Chase (Prod. SnowBlood)

inside (guardin cover)

castle with the cobwebs

written by Lxst Boy & A Distant Voice
produced by mrmcchickino
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by Cavasoul

-lyrics-
(Chorus: Lxst Boy)
does she remember
the way she made me laugh?
i wanna text her
but i will get nothing back
it's harder than i anticipated
feel my chest collapse
i think i need a break
but i cant relax

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
save me
take control, don't
break me
turn the pencil upside down
erase me
what did i do wrong cause now
she hates me
oh she hates me

(Chorus)

(Verse 2: A Distant Voice)
every note that i would send
was a list of the dreams that i had in my head
but i missed all my chances, i’m feeling regret
now 
i’m 
thinking of how you would smile
you lit up my world
and it would took me a while
to stop feeling red
got my heart rate a hundred and ten
and you’re making it clear
i got nothing to fear
cuz now my end is here
all these letters i wrote to myself
were they meant for me or someone else
did i do something wrong to you 
making me seem like a demon from hell

(Chorus 2x)

S T R E A M

letters2myself w/ A Distant Voice (mrmcchickino)

this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain
what have i done
i got pain in my lungs 
no space in my chest my heart confined palpitation
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
i’m wrong
for thinking that i’m the only one
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
what have i done?
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
from everything that ever did me wrong
what have i done?
everything that ever did me wrong
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

I feel like im going insane but maybe thats not such a bad thing...



Indii G: @indii-g
Rodger : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DD_AXczH8A8

Insane ft. Indii G. (prod. RODGER)

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lyrics:
(verse 1 - indii g)
I been thinking real hard
Now I can’t sleep
We no longer got a
Heart on the same beat
I don’t ever really
Want any blood but we
standing the mud where it
was really concrete
It was fun but I
Hate to say I’m losing faith I’m
Goin insane this fornicating
Got me crazy anyway we
Goin to hell. im just tryna
Save myself.
I’m just tryna fade away
You’re disarray, you’re
ricochet you’re just
a phase a throwaway
Why you getting too complicated?
Trying hard to save it but it’s
Not the same but it’s
Not the same, but
 
(hook)
Can’t you see you’re too complacent
Can’t you see I’m moving
On to something better. Face it
You’re not the one for me, I’m
Not just tryna make a statement
It’s just not the same now
I’m finding your replacement
I’m find your replacement

(verse 2 - sadboyprolific)
ay lemme talk for a sec.
lemme stress all the problems in my head
Ah. Sike! Lemme flex on my ex
you toss me to the side, now i'm
counting up the checks. dont regret
i been leaving you behind in the past
i just crush another gram and then
flick off all the ash.
fuck being mad and fuck being sad
youre feeling good now but the feeling gonna pass
flip it up and then kick it into drive
and then toss you to the side
cause you wasted all my time
you used to be the only thing running through my mind
now im running up the cash and leaving you behind
i been kicking with a baddie thats 
saying she love my music
love's the worst kind of drug and
you love to abuse it
now im hiding in my room
i think that i'm reclusive
your words are like venom
they coma inducing

Complacent [ft. sadboyprolific]

prod. @oceanonthebeat

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior. i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

i think it might be best for me to let you go
but if you ever love me you should let me know
i know you really want him guess i'm fine with that
be careful with your heart cause i'm not good at that

picking up the pieces, 
does he hold you while you're sleepin?
heard he loves you does he mean it?
does he care about your dreams and
all your goals and how you'll meet em
does he call you ever evening
is he making sure you're eating
do you love him how he loves you is it even fucking even

i won't wait around for him to break your heart
i can't mend your soul i don't know where i'd start
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard
i don't wanna fight again i know it gets hard

i been tryin' hard, you've been layin' low
i've been movin' mountains pushin' through the snow
i can't feel my fingers, i can't feel my toes
love won't be my savior, i should let it go

shes got these eyes, jaded she's a gem
i might fall in love, i might break my heart again
love it when she laughs fuck i love it when she breaths
i get dizzy when she speaks cause she's exactly what i need

and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine
and i don't wanna waste your time
i just wanna give you mine

jaded (prod. ocean)

[Pre-Chorus]
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Find the ugly, in them all
Point them out and let them fall
Destroy their minds and show their flaws
I'm insecure, I need help
I can't find love, for myself
I pray to God, I'm deep in hell
Lord heal my scars, defeat this spell
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say

[Verse 1]
Deep inside, I really try to hide
But I can never run from myself
I see a monster when I look into the mirror
This cannot be good for my health
I feel like a slave, trapped in my hate
Praying to God, I can't find my escape
I don't wanna be me
Look in the mirror, and see all the ugly things I can't erase
I scare myself, I'm a ghost
I face my demons at home
I think I'm fat, yeah, I'm gross
No love, I deserve to be alone
I know that there's somebody feelin like me
Just know that your beautiful, beyond belief
The mirror is neutral, control your own leash
Cause you can't believe everything you ain't seen


[Chorus]
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say

[Verse 2]
I could have all the fame in the world
But I'd still hate myself
I try to learn to love my body, but degrade myself
Waste myself
Sometimes I really wanna change myself
My face breaks out, and my hair's going bald
Man, I suck at school
I wanna hang myself, and erase myself
Dear God, I know that you created me
And I appologize for my thoughts
He made me for a reason, I need to believe it
Cause you showed me love within all of my faults
You paid up the cost, that's blood on the cross
You showed me direction whenever I'm lost
So why would I turn around from you
And treasure my demons
Whenever you gave me a cause?

[Pre-Chorus]
Mirror, mirror, on the wall
Find the ugly, in them all
Point them out and let them fall
Destroy their minds and show their flaws
I'm insecure, I need help
I can't find love, for myself
I pray to God, I'm deep in hell
Lord heal my scars, defeat this spell

[Chorus]
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say
Cover and hide it
Ashamed of my face
I hate my reflection
I see a mistake
There's too many voices
inside of my brain
I look like a monster
Don't care what you say

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