LYRICS:

[Chorus]
Rid me of myself I've been in my way
Razor sharp words that been in my brain
Try to find something to lift my pain
Something ain't right
Something ain't right
Find me in my head til I lose my mind
Bitin' my tooth til the truth I find
Try to walk a mile in the shoes I've tied
Something ain't right
Something ain't right now

Little bit here, little bit not
What I never had given a lot
Something bout the way that I had lived in a past life hadn't sat right, naw
Independent but not free from the burden of being a bad dude
From the crap shoot that is life got me living deep in a bad mood
Tell me can it last? Worn a mask for the last 20 years give or take
Got me pissed bout the past get the gist? I'd go back just to change
Wait
Give me a bit to adjust because overcomers don't complain, well maybe a little
Got to have a process you know I get lost, yes, from the top to the middle
From chasing a place that I crave and I taste but it's wrong
But it's all that I know so it plays in my head til I'm gone
And as fast as it comes, it never does last very long
I just hope, I don't do, something stupid, while I'm rapping this song
Here's a round of applause for all of y'all that got it together
I hope your bobbing your head to this song while I'm probably dead
Cuz in the prison of addict heart you never know when
It could be your time cuz life is shorter when you start at the end

[Chorus]

Always ready for a different result, never ready to contribute the change
Never age never die, wonder why, always feel like I'm on different pages
Engraved it, embalmed it and blazed it in my momma's basement
And caught me a case with, I just wanted to taste it, copy and paste it
But little known fact, in the back of my mind is a bomb
And I think that it might finally have just gone off in a song
And I
Can't seem to find all of the pieces that scattered abroad
Half are gone, and the other half, not working as well as it was
Not at all
Cuz I've been a psycho, I find that in times of strife I might be the type to
Grab a knife and cut the lights out just to be blind to everything I can hide from
Grab a rifle, just to protect me from my mind or whatever's inside, around and out behind it
It's crowded I don't like it
These mountains I've been climbing, to my demise, I never find
That the ride back down ever lasts long when I can't stop climbing back down
I cannot be the only one out here that can vouch for the little bit of help
That is asked, to just last, in world that is masked up now

[Chorus]

When I get up and give it my everything ready or not 
Gotta give it again when you give it a thought 
And it better be right
Or the rest world will be giving you grief in a fight for the rest of your life 
You can swim or you sink in a puddle of people that love you then hate you for making mistakes and it's crazy
Even the same day they can take away in the same way that they gave it
And love it or hate it's everyone out for themselves
Wish you well, been a pal, it's been real
Like nothing at all just a feeling
Even when a little bit of giving them minute just to maybe give it any second thought
Nope
Not at all, make me never want to give another part of my heart
If it's just gonna end up torn

[Chorus]

Something Ain't Right

The pursuit of independence
The truth can start to mess with
For some it's just a long, dark, and dusty road to Heaven
The belief that we are greater
We just fell until it faded
With traumas that have bonded
The once loved now is hated
Karma makes a man accountable everywhere his heart is
Unless you don't believe in karma, that's even deeper waters
A fistful of the wishful thinking, simple's not an option
A lifetime of it all now there's a pistol in your pocket
On the corner there's a light that's shining brighter than the rest of em
The fight that's in your spirit not the night for which it's tested in
Lesser men have rested, in death to get what's destined
Left the men behind with a debt to pay the rest in
Blinded by the pride, now confined to limits penciled
Afraid of truth and time, until it finally gets the best of
The street he grew up on has been leveled by machines
For profit in the pockets of ones that made it green 

Can you tell me
When it will stop robbing them dry
In the deepest of the water I know
How do we know
Can you tell me
When the tears start to fall from their eyes
In the deepest of the water I know
And I don't even know what I'm doing here

Well from a dude that’s got a death wish
Nothing to prove to pass the test with
The anger that’s inside from every contusion he was left with
Every bruise that makes his head spin
And the dues that rake the debts in
Every fool that’s ever messed with
Never lose cuz never messed with
Just the booze that he was bred with
The abuse from every direction
Heaven should knew he had a future
Taken his truth and made it different
He could choose to change his shoes but too many miles they’ve taken steps in
With a slew of thoughts had crept in
Turned it from two up to eleven
With the news the wake of destruction
Rather choose to stay in anger
With a crew cut and a stone wall 
The abused is now the breaker
He’s more comfortable in danger 
Want to just stay where he’s been raised in
Cuz the world that burned around him
Gave him the flame that came in blazin'
Now the fire in his eyes has taken him places never dreamed 
Never gone but never here 
Never change and never seen
Never will know what to do
Only adapt and learn to be
Well that man you never knew
I think you know that man is me

Can you tell me
When it will stop robbing them dry
In the deepest of the water I know
How do we know
Can you tell me
When the tears start to fall from their eyes
In the deepest of the water I know
And I don't even know what I'm doing here

The Stranger

Here’s the truth about this album
I wrote it while I was poundin’ shots of whiskey by the gallon
Left my family wondering how can I be living life without em
These songs meant more to me than my commitments that I vowed em
Didn’t want to be around em
My head was dark and clouded
I’m not proud of it
I spiraled out and thought that I just want to do my music
Go get high and just abuse it
Wanted to choose to just be through with everything beautiful
And lose myself to do what I want to do
But here’s the truth I wish I knew

That nothing I’m doing has ever been darker then everything happening right now
Since I was I child I hideout, under the covers turn the light out
Don’t know how to fight, that might be the reason why I became an addict
It was the world that I was mad at
Blame my brother, mom, and dadda
That’s when I turned into everything that I hated
Disrespectful rebel that got a shoulder chip and labeled I don’t give a sh*t I’m faded
Underrated, give me baby at 16 so I can raise it
Just so later she can turn on me and sabotage and hate me
Just rewind it back to prison
And the trauma that I lived in
And the God that touched my heart and
Said my crimes have been forgiven
And my soul found rest right inside of that broken mess
And I think I’ve been broken since
Cuz the other way don’t make sense
And then I paroled and wrote my first real album
I’m singing I HAVE A DREAM
Until I can’t speak from shoutin on that mountain
Is it loud enough??
I found a way to heaven
If I can stay right outta my way
I swear that I’ll make it past the clouds
Cuz now I’m ready

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

There’s a monster underneath the bed, in my head, and in the closet space
So I fell hard and it cost me everything except an arm and leg
Cuz if you asked me what the last thing on my mind had been
A part of me would say “just keepin it hard man, I’m bored again”
This tug of war has got me luke warm and I’m too torn to get used to any new norm, I’m a rose bud with a huge thorn
It’s my duty to soldier on with every new war
But my shoes torn, I’m tired of looking at blue skies with new storms
That’s why I wrote this EP
So I could walk away from this relapse with a CD
To remember every feeling
To lie there dead and bleeding
To come to life again I’m breathing
If you ask me yes it hurts cuz there’s a fight to get to this healing
I don’t want to even cry about it anymore
And anyway
It’s history
I don’t know why it still feels like a mystery
It gets to me
Just listen to the gist of it, just picture it
And leave out all the rest
Cuz it will all make sense eventually

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

I Will Wait (ft. Cadence)

Look, I know I'm young, but I've got a decade into fun and games
Grew up with an attitude that nobody can understand
I thought about that right path, yep, you know that other way
But I took one look and said NOPE, there's nothing there to blunt the pain
What am I saying? I've been all about that wrong stuff
It feels right til you've been on it all for long enough
Gone nuts, talkin' tough, like I've got it rough
I've got to clean this all up
That's why I write this music, for the broken abused and heavy-hearted
The confusion of losing yourself or just a part of it
I'm set apart so I can relate
Cuz where I started ain't too far from it, getting lost in places uncharted
And the memories are good, but it's all an illusion
Do or die when you ride for your crew going shooting
And I've been there, done that, no it ain't funny
I've still got friends doing bath things for money
When the cold streets eat you up and spit you out
You'll be in the same place as me, begging prison guards to let you out
And I'm not special, I'm a mental case
Everyday's a struggle for my brain to give a delta wave
And I'm acting out of ignorance like everyone's an idiot
Cuz everything is justified, just cuz I'm a city kid
I want it all, every little itty bit
Ride it til the wheels fall off and I'm officially an indigent
And it feels like it's been centuries
How can I afford to live, let alone the mortgage and the dental fees
God help me cuz this struggle is a lot, I'd rather die than continue living this lie

Hook:
It's times like these
I should have known better but I needed to walk the path alone
You're always by my side
It's time I tried
Looking like a burning sky, maybe it's the fire in your eyes
Hallelujah

I've got to try to find some time to pray
Working like a dog just to function while my mind is on a holiday
My thoughts are incomplete, is it me?
I have been so paranoid, but man do I have a lot of history
Of always being followed up with sympathy
I find it hard to swallow like a bad trip, grab an antihistamine and shhhhh
Shivering cold I'm getting to old to be frightened by some glitter and gold, ya know?
But I was once told, "it's better to be afraid, than be a liar and a cheat, just so I can get my way"
And I've been listening, I promise mom and dad
That you never have to worry about your son ever again
Cuz I found God and did it for my daughter and I see things clear
I've decided that I'm done living my life in fear
Because it isn't funny watching buddies overdose
So close, everything you know could end without a moments notice
Hoping I'll explode with this passion for this everlasting spirit
Screaming in my head, and I hope the world can hear it
And I'm tearing up, tearing down this prison
This isn't just a euphemism, built it, now I'm plotting it's collision
Indivisible, I'm simply getting rid of all the influence
I've been through this and failed, but I got back up with vigilance
So here I am, standing right before you as a different man
Take my hand or leave it, either way you'll see it, still I stand
And life ain't nowhere close to being perfect
But at least now it's worth it, man I'm happy, even though I don't deserve it
And I recommend you try it, if your life is like a circus
You can fix it if you want it, man, this church is now in service

It's times like these
I should have known better but I needed to walk the path alone
You're always by my side
It's time I tried
Looking like a burning sky, maybe it's the fire in your eyes
Hallelujah

Recovery Road EP

Times Like These

INSTRUMENTAL BY INSANE-BEATZ

Sometimes it's hard for me to say what's on my mind
I struggle with addiction and it's leavin' me behind
I try to tell my family that I want to be around
But I must be underwater cuz I cannot make a sound
I try to be kind but instead I'm actin' outta worry
Try to slow my thoughts down but it's hard while the whole world's in a hurry
My vision's gettin' blurry trying to look for clues
I feel like if I found one, I wouldn't even know what I should do
Cuz my brain just ain't workin' like it used to
Get stuck in the past and yet I'm trippin' in the future
Just want a simple life, but I'm prone to all these tendancies
And time's gettin' cold, but it's like liquor, it'll never freeze
Even if it's 10 degrees, life marches on with or without ya
And how you go about your business, that's what you amount to
Cuz fame and fortune, that's what people want
I'm sick of dreamin', I'm just tryna make enough to give my kid a home

I give a little time to the people that I love 
And a little bit of focus to the things I wanna know
I give a lot of nothin' to the tears I found
And try to find peace in the here, right now
And even if the good Lord comes back now
I know that I'll be headin' for the Heaven I found  
And even if the world goes crashin' to the sea
I know that I'm right where I wanna be

Growin' up I figured life was all about the things I wish to get
Look but never find until I'd hide behind a cigarette
And workin' towards an answer til my hands and feet are blistered
Gotta keep an open mind cuz life is never how you pictured it
Give it all to God cuz ain't nobody gonna change for us
I thirst for harmony, we're singin' from the same chorus
But man is stubborn do the same things, and end up in the same corners
And we can scream but they still ignore us
I'm short of breath, gotta be sure to rest
Cuz I've had like four arrests and the court addressed me as guilty, more or less
I'm sorta blessed, whether it's tribulation or a test
I'm more than ready, I've been waiting for it, man, ignore the rest
Cuz people notice that I hold a different attitude
I hope they know just that I'm on a different avenue
And I get overloaded, feelin' hopeless, in a crappy mood
When God's given me everything I need, where's my gratitude

Hook

Well I came to start changing the way my name's brought up
Pray that God gave me tomorrow to stay longer
To gain harder, aim farther like Wayne Carter
Get my brain smarter, give me the strength to raise my daughter
And I beg your pardon, excuse me, I know it's been a rough week
But I'm sweatin' so profusely, tryna get enough sleep
And fightin' it like Bruce Lee cuz I never wanna go back
To the place that I was at when I was (La da da da da)
And it's sad but true, I'm seein' people, but I don't see unity
Not too many people reachin' out, that's no community
It's you and me, us against the world is what it's soon to be
So you can see, why I live my life by what I do believe
And truthfully, speakin' as a man that's been to hell and back
I've been redeemed, I'll go back to hell just to tell em that
Meet you where your at, so you never have to go back
To the place that you were at when you were (La da da da da)

Hook

Where I Want To Be

I see white roses all in a row
Driving so quickly, to where I don't know
Oh there is beauty in every corner
Passing by

Quickly this life is passing by
And even though you say you don't miss me
I can see it in your eye
Cuz in the Bible, I read that there's a time for everything
So just let it all flow, it's the season for healing
And it's not right, feels like, but how could I have ever known
All I've been in greedy, my real emotions never shown
Underneath every selfish act
There has been a scared little boy waiting years to come back
And it's not easy, to be honest it is scary
To undergo the change that's forever been so necessary
But dive deep man, never look behind ya
There's a reason God put us on a timer

I see white roses all in a row
Driving so quickly, to where I don't know
Oh there is beauty in every corner
Passing by (Oohhhh)
I see white roses all in a row
Driving so quickly, to where I don't know
Oh there is beauty in every corner
Passing by (Passing By)

I've spent some time laughing, and I've spent some time greiving
And I've seen a couple miracles, that's why I'm still believing
It's a fine line between this and that
Imagine the confusion that I felt when I found that one out
And it's a breath of fresh air to be a new creation
Even if the day's gone wrong, you know there's better ones waiting
And it's aviation trying to navigate through the pain
Mayday, Mayday, we're going down in this plane
And you pick it back up and level off, and you laugh
It's worry that has made this all pass by fast
And maybe the grass is greener on the other side
So come and take a ride with me where the sun shines

I see white roses all in a row
Driving so quickly, to where I don't know
Oh there is beauty in every corner
Passing by (Oohhhh)
I see white roses all in a row
Driving so quickly, to where I don't know
Oh there is beauty in every corner
Passing by (Passing By)
I see white roses all in a row
Driving so quickly, to where I don't know
Oh there is beauty in every corner
Passing by (Passing By)

White Roses (Acoustic)

Produced by InsaneBeatz
Mixed/Mastered by Prince

The Letter

Once & For All

Til The End Of Time

Time Machine is about post-traumatic stress and how it affects every part of a person's life.

Time Machine (feat. Jesi Leachman)

Dear Jess (Right Here In This Moment)

This Is Me

All these emotions they float to the surface, no way to hold em
From thinking of how broken this world is cold and it's frozen
To family overdosing and thrown in a hole
And making the rest of us wonder if life goes on when it's over
I'm close to exploding, and no one seems too close to me now
My mind gets spoken, (yeah) but it only seems to blow up this crowd
That's why I used to just numb the pain in the smoke with a cloud
So no one could know I'm just broken down when no one's around 
I've grown up a child, cuz I don't like to face what I've known
To know how it feels to get denied a place to call home
No bank in the world is an option cuz they can't give a loan
To a dude with a record as major as the change that he's shown
But the debt that I've got, Is nothing to the friends that I've lost
My memory's off, but it feels like they're all dead or get shot
My head is in shock, they're there then they're not
It tears me apart
Cuz I never thought, they'd ever be gone, 
It's Ready or not


Ready or not
I am forever a changed man
Dead or alive
I keep your picture in place man
Because you live on
I see your face and I can't stand
We'll be okay
And pray that God has the same plan
We only get one chance
You don't want to waste time
Just take in this moment
I know that I'm going to take mine
I'm not going to stay quiet
So give it your best shot
Cuz ready or not 
Just keep it pushing with whatever you got



I give all of me completely to my wife and my kids
I'd never do anything to hurt em, swear my life I would give
Cuz they're the life that I live, in spite of my pride I try to forgive
But I get blinded by what I won't admit
And I hold em too tight, cuz I know life don't last forever
I would die if something happened (yeah) that I could have prevented
So I squeeze em and it hurts them with the rightest of intentions
Then we just fight until my wife and I divided from the tension
I just miss em, I'm afraid that if we fight and disconnect and something happened
I won't be around to stop their lives from ending
And I'd never get to tell her that I shine because I met her
And like all the rest, they died and I'm stuck writing them a letter
See the time it ticks away, life is lighter than a feather
You can hold it down, and still it slips to fly up with the weather
So whatever, man I don't have the answers in this letter
I'm just missing you, and wishing you the best inside of Heaven



I'll never forget that phone call
I replay in my head over and over til I punch my own wall
You'd have thought that from the pain I'd grown tall
I'm a survivor, I just make it through whatever and just hope I've grown at all
Cuz I hold it all in until my chest it cannot breathe
Til I fall gently on my knees and let out every single scream
Then get up face the day, the world depends on me to be
The one to get up and to lead and keep my head up for my people
It makes me want to go and hit the bed and never leave it
It makes me want to drink until I'm dead so I can see you
And then I see my family looking back, my kids are watching
"Daddy, please, just get up and teach us how to be a leader"
I just underestimate how short this life can truly be
Then I'm reminded once again now as I write your eulogy
I'm fighting through the pain, cuz you knew how to live this life beautifully
But truthfully, I just suppress the pain before it screws with me
I think about the future now we're out of opportunities
We'll never get to choose to act a fool just like it used to be
But I can make it right, your legacy lives on
Who would have thought it was only thing that's ever gotten through to me

Ready Or Not

Grand design
I'm always getting caught up with these plans of mine
I always got to have a distracted mind (uh huh)
I barely pay attention almost half the time
Must not have had a lot of crap happen right (nope)
Just want to relax but I'm past the point
There's too much on the path that is asinine
So what's that, it's just a bit of life
That you won't get without a fight
That's why this music, is where I would escape, like a drug it would grab me and start to relax my mind (yeaaah)
Cuz I was young when I learned about the worst parts, a little kid standing on his porch with a dandelion (la la la la)
That's when the cops kick the door shoutin get on the floor, with their guns drawn pointed at my mommas eyes
And I don't get it, and I don't wanna get it
Mom, why you getting taken by this man with your hands behind?
The same thing happened to my dad
Had to watch him get cuffed in the street for the second time
And thus begins
A lifelong battle of resentment for cops cuz I couldn't understand the crime
I just saw a bunch of cowards without a spine 
That would bust up in your house just to pass the time
And I was pissed, I must have been six, with my hands in a fist, and I'm sick with this askin why
So I started listening to Slim Shady (that's Rock Bottom)
Him and Dr. Dre had a way that they rapped these rhymes
I put my headphones on, as I drift away and just relate a bit to these master minds
I've got a million emotions I can't define
When my heart and mind they just can't align
I smack rewind and then I go and black my mind and chill with a track that could take me back in time
And get it



You could be my favourite place
I've ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I've hung my happiness upon what it all could be




There's something about when you start to get sad
Or when lifes getting harder and part of it's bad
And you let down your guard in your heart that is wrapped up in scars from the parts of your heart that were shattered
And listen to artists with heart when they rap
It can heal all the trauma that stops you from laughing
Cuz music can take all the carnage and damage and make em just memories locked in the past 
When your young and your mother and father get hammered
And use you to get on each otherss last nerves
And custody battles where judges get mad
And your mother gets drunk cause she just couldn't handle
The pain that it causes, when love doesn't last
Cuz it started out happy with mommy and daddy, but feelings they change (change)
And everything changes
Til all they demand is they want understanding
And all that you want is some peace in your home, but it seems like it even just hardly would matter
It's all that I'm after, cuz after my father got cancer I promised to God that I'd had it
And life doesn't stop, in fact its just giving it all to you back going farther and faster
And dark as it gets, we don't have the power to change anything but our thoughts and reactions
It honestly really don't matter how broken and battered and scarred from the battle
There's always a thousand more bars in this ladder you gotta keep climbing up all that it has
And turn up the speakers so loud that you can't hear your thoughts over all the guitars and pianos
Til all of the curtains they close, and all that is left is the stage and the sound of this audience clapping



You could be my favourite place
I've ever been
I got lost in your willingness
To dream within the dream
You could be my favourite faded fantasy
I've hung my happiness upon what it all could be

My Favorite Place ft. Damien Rice

A low point in my life.
Written for the person that feels like they can't go on any longer.

Produced by TellingBeatz
Recorded and mixed by Derrick Stevenson and Portland Underground Recording
Written by Chad Leachman


The Letter, Part II

Roll those windows down, turn the music up, and chill!

Prod by InsaneBeatz
Recorded & Mixed by Derrick Stevenson and Portland Underground Recording
Written by Chad Leachman

Windows Down

I hate you addiction & depression.

Prod. InsaneBeatzz
Recorded/Mixed by Derrick Stevenson & Portland Underground Recording
Written by Chad Leachman

I Hate You

Original Times Like These song, written on an acoustic guitar from prison.

Recorded/Mixed by Derrick Stevenson
Mastered by Prince Strickland
Portland Underground Recording

Times Like These (Acoustic B-Side)

Song from the upcoming EP.
The Slip EP

LYRICS:
Lying and trying to put up a front
Nothing makes sense
Slippin up give in again, just to repent
Simple again, til it was not
Small town with a ranch
And havin a family it was the plan
But tendancy hinder the way that it panned
Isn't it sad? Just to withstand
Knowing that the bottom isn't the end
Get to the top just to visit a friend
Figure out that the biggest doubt
Was the trigger that had entered in with the gin
Luck stopped with the buck shot
Trust not for that one spot
Bumped out of the club now
Slump down to that truck stop
Fun is the game, andrenalain
Bringin pain to a world that is already wounded
Refusein to change remaining with the dead, then be excluded
But truth is who is gonna be suited up when it's time
Or get booted uprooted to the place you been headin to the pine
You flew the coop, to the point there's no return
Sure, you're feeling the burn but nowhere to turn but where you don't belong and don't deserve
A learning curve
hoping there's room in the future to beat the verdict that you earned
just burn down the curse of the past and be rid of the hurt for the terminal work that you learned

[Chorus]
For the last time
It got me for the last time
I swear I did it for the last time
You know I did it for the last time
I swear it got me for the last time (like the first time)
I know it got for the last time (like the first time)
I swear it did me for the last time (like the first time)
I know it got me for the last time (like the first time)
Yeah

Smile,
Even when no one's around
Learn to be holdin it down
Don't go with the crowd
Wow, how can you pout
When nobodys choking you out
Drip
Sit down for you flip out
Git down for you trip out
Slip out of the spotlight
Went down to that strip house
Wishing that the itching coulda
Given something different but it
Didn't I admit it I'm not kidding
From the beginning
It's been a mission
Driven to gold and anything that could hold up my interest
Always try to be bold individual, plus all the things I stole from Pinterest
I wasn't always in a pinch
When it was a sinch
I never would flinch
But when I was given an inch
I figured I'd give it a mile before I turned into the grinch
But to this day, to my dismay, nothin has panned out
The old ways that I grew up, blew up in my hands now
Truth is that it stands out, who says that you can't shout
Bruce Wayne in the skylight, two face in the town now
But I ain't a joker I been in the ditch and know what deal is
I give it all that I got now, to give respect to the realness 

[Chorus]

The Last Time

LYRICS:
Two thoughts for the one choice
Two paths for the one light
Still not with right one
Drew back in the gun fight
Don't know half the answers that I pretend in my pride to know with confidence
I'll probably die with my denial gripped in both my hands
I've proven to God that I'm unsavable, yet all I can hear is his voice that I'm forgiven
Guess I'm not the monster taken for
I relapsed and I'm not clean
I realize that it's haunting
Slipped up and I fell down
See you guys in the storm drain
All that we have in this life is a little bit of time, that we can stay with
Most of us chase it far enough to see the time that we just wasted
And look through windows of the past like they were TV screens
And see the good, forget the bad just so conveniently
Change is, always staring us right in the face, all that we see is dust
A look of disgust and blame the world cuz it is free to trust
I bleed and bust, even though I'm the one that didn't change when faced at
A penny for the well, wish hard that it gave back
Church sermons in a bad season
Hurts worse than the last reason
Perfect time to be a different person
Sure cursed with a bad demon
I'm past needing, to learn to just listen instead of be knowin' I'm right
They tell me go left and I'm not phased as I start going right
Don't have much fight left, I'm in danger of my own mind
6 years of training my thoughts are drawn in chaulk in stone lines
Don't hold the gold too tight, your hands are made of fire homie
And your words are made of bullets
Even if you're tired of it

[Chorus]
Sorry for the pain that I brought to your door
I don't even want it like this anymore
I put my weapon down right down to the floor
Even if its over I just want you to know
That I slipped up (slipped up)
I slipped up (slipped up)
You know I slipped up (slipped up)
I slipped up (slipped up)

Feels like I robbed myself, and lost time for the charged crime
But the thought I'm, have now, my wife and children got the hard time
Your daddy's an addict, so you've been sentenced life with no assurance
I guess that at some point we must all learn to be our own parents
A lonely ranger turned to desperado
Even if hell froze he would not trust anything except respect the bottle
A test of his shear will, to just sit down and remain still
It's problematic when the pains real and you can't feel
You see I could care less, bout the physical pain of a detox
It's the pit of my brain when I feel lost, when I sit and face the real cost
Then the beat drops, back in the studio
Spittin to cope with the life change
And it won't change what I been though
From the old days to the right page
I mismanaged my life is dismantled it's what I've been handed
So if you critics ever wished that I would fall hard, wish granted
It's just damage, I can fix this like grown man
Give it back to God and just Let it go from outta my own hands
A flower for my daughter caught up in DHS
The power of a father isn't what we may guess
A pencil for my son who's learning to be a man
So write this down
The fight is never over, get up on your feet again
My pregnant wife, and my unborn child
Here's my mic and all my music you can have it all, I'd rather see your pretty smile
Live a little while longer just to give you back the love you give I'm pushing past the doubt
Just because we've had enough of this

The Slip

Song from the upcoming EP.
The Slip EP

LYRICS:
[Chorus]
Good for nothing, introverted, burning up and living bad
Cursin' at the world, it never will get back, and getting mad
It's just the thoughts inside my spinning head that hold me
Just get me out this place
Staring at this at this empty bottle wishing that it took me out
Voices in my head I follow all the way look at me now
It's just the thoughts inside my spinning head that hold me
Just get me out this place

Cherish the good
Memory setting me up I'd remember if ever I could
Selective it stood
Forget the bad in the conditions
It never will change as it should
Grab onto one word that made my life bitter
Rejecting the 50 that made it all better
Shed all the fat that was cloggin the pipes
More people gone from my corner than ever
Satisfied never, have a nice weather
Black Friday type of mind to find treasure
Time is just whenever, never want to measure
Giving up the precious seconds to not feel the pressure
Whiskey bottle
Or a anything else that could fit the model
Forget tomorrow, never follow, gravity isn't a factor soon as you're in the water
Outlook not so good? What does that mean? Shake it up again, follow whatever you choose
Whether win or lose, Mr. Destiny knocks at the door when it's time for the change to be introduced
When the chess piece moves, lest we forget when we checked we move
If not than at best we lose
Looking back easy living it hard in the debt we choose

[Chorus]

Uncontrolled emotions that will float to the top way before it is even noticed
No time to cope before the explosion destroys any hope of it being restored
Cuz you can't be a man in a world made of gold without bleeding a bit when the fire is forged
The odds are against any heart that is working to better the man in the heat of the scorch
Its impossible
Often feels not
But swimming up river to float to the bottomless rocks
To drop all the locks for the doors you did not have to walk, man it's a lot harder than talk
Get rid of the thought
That even if all
The planets align
And temperatures fall
That God isn't watching
Wishin the wall just wasn't so tall
To get into your heart
Invincible not
Just human like the rest
When dividends brought
The trueness to the test
Flown into the sun, pursue forever rest
Mama bird weeps as you flew into the nest
But how many chances do you have to be lasting
When the devil is chasing and the pastor is asking
And the master is calling your name to the table
So go get your grace, and not wrath of your past, get it

[Chorus]

Read it and weep
I can not sleep
Time is still movin
Days into weeks
I hear the voice
A whispering void
What did you say
Though the blistering noise
Tribulate, turn into given hate
Honestly when did it get this way
I think at this rate we will disintegrate
1968 written in history
See the symmetry
In the way that we just hating the pain away
Day to day getting more numb to the table weight
And it's making me crazy, vacate to mars to wait it out patiently
So go pickup a pickup truck
Lift it up, lower the tail gate and sit back up
And get that cup and fill it back up with love sip it up and then get back up and get unstuck
And the luck might just turn up fore we burn up
And the bus leaves us stuck in an eternal rut
You know what, don't care about a few more bucks
I've put too much of myself here to destruct
So what 

[Chorus]

Get Me Out

Song from the upcoming EP.
The Slip EP

LYRICS:
[Chorus]
Pulled me through
You pulled me through
Yeah you pulled me through
You pulled me through

The ground on which you walk can only tolerate so much
A thousand little wrongs now it's too far away to touch
The borrowed weight of much, knowing partly it is such
A delicate scar that ripped apart (yeah) when the dark became the crutch
The tar to kill the pain at least the part that makes you fuss
The shard to will the brain to cheat the heart, awake the rush
And making this art I hate this stuff
These songs part of the why I'm stuck
They seem to help grieve the pain
But I swear if I could I'd trade them up
A secret deep inside locked
And no one knows the key
And no one ever will
They'll never dare to set you free
The test to keep the secret hidden in the deep and live in a prison that you reap and so you sit and never sleep, it's hard to breathe
But the funny thing of it all
Is what is underneath of the wall
If you're looking past the excuse
As you stumble deep in the vault
There's just a bleed that is small
But the blood has leaked in the hall
Now every door that opens is stained
Nothing can change til it is gone, you clean up all of it

[Chorus]

Infinite the thoughts
That are infinitely thought
Within a minute, listen and watch
As it demands to be the boss of every win of every loss
Every sin and every spot
Every grin and every nod
Every inch inch that you could walk
Gettin a little from giving a lot
Has been chipping away, a little bit every day
Never been to this place of infinite anger and hate
It started from from thoughts that I didn't change
I didn't try, to make em go way they could stay
Now haunt me is the process, and it's haunting every day
And live in the trap inside your mind that in time could just snap and no one possibly would understand the facts of the matter
Attacked with the lack of compassion I'm crashing the faster that they judge, I think the shorter that I'm lasting
And I'm not gonna bend over any more for anybody
And I'm certainly inserting my opinion in this topic
Every thought that tries to stop
Every cop and everybody
Can hear these words again, I swear to God you'll never stop me 

[Chorus]

Pulled Me Through

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