I'm left wanting more
it rains and it pours
and I'm sitting here in and out every year while death lurks at the door
I try to just find
some peace in my mind
but she left me quick
a gust blew out the wick 
watch the smoke rising on
~
I'm never content with myself
and truthfully I need some help
but ill say I'm fine
I'm never fine
I cannot find
the answers to questions I play on repeat again inside my mind
I'm so damn blind
my life seems so perfect but contemplate worth and I'm met my time
I hope this is worth it, I'll push on to taste those lips one more time

Left Wanting More [Prod. IOF]

Prod Kado!

I don't need to talk girl I need an intervention

Why you always giving me the business
Always in my face or in my mentions
She just want to be the center of attention
I don't need to talk girl i need an intervention

Sit down girl
Tell me what's the story
I don't want to hear that you're waiting for me
You were just fine
Waving goodbye
Better off now it's better luck next time
You know how I am I know it's hard to relate
I really don't understand
How I made such a mistake
How you could break every promise and Leave me there in your wake
If I'm being honest
I always knew you were fake
You always knew I was broken
Took advantage of that
I guess that I was just hoping
You would learn to relax
But you were cutting me open
You got caught you I the act
I wish you'd leave me alone
I'm never calling you back
Sit down girl
Tell me what's the story?
I don't want to hear
That you're waiting for me
Now I'm just fine
Waving goodbye
Better off now it's Better luck next time

Why you always giving me the business
Always in my face or in my mentions
She just want to be the center of attention
I don't need to talk girl i need an intervention

Better Luck Next Time

f r 8 t r a i n

Nothing I say or do will change it
Memories last

Changing feelings n switching wit the seasons at last
Not stuck in the past, I got scars on my back
Blood on my bed, room filled with red
Can't see past it right now but there's something ahead

I dunno what u wanted but can I take a wild guess?
U wanted something, or someone who was less of a fucking mess

Memories past nah there’s no going back 
Sometimes I feel so sad cause nothing good ever lasts 

You’re all that I had now and you’re gone like that 
We stabbed each other’s backs and things turned out bad 

Now I’m messing up yeah I don’t know where I’m at 
Feelings gone so fast oh yea that’s a fact 

I used to be so attached then you packed your bags , it was over like that , now baby that’s a wrap 

I was such a mess I was so depressed
Under so much stress turned into a mess 
I was such a mess I was so depressed 
Under so much stress turned into a mess

mess ft. LA LUKO (prod. The Ushanka Boy)

not fair w/ sage envie x kennedyxoxo (p+ shyburial)

Lyrics:
no she wont wake till the sun rise
but i wont live through the night time
swear to god she was on my side
but now i guess that its my time

sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream
sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream

notcursed:
i can't fall asleep without a nightmare
call me crazy but it helps me when ur right there
cannot scream through all the noise
of those who don't care
crying out your name
tell me that you're still here

freeze up
freezing air pulls through your teeth
i need to wake up
somebody wake me from this sleep
oh but the sleep bugs
feasting over me
i'm so rotted by defeat

20ofive:
sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream
sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream

Sleep Walk Ft notcursed (prod.5head)

(Chorus 2x)

Cast out from the river made mountains
Left now from the village I was found in 
Brought down from the stars I was hiding 
Now I’m on the green earth so exciting 

(Verse)

Star dust, my brain is made of something that is made up 
But wait up, even at light speed I have become rust
But so what, while like this I transform and go numb 
And go dumb, you put this in my mind I’m sorry alone
Run away from the place that I used to call home cuz I dunno what to do 
Hunted in a way you can never expect but I’m terrified and I’m scared to move
Punched in the face with a wave of hate and a taken soul im scared to lose
I cannot feel but I’m scared it’s real cuz I’m not sure what is these volumes
Aye, as I fall down I made more life
Fell into the mud, twigs, roots, and that’s precise
Now I’m being cut off like it is a knife
But to me it’s all done in the blink of the eye 

(Chorus 2x)

Cast out from the river made mountains
Left now from the village I was found in 
Brought down from the stars I was hiding 
Now I’m on the green earth so exciting 

(Verse - senzu)

So far yet so close 
My heart is still at home 
Say goodbye to every thing that I know 
Not feeling alive I don’t really wanna die tho 
Been a year and yet it still feels strange 
A year from now will I feel this way
Same shhh but a different day 
Moved to the mountains and it feels so gray

(Chorus 2x)

Cast out from the river made mountains
Left now from the village I was found in 
Brought down from the stars I was hiding 
Now I’m on the green earth so exciting

mountains (feat. senzu) (cxrter x ertu x jolst)

~2300~

i wrote this song a few years ago about my predisposition to drug addiction. I never planned on sharing this publicly but I wanted to keep my SC page as more of a "time capsule" so here it is. I've lost many loved ones to the cycle of addiction and i'm grateful for my friends who have helped keep me grounded over the years even when things have been hard <3 love you.

predisposition (you weren't meant to hear this)

WEDDING

Just a memory

"SERAPHELLE"

featuring. @saturnslament
produced by @zyrom
Mixed and mastered by @zyrom
Cover art by @the0000

LYRICS :

theo :

The longer I’m breathing, the tighter the noise on my soul
Dragging my past like a carcass behind me, while the years’ fading it’s taking a toll
I rot in a room full of echoes that scream when I claw at the walls
Thousands of mirrors distort me, breaking each time that I glance
Cannot escape from their claws
The doubts are just piling. It’s reaching the ceiling
And I cannot get to my door
My legs are so weak, they both turned into roots
Digging their way onto the floor
As I’m running away, I just turn in a circle. I cannot do it no more
I’m afraid of the calm and addicted to storms
The noises are feeding the mind of a corpse
Drown out the thoughts, don’t want em no more
Rip off my face just to hear myself screaming
The silence surrounds me when I close the door
I cannot keep living like this
Choking on quiet, I’m hearing things I simply cannot ignore

saturn :

I’m afraid of the calm and addicted to storms
The noises are feeding the mind of a corpse
Drown out the thoughts, don’t want em no more
Rip off my face just to hear myself screaming
The silence surrounds me when I close the door
I cannot keep living like this
Choking on quiet, I’m hearing things I simply cannot ignore

The longer I’m living, the more I regret being born
The memories fossilize into my core, pick up the chisel. I don’t want this weight anymore
I wither away like a plant that’s been watered a little too much
The mold reaches down to my roots and my nucleus starts to decay, I just can’t get enough
Why am I afraid? Why can’t I stop the adrenaline flooding my veins?
I cannot tell if I’m safe, need a phlebotomy just to feel lighter again
Vulture circling above me, at least there's somebody that wants me to stay
I don’t wanna deal with the pain, manifest all of my fears till my barrier breaks

I’m afraid of the calm and addicted to storms
The noises are feeding the mind of a corpse
Drown out the thoughts, don’t want em no more
Rip off my face just to hear myself screaming
The silence surrounds me when I close the door
I cannot keep living like this
Choking on quiet, I’m hearing things I simply cannot ignore

theo :

I’m afraid of the calm and addicted to storms
The noises are feeding the mind of a corpse
Drown out the thoughts, don’t want em no more
Rip off my face just to hear myself screaming
The silence surrounds me when I close the door
I cannot keep living like this
Choking on quiet, I’m hearing things I simply cannot ignore

f r 8 t r a i n

not home.