it happened _outro (wraithontheporch)

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

every day the same bullshit
what the fuck is you pulling
you aint give em the context
you aint showin the full clip

everyday the same toolkit
who the fuck is you fooling
why you worried where im at
dont threaten me just pull it

who are u when im not around?
you wont ever make it out that town

12 deep im still lookin for the bottle
everytime i go to sleep i pray i miss tomorrow
anything and everything is never what i thought no
god i hate ur memories they make me feel so hollow

sell me thru the goddamn payphone
co-drive in this rally race u didnt get the pace notes
anything and everything ill take it to the face smoke 
god i hate this place and i dont wanna wake tomorrow
 
[notahero]:

tryna quit these drugs is so hard
i know you can’t hold my hand through it all
i’ll keep singing through the fall
till the end of it all

but it’d be so much easier if you met me half way
i think i left a piece of myself at that lake
i wake up throwing up with my pale green face
nothings coming up from this sorrow i cant break

i heard you’re doing better now i hope you break a leg
i hope you break your face

before i go to sleep 4 pills to my face
when i wake up i feel mad that it’s another day
i’m puffing a medical cart this shit feel like it’s fucking laced
i’m fucking describing this shit to you let me go at my own pace

let me go at my own time
i know you love me by the way you take my jeans off it’s time to fucking dine
yea it’s time to fucking die

tell me who was your favorite person when you were alive
cause mine is you

i will not hesitate for smoke im like a juul
i can see the stars in your eyes ill put stars on your roof
she saw me crying im like babygirl nah im cool
nah im cool



context ft. notahero (jolst)

w/ @user-642636378
produced by king theta
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(cxrter)
they say i’m acing
used to the lack of, complacent
call it an anomaly, but i’m breaking
i’m stagnant by myself
so hidden in my shell
cause i’m trying to decipher what’s even implied
trying not to leave it all unsaid, i’m fine
like a semi turning cities, i’m swinging wide
satisfaction, is it fake when we say goodnight?
where's the trial run? we all just turned 21
just reminders of all things that i haven’t done
no directions, expectations of fantasies
gardening misery
yeah i’m so sorry

she said that it’s okay
i don’t get why it’s happening
just hope that i’m enough
these kinda things are challenging
but i wish that i could 
find the space and
save the day
but i’m too caught up in your eyes
i can tell it’s me, it’s what it seems
miss understood, i fall in line

(halfhearted)
and it happens to me every time
you got a two faced love, i don’t wanna try
if its all my fault, then i’ll testify
i try to break your fall when u call at night
called it off
applying pressure
wrote a song
left it on your dresser
if i was wrong, then it’s nothing new
i gotta bite my tongue when i talk to you
i’m better off now
cause i was at a loss, and i couldn’t be found
couldn't get across cause the the bridge had burned down
i’m out of options

(cxrter)
she said that it’s okay
i don’t get why it’s happening
just hope that i’m enough
these kinda things are challenging
but i wish that i could 
find the space and
save the day
but i’m too caught up in your eyes
i can tell it’s me, it’s what it seems
miss understood, i fall in line

ace/21 (feat. halfhearted) (prod. king theta)

spotlight

diet plan

gravel road 
driving home
every pothole in wisconsin
people grow
i dont know
if we have much in common, anymore

iv been one with the silence
only you can fill my void
promise that im trying
promise this was not my choice

cuz all that i know is defeat
white flags, running back to places iv seen
i know this damn movie by scene and Frame
and characters names
turn it off

its been hard to be honest
i hate whay iv done
left at the bottom
im one with the mud
was never the fondest 
of showing you love
but ill still deposit
your rent every month

half of these problems 
i did it just to make you mad
if im not an option
dont say you will take me back

phone screen just faded black
i couodnt call
board up my windows im sick of your cold
youre passive aggresivly gaining control
remember that halloween
i made you my home

babe its not you it was me
self inflicted wound where i bleed
you had all that i need
if these walls could feel tension theyd scream

a movie i’ve memorized [jacob vallen]

lyrics

if you stay imma stay down
she saw my ribs like im a greyhound
i felt sparks during the makeout
this shit wouldnt be here if i could take it out
dont drink too much im not in a rush
i drink too much and i feel too much
yea i woke up inside a carousel
you knew nothing bout the way i felt
life could be great if i could just get out
blowing o's with this kush its tempting me to lay down
im seeing weird shit off this purple im inside a clay house
now i got fans that i dont know feel like the boss man now
yea i miss you so much but its not the reason that im calling
i swear im in too deep my soul feel dirty even when its polished
you dont even have to see me for the shit i dont acknowledge
she said are you good and i said baby girl im solid
1800  fueled pulled up with my bros look like the army
i can tell you never proof read cause you write like fucking charlie
i swear this 3.5 just gave me wings like im a harpie
ill always be your ken if you will always be my barbie

i swear i used to love the way you stick to me like pollen
everytime you’d talk to me now i feel like weve
fallen
fallen in way deeper than i ever thought wed be
i jist feel like sleepin everytime you talk to me
oh my god make it stop
i could tell you what had went wrong
but you would lie to me and tell me its enough
i could tell you what i want you would tell me its a bluff
I swear its so overwhelming that i fell out of love
i fell outta touch when u told me that its over
im not the one
but i had went had sober for like a month
just to get thrown on the road outta luck
and i been in a rut i admit but that dont mean that you should always throw a fit
take a pic look at my fit
i swear that they think its legit
lemme take other sip
i wish that you wouldn’t trip
all these thoughts i wish i did
but i dont act on what i talk about
like every time you talk to me i feel i wanna block it out
and every single part of me dont wanna see me walk around
but thats all that they talk about
so i been tryna fix it all
i never miss my adderal
but it makes me feel horrible
but atleaast its been tolerable
and i aint been dishonorable
i hate all of these obstacles but i think ill het thru em all

greyhound (p. under the maple tree)

its more like a dream
its hard to see right now
but i promise that ill come out clean
Just let me bleed
its gonna be a fine amount
my shirts gonna seep
heartache gets the best of me and i cant ever sleep
i cant express this enough
been saying please for so long that i cant breath
so it seems
that its the end of my life
its not a dream
i wish it was
To give me peace
like a gun
the smoking leaves
hard to tell whats right
dont look at me in my eyes again
or you’re gonna pay the price
im not sure what’s going on in my head
but i gotta get out my mind
yea u gotta step outside again
the wind make me feel alright
and ion even really wanna pretend
but i still try

what do you want from me
well i would do anything for you
pull the stars out from outer space
and ill make em all into a bracelet
its not reflecting in my paycheck
but i got time lets get to wasting
i know just how hard you been working
but i dont have anything else that i can give to you
blood falls out of my clothes
my body gonna fall apart just any day now
im dealing with my own shit im sorry i dont got time to take you out
but you look so perfect inside of that blue dress
im so fucked right now but i been tryna use less
im useless
feel my sanity going away im feeling clueless
remember that time when i was drunk and crying
swear that i heard you laugh
i swear i miss the old days girl and all i want is you back
losing my mind again
tell me whats right again

hard to tell whats right
dont look at me in my eyes again
or you’re gonna pay the price
im not sure what’s going on in my head
but i gotta get out my mind
yea u gotta step outside again
the wind make me feel alright
and ion even really wanna pretend
but i still try


seep (p. under the maple tree)

prod. ?

lyrics:

Scorpio:
i miss us talking
about nothing at all
staying up till the morning
on a video call

i wanna chitchat
babe i really miss that
whyd we have to go and break apart like a kitkat?
said youd stick around but where are you now?
i see you out and about with a new crowd x2

Liru:
you dont get how much I needed that
woke me up and now I feel too bad
I been looking for some reasons 
on why you cant believe me
it was never meant to last

yeah and you say you dont love me anymore
but you dont even listen to your heart girl
I been feeling different now its over
I been acting different now im older
yeah and maybe one day you might just come over
maybe one day you might just get over it
girl your lips taste better than a soda
damn I miss the time when we were closer

he4vy:
difference in your actions yeah i saw it
dissociated never bought it
passions not a part of being toxic
i still have my issues being honest 

only feelin better with a 3.5
focus on yourself i said ill be fine
smoke until i feel it in my damn spine
hate to admit it but youre my life line

hate to admit it
yeah i tell when youre distant 
we used to talk everyday 
now its like you never listen 
wanna go back to the days 
we used to smoke in my kitchen
different time different place 
different life i was given

scorpio:
i wanna chitchat
babe i really miss that
whyd we have to go and break apart like a kitkat?
said youd stick around but where are you now?
i see you out and about with a new crowd x2

i miss that (feat. Liru x He4vy)

lyrics below

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems
so oblivious to everything you do i have receipts
you wont look at them youd rather act like youre asleep

colder than ive ever been but i sweat in my sheets
but its not what you think
every part of my body push myself to the brink
you only do some things and i do a whole lot
make me feel like nothing
i wish that i could stop

baby baby quit the bluffing i know you dont wanna talk
and it feels like you’re steady runnin from everything i want
you could walk walk walk
ill be there until the end
push me out way farther than you ever thought id get
i cant admit that it was all up n my head
cuz i got eyes and i know what i see is dead

gimme time and gimme effort then youll know know
wasted lies because i saw right thru your skull skull skull
maybe try as if you’re cutting with a knife and it was dull
cuz right now how youre doing it, ur not cutting anything but my soul

i said it sofly under my breath before you had to leave
sorry that its so obvious sorry its all it seems

hate you remind me of my ex
wish that you never told me that
wish that you told me i was better than they was
when i was alone that night

cuz i was on my own had no more strength to fight
no more length in life
tortured tained eyes
and you don’t realize anything that you’ve done

receipts (yunnygoldz)

overthinking

rock bottom

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