think i didn't think, enough to see flames

proud w/ marlon

a single from brecken and i's upcoming album

lyrics

i know that you worry that this shit gonna keep growing and culminate
i dont give a fuck about it anyway
i peel my skin back in hopes that people will resonate
im getting honest at an alarming rate
staring at the sun as its falling down
baby im too high cant talk right now
i know it sound repetitive but theres nothing else to talk about
but i cant get my point across if you dont hear me out
your fit is so precious but i counter it with all black
but i know that you like that baby
youre the queen of hearts and im just a fucking jack
joker
discard pile
mediocre

please please dont say that its over over
lost too many people in this shit thats what i told her
once i get some money in my pocket you would know
baby pick a spot tell me where you want go go
once i crack the seal im on go go
everything at this party moving slow mo
i can tell you hate me got the notification
but we should stay together no more time should be wasted

i know im not making money on vacation
gave me the cards but you hate it how i play them
thought i had em all in order but you gave a flush
not talkin about the one that everybody wants
but i was at the party i was doubling my cup
while shorty want Bacardi i was lookin for the runtz
she ask me if i want her i said hardly not much
itll be over for awhile in a minute
ill be in the corner of the party up on business
i wont even talk to nobody or get the digits
if i wanted something i know that way ain’t efficient
if you saw me now
you would see in me im winning
making all this money now my people see me grinnin
everything im seeing on their face had me feelin like im different

fifty two pickup w/ brecken (p. under the maple tree)

🍂
lyrics 
she wanna have picnic 
im tryna get my dick licked
she say ima bad vibe
fuckin up her business 

she gimme cold shoulder 
i brush it off like soldiers
we’re only getting olderrrr iiii

i only speak nonsense 
you got better options 
but you chose an artist boy 
leaves falling downhill
in springvillie i’ll cry 

you’re perfect baby i just been in a funk 
don’t wanna talk i been tired as fuck 
lay in my bed and im thinking bout us
you need anything shawty know i’ll be there
100p percent 
leaves falling off my tree feel like deadwood 
shoutout wraith that’s my homie he in deadwood 
i fuck her good yah she know i don’t got deadwood 


she wanna have picnic 
im tryna get my dick licked
she say ima bad vibe
fuckin up her business 

she gimme cold shoulder 
i brush it off like soldiers
we’re only getting olderrrr iiii

i only speak nonsense 
you got better options 
but you chose an artist boy 
leaves falling downhill
in springvillie i’ll cry

leaves (NE’ERDOWELL X 93FEETOFSMOKE)

prod. by @wraithontheporch

@AVXiD
look where we are
funeral suits in the back of the car
tastes like tar
but i like it
oh i love it
i wander the dark
feeling this hitting my heart
(i love it)
peel off the flesh like its bark
(i love it)
you know that i’ve been marked
(i love it)
i'm stuck looking up at the stars
(i love it)

i smell blood in here
can you tell me why that is
the scent of rotting tissue
blows in thru the window

@enyusroom
the organs, they fill up this ball pit
visions they haunt when i’m shutting my mouth quick
(empathy slipping away)
is that what i’m made of?
am i just really a monster?
i’m fading like smoke in the cold
was i ever solid or constant?
i followed to dig up my tomb
i feel like i’m holding the grudge here

so stop it now
watch me
wipe off the blood from the biting
i'm closer now
to the edge
to bury those screams in the silence

the hunger for blood made me
change how i move on this earth now
rip me apart in two
drain out the source as the lights drown

funeral suit (wraithontheporch)

i'll scream
your name
so loud
it echos away

i can't breathe
oh ur not right here with me
oh such a shame
shame

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

i want this
im watching
like tell me
how do you want love?
im nauseuos
i lost it
right before us
cant help it
im obsessed
with the way you touch
i need you
i cant help 
but feel im not enough


its all okay
maybe that was a lie
you wont ever know
i wont see your face
i do this for nothing
i wake up 
just to find out
its all the same

i've got your blood
all on my hands
oh what a mess
that i have made
i froze im stuck
tell me what the next step is
cause i don't know
how to control
myself

oh what a mess that i have made [muzcean]

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

prod hollowprpl
guitar by me

lyrics


hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it costs me my life
cuz i cant be sane again here in my mind
im alone
i see the sympathy die by the window
i really miss what we had
am i too cold?

the constants in my life arent constant anymore 
between you and me im not sober no more
i can die freely, id have no remorse
the meaning of life is to love and mines no more 
oh im horrible

hes gone now
and all he ever wanted was to be loved
can u calm down 
lately girl i know im messing up
oh im pissed now
and i can only focus what ive done
im a bitch now
i dont think it matters anymore
shut the fuck up
i dont wanna talk about this now
i just thrown up
like 2 or three times , im coming down
im just a no one 
and ill be nothing until im dirt
theres blood in my snot
and in my lungs and it fucking hurts

it’s not your fault. [swan dive] (hollowprpl x ash.)

lyrics ⬇️ 


i like your lips my love but you dont talk
wont work at all i know im far from you
but please dont insult me
id rather you ghost me as you do
and its a shame that i cant trust a single thing you say

a dusty brain i can’t explain all of the stuff that i went thru
dropped from a crane
cant word this pain but i promise you its nothin new 
want me to blink
wake up to drink
i slowly sink i see its true
no saving grace thats all i’ll say
i cant escape when you dont prove
I know ill lose
theres no excuse 
cuz i cant shake this grave today

say it to my face
or ill be in your way for awhile girl
you dont want that for sure
yea you dont text back for hours at a time
lowkey it massacres my heart when you say that but never why

never wanna know how i feel i keep it in the back of my mind
runnin out cuz i know know that you think i wouldn’t see
but you don’t got a clue cuz you dont know me
Know i wish you could
i had all the time in the world

Dont cover your eyes
i wanna see them in the light
just once jus once
just one “more” time
i never expected you to feel like i was always what you want
know i never was know i never was
well i wish that you could see what i saw

as you do (everest)

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

rock bottom

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