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Producer:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCEhnOJAij40dRfqZaqHZMOw

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

pop these pills till its over
everybody hating on lil october
thats why im staying high
no im never staying sober
ill see you in the sky girl
im never growing older
im caught in the same pain
im always growing colder
dont even know my full name
you call yourself a doxxer
girl cut up my brain
call her a doctor
get a new bitch in the same day
and i dont even want her

if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
if u want me to stop
hit the thc
on the grind to the top
with my bpd
if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
used to wanna be a cop
endless misery
watch your body drop
coz its me vs me

these thoughts in my brain 
askin me why id stay 
my life is a nightmare 
it wont go away
i lie through my teeth
and say that im okay
pretend that its normal be feelin this way
its not okay 
its not alright
the battle inside is like every night
myself wants to kill me 
i put up a fight
im still wearing the mask 
when i pick up the pint
put that shit to my head
it cant be the end
i just wanted out
now im on the fence
i know its crazy
but in my defense
i prolly am too
im off of the meds 
like i said im borderline
whatd you expect
got a hole in my soul
but im gettin bread
my horizon is somewhere that 
ill never tread
holdin on to what ive got 
and the pain wont end

if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
if u want me to stop
hit the thc
on the grind to the top
with my bpd
if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
used to wanna be a cop
endless misery
watch your body drop
coz its me vs me

me vs me w/ HKFiftyOne (prod. Xenshel)

beautiful guitar -> @safeatlast

Lyrics:

jaded in the backstreets
she'd hit the gas flyin past me
5 guys girl ur trashy
9 shots like who put me in the front seat
ay
guardin on my playlist
wired up on go while the tape spin
kind face but he a rapist
no name
no face
still complacent

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after?
this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after

-

where after
where after
where after
where after

where after
where after
where after
where after

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote

where after?

where after? (prod. safeatlast x hero)

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

strawberry amnesia

Lyrics:
Sometimes I wonder if you listen to the songs I do
I know that music's in your blood, it's always in mine too
Since we don't talk this is my way of reaching out to you
And now the sunset makes me think your name in every hue

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

spookybands:
Are you looking at the moon right now?
I can see it in your eyes, I don't think you ever really loved me
Did you buy yourself a beer last night?
And then some whiskey right after, anyway that's how I'm passing the time

And did you tell her about me? 
That new girl that you seeing
I bet she thought my name was cool

Does she text you while you on your way over
Telling you to look up at the moon
That's what I used to do.

These memories just turn to pain
And then get mixed up in my brain
I won't ever be okay
The bar is open every day

Hold me while I drift away
You don't have to miss me baby
I just tell myself you are
To feel better (that's fucking crazy)

Sometimes I wonder if you're staring out your window at the moon
You're probably not, but you're outside, you're on the chair, you're looking too
Are you looking too?
Are you looking too?

Look At The Moon

look at the moon (ft. spookybands)

lyrics:

do you remember that one day out at the beach
we kept hopping bars and stared drunk at the sea
you jumped in my arms and now i guarantee
the sand just reminds me what we used to be

im getting ahead of myself run it back
the first time we met, had a panic attack
you're so beautiful and im getting off track
the moments we shared, know i cant get it back

can't get it back

it tears me apart, just promise you're safe
each night, it still breaks my heart
i don't even know you, how'd you get this way

i can't protect you, you're no longer mine
i just watch from a distance and wish i would die
but i know youre too busy to be in that vibe
while you swipe through your options and leave for the night

i know you said that you're back to your old self
you said youre heartless, i know youre not doing well either
but i pray like every night for your well being
hope you find the light, i know it's hard, when your hearts bleeding

i know its hard when your hearts bleeding
i know its hard 'cause my hearts bleeding
i know its hard when your hearts bleeding
i know its hard and my hearts bleeding

bleed, and bleed
bleed, and bleed
bleed, and bleed

i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go
i have to let you go

Knew You Were Leaving I'm Just Glad I Got To Share It All With You

KnewYouWereLeavingImJustGladIGotToShareItAllWithYou

https://soundcloud.com/hkfiftyone2
https://soundcloud.com/angelsofsorrows

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

One day feel like me then the other different person
My mind never set straight yeah it's written all in cursive
But it's got a story ending on a cliffhanger
It's JoshIGuess I'm always dropping the bangers

Importance for years yet still got to decide
If any of choices are bad sacrifice
And everyone leave me so got no advice
But I'd rather figure out my own reside

Only feel like myself when I'm up to the mic
But the camera's too close to me like it gon snipe
Some of you guys just rely on a swipe
But that's not how I want to use my device

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, i'll be fine

I'll be fine, I'll be fine
I'll be fine, I'll be fine (yeah i'll be fine)
Yeah I'ma get by I'ma live my life to the fullest
I'ma not be stupid I'ma live
I'ma keep on going and I ain't give a shit
And I found my inner self, yeah
But it comes with sacrifices
Now I know why people tend to stay the same, yeah

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I'm still coming up, want a piece of the pie
Man every time I roll up, got so much on my mind
And every day I feel dead now, but I'm still alive

I only feel like myself when I'm high
I could see myself, penthouse in the sky
Then it's done, here again, I can't eat, don't know why
Get that cash, stay the grind, take a hit, I'll be fine

I'll be fine
Yeah I'll be fine, I'll be fine, let's go (yeah i'll be fine)

spotify

i'll be fine w/ hkfiftyone & angelsofsorrows (quitall)

sometimes i feel like a ghost in a crowd
its purgatory and i wont make it out
im not alive and i dont really know how
i got no voice youll never hear if i shout

i know im dead to you, but i got unfinished business that i gotta do like
tell you that i love you still,
even if i never made enough to pay the bills

im working hard in death
got so much on my plate i never catch my breath
i swear it helps to know that im already dead

sometimes i feel like im a ghost

like im dead, like my coffin is my bed
i want to finally rest, but your voice is in my head
ive haunted this whole town, but im still left feeling down
youre the only one i want
i cant have you, i cant touch you,
im a ghost

i know you wont look my way
its done this time i know itll stay
each day act my part in the play
i know youre gonna say, that i just need to pray

i need to find something that makes me feel magic
i guess thats weed and alcohol makes me manic
i try to be okay now but its too tragic

sometimes i feel like im a ghost

like im dead, like my coffin is my bed
i want to finally rest, but your voice is in my head
ive haunted this whole town, but im still left feeling down
youre the only one i want
i cant have you, i cant touch you,
im a 
ghost

Ghost (Unplugged)

ghost (unplugged version)

this is the story of a boy who knew too much
so the world was always gray, and he had no sense of touch
and he kept himself real safe inside the confines of his bed
but he was not alone, hearing all the words been said

all my friends are the demons in my head
and we always have a talk every time i go to bed
but i don't think they're my favorite, they just wanna rub it in
that you're probably gone forever, but i should not give a shit 'cause

that's life, but i really wish it ain't
'cause like everytime i panic, i can't breath and then i faint
but it's probably 'cause i never eat enough, now i'm drained
i just got no appetite since you split, i'm detained

this is the story of a girl who felt too much
she just wanted to be held, but she rarely felt a touch
and the distance always broke her, the connection turned to rust
so now she's somewhere out there, and there's no one that i trust

with her

this is the story of a boy who's now grown up
he spends his time alone, he minds his business, makes some bucks
he knows he has to stay here even when he feels it tug
there's nothing on the other side, it's all the same but just more fucked

The Story

the story

i think i hate everything that i ever loved
now that the fire snuffed
baby im packing up boxes of things that you gave me
and things that im running from

but "baby" ain't "baby" no more
cause im out on my own and im feeling numb
turn it up loud on my speakers
and lay on the floor 'til i feel the drums

i cannot drink, i cannot smoke
the blood from ym vomit keep burning my throat
im tryna get by but my heart beating slow
and if i ever left i know no one would know

sometimes i find myself grabbing my phone
every time that i be way too alone
but then i just drop it cause im at the bottom already
no point now in making it known

its all gonna be okay real soon
real soon

i feel abandoned, cause im a burden
maybe im fucked up, i know that for certain
got a life sentence now this is the verdict
death penalty, to the void im returning
im hoping to God that i dont end up burning
im doing my best but im just really hurting
i just need a break for a sec now im cursing
i scream at myself with these insults im hurling

im losing myself, im losing my brains
im losing the lifeforce that course through my veins
feel like my body is wrapped up in chains
tape on my mouth so they think im okay

dont even know who i am in this verse
i feel too much, now im blessed with a curse
its just like a nightmare but way fucking worse
and the only way out is the back of a hearse

All My Friends Are Dead (Prod. Jules)

Jacky B

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