Keeping Me Sleeping

Vibes XVIII

Depression + Loneliness = Tragedy

My Favorite Songs From Friends

American

DEADLY(jimmy hooks)

Lyrics:

she was killing time
claiming she wants you back
but that she doesn't know 
for sure
said to all ur friends that she'd end her life
on live stream
with a smile
and u said

'i only knew u as a paradise
when i left u
i'll only know what i had that time
when i let it all loose'
x2

oh
u said 'i'll take my leave
to where
we 
used to dare everything in our no mans land 
with its grey sky and sad clouds
u were the bowling alley lust
in a dirty neon room
i was the guy u only knew for a few nights
we thrust so outta time
but we wanted it
some eager awkward lust
so clusmy and in bloom

yeh i only know what i have when i let it go bad
when i let it go bad
when i let it go
kid u only knew that u were happy now 
that ur feeling sad
now that ur feeling sad
let the cycle go
round but it feels a little long
it's a circus yeh i'm had
let my stool flip up 
let the rope go
yeh i only know what i have
when i let it go bad 
when i let it go bad
when i let it go

'i only knew u as a paradise
when i left u
i'll only know what i had that time
when i let it all loose'
x2

oh
i said i'll take my leave 
to where
we
we took everything we could in our no name lanes but
it always
it always held it's gloom
yeh this dead town stayed still
always killing time
shoplifting tinnies
smoking endless glue
we moved so outta the times
so eager to be amused

yeh i only know what i have when i let it go bad
when i let it go bad
when i let it go
x2

'i only knew u as a paradise
when i left u
i'll only know what i had that time
when i let it all loose'
x2

empty thrills

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Depression

VIDEO

Dax - Depression

snowstorm

all i wanted. (trying.)

forget me when the summer ends

again

prod. heyzbee & onidtnom

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest 

honestly, i’m struggling, but i don’t think that’s fair to say 
god i feel so selfish every time i write and the say way 
i’ve been feeling recently, i don’t wanna stay the same
this a cry for help but no one cares, i do this day by day
are you listening to me, every word can you repeat?
god it feels like you’re a liar when you say you’re caring please
it’s all upsetting to me, everything you say is cheap 
you just wanna make me feel better but that’s not what i need 

AVXiD:
i been getting worse
everyday i turn
bb can we take it back a little
back to what we were
let my body purge 
let my systems burn
enter in my heart and sew it up cuz it had start to hurt

split my brain into pieces
u know that i need 
im sick of being
who im not 
somehow seeing
somehow breathing
barely bleeding
let it rot

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down (feat. AVXiD)

shoutout my guy sin

"if i sit down" soon

come home, nomad (feat S.I.N.) [prod stoic]

Game Day Prod. Malice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xOG7MLPnj-Q&ab_channel=enxgmv

Where You Once Were |prod. pilotkid (MUSIC VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

prod. c world 

lyrics :



I can tell you all about my 
very ordinary life 
but I know deep inside
you would never even give me a chance 

I was really hoping I could find
somebody to call mine 
an spend a lil time  
you would never even give me a chance 

Right before the night got closer  
I’d like to know if 
I can win you over 
Would you just give me your hand let’s have a dance 

she said no thank you no surprise 
I should expect this every time 
still was one for me to find 

Tapped out can’t find you 
There was not a single thing for me to do
Tapped out can’t find you 
There was no a single thing I can do x2

I know there was only one I need
No one wanted to be stuck with me 
should I just wait and maybe see

I know there was only one I need
No one wanted to be stuck with me 
should I just wait and maybe see

I can tell you all about my 
very ordinary life 
but I know deep inside
you would never even give me a chance 

I was really hoping I could find
somebody to call mine 
an spend a lil time  
you would never even give me a chance 

Right before the night got closer  
I’d like to know if 
I can win you over 
Would you just give me your hand let’s have a dance

she said no thank you no surprise 
I should expect this every time 
still was one for me to find

ordinary life

particles p. wraithontheporch

Cottonmouth

On Guard

Deep End

I feel this weight on my chest
I pray my soul to keep
Oh yeah to give it some rest

I'm awake till the sun's up
Cause I'm scared to sleep
No nightmares of monsters
Just dreams of you and me

Suicide on my mind again
I just want all the pain yeah to end
I can't get you out of my head
I might just jump off the edge

Tell me who would care anyway
Fuck it, inside, I'm already dead

Where'd it all go wrong
When did you get so numb
Don't wanna get up, oh no
I wonder how will it end
I'm thinking suicide
Wanna get out of here
I wanna get up out of here
Wanna get out of here

I fall apart, I'm my own enemy
It's all my fault, I hate how I'm empty

I won't lie, I've been wearing the same old jeans
For the past two weeks
Getting high off of anything, my mind
Running in circles tonight

Suicide all on my mind
Running out of options and time
I don't f*ck with that pity love
Y'all the reason why I can't trust

I don't f*ck with that fake love
I'd rather feel nothing yeah nothing at all

Where'd it all go wrong
When did you get so numb
Don't wanna get up, oh no
I wonder how will it end
I'm thinking suicide
Wanna get out of here
I wanna get up out of here
Wanna get out of here

My head running in circles again
When will the torment all end

Tell me that you understand
I crave for something I won't get
My tank running on empty
How did you become my enemy

I know you think oh less of me
I'm on the verge of insanity
Come on girl, stop the front
I'm not the one you want
I'm not the one you want
We know we go

Suicide on my mind again

I just want all the pain yeah to end
Maybe I'll just jump off the edge

Suicide on my mind again
I just want all the pain yeah to end

Maybe I'll just jump off the edge
F*ck

SUICIDE w/@yuusef (prod. lostangel x jaysset)

This song is out now on all platforms you can listen to it anywhere

Lyrics

CHORUS

I been running for days
Can't run away from the love it's a maze
Ooh
There's no escape
I thought the love was real it was fake
Ooh
She got a bad soul
Bad soul, bad soul
But I can't let go
Let go, let go
I know
I know, I know
She's nothing but trouble

VERSE

Thought you was in love I beg your pardon
But it's all my fault cause you showed flags when we started
I wanted her so fucking bad but she heartless
Now I'm alone I'm going back to the darkness
Now I'm back on my shit
Alone again yeah
I won't quit
I won't quit yeah
Back in the dark I'm running yeah
Inside the maze I'm stuck in here
And I know she don't fucking care woah

CHORUS

I been running for days
Can't run away from the love it's a maze
Ooh
There's no escape
I thought the love was real it was fake
Ooh
She got a bad soul
Bad soul, bad soul
But I can't let go
Let go, let go
I know
I know, I know
She's nothing but trouble

VERSE

I want somebody else ugh
I want something real ugh
All these girls from hell ugh
They put me under spells ugh
When I try to love it wastes my time yeah
It never ends it control my mind yeah
I wish the pain would just die yeah
But it don't it just multiply
I don't know but I'm holding on
But at the same time I wanna let go

CHORUS

I been running for days
Can't run away from the love it's a maze
Ooh
There's no escape
I thought the love was real it was fake
Ooh
She got a bad soul
Bad soul, bad soul
But I can't let go
Let go, let go
I know
I know, I know
She's nothing but trouble

Running For Days (Prod. Arson)

anywhere.

lyrics

im outside
i’m like where the hell you been
i’ll slide
wondering how the hell you been
are you alright
buckle up and put your head back
i’ll play you my new song
i hope that you like it

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

i ain’t see you in so long
but i promise i been working hard stack money on my phone
i don’t talk that much so i barf up words on top these songs
im quiet in the back of the party sipping white claw and patron
just stay with me for a few days help me figure out what the fuck i’m on
baby this big boy shit
i can’t rest im too grown
my back breaking and i can’t find my eyes cuz they too low
my demons like rubrics cube lately
id figure it out but i don’t know

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

she love me too much to remind me that this happens every time
u know i been having trouble staying inside the lines
a little swervy i been drinking every night
it’s like im celebrating not wanting to be alive
my body a temple i can’t turn into a shrine
can’t snuff my flame out before i even find the light
i don’t know how the hell i been am i alright
a couple drinks and autotune and call it a night

blunt something like my therapist start talking when i light it
i act like i don’t care about it but then i get to writing
just cuz i lost your spark don’t mean that i can’t reignite it
love you too much to leave so imma stay and try to fight it
love you too much to hurt you so i fuck around and lie
but i’m not tryna burden you from what’s burning me inside
it’s okay tho
it’s alright
baby i’m outside
baby where the hell you been can you tell me what’s on your mind

shrine (under the maple tree)

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Lyrics: 
i'm spending every day
goin insane
talkin to screens
voices in the walls they squeeze me

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

welcome to the era of mass death
unemployment
oligarks
and isolated enjoyment
natures collapse
with self accountability the central employment
not the systemic poisons 
and our daily routines
given more to screens
their reality illusive yet intrusive
click bait dreams
happy days where desires
are figured out for me
let my pores perspire
formulations for my needs
oh...
and a couple of crowds 
are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

well you might feel so corny when you put love first
cos lovin doesn't talk inside the echo church
every roll i'm on they follow in every angry word
daily saving different targets 
manifest my thirst

opinions 
i'm surrounded 
might be catered to til the grave
arteries clogged but still enabled 
on many boards of the same face
see the one's you disagree with 
silenced and called fascistic
no one can expose their ignorance
when they're not platformed with real statistics
oh...
and the crowds are at each others necks again

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud

so gimme your hate
your hate speech
hate speech so i can speak freely 
no one gets shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb
when you hear them out loud

its them that preach
preach so loud
so loud
but don't say much really
they don't get shot down 
when their shut down
they only sound dumb when you hear them out loud
x2

them that preach

rock bottom

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