prod @yunnygoldz
lyrics
Realtree shirt with a pair of truey jeans
Red as a tomato guess I forgot the Sun screen
Reel back my actions like fishing in the stream
Record a lot of music yeah I got big dreams
Fall back move forward
Life's up n down we all fight our own wars
The overarching hand tips the scale
Out of our control but we’ll still prevail

Life moves fast, hop on the freeway
Bumping in my srt listening to greenday
Im a basketcase, come N get a taste
And With how we life theres no time to waste

Hard Times harbour greater fears
Baby come close n stay right here
Halifax boardwalk on the pier 
Time will pass so shed those tears
We move fast but so does life
Consequences sacrifice
Only live once so dont think twice
we’ll find out what's wrong from right

Keep by my side you could be my piece of comfort
Likewise if ur confidence is ever under
If they dissing u ima clap back like the thunder
This the type life id dream of when i was younger

Slowly saving money not living pay to pay
School is almost over and im counting down the days
4 years down 2 more go, sounds like a lot but time aint slow
Soon today will be a long time ago


greater fears [prod. yunny goldz]

Lyrics ⬇️ 

hey dont remind me of this
hey dont remind me of that
it don’t surprise me that i had it all and then it kicked the can
i wish i aint care if you laugh
i care about their view too much
and idk where i stand
but im tryna be in the palm of ur hands

baby thats way too much
& i couldnt hold it if both of my hands held out
and i dont mean to say too much
i couldnt think why you want me to be around
you told me i did enough
but it really don’t compare to all that you done
and maybe if i was in love then i woulda chose you over drugs

you dont know what it means to be addicted
i was conflicted i was so broke
i think you sense it i was inflicting all of the
damage in all my bones
but that was my mission you wouldn’t get it
that was the only thing up in my home
other than dishes i had been washin just to get out of their face be alone

(halfhearted)

yeah i’m not alone when im up in the night 
voice in my brain said im crossing the line
coulda been worse but im barely alive, put down my weapon you sharpen your knife 
didn’t know any better,pull me apart by the holes in my sweater 
put a stamp on my letter, wait seven months but you still won’t answer 

lost and was found in the town i was raised in
praying on my downfall give em entertainment 
right hook to the jaw leave him right on the pavement 
for the last few months i been feeling like im vacant

i get racks and they know
family upset when i walk in the room
stuck on the times i was passing the bowl
but look at me now i found peace in my soul

(brecken)
you got a peice of my soul
i want it back like asap
you wanted me to go home
left you right there ima walk back 

told me that id get evicted if i ever got a place of my own

but i been here 4 months cuz i dont listen
honestly dont think you think i could grow

month four w/ halfhearted (dash)

lyrics ⬇️


figurative language



im lonely as often as you’re in my head
thoughts been depleting my every last breath
and i know
last year was cold 
reminds of every time i never told you so

said that i couldnt love you like the other ones in my past
you also told me if you dropped me you would never want me back
did that for a month
now its been minute
used me as crutch
til you left cuz you were livid

cut ties with ur enemies cuz ur trippin i could not
then ill be with my homies til im dead and ima rot
maybe everything you said to me was way wrose than you thought 
way too heavy like an anvil please oh lord just wish me gone

wish me gone
ima leave the same second you push me off
you made dive me off that cliff and i hit the bottom i hit the rocks

wheres the applause
 i thought you wanted me out of the universe up me in the stars
somehow it always feel dark
wish i could tell you that i could restart
but i can’t 
every night you talk to me i feel like you want me to feel like i’m an ant
step over me like the part in the pavement 
i feel like you want me rant


i ran out on everything you tried to fix cuz i couldnt pick up ur hand
watch me go down the list as everything i want just wont go to plan
i roll in the rubble and sticks i know that they can’t understand 
if you gave me one more wish then i would wish that i was them

i cant play pretend
cant go through all this again i know ill get revenge
eventually ill explain to everyone what i did
what i did

you scraped away that memory on skin with 
broken glad
tempted to exempt myself from everything i had

dont remind me of that addiction 
everytime i was there in an instant

now atleast where im at im reminded I exist 
sorry that its killing me i wish that we could live

pushing me and honestly i hate when you persist
but i been here ever forever so i cant even resist
i wish that every night you went out when u been drinking outta line wit all ur friends

switch up the top i don’t wanna slip
im off the bottle i wish i had bliss
i was out fully far in the abyss
if we departed id turn to a man and realize that everything you did was

switch the topic (everest)

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

every day the same bullshit
what the fuck is you pulling
you aint give em the context
you aint showin the full clip

everyday the same toolkit
who the fuck is you fooling
why you worried where im at
dont threaten me just pull it

who are u when im not around?
you wont ever make it out that town

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

sell me thru the goddamn payphone
co-drive in this rally race u didnt get the pace notes
anything and everything ill take it to the face smoke 
god i hate this place and i dont wanna wake tomorrow
 
[notahero]:

tryna quit these drugs is so hard
i know you can’t hold my hand through it all
i’ll keep singing through the fall
till the end of it all

but it’d be so much easier if you met me half way
i think i left a piece of myself at that lake
i wake up throwing up with my pale green face
nothings coming up from this sorrow i cant break

i heard you’re doing better now i hope you break a leg
i hope you break your face

before i go to sleep 4 pills to my face
when i wake up i feel mad that it’s another day
i’m puffing a medical cart this shit feel like it’s fucking laced
i’m fucking describing this shit to you let me go at my own pace

let me go at my own time
i know you love me by the way you take my jeans off it’s time to fucking dine
yea it’s time to fucking die

tell me who was your favorite person when you were alive
cause mine is you

i will not hesitate for smoke im like a juul
i can see the stars in your eyes ill put stars on your roof
she saw me crying im like babygirl nah im cool
nah im cool



context ft. notahero (jolst)

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

P. nomansland 

Support my friend enyu!

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

never ending spiral w/ enyu

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

thinking about you (jorko)

rock bottom

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