trips//tests

cant write you off as a mishap
when you hit my phone i didn't get that
but with every other time you had
did you even really want to try again

pick apart the little messages i sent you
took my heart and didnt try to rip it in two
when i started i thought that i could see right thru
now i know that i knever knew what i would do

when you
]left
im up, set
no limit
never
knew what
to get
now its fucked
feelin like im outta luck
push it just little bit more, but its stuck

and its all a test
wish i never saw you again
but i need that feelin now
please read aloud
what flees out ur mouth
1245, lazy avenue
come thru around 9, with the attitude
obtuse, fuck u, never had a clue
wana take a cruise, from the useless battles you
fight for no damn reason its the end
outta spite make the best damn thing outta lead
never write like this when im out, its the best
guess i like being inside all thru the day
EH eh
and its the fallout
eh eh
when i call out
eh eh
what do i talk about
u just talk loud
didnt think youd walk out

mishap

over (w/@tom the mail man)

i’d rather die than live like this ft.cutdeep (afterlife)

empty on the inside

music video:
https://youtu.be/iqHRw1GXgO4

Lost myself
Changed my timezone for what
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still

I was high
I was in Sacramento
Baby I'm fine
Baby I'm too much probably
That's what they all say about me
That's what they all say about me

Lost myself
Changed my timezone for what
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still 
I just wanna still

Fuck the way I feel I'm melting 
Just one more pill I'm helpless
Your words don't heal they selfish
I should think about myself but
You got my ring on your necklace
Just wanna be still
I just wanna be still
The Ativan don't work no more
I'mma bleed out on the floor
Hope I'm sad enough for you
I don't have no more drugs to do
This cocaine got me sick yeah
I heard from your friend that you skipped town
This cocaine got me sick now 

Lost myself 
Changed my timezone for what 
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still

spotify

stagnant demo (p. nature walker)

JUMEX - SLEEPWALKING (DEAD FOREVER)

joe's (p. ryan ansel)

a layered instrumental I hope you enjoy :)

a voyage on seeking peace through pastoral simplicity 

Arcadian Solace

FEATURING CHROMEHEART AND GUTS
ORIGINAL TRACK BY STROODGE:
https://soundcloud.com/badinka/stroodge-king-of-the-dead
REMIXED BY GUTS

ETHER MOUNTAIN X STROODGE - KING OF THE DEAD REMIX

this what my songs sound like before i actually record them

wizard. (rough)

oh i think they like me </3
.
.
wake up and i pray for my bitch back
wake up and thank god that i hit that
maybe i'd have better luck if shawty was into me
now that im on all these girls hop in my jeep

oh i think they like me
oh i think they like me
tell me why ur new man actin just like me
lil wine shawty
keep a bottle beside me
im so sorry baby 
but u just a one night thing
i be chasin money
and the drugs got my eyes closed
bloody nose at the function
baby im all alone
baby just call my phone
im tryna come over
im just a loner
im just a loner
.
john solo

shawty love to say 
how she not even into me
but all up in my phone 
she dont reciprocate that energy
i give her what she needs
yeah i know she into me
yeah and i want the whole thing
i want the whole thing
all up in the back with her hands in my balmains
nose in that cocaine
feelin like cobain
need me a moment
i need me a moment
yo love is like a drug and i just drown in that potion
yeah i need me a woman
come be that woman
she say that she dont love me but i know that she want me
yeah i need me a woman
come be that woman
rip my heart wide open 
she love it when im hurtin

-emo fruits aka young red wine bed time cry all night <3

mishap

robo