Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

produced by nevermadeithome
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completely non profit

interpolates 'the weekend' by modern baseball

lyrics

i have nothing to offer u
in truth
because i am too perfectly self aware
to care
about much of anything
i'll take too much of anything
oh dear god, im withering
when she said love
i always win

and she was right i see it now
every night i think about
crooked spines n making out
she's alright, she always was

i don't care too much about anything
ill take too much of anything 
oh dear god, im withering 
when she said love
i always win

put my shit in boxes
im moving to the cottage
in the city, don't work office
in the bar im slicing orange
im here for the sad and the hype shit
like im getting back on the grindset 
if passion was lost imma find it
there's lead in my head still a titan 
tight pack bowl and i pull right thru
gonna work this job gonna write these tunes
gonna take my shit, gonna hide from view
gonna make this work just in spite of u

cus i don't
no i don't
no i don't
no i don't 

care too much about anything
i drink too much, if anything
can't do much but promise me
if u need help my phone will ring 


u've got a smile that could light this town
and we might need it
most of my old friends i can only stand for the weekend




city cottage (nevermadeithome)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

lyrics ⬇️ 

thats typical 
wishing for a rainbow by the waterfall
Cuz rn i cant even really think straight
when you look my way i try my best to stand tall
everything i do and everything i say
i think all the things i do just make you frustrate

feelings coming out when i see the lighthouse
which way would you rather see me find out

time out, think i wanna live my life a little more
take pride now in everything i do and what j got in store
ear drums get too loud
i dont hear them walk in
tryna make my parents proud but i dont do it that often

but i would do this another hundred times over again
super cold inside but i need a walk in the wind
I dont wanna try fixing up whats broken for them
need a lullaby so i can go sleep in a tent

Trap door 
get me out this cycle of sin
four walls got me here until i dont give in
or give up
outta luck
used to washing all my cuts
in a rut
oh so what
you got better things above

yea and thats a promise
no tbey dont give a **** bout me
i seen the comments 
yea maybe i do live cheap but i been savin up my money so that i could be free
its not so common but i do know that my people love me

i made a promise then i realized it was too hard to keep
dr pepper and some kettle chips for lunch by the sea
never thought that i could see it where i wanted to be

super beautiful nightgown 
always matched with a sad frown
push on me i wont tap out
lately live in a glass house

typical (yunnygoldz)

staring at the sky pt.2 ft sendflowrs (caves)

lyrics //

didnt bother writing
i swore its all behind me
i saw it all play out
i saw the silver lining

guess we both figured out 
the reason weve been hiding
sick of all the run around
im sick of how you want him

you can try, break it off 
turn around take the fall
it was just the two of us
left the town where we grew up

holding onto grudges
im holding on nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into ur blood

(pump me right into your blood
im my mamas only son 
im my mamas only son)


i can be the one you want
i cant heal a broken heart
found me in a local bar’s street
find it funny when they run
find a feeling in a cup
fighting ppl that i love

my fist been clinched, i dnd my phone
miss the kid i was but now hes grown
if you’re the queen
then id be at ur throne
a peasant in the midst of common folk

you can try, break it off
turn around take a fall
it was just the two of us, 
left the town where we grew up
holding on to grudges, i’m holding on to nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into your blood

substance [neverforever]

lyrics

im outside
i’m like where the hell you been
i’ll slide
wondering how the hell you been
are you alright
buckle up and put your head back
i’ll play you my new song
i hope that you like it

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

i ain’t see you in so long
but i promise i been working hard stack money on my phone
i don’t talk that much so i barf up words on top these songs
im quiet in the back of the party sipping white claw and patron
just stay with me for a few days help me figure out what the fuck i’m on
baby this big boy shit
i can’t rest im too grown
my back breaking and i can’t find my eyes cuz they too low
my demons like rubrics cube lately
id figure it out but i don’t know

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

she love me too much to remind me that this happens every time
u know i been having trouble staying inside the lines
a little swervy i been drinking every night
it’s like im celebrating not wanting to be alive
my body a temple i can’t turn into a shrine
can’t snuff my flame out before i even find the light
i don’t know how the hell i been am i alright
a couple drinks and autotune and call it a night

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

shrine (under the maple tree)

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

Nobody Can Play Me

The fourth Music Chat exclusive project by FiviRNB @fivirnb

Chosen (louiejlewis)

SALT FACTORY (prod. nofr1end)

rock bottom

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