Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

thank you guys for the beat, love all of you deadwood

lyrics
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I don’t mind
When you don’t find the time
I think I like sometimes 
to be alone
Cause you just twist my words
And you make sure it hurts
I never get hopes up
That you’ll atone

I been back on the pills, shit
I don’t wanna feel this
When the thoughts all flood back
I just kill it
I been up and restless
Hoping for a check in
Praying for a message
Knowing damn well it’ll never come
And I’m not the one
You made sure I knew that
Hearts go flat,
It’s just time that proves that
That's what you said
Misconstrued? 
That’s every word by fucking word

I think everything will turn out for the best. (wraithontheporch x NE'ERDOWELL)

prod. by @rod

@rod
yeah i blame it on the drugs but it must be something else
writing lyrics bout my life with a gun on top my shelf
i dont got no one talk to man i really need some help
i just dont wanna put my feelings all on top of someone else

everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss

@wraithwilldie
I guess I’ll sit up in my car
Puffing loud in rerolled cigars
When you look back, is it ever fondly?
I get cold and nights just get long
I get sick of making these songs
When nothing hits the way that I want
Nothing feels the way that it was
I don’t think I’m fit for the part

@rod
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss

@wraithwilldie
You know
Everything about me
And you pick me
All apart
I’ll go
Everywhere that you go
Until you burn it
All to tar

@rod + @wraithwilldie
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i just wanna fucking die let me slit my wrist
need to clear my mind need to reload quick
got the high beams on 110 in the whip
blocked your number because 
everytime we talk you make me feel like shit
i really hate to wake up and just feel like this
i dont really miss you but i still reminisce
when i would hit your phone and every shot was a miss
(2x)

@wraithwilldie
I said to stay away because I can’t give what u take
I’m compressing and my head thinks maybe we just need a break
Okay?
I gave it all away
I tend to face the flames
I never bend, I break
So say it’s all okay
I guess you found the fucking cracks up in this armor
I harbor all the hatred you have given for a whole year straight
Yet you negotiate
The price upon my fate
I’d trade it all for heaven
But you will never take

clearing my head (web)

ty ne'erdowell goat for always helping me fix my dogshit mix

lyrics

-Wraith-
Girl don’t you know that
The words you have spoken
Throwing emotion
Are heavy and potent

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

I guess we don't get a happy ending
After all
All that happens always has to have the 
curtains fall
All the tragedy I kill away with alcohol
Try to numb the fucking feelings ‘fore I end it all

Dead on an impulse
Hate all my wishful
Thoughts cause I’m sinking
Right through the soil
Right through the armor
I thought I could guard her
Just another missed call
I can’t ever bother

I tried 
And I don’t know how to fix me
I’m dying to find the path forward
Her eyes paint all that she’s seeing
She’d leave but I’m such a hoarder
I adore her
Fuck no I just scorn her
Make a good fight
God the fucking war hurts
Shot right through the heart
Got the blood on my t-shirt
I don’t feel the love girl
I just feel the recoil

-yungcray-
all the damage that you done
you pierced right through my chest plate
I could never let you go
but if I did I might fade
ur the last piece to the puzzle
ur the key to get out the maze
and in my dreams I see the fire
im trapped below the rubble

I cant seem to help myself
I get into this trouble
is it hard 2 love me now 
got bruises on my knuckles
this shit seems 2 really get the fucking best of me
I cant seem 2 help myself
I get into this trouble

a new high
I said imma reach a new high
a new lie
that you're telling under blue skies
its alright
I said imma do my best to try
a blue night
I said imma reach a new high

I really want whats best for us
but you just think about yourself
you don't care about it
but its all I think about

theres no escape from this place 
I think we'll die here
what is love
its just fake
you said you'd try here

recoil w/ yungcray (dash)

Lyrics ⬇️ 

hey dont remind me of this
hey dont remind me of that
it don’t surprise me that i had it all and then it kicked the can
i wish i aint care if you laugh
i care about their view too much
and idk where i stand
but im tryna be in the palm of ur hands

baby thats way too much
& i couldnt hold it if both of my hands held out
and i dont mean to say too much
i couldnt think why you want me to be around
you told me i did enough
but it really don’t compare to all that you done
and maybe if i was in love then i woulda chose you over drugs

you dont know what it means to be addicted
i was conflicted i was so broke
i think you sense it i was inflicting all of the
damage in all my bones
but that was my mission you wouldn’t get it
that was the only thing up in my home
other than dishes i had been washin just to get out of their face be alone

(halfhearted)

yeah i’m not alone when im up in the night 
voice in my brain said im crossing the line
coulda been worse but im barely alive, put down my weapon you sharpen your knife 
didn’t know any better,pull me apart by the holes in my sweater 
put a stamp on my letter, wait seven months but you still won’t answer 

lost and was found in the town i was raised in
praying on my downfall give em entertainment 
right hook to the jaw leave him right on the pavement 
for the last few months i been feeling like im vacant

i get racks and they know
family upset when i walk in the room
stuck on the times i was passing the bowl
but look at me now i found peace in my soul

(brecken)
you got a peice of my soul
i want it back like asap
you wanted me to go home
left you right there ima walk back 

told me that id get evicted if i ever got a place of my own

but i been here 4 months cuz i dont listen
honestly dont think you think i could grow

month four w/ halfhearted (dash)

Prod. Michael Harrison 
Sorry I’m so experimental
Lyrics~

I’m so unspoken 
It’s all so hopeless 
This pen and pad the only way I’m copin 
Is it the tree that I drag  or the asthma that got me chokin 
No don’t come in please I’m ok  I’m just smokin 
But I haven’t seen you in weeks 
Talk back to my door as it speaks
Just checking in, can you breathe 
Answer me now and I’ll leave 

I been tryina write these tracks 
About what I feel but they trash 
Then do it again and again till I crash 
knew the caffeine wouldn’t last 
What a drag 
As I waste all the traits that I got from my mom and my dad 
I know this time it’s my bad 
I’m Haunted by all the ghosts from my past 

It’s crazy cause you’re like a poltergeist stuck in the shell of a man that you used to be 
Fuck you I hate you get out of that room shits getting old just give up on your dreams 
The puppeteers back at my door I can feel all his malice intent as he tries to tell what to think 
Like shit let me breath, quit pulling my strings

feed me to the noise

lyrics

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

i been pouring up some purple potions gotta better my flaws
youre right that i aint get the notion but still i called you
i think you think i have it easy baby what would you do if you were me
but who is me
swear im better off writing my eulogy
im so full of me
at the same time felt a decline in the way that im viewing me
im scraping up rust off my armor maybe that way i could get clean
i feel the atoms that make my being whole just fold and rot and die
she pour out red wine but she rolling brown eyes
i cant fight this battle baby theres a thorn in my side
it feels like too much energy just to try to survivie
i got none left im giving out pieces of my soul for this shit but the songs dropping right?
the songs drop on time
i fought a hard battle but the sword has dulled through time
i put this lighter to the blunt and watch it shine
it look just like a shooting star when im passing by

soon ill find out this shit taste like water when its late
i hope you satisfied my face stuck gray
youre gold, but i wear silver chains
yall make sure my funeral dont happen in the rain
they counted forty arrows when they made the case
i swear these crows dont do nothing for you except get you stuck
baby my cart is low so when we chill can you bring the blunt
cause im tryna smoke
im tryna smoke so much
im not the same man that you thought you knew
how better i was

better i was

thought u knew how better i was

scraping off the rust (p. kaydo)

lyrics ⬇️  

 I made this song on October 14th

its 2 am and you wont talk back
so how should i feel if you off of the map
tell me its real but see that its cap
i wanna walk with you 
for life you wanna take a nap
i got a solid scoop
you wanna lie and you wanna love
so i can’t rock wit you
even if its all that i got left
i tried to hike and it was a trek so it wasn’t worth the move
if its an emergency dial the number an ima put on my shoes
im gonna be there real soon
when i get there i hope ur not upset
i wanna share it with you no bunkbed
said youll be there but you want me to function
dont give a heads up act like its nothin
you couldn’t expect me to sit here breath girl cuz ima choke
you gon see you got ropes around my throat

no no dont remind me what you said
id rather take one to the chest
not a word of it made sense
maybe wed be better- better off as frie-

i couldnt even finish what i was gonna say
cuz it hurt my head too much i wish i could explain
ima keep on trying as long as i see a flame
i jus hate the option you wanna wash it down the drain
what could i say
i know its late
lemme explain
i dont wanna leave you but if u wanna go
lemme tell you everything you wanna know 
but you bolted on a heart of steel

when you touch me ill be colder than November feels
and i know that its been harder than you wanted
when we started i knew you were never honest
now were off it every night and every time i tty i feel like ima fold and die
maybe this all i wanted - its not
you said you were so exhausted 
i should drop
i would rather be alone than ever wanna hear you talk
if u jus gon give me all of that trash i would rather stop
i cannot rock wit no litter bug id rather date a rock. 🪨

litter bug (sk8miles)

Sad Souls - (Prod.Colabeats) - (Juice WRLD)

pretty sure if i tried to shoot myself it’d jam at this point

Lyrics:

torch what we had
that shit wouldn't last
fuck weed we pack kief for our passes
don't care who you send i'm not paying my taxes
lie me face down or just bury my ashes 
she's canon
i'm fodder
you try to convince me you're an introvert
pronounce what we were in the way of a proverb
hope i don't see you at one of my concerts
fuck water cuz i live on the monster
REPLACE ME AGAIN AND THEN USE ME LIKE CLOCKWORK
gave you a part on my song 
like you earned it
switch up the lyrics to prove that im learning
the cleft in my armor is much too inviting
the way that they gut me i guess that it might be
i think i'm in love with the way that she strikes me
the rupture of organs i'm beautifully dying

i'll blow all my money i got nothing to lose
i cannot vibe when our distance is huge
find somebody else
how the fuck could i ever
i spend all my nights vivid dreaming of you
say what you want i can say i've been used
this mind is my prison this heart is my tomb
if i am to die in a couple of weeks don't you buy me a funeral
save for your food

don't plan for tomorrows 
if i wake that's the plot
if i'm still alive i guess something went wrong
i'm capping at 30
and driving too quickly
if i am to die 
hope i shared all my sauce
wait in the car while i break in the spot
mold growing steady like cream on the crop
i do not know if i'll last thru december
if not fry my drives n release all the sessions

i think i have plot armor (prod. whyke)

GET U RIGHT!

rock bottom

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