its not a miracle if i cant make it back to you

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

hate it when my feelings creep up like a nightmare
i swear
i aint mean to do it like i did but it was something I could fight for
we have memories that i would die for 100 times over if you let me
1000 lightyears away
but theres still something that im holding
time stops when i see ur face now
i dont wanna see that no more
it only made feel im not worth it
it only made me feel like you were bored
when you talked to me was it something that you wanted
or was it nothing of the sort
all i know is that you slammed me out the door
and ever since being happy been a chore
its not a miracle if i cant make it back to you
And im so sorry that i did just what i had to do
Had to add up to the list i got of bad news
but when you hear it you dont hear it how youre meant to
used to wear me like a life vest
til the excuses came intruding i cant digest
and when its folding over i find a new sidequest
i hope it hold me over until you get my text

i press record and then i take my first sip
im not ignoring you im just tryna fix this mix
im flying off this keef dust like a pixie
im falling down inside the void like are you with me
trust fall
ill give you my all
i could write a song in 20 minutes but in your face i stall
cause finding all the right words too hard
with love from my broken heart
lets live together we could build a house thats right under the stars
swear youre more beautiful now that i know who you are
im all rusted up can you please replace my broken parts
im so fucked up cant cry but if i could id cry a lot
they already know whats good whenever i walk into the spot
me and brecken so high were in outer space like kirk and spock
were just stepping on them like a pair of birkenstocks
we gon get big money like wap
im just trickshotting like cod
should out gray shout out amo
they my brothers let me put you on
wonder where i been for the past few days just sat back rapping smoking runtz
they already know where i be at in the party im quiet sipping mud
i stick to myself i dont feel the same i run from everyone

nothing of the sort (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics

if you stay imma stay down
she saw my ribs like im a greyhound
i felt sparks during the makeout
this shit wouldnt be here if i could take it out
dont drink too much im not in a rush
i drink too much and i feel too much
yea i woke up inside a carousel
you knew nothing bout the way i felt
life could be great if i could just get out
blowing o's with this kush its tempting me to lay down
im seeing weird shit off this purple im inside a clay house
now i got fans that i dont know feel like the boss man now
yea i miss you so much but its not the reason that im calling
i swear im in too deep my soul feel dirty even when its polished
you dont even have to see me for the shit i dont acknowledge
she said are you good and i said baby girl im solid
1800  fueled pulled up with my bros look like the army
i can tell you never proof read cause you write like fucking charlie
i swear this 3.5 just gave me wings like im a harpie
ill always be your ken if you will always be my barbie

i swear i used to love the way you stick to me like pollen
everytime you’d talk to me now i feel like weve
fallen
fallen in way deeper than i ever thought wed be
i jist feel like sleepin everytime you talk to me
oh my god make it stop
i could tell you what had went wrong
but you would lie to me and tell me its enough
i could tell you what i want you would tell me its a bluff
I swear its so overwhelming that i fell out of love
i fell outta touch when u told me that its over
im not the one
but i had went had sober for like a month
just to get thrown on the road outta luck
and i been in a rut i admit but that dont mean that you should always throw a fit
take a pic look at my fit
i swear that they think its legit
lemme take other sip
i wish that you wouldn’t trip
all these thoughts i wish i did
but i dont act on what i talk about
like every time you talk to me i feel i wanna block it out
and every single part of me dont wanna see me walk around
but thats all that they talk about
so i been tryna fix it all
i never miss my adderal
but it makes me feel horrible
but atleaast its been tolerable
and i aint been dishonorable
i hate all of these obstacles but i think ill het thru em all

greyhound (p. under the maple tree)

you want me to stay imma stay for you
you want me together imma break
i think you should put the blunt out girl its getting late
and i dont talk about it and its something that you hate
and i hope that you listen to the songs i make when im off alcohol
i put you through so much how did you put up with an asshole
blunt been burning the back of my throat but i feel it in my soul
i cant let you go
i cant let you go

two pills before bed
blue pills in my head
dont remember what i said
its always like that
i forgot my heart girl ill be right back
right track
pick myself up and in that im alone
she said if you ever need me you can call my phone
girl i go to sleep so late and you so early
wouldnt want to waste your time on it its not worth it
wanna shed my mind
baby you can tell me bout your darkest times
never met another crow like you in my life
my life
tonight
can we just talk like we used to baby ill try
baby ill try to stay for you

you want me to stay imma stay for you
you want me together imma break
i think you should put the blunt out girl its getting late
and i dont talk about it and its something that you hate
and i hope that you listen to the songs i make when im off alcohol
i put you through so much how did you put up with an asshole
blunt been burning the back of my throat but i feel it in my soul
i cant let you go
i cant let you go

help me make in the meantime
a few signs in my chest help me make it out my head
down hill dont wanna sled
i dont wanna make it down there before you admit
one chance take my hand
i know that you wont regret
its not the principle its all thats coming with
im not invincible dont shoot me til im dead
i hate the ridicule feel invisible when i hit my bed
its always feel so horrible when im walking outside
maybe maybe i dont get no sunlight cuz i wanna -
i would rather wrap up in my sheets i wish ur here tho
maybe next year ill see clear and youll be here i hope
i hit a roundabout my maps say dont exist
i try hard to make it there in time but you dont know where i am
i wont make it this time ill say that im in my head
i been in in way too long im sorry everything i missed

its getting late (p. under the maple tree)

its more like a dream
its hard to see right now
but i promise that ill come out clean
Just let me bleed
its gonna be a fine amount
my shirts gonna seep
heartache gets the best of me and i cant ever sleep
i cant express this enough
been saying please for so long that i cant breath
so it seems
that its the end of my life
its not a dream
i wish it was
To give me peace
like a gun
the smoking leaves
hard to tell whats right
dont look at me in my eyes again
or you’re gonna pay the price
im not sure what’s going on in my head
but i gotta get out my mind
yea u gotta step outside again
the wind make me feel alright
and ion even really wanna pretend
but i still try

what do you want from me
well i would do anything for you
pull the stars out from outer space
and ill make em all into a bracelet
its not reflecting in my paycheck
but i got time lets get to wasting
i know just how hard you been working
but i dont have anything else that i can give to you
blood falls out of my clothes
my body gonna fall apart just any day now
im dealing with my own shit im sorry i dont got time to take you out
but you look so perfect inside of that blue dress
im so fucked right now but i been tryna use less
im useless
feel my sanity going away im feeling clueless
remember that time when i was drunk and crying
swear that i heard you laugh
i swear i miss the old days girl and all i want is you back
losing my mind again
tell me whats right again

hard to tell whats right
dont look at me in my eyes again
or you’re gonna pay the price
im not sure what’s going on in my head
but i gotta get out my mind
yea u gotta step outside again
the wind make me feel alright
and ion even really wanna pretend
but i still try


seep (p. under the maple tree)

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

My Real Experiences and Pain laid across 15 Tracks

Party (p. ProducedbyDomi)

G-5 STATUS

lyrics ⬇️  

 I made this song on October 14th

its 2 am and you wont talk back
so how should i feel if you off of the map
tell me its real but see that its cap
i wanna walk with you 
for life you wanna take a nap
i got a solid scoop
you wanna lie and you wanna love
so i can’t rock wit you
even if its all that i got left
i tried to hike and it was a trek so it wasn’t worth the move
if its an emergency dial the number an ima put on my shoes
im gonna be there real soon
when i get there i hope ur not upset
i wanna share it with you no bunkbed
said youll be there but you want me to function
dont give a heads up act like its nothin
you couldn’t expect me to sit here breath girl cuz ima choke
you gon see you got ropes around my throat

no no dont remind me what you said
id rather take one to the chest
not a word of it made sense
maybe wed be better- better off as frie-

i couldnt even finish what i was gonna say
cuz it hurt my head too much i wish i could explain
ima keep on trying as long as i see a flame
i jus hate the option you wanna wash it down the drain
what could i say
i know its late
lemme explain
i dont wanna leave you but if u wanna go
lemme tell you everything you wanna know 
but you bolted on a heart of steel

when you touch me ill be colder than November feels
and i know that its been harder than you wanted
when we started i knew you were never honest
now were off it every night and every time i tty i feel like ima fold and die
maybe this all i wanted - its not
you said you were so exhausted 
i should drop
i would rather be alone than ever wanna hear you talk
if u jus gon give me all of that trash i would rather stop
i cannot rock wit no litter bug id rather date a rock. 🪨

litter bug (sk8miles)

Maze

rock bottom

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