Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J

I’D DO IT AGAIN

MIDDLE AGE

Analog

Unholy Mary

Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. This became my “healthy hobby” after a long battle with addiction. I’m now gratefully sober. I’m open to collaborating with other artists. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J

Northern Lights

Musikladen 3️⃣

WASTELAND

SUPREMACY:SIMULATION

Pic from "The Girl Without a Soul" (1917)

It Steals Your Soul And You Take Pills To Get It Back

WHEN THE FUN RUNS OUT
BY NOVA J

(5, 4, 3, 2…)
(FUN!)

[Verse 1:]
For so many years, I kept cryin’ the same tears
Self-inflicted torture, on repeat, on repeat
A toxic cycle, full speed, no relief
And you wanna know something dumb?
I did it all for the sake of “fun”

[Pre-Chorus:]
Yeah, it’s fun when it’s new
’Til it sucks the soul outta you
Crazy shit you swore you’d never do
When the fun runs out, got its hooks in you

[Chorus:]
(When the fun runs out)
It always does
(When the fun runs out)
You’re outta luck
(When the fun runs out)
You say you’ll quit
(When the fun runs out)
But that’s just bullshit

(FUN!)
(Prey it, light it, puff it, slam it / Crave it, thrill it, ’til you kill it)

[Verse 2:]
For so many days, I kept diving in fake waves
Shots of water I craved
But the lifeguard never came
Wanna know something dumb?
I kept drownin’ just to feel numb

[Pre-Chorus:]
Fast forward, now life’s a living hell
Think “more fun” is the fix? Better sit a spell
I got bad news—hear me yell
Addiction ain’t a game, it’s a trip to hell

[Chorus:]
(When the fun runs out)
It always does
(When the fun runs out)
You’re outta luck
(When the fun runs out)
You say you’ll quit
(When the fun runs out)
But that’s just bullshit

(FUN!)
(Prey it, light it, puff it, slam it / Crave it, thrill it, ’til you kill it)

[Bridge:]
Round and round, it pulls you in
Think you can play and win
But when the fun runs out again…
You lose, you lose, you lose, my friend

[Chorus:]
(When the fun runs out)
It always does
(When the fun runs out)
You’re outta luck
(When the fun runs out)
You say you’ll quit
(When the fun runs out)
But that’s just bullshit

(FUN!)
(Prey it, light it, puff it, slam it / Crave it, thrill it, ’til you kill it)

(FUN! FUN!) 

(FUN!)

WHEN THE FUN RUNS OUT

This is the Full Effect Band from Harrisburg, PA.  Tone-B (Guitar), Aaron Hughes (Bass), Jimmie Harris (Keyboard), Sterling Ingraham (Drums), Harry Miller (Sax), various trumpet players, Greg Wolfgang (Vocals), Bob Wolfgang (Vocals), Jeff Falcone (Vocals).

Tone-B Various Band Rehearsals 2000.  Always and Forever (Cover Song).  Full Effect Band

SOLITARY
BY NOVA J

[Verse 1]
skies should be blue
I’m seeing gray
Outside my room
It’s just another day.

I can’t see color
Only black and white
Sunny days of summer
Might as well be night.

[Chorus]
Why does it feel
Like I’m in solitary?
Nothing real
But the pain I carry.

In solitary
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
solitary.
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
yeah, solitary.

[Verse 2]
My home is my prison
These walls I know
The world keeps spinning
13 floors below.

Sometimes I wonder
If anyone would care
If I jumped from up here
And ended up down there.

[Chorus]
Why does it feel
Like I’m in solitary?
Nothing real
But the pain I carry.

In solitary
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
solitary.
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
In solitary!

[INSTRUMENTAL]

[Bridge]
Trapped in a prison
Of my own design
For crimes I’ve committed
Burning in my mind.

A sentence handed down
By a jury in my head.
A life half-lived
Feels worse than death….

[Chorus]
Why does it feel
Like I’m in solitary?
Nothing real 
But the pain I carry.

In solitary
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
solitary.
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
yeah, solitary

In solitary
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
solitary.
Ooooh-ooooh-oooooh
yeah, solitary

SOLITARY

WASTING TIME by NOVA J

Same street, same house, same silent war
I don’t remember what we’re fighting for
Your eyes cut through me like icy air
If we’re honest, I just don’t care

Too exhausted to scream and shout
Lost count of what you’re angry about
Is this what love’s supposed to be—
Rotting in silent misery?

(We have a life, we have a home
But it doesn’t feel like my own)
(Wish I could be somewhere else
Wish I could be with someone else)
(“But youuu…”)
Anyone but you…

OH, who CARES?
IF I FUCK AROUND
OH, who CARES?
IF I BURN IT DOWN
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

I hate the guest room where I’m confined
I pay the bills here, don’t I?
I don’t even hate you, don’t wanna cry
I just don’t care if you live or die

What have I become? Casually cruel
A special kind of monster when it comes to you
When I’m alone, I’m scrolling my phone
Searching for a stranger’s bed, not home

(I used to be like Lego man
Everything is awesome, yes I can!)
(Wish I could be someone else
Wish I could be with someone else)
(“But youuu…”)
Anyone but you…

OH, who CARES?
IF I FUCK AROUND
OH, who CARES?
IF I BURN IT DOWN
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

We look so perfect on Instagram
Picture-perfect happy man
Our fake smiles make me sick
But I can’t leave—I’m chicken shit

OH, who CARES?
IF I TELL A LIE
OH, who CARES?
IF I SAY GOODBYE
DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

DOESN’T EVEN MATTER, OH
DOESN’T REALLY MATTER
AS LONG AS I’M…
WASTING TIME…
WITH YOU… OH…
OH… WITH YOU

WASTING TIME

I'm exactly who you think I am 
but I am not afraid 
i am never letting go
Certainty..you are saving my soul
through it all loving me more
when time opens the door
heaven is home
mistakes..won't tear me apart
so I lift my voice all my soul my heart
you will be there
when you can feel heaven is home lift your voice to the Lord
heaven is my home

Heaven is Home



[Verse 1]
They’ve tried for years to box us in, 
To make us all the same
Yet we’ll look for common ground
Ain’t pieces of their game

[Verse 2]
Different stories, different past 
We all rise as one
No beauty in a mirror
When the glass is numb

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh - oh, feel the rhythm, feel the unity
Oh - oh different sparks, but watch em rise

[Chorus]
We shine through shade, every shape, every name
A masterpiece in motion, 
never meant to be the same
We have the art to illuminate 
Beauty in diversity

We elevate 

[Verse 4]
Diversity and colour
If we all thought alike
Rather blend our voices strong
A screen of unity

[Pre-Chorus]
Oh-oh, feel the rhythm, feel the vibe
Oh-oh, different sparks but watch them rise

[Bridge]
Look around, can’t you see
We’re a wave, we’re a sea
Every difference, every hue
We’re beautiful individuals

[Chorus]
We share our praise 
A masterpiece in motion, 
Our batteries full, we illuminate 
Beauty in diversity
Yea that’s how we elevate 

[verse]
We are beauty, shine as one
We are diversity - the power of choice
We’re beauty in diversity,
Beauty in diversity 

[Outro]
Beauty in diversity 
One voice one sound
Beautiful diversity 

Self worth
Stand proud


Beauty in Diversity

REARRANGED by Nova J

She says you’re quiet, deep, refined
But there is sadness on your mind
She calls you brilliant, says you’re wise
But there is pain behind your eyes

You found a woman who loves you still
Who holds your hand, who shares your will
But time moves fast, and things have changed
Maybe we’ve both been rearranged

(mmm-mmm-mmm)

You keep your sorrow locked inside
Behind the hurt, behind the pride
What kind of past can twist so tight?
And still feel present in your mind?

Now I speak instead of bite my tongue
Not to fight—just to be known
You wear your scars like battle wounds
But so do I, and mine still bruise

(mmm-mmm-mmm)

I was just a kid
(mmm, ohh)
You were hurting too
I was just a kid
(mmm, ohh)
I didn’t see you
But now I do

REARRANGED

ANALOG by NOVA J

In my dreams I’m back in ‘93
In the office, computer-free
Fluorescent lights and rotary
Full of vintage machinery

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

Yes to corded simplicity
No to scrolling anxiety
TV static serenity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Off the grid
Analog
(Off the grid
Analog)

In my dreams I’m trauma-free
Blur the bad that happened to me
Rose-colored glasses, simplicity
In my dreams I’m back in ‘93

Oh, I long to be analog (analog)
Yeah, I long to be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

Yeah, I wanna be analog (analog)
Oh, I wanna be analog (analog)

ANALOG

NFT  by NOVA J

Mmm, I’m running on empty again,
Heavy eyes, heavy heart in my chest.
Soul so tired, I just need some rest.

Sunlight through the window but it feels so gray,
Woke up drowning in the words you said yesterday.
Your poison in my veins but I won’t let it stay,
I’ve been carrying this weight till my back nearly breaks.
All your chaos and your noise, I’ve got nothing left to take,
So I’m closing off the hurt, letting silence have its way.

I used to set myself on fire just to keep you warm,
But those flames died out and I won’t get burned anymore.
You keep on talking but I can’t hear a thing,
I got my heart on lockdown, you don’t get to come in.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
I’m saving my soul, keep your drama away.
N-F-T — no love lost today,
You can’t steal my peace, I ain’t payin’ you no mind.
No fucks today, I’m numb to the pain,
Nothing you do is gonna make me cave.
No fucks today… no, no fucks today.

There were nights I couldn’t sleep, replaying every lie,
Gave too much of myself, left me bone-dry.
I built a wall out of all of the tears I cried,
Now your words hit my wall and they stay outside.
Every scar that you left turned to armor I wear,
Now I step through the fire and I don’t even care.

It took losing everything for me to draw the line,
Now I’m done with the battle that was never mine.
You keep on pushing but I won’t bleed again,
I got nothing to lose and nothing left to give.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
All your venom and hate, I brush it away.
N-F-T — I’m done hurting this way,
Took back my heart, now I’m keeping it safe.
No fucks today, I’m free from your chains,
You got nothing on me, watch me walk away.
No fucks today… no, no fucks today.

Under the skin, there’s a flicker of ache,
A part of me wonders how much more I can take,
I’d rather be numb than burn in your flame.
(Ooh-ooh)
I remember the hope that you stripped away,
Now the well has run dry, there’s no more to drain.
In the darkness I found I could light my own way,
I felt the fear in my veins but I let it decay.

N-F-T — no fucks today,
I’m claiming my space and I’m finding my way.
N-F-T — no more debt to pay,
You can’t make me feel guilty for walking away.
No fucks today, your shadow can’t stay,
I let it all go and I’m healing today.
No fucks today… (hey, hey) no fucks today.

No fucks today, I’m not giving in,
No fucks today… that’s the state I’m in.

I just wanna be free by NOVA J and MADRE

Woke up in the woods again
Sky so still, no sign of wind
Your face in firelight fades
But I still hear what you didn’t say

Breathin’ in the golden air
Nothin’ moves, I’m barely there

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

City dreams, they blur and fade
Got no heart left to persuade
I used to wish for better days
Now I just want peace that stays

Built a shield inside my mind
To block the noise I couldn’t fight

I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t wanna be perfect
Just don’t wanna bleed
I don’t wanna be happy
I just wanna be free
Don’t need a reason
Just need to be me

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free

River at my feet
Wind don’t speak
Sunlight fades
But I still seek

Do you feel it too?
That hunger we hide?
The one that never dies—
The one we feed inside…

Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be free
Oh oh oh oh…
Don’t wanna bleed
Oh oh oh oh…
Just need to be me

I JUST WANNA BE FREE

COLLIDE by Nova J

Ahmmmm

I woke up from anesthesia
Found out I was black and blue
Traced the bruises on my body
(Back to you) Back to you

I was running from the heartache
But I knew I couldn’t fake
Kept on using ‘til I’d break
The biggest dose that I could take

The pain hits like a freight train
Right when all the drugs subside
The tracks are lined with bodies
When you and I collide
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh…)
You and I collide

(Collide… collide…)
I almost died
(Collide… collide…)
But I survived

Now I’m lying in this bed by
Hooked up to a machine
My hands are shaking, I’m deleting
Every photo of you and me
(You and me…) You and me
(You and me)

Now I might be lying down
But I swear I’ll soon be free
Walking through my hometown
Without your shadow haunting me

The pain hits like a freight train
Right when all the drugs subside
The tracks are lined with bodies
When you and I collide
(Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh…)
You and I collide

(Collide… collide…)
I almost died
(Collide… collide…)
But I survived

COLLIDE

I Still Remember Love by Nova J

I wake up in a room I don’t know
The curtains bright, the light is low
She smiles at me and says my name
I don’t recall hers, I feel ashamed 

She helps me sit and brings my plate
I try to eat but barely taste
She holds my hand and doesn’t rush
And somehow it feels just enough

I still remember love
Even when the rest fades out
I still remember love
And that’s what life’s about

A man walks in and calls me “dear”
His face is kind, his voice is clear
I don’t know the place or day
But feel safe with him anyway

I get confused out in the hall
Forget the way, forget it all
They find me there and bring me back
No one laughs or gives me flak

I still remember love
Even when my mind’s not right
I still remember love
Like a porch light in the night

There’s a song that plays inside my head
I hum along though words are dead
I don’t know where the tune came from
But singing it still keeps me calm

I still remember love
Even when I lose my place
I still remember love
When I see a caring face

So if I forget your name
Or don’t know where we are
Please don’t feel ashamed
Just stay right where you are
I forget a lot
But when push comes to shove
I still remember love
I still remember love

I STILL REMEMBER LOVE

Shut up, sit pretty By NOVA J

Shut up. Sit pretty.
In this pretty city.
Think about blinkin’?
Don’t. That’s a pity.

Daddy gonna cut you off.
Piggy at the trough.
Wanna eat? Wanna stay?
Then shut up. Sit pretty.

Hands folded. Smile wide.
Mouth shut. Swallow pride.
Heels high. Head low.
That’s the only way it goes.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Sit pretty. Hush that mouth.
Take what you get—don’t dare call out.
Wanna eat? Wanna stay?
Then shut up. Sit pretty’d.

Diamonds tight around your throat.
Wrapped up pretty, velvet rope.
Let ‘em stare. Let ‘em touch.
But don’t you ever ask for much.

Daddy keeps the power on.
But it’s a loan—it won’t last long.
Play your part. Keep it tight.
Smile sweet. Say goodnight.

Hands folded. Smile wide.
Mouth shut. Swallow pride.
Heels high. Head low.
That’s the only way it goes.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Sit pretty. Hush that mouth.
Take what you get—don’t dare call out.
Wanna eat? Wanna stay?
Then shut up. Sit pretty’d.

Cage is gold. Walls too tall.
Dressed up. Stripped down. Watch you fall.
Dance on strings. Smile through pain.
Deep inside, you curse his name.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Sit pretty. Don’t talk back.
Lipstick red, but your world fades black.
Wanna stay? Wanna play?
Learn the rules. Don’t disobey.

Shut up, sit pretty

I’D DO IT AGAIN by Nova J

I never took the good days for granted
Grateful for our quiet, simple life
But these days I’m panicked
staring at my phone… all night

No news… worse than bad news
Confusion… worse than pain
Always…worryin’ bout you
Will I ever… see you again?

You and me
We’ve been torn apart
Now I bleed 
With a broken heart

And if it’s time
To say goodbye
You’ll always be
The love of my life…

I keep on writing
My messages unread
My mind racing
Are you alive… are you dead?

No calls. No clues. No power.
My mind is racing fast.
Each minute’s like an hour.
How long… can this last?

You and me
We’ve been torn apart
Now I bleed
With a broken heart

And if it’s time
To say goodbye
You’ll always be
The love of my life

Even through struggle
Even through pain
With you beside me…
I’d do it again
I’d do it again
Mmm…
I’d do it… again

You and me
We’ve been torn apart
Now I bleed
With a broken heart

And if it’s time
To say goodbye
You’ll always be
The love of my life…

The love of my life…
The love of my life…
The love of my life…

I’d do it again

IN TOKYO by NOVA J

Taxi riding to Roppongi
I am eyeing on the crowd
Lookin’ for lover in the Red Hat
Don’t say his name too loud
They call him Precious he’s a bouncer
At the Mongolian strip club
Meet in the bathroom for a dime bag
Then stick it where you want some love

You best be careful of the police
Don’t wanna look too rough
Your best disguise is dressin’ preppy
You’ll take it all off at the club

(And when you get there)
Gonna (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance 

Because you playin’ like a hoe (hoe hoe)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
And you takin’ too much blow (blow blow)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
Sometimes you puttin’ on a show (show show)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
You gettin high and going low (low low)
In Tokyo (yo yo)

Wait for the signal close to midnight
When Nova J’eyenah lights her smoke
Order a cocktail with a wink-eye
Then laugh like you just heard a joke
Slip the baggie in your left sock
The bouncer does not check too deep
You got ten minutes in the back lot
Before the rich boys start to creep

They’re sniffin’ powder off their car keys
Callin’ you “Daddy” just for fun
But don’t you dare forget the plan, babe
We disappear before the sun.

(But right now we are)
Gonna (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance (dance) dance 

Because you playin’ like a hoe (hoe hoe)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
And you takin’ too much blow (blow blow)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
Sometimes you puttin’ on a show (show show)
In Tokyo (yo yo)
You gettin high and going low (low low)
In Tokyo (yo yo)

Oh not again
It’s 5AM
what’s his name?
Oh missed my train
I will behave
Another day (another day day day day day)

In Tokyo

MIDDLE AGE by NOVA J

[Vers 1]
Where’s the train, it’s rollin’
Oh, I missed my station 
There’s my mind, controllin’
Low on inspiration 

I’m not here to misbehave
I’ve got no more oats to sew
I’m damn near my middle age
You know how the story goes

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Vers 2]
Look around 
Looks like I missed the memo
Starin’ down
It’s a long hard fall below 

I’m too tired to keep on climbin’ 
But I’m too afraid to fall
I’ve worked hard for what is mine
And I’m so scared to lose it all 

[Pre Chorus]
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast

[Chorus]
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last

[Hook]
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

[Bridge]
I know I somehow made it halfway
But there’s so much I don’t know
I know how scared I feel on some days
Is there any room to grow?
I don’t know (ooooh)
I just don’t know (ooooh)
I don’t know

[Outro]
I’m not here to misbehave
You know how the story goes
I’m damn near my middle age
But I’m praying I can grow
And time goes fast
Time goes too fast
And the world is changin’ (changin’)
Oh the world is changin’ fast
All these wars I’m waging (waging)
I don’t know if I will last
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end (until the end)
Until the end

STUCK IN MY HEAD by NOVA J

[Vers 1]
I didn’t know I’d be on a plane
When I woke up today
Don’t wanna go, wanna see you again
I wish you’d asked me to stay

But you told me to go
For reasons only you know
Now I’m flying solo
(Flying solo…)

[Pre Chorus]
And my flight is running late
Rain is falling at the gate
I thought you were my soulmate 

[Chorus]
And I keep replaying what you said
When we were laying in your bed
And now you’re stuck in my head
Stuck in my head 

[Hook]
(Stuck in my head)
Why’d you move on
(Stuck in my head)
like we never met?
(Stuck in my head)
And now you’re stuck
(Stuck in my head)
Stuck in my head 

[Instrumental]

[Vers 2]
You said I’m married to my career
And you feel like a mistress 
But you’re the one who disappeared
And now you’re keeping secrets 

What’s his name again?
You’re my best friend 
I don’t want us to end
(Not the end…)

[Pre Chorus]
And my hands begin to shake
Every drink’s a new mistake
I thought we had what it takes

[Chorus]
Because I keep replaying what you said
When you told me our love had to end
And you’re still stuck in my head
Stuck in my head 

[Hook]
(Stuck in my head)
Why’d you move on
(Stuck in my head)
like we never met?
(Stuck in my head)
And now you’re stuck
(Stuck in my head)
Stuck in my head 

[Instrumental]

[Bridge]
Now my flight is running late
Rain is falling at the gate
I thought you were my soulmate 
And my hands begin to shake
Every drink’s a new mistake
I thought we had what it takes

[Outro]
And now I keep replaying what you said
When we were laying in your bed
And you told me our love had to end
But you’re still stuck in my head
(Stuck in my head)
Why’d you move on
(Stuck in my head)
like we never met?
(Stuck in my head)
And now you’re stuck
(Stuck in my head)
Stuck in my head 
(Stuck in my head)
Why’d you move on
(Stuck in my head)
like we never met?
(Stuck in my head)
And now you’re stuck
(Stuck in my head)
Stuck in my head 
(Stuck in my head)
Why’d you move on
(Stuck in my head)
like we never met?
(Stuck in my head)
And now you’re stuck
(Stuck in my head)
Stuck in my head

Stuck in my head

Bei R$ch- That’s My Name

NORTHERN LIGHTS by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I saw the Northern Lights last night
Slicing the sky like birds in flight
The sun goes down, the shine departs
Half a year of endless dark
If you were here, I wouldn’t complain,
But I walk alone on this frozen lane.

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty town don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.
(Oooooh oooooh)

[Chorus]
Just us two was all I knew
Now I’m still here, but half of me’s you
Win or lose, I can’t undo
The life we had, just me and you
(Oooooh oooooh)

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

[Verse 2]
I’ve seen mountains split in two
But nothing broke me like losing you.
The earth can shake, the sky can fall
Saying goodbye’s the hardest blow of all
When sorrow calls, I can’t confide
I only whisper to the other side

[Pre-Chorus]
Through the fire, through the unknown
I stumble on, but I’m alone
Your hand once held me, your love the flame
Now I cry and call your name (mmm)

[Chorus]
Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

[INSTRUMENTAL]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

[Bridge]
The colors rise where the shadows go
Green and violet, the heavens glow
I search the stars for a sign of your face
A fleeting spark in the vast of space

[Outro]
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

Through the cold, through the unknown,
This empty house don’t feel like home.
Your eyes were bright, steady, and true,
Now all I see is the dark without you.

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, our time was true
But night keeps falling, I can’t break through
Win or lose, I’m bound to you
Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Oooooh ooooh 
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)
Hmmmm
(Northern Lights… Northern Lights…)

Just us two, without you

[whistling]

UNHOLY MARY by Nova J

[Spoken Intro]
I’ll give you until the count of five.
Then I do it.
5… 4… 3… 2… 1…

[Verse 1]
You cry wolf in the courthouse, you cry wolf in the pews
Every man who gets close leaves branded, accused
Unholy Mary, queen of shadows and schemes
You built your religion on your children’s screams

[Pre-Chorus]
Every story you spin gets heavier still
Like snow piling high on that house on the hill
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)

[Verse 2]
You lock all the windows, you deadbolt the door
Homeschool their silence, they don’t dream anymore
You search for new labels, new ways to get paid
But the mirror reflects every debt you’ve made

[Pre-Chorus]
Every promise you broke turned colder with time
Your letters to God just excuses in rhyme
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)

[Chorus]
Unholy Mary, where do you hide?
(Unholy Mary… where do you hide?)
Your children are shadows, they stand by your side
(Unholy Mary…)
The mirror won’t answer, it just looks right through
 (Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)
Unholy Mary, what happened to you?
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?!)

[Bridge]
Vanity binds you, your mercy decays
Loneliness lingers, you’re lost in the maze
Your children bear burdens they never should know
You pray for redemption, but the mercy won’t show

[Outro]
Snow falling steady on your backyard gate
The candles burn out, but you’re still awake
It’s your fate. Oh Mary. It’s your fate.
Your fate. Your fate.

[Instrumental Close]

Chemicals by Nova J

[Verse 1]
We’re sitting in a circle on a basement floor
Sharing bottles, chasing something we can’t name anymore
The lawyer’s still in his tie, but he’s losing his home
Dealer’s got the power now, and he won’t let it go

[Pre-Chorus]
He looks so calm with the smoke around his head
Like he found peace, but I know his dreams are dead

[Chorus]
And he keeps talking ‘bout the chemicals
Like they’re medicine, like they’re saving him
But I can see the writing on the wall
It’s critical, it’s pitiful
The way we fall for chemicals

[Verse 2]
I took a ride on a ship too far from land
Bought my comfort in a hallway with a shaky hand
Flashing lights and bodies pressing, but I felt the sea
Rising in my bloodstream, dragging under me

[Pre-Chorus]
I woke up in a cabin, faces I don’t know
The story never changes, just the cast in the show

[Chorus]
And I keep talking ‘bout the chemicals
Like they’re medicine, like they’re healing me
But it’s a carousel I can’t get off
It’s cynical, it’s biblical
The way I pray to chemicals

[Bridge]
I watched a friend turn blue on a hotel floor
Two strangers slipped away and stepped out the door
I swore I’d never be the one to meet that fate
But here I am, still bargaining with chemicals again

[Final Chorus]
And we keep talking ‘bout the chemicals
Like they’re medicine, like they’re heaven-sent
But the spiral always feels unstoppable
It’s beautiful, it’s terrible
The way we worship chemicals

Chemicals

SIX DAYS, SEVEN NIGHTS by Nova J

[Verse 1]
I was up six days, seven nights
Rented a room with flickering lights
Looked like a hospital, smelled like smoke
Mirror was cracked, the faucet broke

[Pre-Chorus]
The music was skipping, voices out of tune
Then a line came through that shook the room

[Chorus]
“Don’t stop now,” it felt like a sign
From a busted speaker that wasn’t mine
And I broke down hard, saw what was left
A man half-alive with nothing but regret

[Hook]
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
(Keep going, keep going, keep going)
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now

[Verse 2]
There was a stain on the wall, I didn’t ask why
I just sat in that chair and I cried
Saw my face split open across the glass
All the years, all the damage stacked

[Pre-Chorus]
But for once I didn’t turn away
I told myself I’ll be okay

[Chorus]
“Don’t stop now,” it felt like a sign
From a busted speaker that wasn’t mine
And I broke down hard, saw what was left
A man half-alive with nothing but regret

[Hook]
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
(Keep going, keep going, keep going)
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now

[Bridge]
I fell asleep with tears on my shirt
Woke up to sunlight, it almost hurt
Threw the bag out, needles too
Decided it’s time to start brand new

[Final Chorus]
“Don’t stop now,” I still hear it clear
Like a message I needed all those years
I broke down hard, but I came back through
For the first time ever, I’ll try to be true

[Hook/Outro]
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
(Keep going, keep going, keep going)
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now

Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
(Keep going, keep going, keep going)
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now
Don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop now

Six days, seven nights

WASTELAND by Nova J

[VERSE 1]
I’m not quite here, I’m not quite there
I can’t stop scrolling in my underwear
I’m not talking, you’re not talking, just an empty stare
Searching for another body somewhere close to here

[PRE-CHORUS]
If I’m being honest, I knew there was no connection
But I was high, supplies ran dry, and I don’t need perfection

[CHORUS]
Is that a quake? Or do I have the shakes?
I keep taking, you keep taking, how much more can we take?
I am empty in my space, too afraid to see my face

[HOOK]
In this Wasteland, I am
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh

[VERSE 2]
The sun has risen, the sheets are red
Your body like a dead fish, lifeless on the bed
My arms resemble spider webs, this pounding in my head
I really need to sleep, but I prefer to tweak instead

[PRE-CHORUS]
But now I’ve got a problem, the fact is you’re still near
I tell a lie and say goodbye and get you out of here

[BRIDGE]
I hope that you don’t hate me, I hope you’ll understand
It’s not my row, I blame the snow, I’m not that kind of man

[CHORUS]
Is that a quake? Or do I have the shakes?
I keep taking, you keep taking, how much more can we take?
I am empty in my space, too afraid to see my face

[HOOK]
In this Wasteland, I am
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh 

[VOCAL BREAK]
Ah-ah, ah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah

[VERSE 3]
Oh, I swear things will be better this way
There’s a needle hiding somewhere in this burning pile of hay
I did not find it last week or last night and not today
But I know if I keep hunting, I will find true love someday

[VERSE 4]
I refuse to settle, I refuse to compromise
I refuse to tell the truth, and now I’m lost in all the lies
My leather tongue no longer tastes my mother’s rhubarb pie
I’m hiding from the sun, and drinking blood like a vampire

[FINAL CHORUS]
Is that a quake? Or do I have the shakes?
I keep taking, you keep taking, how much more can we take?
I am empty in my space, too afraid to see my face

[OUTRO]
In this Wasteland, I am
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh
Frozen, ahhh
Frozen, ahhh
Frozen, ahhh
Frozen, ahhh
Frozen, ahhh 
Frozen, ahhh

SUPREMACY:SIMULATION by Nova J

[Part 1: "Supremacy"]

[Verse 1]
In the light of the day
In the dark of the night
When I glance your way
When I shut my eyes
When I spill the secrets of my life
When I seek the way
Under pressure
Way, way, way

[Chorus]
Some how, some way, some day
Supremacy
Come what may
Supremacy
God help us, God help us
End of days

[Verse 2]
In the thirst for intelligence
Death by dehydration
Parasites of inconvenience 
This is how it ends
In the ashes of ruin
Stop, stop, and go
In the midday microwave
Down in the dark below
In the afterglow of impending doom
In the land of the dead
Be…gone, gone, gone, gone

[Chorus]
Some how, some way, some day
Supremacy
Come what may
Supremacy
God help us, God help us
End of days

[Instrumental break]

[Bridge]
In the land of the dead
Be…Be gone, gone, gone

[Chorus]
Some how, some way, some day
Supremacy
God help us, God help us
End of days

[Verse 1 Repeat]
In the light of the day
In the dark of the night
When I glance your way
When I shut my eyes
When I spill the secrets of my life
When I seek the way
Under pressure
Way, way, way

[Chorus]
Some how, some way, some day
Supremacy
God help us, God help us
End of days
End of days
End of days

[Part 2: "Simulation"]

[Verse]
You awake and the game has ended
In a floating city in the blood red sky
Our humanity is just pretended
We don’t live and we don’t die
There’s a black box with billions of us all
The universe up in a cloud
Mapping humanity’s rise and fall
You’re just trying to figure it out
What did you learn from your time alive?
Did you crack the code?
Love is the only way to survive
Nothing else matters when you’re old

[Outro]
(Simulation)
Simulation
(Simulation) of life of life
(Simulation)
Simulation 
(Simulation) of life of life
(Simulation)
Simulation
(Simulation) of life of life
(Simulation)
Simulation
(Simulation) of life of life

[Instrumental close]

Hi. Thanks for listening. I’m a writer and producer who uses AI tools to turn my words into music. This became my “healthy hobby” after a long battle with addiction. I’m now gratefully sober. I’m open to collaborating with other artists. From broken bones to broken hearts to beautiful love (and loss). All these songs are written by me and deeply personal. If you like what you hear, please hit LIKE and REPOST. I don’t monetize my music but I do hope it can reach someone else out there going through life’s ups and downs. Thank you.-Nova J


Here is my music as I make it. Check out my latest mixtape, Rearranged: https://open.spotify.com/album/7sFQUJ5sNiGDXlxPUdZiFo?si=p-PofiBhT--D0BABF78tFA

NOVA J is a songwriter from the United States who has spent the last decade living and working abroad.

nova.j.artist@gmail.com