its not a miracle if i cant make it back to you

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

this team will be the death of me

lyrics 

im in this venue like its citi field
2 cups in my lap like a bogo deal
it gets too rough like a broken wheel
83-79 im outta here

if ur just gon shut it down im outta here
its become a bad night cuz now im outta beer
im just broke and im boring i dont got amiri
im a vampire, im not in no mirror

im wasting money like im david stearns
im wasting life like i got time to burn
black and yellow, canary my stone like a bird
stepping out, all black like a hearse

im in this venue like its citi field
2 cups in my lap like a bogo deal
it gets too rough like a broken wheel
83-79 im outta here
im in this venue like its citi field
2 cups in my lap like a bogo deal
it gets too rough like a broken wheel
83-79 im outta here

83-79 (whycyril)

windshield

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I feel like the dirt
I question my worth
I wear and I tear
My favorite shirt
I hope that I can
She thinks I’m the man
I’m letting her down and
I feel like the worst

No it ain’t safe to say yet
Hung up on yesterday its
Still in my head
I’m sorry 
Hate when I’m so mistaken
Trying to savor faces 
Hoping you don’t replace me
I can do better baby
I can do better maybe

Maybe heavens worth the tests
But fuck, this smith and wesson
Has a way for testing what is next
Swallow my breath
I put the world in my hands
I feel like a mess
But she swears I’m the man
I’m doing my best
At least as well as I can
I barely stand
The fucking shell that I am

The Man (prod. wraithontheporch)

hate it when my feelings creep up like a nightmare
i swear
i aint mean to do it like i did but it was something I could fight for
we have memories that i would die for 100 times over if you let me
1000 lightyears away
but theres still something that im holding
time stops when i see ur face now
i dont wanna see that no more
it only made feel im not worth it
it only made me feel like you were bored
when you talked to me was it something that you wanted
or was it nothing of the sort
all i know is that you slammed me out the door
and ever since being happy been a chore
its not a miracle if i cant make it back to you
And im so sorry that i did just what i had to do
Had to add up to the list i got of bad news
but when you hear it you dont hear it how youre meant to
used to wear me like a life vest
til the excuses came intruding i cant digest
and when its folding over i find a new sidequest
i hope it hold me over until you get my text

i press record and then i take my first sip
im not ignoring you im just tryna fix this mix
im flying off this keef dust like a pixie
im falling down inside the void like are you with me
trust fall
ill give you my all
i could write a song in 20 minutes but in your face i stall
cause finding all the right words too hard
with love from my broken heart
lets live together we could build a house thats right under the stars
swear youre more beautiful now that i know who you are
im all rusted up can you please replace my broken parts
im so fucked up cant cry but if i could id cry a lot
they already know whats good whenever i walk into the spot
me and brecken so high were in outer space like kirk and spock
were just stepping on them like a pair of birkenstocks
we gon get big money like wap
im just trickshotting like cod
should out gray shout out amo
they my brothers let me put you on
wonder where i been for the past few days just sat back rapping smoking runtz
they already know where i be at in the party im quiet sipping mud
i stick to myself i dont feel the same i run from everyone

nothing of the sort (p. under the maple tree)

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i fear that its just me and this drink right now
im so high right now but ill still hold you down
im not sure whats going on

but its not enough
i love you so much that it hurts
you pull my cigarettes out your purse
and if i die put subwoofers on my hearse
and play my music so everyone can hear it
so they know i tried to give you the world

i think i need a break for my bones
if all my best songs when im fucked up whats the point in living sober
getting older
and she obsessed with the fact that i need closure
but really she just care for me so i felt like an asshole back when i had told her
i think you should go
put dnd on my phone
im tryna make money off this shit so let me cook and just leave me alone
baby i got a chip on my shoulder
sisyphus rolling boulders
in this fit i feel polar cause im cold
but not as cold as it is outside
ill pick you up baby you can stay the night
its lowkey pathetic all my feelings on a fucking flash drive
making folk songs
and she dont even like that style
bae i love you im not tryna get hostile
these are love songs i hope that they make you smile
i pray one day ill make something you like
thats why lately im recording every night

I dont like when we fight
i swear that its getting old
see inside of my life take a look at whats in bold
its assault
i dont need a single thing to realize
that its my fault
and you could draw out all the lines but i dont need to see the chalk
cuz i know i what ive done wrong
and its building up inside of me and breaking through the walls
you gotta understand that theres a couple reasons i dont call
i know its understandable that you dont wanna see me fall
i know life been hard
take a couole steps back
and you think you went far
yea you think you a star
well i think you should check that and see right where you are
(this anxiety been breaking down my heart)
everything inside of me been leaving hella scars
i hate this anxiety its leaving too much marks
they be laughin and they lie to me
so why cant i restart
with the thoughts in the dark
while i sit in my car

but its not enough
i love you so much that it hurts
you pull my cigarettes out your purse
and if i die put subwoofers on my hearse
and play my music so everyone can hear it
so they know i tried to give you the world

sysiphus (p. under the maple tree)

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if you stay imma stay down
she saw my ribs like im a greyhound
i felt sparks during the makeout
this shit wouldnt be here if i could take it out
dont drink too much im not in a rush
i drink too much and i feel too much
yea i woke up inside a carousel
you knew nothing bout the way i felt
life could be great if i could just get out
blowing o's with this kush its tempting me to lay down
im seeing weird shit off this purple im inside a clay house
now i got fans that i dont know feel like the boss man now
yea i miss you so much but its not the reason that im calling
i swear im in too deep my soul feel dirty even when its polished
you dont even have to see me for the shit i dont acknowledge
she said are you good and i said baby girl im solid
1800  fueled pulled up with my bros look like the army
i can tell you never proof read cause you write like fucking charlie
i swear this 3.5 just gave me wings like im a harpie
ill always be your ken if you will always be my barbie

i swear i used to love the way you stick to me like pollen
everytime you’d talk to me now i feel like weve
fallen
fallen in way deeper than i ever thought wed be
i jist feel like sleepin everytime you talk to me
oh my god make it stop
i could tell you what had went wrong
but you would lie to me and tell me its enough
i could tell you what i want you would tell me its a bluff
I swear its so overwhelming that i fell out of love
i fell outta touch when u told me that its over
im not the one
but i had went had sober for like a month
just to get thrown on the road outta luck
and i been in a rut i admit but that dont mean that you should always throw a fit
take a pic look at my fit
i swear that they think its legit
lemme take other sip
i wish that you wouldn’t trip
all these thoughts i wish i did
but i dont act on what i talk about
like every time you talk to me i feel i wanna block it out
and every single part of me dont wanna see me walk around
but thats all that they talk about
so i been tryna fix it all
i never miss my adderal
but it makes me feel horrible
but atleaast its been tolerable
and i aint been dishonorable
i hate all of these obstacles but i think ill het thru em all

greyhound (p. under the maple tree)

purple bruises

its more like a dream
its hard to see right now
but i promise that ill come out clean
Just let me bleed
its gonna be a fine amount
my shirts gonna seep
heartache gets the best of me and i cant ever sleep
i cant express this enough
been saying please for so long that i cant breath
so it seems
that its the end of my life
its not a dream
i wish it was
To give me peace
like a gun
the smoking leaves
hard to tell whats right
dont look at me in my eyes again
or you’re gonna pay the price
im not sure what’s going on in my head
but i gotta get out my mind
yea u gotta step outside again
the wind make me feel alright
and ion even really wanna pretend
but i still try

what do you want from me
well i would do anything for you
pull the stars out from outer space
and ill make em all into a bracelet
its not reflecting in my paycheck
but i got time lets get to wasting
i know just how hard you been working
but i dont have anything else that i can give to you
blood falls out of my clothes
my body gonna fall apart just any day now
im dealing with my own shit im sorry i dont got time to take you out
but you look so perfect inside of that blue dress
im so fucked right now but i been tryna use less
im useless
feel my sanity going away im feeling clueless
remember that time when i was drunk and crying
swear that i heard you laugh
i swear i miss the old days girl and all i want is you back
losing my mind again
tell me whats right again

hard to tell whats right
dont look at me in my eyes again
or you’re gonna pay the price
im not sure what’s going on in my head
but i gotta get out my mind
yea u gotta step outside again
the wind make me feel alright
and ion even really wanna pretend
but i still try


seep (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

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