its not a miracle if i cant make it back to you

(prod. heyzbee & michael harrison)

(2x)
hold me closely 
i’ve been hoping 
this won’t die slowly 
god this is so lovely 
jealously is ugly 
i know that it affects me 
don’t mean for it to happen 
but yes it does severely

(2x)
searching all across the globe 
just so i can bite your nose 
little things i love the most 
these moments i cannot let go 
i’m jealous i cannot lie 
i want you just to be mine 
even in the end times 
girl i need you all night 

jealously is ugly 
i know that it affects me 
don’t mean for it to happen 
but yes it does severely
its a struggle to face what is happening 
everything will be okay, we just gotta be 
willing to work together during misery 
i know that we can do it so let’s see 
open up please notice this is your home 
this is perfect timing, promise to give you hope
hear the way that i speak, promise this will not go 
do you hear my heart beat, it says whatever i don’t 
aye, i was feeling down but i’m better
got so high now my eyes turning redder 
hear my sound and it’s sharper than cheddar 
yall so soft like feta 
yall don’t really know shit 
keeping it frank just like ocean 
what you motherfuckers really know about the potent
yall been really sleeping like it is some melatonin 

(2x)
searching all across the globe 
just so i can bite your nose 
little things i love the most 
these moments i cannot let go 
i’m jealous i cannot lie 
i want you just to be mine 
even in the end times 
girl i need you all night

jealously is ugly 
i know that it affects me 
don’t mean for it to happen 
but yes it does severely

jealous

i guess she never wanted to be alone.

prod Dash

life wouldn't mean a thing
without you
"without you"
i couldnt hear a thing
coming through

talking over the phone, cant see my pain, now
please come over, and figure this out
youre heartless
what a damn shame
you've been a treasure, all of my days

better alone, that's what you think
wait till i die all alone in the end

i wonder one day will you regret
all this pain and hurt in the end
all my love  that i gave in the end
was for nothing, i dread all the thoughts in my head

i didn't lose you
you just let go
hopped to another without a show
hurt me slowly, caused me pain!
unreversible , damage to my brain

take your, time, i pray
for you to be okay

to love me is to suffer me

backseat

hate it when my feelings creep up like a nightmare
i swear
i aint mean to do it like i did but it was something I could fight for
we have memories that i would die for 100 times over if you let me
1000 lightyears away
but theres still something that im holding
time stops when i see ur face now
i dont wanna see that no more
it only made feel im not worth it
it only made me feel like you were bored
when you talked to me was it something that you wanted
or was it nothing of the sort
all i know is that you slammed me out the door
and ever since being happy been a chore
its not a miracle if i cant make it back to you
And im so sorry that i did just what i had to do
Had to add up to the list i got of bad news
but when you hear it you dont hear it how youre meant to
used to wear me like a life vest
til the excuses came intruding i cant digest
and when its folding over i find a new sidequest
i hope it hold me over until you get my text

i press record and then i take my first sip
im not ignoring you im just tryna fix this mix
im flying off this keef dust like a pixie
im falling down inside the void like are you with me
trust fall
ill give you my all
i could write a song in 20 minutes but in your face i stall
cause finding all the right words too hard
with love from my broken heart
lets live together we could build a house thats right under the stars
swear youre more beautiful now that i know who you are
im all rusted up can you please replace my broken parts
im so fucked up cant cry but if i could id cry a lot
they already know whats good whenever i walk into the spot
me and brecken so high were in outer space like kirk and spock
were just stepping on them like a pair of birkenstocks
we gon get big money like wap
im just trickshotting like cod
should out gray shout out amo
they my brothers let me put you on
wonder where i been for the past few days just sat back rapping smoking runtz
they already know where i be at in the party im quiet sipping mud
i stick to myself i dont feel the same i run from everyone

nothing of the sort (p. under the maple tree)

you told me everything you said that you would
im teyin not to trip but its hard
i wish i aint did what ive done
got a futuristic feelin that i been plain
if i did what you had wanted then id feel pain
Tryin not to stress over the picture frame
and if i did it then its been fillin me with hella shame
lately i been sitting thinkin that its all a game
maybe you would take me seriously if i changed
but what im choosin in my life make me feel insane
maybe id better off jus switching lanes
contradiction when you claimin and u tell me that
you been skippin time with everything you like
its bad
and i been wonderin why its feelin bland
but its because you ruin every single plan
i dont even understand whats in my head
sometiems i feel okay but right now im feeling dead
I can’t understand how these feelings blend
with these silly words right now im seeing over text
oh my god make it make sense you know i hate to defend
i cant take offense if i dont care what you said
let me just pretend like i know whats coming next

smoking gas in the hotel
baby can you call me you can break me out my cell
pull me out of hell
and if im being honest im not feeling myself
im dizzy sipping hypnotic tryna make the best out of the worst days
but im still making you love songs so you cant complain
and im still smoking like i used to i think my voice changed
i know my souls quality went down but ill still love you always
i know im sitting right here in front of you but im far away
and i know i look unpleasant
the stars are out tonight ill wrap this blunt like a present
im scared that when im 21 theyll be no further progression
if i can make it out tonight ill take this sign as a lesson
its like i think this shit a game
high off of pride and i get drunk off of shame
im the only one to blame
still notahero same name
making money on the web like im spiderman
smoking mary jane
we get high like super man youll always be my lois lane
know when im down could always call my brother J
but how come when im down i always go right to the drink
i hope they dont make the shrine before i reignite the flame

spidermane (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics

if you stay imma stay down
she saw my ribs like im a greyhound
i felt sparks during the makeout
this shit wouldnt be here if i could take it out
dont drink too much im not in a rush
i drink too much and i feel too much
yea i woke up inside a carousel
you knew nothing bout the way i felt
life could be great if i could just get out
blowing o's with this kush its tempting me to lay down
im seeing weird shit off this purple im inside a clay house
now i got fans that i dont know feel like the boss man now
yea i miss you so much but its not the reason that im calling
i swear im in too deep my soul feel dirty even when its polished
you dont even have to see me for the shit i dont acknowledge
she said are you good and i said baby girl im solid
1800  fueled pulled up with my bros look like the army
i can tell you never proof read cause you write like fucking charlie
i swear this 3.5 just gave me wings like im a harpie
ill always be your ken if you will always be my barbie

i swear i used to love the way you stick to me like pollen
everytime you’d talk to me now i feel like weve
fallen
fallen in way deeper than i ever thought wed be
i jist feel like sleepin everytime you talk to me
oh my god make it stop
i could tell you what had went wrong
but you would lie to me and tell me its enough
i could tell you what i want you would tell me its a bluff
I swear its so overwhelming that i fell out of love
i fell outta touch when u told me that its over
im not the one
but i had went had sober for like a month
just to get thrown on the road outta luck
and i been in a rut i admit but that dont mean that you should always throw a fit
take a pic look at my fit
i swear that they think its legit
lemme take other sip
i wish that you wouldn’t trip
all these thoughts i wish i did
but i dont act on what i talk about
like every time you talk to me i feel i wanna block it out
and every single part of me dont wanna see me walk around
but thats all that they talk about
so i been tryna fix it all
i never miss my adderal
but it makes me feel horrible
but atleaast its been tolerable
and i aint been dishonorable
i hate all of these obstacles but i think ill het thru em all

greyhound (p. under the maple tree)

Vocals by @youngspazz123, @irlswamp, @notaheroo, @notcursed
Mix & Master by @youngspazz123
Produced by @prodcxrter
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Scarlt / safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dB8A5P62H-s

lyrics:
(Taylor's Diary)
I'm sorry, but I don’t relate
'Cause there’s no one to call when I break
They tell me i'm wasting my life
'Cause I’m doing drugs til they rids me away
Take a look at myself in the mirror I’m disgusted in everyway
My life full of stress and I’m so depressed
I wish you would pull me outta my brain
200 the dash
Took my pride and threw it in the trash
Whole time I was wearing a mask
Tryna be someone else didn’t last
But either way it goes 
Imma be alone until I’m bones 
All I have is our memories
I’m sorry that I built a broken home
I’m sorry I was never perfect and sorry I was never worth shit
I just wanted you to love me and maybe realize I was worth it
So if we’re being honest I’m a crumb
This ain’t moncler bro I’m a bum
I drink until I go numb
Or I drink til I throw up
Haven't seen my daughter in a month
Tryna hold it in and act tough
Tears drain from my eyelids and nobody cares that I’m fucked
I’m walking in quicksand
Sinking by the second
I keep coming back i don't know when I’ll learn my lesson

(Swamp)
It’s muddy in my cup
And there’s a forest in this blunt
Ion got time for no bullshit so can we wrap this up
I’m just tryina catch me a buzz
But these Russians ain’t enough
Should of filled em with more skunk
Instead we’re still here on this love shit
Like do you even really want this
Are you upset or just sunkissed
Like my bad you’re feeling loveless
I guess your skin ain’t the toughest
But I’m back in ball
Blockin goofies like a prime Chris Paul
Oh you wanna talk? Baby don’t hit call
If your mission is to watch me fall
Tell the truth, don’t lie to me
It’s funny I can see the irony
Let me take a page from Taylor’s diary
Learn to smoke away all my anxiety
But it’s
Tough luck
No chance
Ima surly fold again
I’m fucked up
Oh man
Don’t leave me here alone, my friend
(x3)

(notahero)
Burberry glasses on but you’re not in the frame
I don’t wanna leave the house girl i ain’t pregame yet
This shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
And i keep coming back don’t think i learned my lesson
I don’t wanna get to know you
I don’t even know myself
Drunk as fuck in this function singing like alvin
Simon on my belt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s cold
Wear that shit like pelt
If its bout my queen then i'm gon fold
That’s how the card's dealt
Baby you're so perfect
I can’t treat you wrong and if i do i don’t deserve it
I might be better gone lately i been feeling worthless
But you tell me that i'm wrong and swear that i have a purpose
Yeah, burberry glasses on but i've been feeling worthless
Yeah, this shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
Yeah, i keep coming back don’t think i-
Drunk as fuck in this function singing like, wear this shit like pelt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s cold, yeah, wear that shit like pelt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s, that's how the card's dealt

(Notcursed)
I don’t feel much older
But i’m really worn down
Wish i knew when i was younger this was how i’d turn out

Cold room flooded out the summer
And i’ve been in this dark mood month after another
It’s been feeling daunting lately
No one here to shape me
Yeah i could, i know, but my mental needs saving

I might feel better when the winter comes around
I’ve been finding lost letters that were better unfound
I stay locked in this house
The keys been buried now
You’d think i wanna get out
But i don’t know how

I might get better when i learn to love myself
I’ve been writing less letters to girl who never helped
She still looks like me now
Down to the skin
I see you’re getting freaked out
Should’ve never let you in

Taylor’s Diary - I’m sorry, but I can’t relate (ft. notahero, swamp, notcursed) (cxrter)

lyrics ⬇️  

 I made this song on October 14th

its 2 am and you wont talk back
so how should i feel if you off of the map
tell me its real but see that its cap
i wanna walk with you 
for life you wanna take a nap
i got a solid scoop
you wanna lie and you wanna love
so i can’t rock wit you
even if its all that i got left
i tried to hike and it was a trek so it wasn’t worth the move
if its an emergency dial the number an ima put on my shoes
im gonna be there real soon
when i get there i hope ur not upset
i wanna share it with you no bunkbed
said youll be there but you want me to function
dont give a heads up act like its nothin
you couldn’t expect me to sit here breath girl cuz ima choke
you gon see you got ropes around my throat

no no dont remind me what you said
id rather take one to the chest
not a word of it made sense
maybe wed be better- better off as frie-

i couldnt even finish what i was gonna say
cuz it hurt my head too much i wish i could explain
ima keep on trying as long as i see a flame
i jus hate the option you wanna wash it down the drain
what could i say
i know its late
lemme explain
i dont wanna leave you but if u wanna go
lemme tell you everything you wanna know 
but you bolted on a heart of steel

when you touch me ill be colder than November feels
and i know that its been harder than you wanted
when we started i knew you were never honest
now were off it every night and every time i tty i feel like ima fold and die
maybe this all i wanted - its not
you said you were so exhausted 
i should drop
i would rather be alone than ever wanna hear you talk
if u jus gon give me all of that trash i would rather stop
i cannot rock wit no litter bug id rather date a rock. 🪨

litter bug (sk8miles)

pretty stupid

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