produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

@nevermadeithome:
just one look at you
that's when i knew
[x2]

@lottaheart:
that’s when i knew that you were meant for me
keep every letter that you sent to me
yeah, i cherish every memory
i just want you next to me
cause when you are

i don’t feel as bad anymore
when I’m with you
we’re all alone,
just me and you inside my room
when you get sad, I’m here for you
you’re here for me too
don’t want you to leave, she said "me too"
[x2]

@nevermadeithome:
i don't feel bad,
anymore
just the butterflies,
right in my core
i love your shoes
i think they're cute
and then she turned and said,
"i love you too"
you make my thoughts crazy
and if it's 2am,
i would trek down to your house alone
the roses that i bought
have wilted in the dark
they could've been so beautiful

@lottaheart:
i don’t feel as bad anymore
when I’m with you
we’re all alone,
just me and you inside my room
when you get sad, I’m here for you
you’re here for me too
don’t want you to leave, she said "me too"
[x2]

don’t want you to leave cause i need you
travel round the world just to see you
i would give you me to complete you
she said she do the same, she agreed to

i dont feel as bad [lostcage]

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

always itching
waiting for 
ur text to come thru

i cannot believe
that there's no pain
in this world

set back 
relax
i can't 

too much
inside
again

gotta
leave
my skin

cuts
relieve
the achin

i thought 
i had a future
but

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

but u never kno (lostcage)

lyrics

im outside
i’m like where the hell you been
i’ll slide
wondering how the hell you been
are you alright
buckle up and put your head back
i’ll play you my new song
i hope that you like it

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

i ain’t see you in so long
but i promise i been working hard stack money on my phone
i don’t talk that much so i barf up words on top these songs
im quiet in the back of the party sipping white claw and patron
just stay with me for a few days help me figure out what the fuck i’m on
baby this big boy shit
i can’t rest im too grown
my back breaking and i can’t find my eyes cuz they too low
my demons like rubrics cube lately
id figure it out but i don’t know

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

she love me too much to remind me that this happens every time
u know i been having trouble staying inside the lines
a little swervy i been drinking every night
it’s like im celebrating not wanting to be alive
my body a temple i can’t turn into a shrine
can’t snuff my flame out before i even find the light
i don’t know how the hell i been am i alright
a couple drinks and autotune and call it a night

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

shrine (under the maple tree)

(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

soul partner

if the bass drop in the house yk its a cleanse
ima keep make shiftin these melodies up in my head

dont wait up for me i wont know advance
if im ever gonna wanna leave or im in a transe
i wanna get out my bed but part of me saying i cant
its been cold start but im gettin up off the bench 
feel like they trick shottin my heart off of the ledge
so i try to get up but then they do it again
thought that felt much better
then i felt the cold hard floor on my skin
i always said it dont matter
and now i been takin back all that i said
i went out cruisin after 
just to go clear out the thoughts in my head
but i wont ever get no rest yea i wont ever go to bed fr
i just lay there and i think
april never come soon enough when im 21 im finna drink
thats what THEY think
when i found out thats how i really feel
i sink down and swallow all my fear

yea at the lake side in the village out by the pier
somehow worried still im lookin at my rear view
i thought my intentions were always clear
ill have a fencin match with all my tears
i know theres so much gaps in all my years
but all i ask is that you keep me near
and if you dont think thats just how i really feel
well then im sorry but i tried while i was here

what they think (neverforever)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

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