being my own enemy feat zion (prod dead spyro)

at least i tried :/ ft. triple4 (discent)

sorrow bringer: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtk0rtkTTpOGqnIX9W68vIQ

i just wanna run away
won't stay here another day
slowly fading into grey
bet that you'll forget my name
i won't see another day
you should just forget my face
sorry i cannot explain
you told me to don't be afraid

and it's only me to blame
i'm the reason that we failed
it is sad to see you change
and soon i'm laying in my grave
i'm hoping for better days
what's the time and what's the place
i am slowing down my pace
i'm so high, i'm out of space

i just wanna run away
won't stay here another day
slowly fading into grey
bet that you'll forget my name
i won't see another day
you should just forget my face
sorry i cannot explain
you told me to don't be afraid

i'm not afraid, i'm not scared at all
there is just this risk that imma fall
back into the life i evolved from
and i'll return in my purest form

i just wanna run away
won't stay here another day
slowly fading into grey
bet that you'll forget my name
i won't see another day
you should just forget my face
sorry i cannot explain
you told me to don't be afraid

sorry if i hesitate 
i haven't been at home for days
haven't slept at all for days
honestly i haven't ate
what's wrong with this lemonade
i take a sip and start to fade
i take use of my razor blade
i told you i cannot escape

run away

run away (sorrow bringer)

Noise (CapsCtrl)

The problem's that i miss u when u go to sleep
It hurts me to know that you're far away from me
I'm grinding as i hope you get a peaceful rest
Life gets hectic but i couldn't care less

x2

I don't want fame i just wanna get paid
I hate this life my sky is always grey
I know you're at home when i'm dodgin the jakes
All them opps really want me dead

They brought their guns in front of our place
It led to violence cuz they couldn't follow the pace
My love is a drug but it can be laced
I'm living like everything is a race

I went thru a lot
I had to do a lot
Things i can't talk about
They all let me down

I forget all the bad things when i talk to u
Spending time with u is all i wanna do
I could say i don't miss u but u know the truth
I don't wanna get clingy but u know the thing is that ....

The problem's that i miss u when u go to sleep
It hurts me to know that you're far away from me
I'm grinding as i hope you get a peaceful rest
Life gets hectic but i couldn't care less

x2

Just woke up in the middle of the night
I'm out there and i really wanna die
I'm waiting for you to come back
So i'm just making even more songs

I hate myself and i hate this life
i'm seeing you in some of my dreams
i remember the old me was filled with fright 
But with thime i learned nothing's as it seems

I might fill up a cup, i might get really drunk
I might fuck my health but i don't give a fuck
I like to wast them all when i'm making efforts
What's the point my head still hurts ?

I'm talking to my family bout my scars
And bout the fact i hate it when i lack
The world's too slow it's like everything lags
Girl why the fuck do i still wanna die ?

imy (prod. splashgvng)

I did everything to get where I am
Put hella things i loved in the back

TOO MANY SACRIFICIES
I CAN NEVER GO BACK DOWN
THIS LIFE WAS MEANT FOR ME
THATS THE ONLY WAY TO FEEL HAPPY
x2

They were playing with my body
Throwing that shit on the floor
Twenty people tryna hurt me
But I don't care no more

I took a blade and threatened them
To feel what i feel in my bed
Can never forget the blood i shed
They can never do a thing again

TOO MANY SACRIFICIES
I CAN NEVER GO BACK DOWN
THIS LIFE WAS MEANT FOR ME
THATS THE ONLY WAY TO FEEL HAPPY
x2

I didn't have money to eat
Doing it alone when i did it
I had holes on all my kicks
Now guess who got them digits ?

I'm broke but it's temporary
You don't know what's gonna happen
I know i aint go any doubt
I can never go back down

I Can Never Go Back Down (IOF)

What you tryna know ? i've been on it
I don't really lie, i've been honest
If you're looking for solace
I'll try to help it's a promise

I don't really like the way i live
I don't really know why i breathe
kill me even if u disagree
Why are you hurting me ?

I got hella clothes wit bloodstains
People in my house and i wish they left
Will my scars go with the rain ?
Will u finally leave me for dead

I'm just a corpse nothing more
I'm not alive i'm on autopilot
U gotta know that i'm cold to the core
Our love is a secret keep it private

My brain doesn't want me to do the right things
There's only with her that i be smiling

I have a hard time finding motivation
But i don't care i'll push through it

solace

solace (iisan)

You don't see me no more
I'm away with her i swore
Walking without a doubt
I know all your ways inside out

You don't see me no more
I'm away with her i swore
Walking without a doubt
I know all your ways inside out

Make it challenging, life can't be that easy
But if you get worried i'll be here cuz you need me
I always hear the same speeches from the same leeches
They're taking my insides and tearing em to pieces

You should know I don't really need that anymore
Being jealous of every move of the ones i love
You're leaving me bleeding on the floor
And you don't care bout what i become

You don't see me no more
I'm away with her i swore
Walking without a doubt
I know all your ways inside out

You don't see me no more
I'm away with her i swore
Walking without a doubt
I know all your ways inside out

inside out

inside out (sketchmyname)

Better Off Without You

Toad

 история о моей боли, о том, как она зародилась, как я её прожил и как я принял её в себе
/FMP*SZN25

СКУЧАЮ ПО ТЕБЕ (prod. by A2K & livingpuff)

🌙 produced for wstdyth, seejayxo, 
Kenny Orlando, emptychest & astral
🌙 member of ⏳@timeless-archive & 👻@ghxstcollective

*SINCE AUGUST 2021*

🥀 i quit university and left my hometown to have every chance to get to my goals

⛓️ from depressed and suicidal in a small town 
⛓️ to fighting for my survival in a bad place.

for collabs > noxiousnights#6098

contact / send beats to : noxiousnights.music@gmail.com

I Can Never Go Back Down (IOF)

noxiousnights🌙