Jades/otuka

Otuka

jades/otaku

Otuka playlists 😍

lyrics:

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

that’s okay

I changed my mind, I don’t need you
You piss me off when I see you
So here’s a little letter dear you
I hope you like being left in the rearview
I’m not better just know that I tried
and if you hate me just know that it’s fine
Cuz I hate me too there’s no need to lie
I couldn’t keep you around I had to leave you behind
So goodbye and farewell
I think I’ll see you again
somewhere down there in hell
I hope you pray for me now
I hope you pray for my health
I know you hate me but I hope you’re wishing me well
I hate you now but I loved you
You say that it’s not true
I put no one above you
Where no one could touch you
It’s true that I loved you
But now it’s just fuck you
I might go and find somebody else just know that it’s not you

You’d think I’d be better by now but I breakdown knowing that you’re never around
My hands still shake when I’m going about my day
Don’t think that I’ll ever calm down but
2x

That’s okay :)

dear you (prod. yelvy)

and we're back

lyrics:

I got nothing left to say to ya
It’s nothing but a game to ya 
There’s no one else to blame but ya 
Cuz no one’s gonna change for ya
2x

Yeah I got nothing for you and I’m tryna be rude but
you’re making it hard for me so fuck you too

Pipe down lemme talk my ish
I been quiet for a minute let me up my shit
Say they hate me but they’re liking all my pics
Oh you’re proud of me now? Shut the fuck up bitch
Yeah, lights out
Don’t wanna talk I’d rather hide out
And I know you don’t wanna talk now
But you’re talking too much you better pipe down
Got nothing left to say
Hold on lemme take that back
I got a few words for you, where the fuck you at?
You wanna runaway? Tell me what the fuck is that
Go and get away that’s the way you always act
So I can’t stay here no more
I’m tired of getting ignored
Like why do we do this for
I’m getting real fucking bored
I’m way too tired for this
I got no damn for the petty shit 
Like can you just take a hint
I think it’s bout damn time that you call it quits

I got nothing left to say to ya
It’s nothing but a game to ya 
There’s no one else to blame but ya 
Cuz no one’s gonna change for ya
2x

nothing left to say (prod. joshwa)

never enough

lyrics:

I’m tired of waiting, losing my patience
tired of the same old communication
we just go back and forth with the same shit
you can save your breath for a new conversation 
can you take a hint like I don’t wanna talk no more
I’ve been stressed out enough tryna hold my own
Think I’ll crash right here on the stone cold floor
cuz this place ain’t for me, no it’s not my home
2x

and it feels like nobody loves you and everybody hates you
Is everyone around you tryna change you?
Got no one but yourself, who’s gonna save you?
The person in the mirror really ain’t you
I don’t wanna stay here I don’t wanna go there
It feels like I belong nowhere
You can pretend but I know you don’t care
I tried to play by your rules but it’s not fair
I don’t need you I don’t need them
I just booked a flight I’ll be gone by the weekend
I been tryna get my head straight I’m trippin for no reason
Don’t know what to do I think I’ve fallen off the deep end
Yeah they don’t even care that I’m upset
I’m pissed off, barely getting started I ain’t done yet
I haven’t gone to sleep, I watched the sunrise and sunset
I think I’ll go to sleep soon cuz bitch

I’m tired of waiting, losing my patience
tired of the same old communication
we just go back and forth with the same shit
you can save your breath for a new conversation 
can you take a hint like I don’t wanna talk no more
I’ve been stressed out enough tryna hold my own
Think I’ll crash right here on the stone cold floor
cuz this place ain’t for me, no it’s not my home
2x

crashed (prod. joshwa)

more music otw

lyrics:

oh girl i wish that you knew
that its just always been you
you had me so damn confused
i didnt know what to do
i should be honest with you
knew i was falling for you
spend all my hours with you
you had me calling for you
x2

you had me calling for you
and i just tried to play it cool
but i just look like a fool
and you just came out the blue
just tell me what you want
and ill tell you what i need
you're everything i wanted
its obvious to me
yeah i was stuck in denial
and didnt talk for awhile
can admit to it now
but it was weighing me down
now i cant focus on nothing but you
and i dont care about no one if they aint you
now i cant think straight
you're always in my headspace
im thinkin bout you all day
i hope you're doing okay

you (prod. joshwa)

one more to go

lyrics:
don’t even talk to me
I don’t want your time, don’t want your company
you’re too busy switching sides, it don’t mean nun to me
you’re just so damn suffocating, make it hard to breathe
don’t even talk to me
2x

Just stay quiet don’t say a word
Don’t try to talk to me now cuz you were silent before
And I don’t pick up the phone cuz ima settle the score
You make it complicated, I don’t wanna do this no more
Yeah I been on the same shit but you been on some lame shit
I don’t think you ever gave a fuck so why you changing?
the way you come around now let’s me know you ain’t shit
I don’t think we’ll ever get along and that’s the main thing
You don’t get it, you’re the problem
You can never solve em
How you talkin down on me knowing you’re at the bottom
You’ll do anything to flaunt sum
Bet you thought you got one
You can find me on the top floor, tell em all that I won
I’m never hearing you out
I know you’re hearing me now
You tried to figure me out but now you’re stuck in denial
You weren’t here for awhile but now you’re stressing out
Don’t bother sticking around, don’t ever try to fucking

talk to me
don’t want your time, don’t want your company
you’re too busy switching sides, it don’t mean nun to me
you’re just so damn suffocating, make it hard to breathe
don’t even talk to me
2x

switching sides (prod. joshwa)

lyrics:

I don't give a fuck bout nun
I'm gone in like 3 2 1
To the next place
To the next thing
I don't give a fuck bout them
x2

Yeah, I think you should care less
These people not worth your time or your last breath
Yeah, it don't even make sense
Cuz you care about them but they care bout your damn bread
Toxic, bitch I'm counting money till my hands break
Yeah, I don't give a fuck about a handshake
I know you don't give a fuck about me, that's a fake face
You don't got to say another word, keep the damn change
Yeah, I let the phone ring
Like 3-4 times till I feel like fucking moving
Like who you fooling
You can try to play it cool but I know you're fuming
Yeah, I don't wanna waste my time on something that don't mean nun to me
Yeah, I don't wanna waste my high on someone who's gon take my time and leave
I got to shut off the phone
I got people calling that I don't even know
Now you're talking too much, better lower your tone
Bitch I'm good by myself keep it under control

I don't give a fuck bout nun
I'm gone in like 3 2 1
To the next place
To the next thing
I don't give a fuck bout them
x2

apathetic (prod. okayjml)

lyrics:

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

tryna open the doors, can’t find an escape
maybe it’s karma or maybe it’s fate
start to think I’m the problem and I shoulda changed
i wanted things and I got them but I’m still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or something else
A shoulder to cry on when you’re not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I’ve done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shooting for the moon,stars,and the sun

I try my best but I’m still fucking it up
your scent is poison and it’s fucking my lungs
the thought of trying makes me wanna give up
try to do everything but it’s not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement 
cuz I’d do anything to make you feel important
show you that your special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lying and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn’t showing
The hate is getting potent
Can’t look up at the clock, my time is getting shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they’ll notice

potent

same song, new pitch, some new vocals, slightly better mix. enjoy <3 

lyrics: 
maybe im never enough
i'm sick and tired of fucking it up
tryna put it together, it's not adding up
talking a lot but you can't back it up
act like you care but it's not holding up
it's getting harder, i cant open up
tried over and over to show you my love
it's too bad that we dont give a fuck at all
x2

don't call me at 3 AM in the morning
do not disturb, it's been getting annoying
you say that you care but it's not really showing
cant take it no more that's why I've been ignoring your calls
its cool if you don't care at all
but why try to talk when you know that i'm tryna move on from you
like what's wrong with you?

we just go up and down and back and forth
i've been looking left and right and nothing works
i don't wanna talk cuz ill just make it worse
ill just keep acting like it doesn't hurt
there's too much in my head i gotta figure out
i've been on my own for a minute now
you cannot stay, i gotta kick you out
i cannot wait until i finish now

maybe im never enough
im sick and tired of fucking it up
tryna put it together but its not adding up
talking a lot but you can't back it up
act like you care but it's not holding up
it's getting harder, i cant open up
tried over and over to show you my love
its too bad that we dont give a fuck at all
x2

never enough (2023)

produced by guda & JibaoRockin

lyrics: 
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes
open your eyes, eyes

i know you see me
you cant deceive me
you act like it's easy
to throw me away to rot

i know you see me
i know that
just open your eyes
just open up your eyes

you're not blind you're not deaf
i know you see and hear me well
you choose not to hear me
i feel i need to yell
and you say that it's love
but i'm not sure if you mean well
til death do us part
i guess i'll see your ass in hell
i'll see you then
i don't know when
just open your eyes
and you'll see me again
i'm neither foe or a friend
it's only us in the end
wish you could see through my lens
won't you just

open your eyes (just open up)
open your eyes (can you see me?)
open your eyes(just open up)
open your eyes, eyes (can you see me?)

ah

open your eyes

insecure (hallow + ryo)

mixed by Jane Remover 
[lyrics]
if this our story ill write it
cheap alcohol on an island
cause i was never one for the finer things
(how could you lie to me?)
we're like heartbreak waiting to happen
(its inevitable)
a pair of self destructive habits
(how could i not have known)
i think that you deserve more magic than what ill bring

im no good
for you (all i want, you're all i want, you're all i want)
im self obsessed and way too stressed,
no good, for you
(all i want you're all i want)
im no good 
for you (all i want, you're all i want, you're all i want)
im one wrong step from a pointless death
no good, for you
(all i want, you're all i want)

(like one two three, like one two three)
i remember that day, i could never unsee
it was real and it hurt and i loved it 
cheap thrills cause we knew we couldnt function
but when i met you, i said i was done with it 
i couldnt afford to lose it all again
the mistakes of a past life now
would she understand if it all came out?
(could i tell you now?)

fall in love, try your best, fall apart 
(stay with me)
broken trust, bottled up, a broken heart
(please dont leave)
and i cant pretend i dont want you
(i want you)
i need you bad, but if i tell the truth
(i want you)
theres just no fucking use
(i want you)

im no good
for you (all i want, you're all i want, you're all i want)
im self obsessed and way too stressed,
no good, for you
(all i want you're all i want)
im no good 
for you (all i want, you're all i want, you're all i want)
im one wrong step from a pointless death
no good, for you
(all i want, you're all i want)

no good (all i want) [hallow + ryo]

produced by vercettiprada

lyrics: 

only call me when you need sum
I’m not returning a call bitch I never need them
I said fuck em only need me and my money
I don’t need a threesome
you busy hatin on the net, I don’t think you bitches ever been loved

I done made bout 50 bands chillin in my bedroom
Plan on making 50 more chillin in the same room
I know that’s something you can’t do
Honestly baby I can’t lose
I know I said that before but now it’s sum I can prove

tell me where the fuck you at
where the fuck you been
tell me what’s the word
told me chase that fucking bag
Put in that work
And the world is yours
Told you that I never lack 
But I fucking did 
Bag up on the floor 
Yk imma bring it back
Stuff it in my bag
Bring it back home

call failed

2 minutes of what I imagine the inside of head sounds like 


track one: murder for hire 

track two: caffeine 

track three: beabadoobee the perfect pair cover

track four: cheat codes

track five: knots

track six: top dog

track seven: this one will come out on somebody else’s  page

track eight: pride

track nine: rot my brain

track ten: in the end, I’ll be fine

nothing but noise

2 minutes vol 4

1. intuition
2. backwards
3. march
4. try my hand
5. new jazz idk
6. love yourself

year of the cat

lyrics:

Rot in your bed with me
Keep me company
Be my symphony
Can you?

You got me stuck on you
You got me stuck on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me tied up
I can't say it or it's up for me
Don't hit my phone up
Your attention's like a drug to me
If it ain't with me then I wish you pain and suffering
I give a fuck
But ima act like you mean nun to me

You don't like to talk it out
But you want communication
Can you make it make sense for me?
I try, but you know that it's killin' me

I want your love and your lust
I want your pain and your trust
I need your scent and your touch
I'm never getting enough of you

You got me stuck on you uh
You got me stuck on you uh

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

You got me stuck on you
On you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you
On you, on you, on you, on you

I'm just procrastinating

stuckk on you

lyrics: 
(and i hold your hand, as you tell me 
ill never see you again)
(i dont understand)

and days become months
and the months become years
you become a stranger 
as i face my fears
you ran out of words
i ran out of chances to act like it hurts
(i never came first)

and i hold your hand 
as you tell me ill never see you again
i dont understand 
how you say you love me then go back to him
so i loved her 
but its over now
i cant trust a word liquor puts in my mouth
my face in the dirt, my head in the clouds 
keep my composure, i find my way out

and days become months
and the months become years
you become a stranger 
as i face my fears
you ran out of words
i ran out of chances to act like it hurts
(i wish you the worst)

i loved her, but its over now
(the weight of the world on me,
i let you down)
i loved her, but its over now
(i cant trust a word liquor puts in my mouth)
i loved her, but its over now
its over now, its over now

hold your hand

hold your hand (ryo)

prod 
@1hallow
@ayyitsryo

thank you guys 4 sticking by me all this time
this is a song off a project im working on called “last year alive” hope u like it ok byeee

mother's child (ryo + hallow)

think i been thru it all stuff it in my bag tho
ion wna talk ik they gon backdoor
constant paranoia think my heads ab2 blow
like fk
man im stressin
n my brodie rly keep tht fkn weapon
on his side
ion wna talk (i say ts 2 much) bitch im flexin 
i might fk rnd n js teach these boys a lesson

had2 count it up 1 2 3 4 bands in my fkn pocket u aint got nun
n im rly w my bros we js havin fun
im w david in the mall we js cop it up
sike btc no i dnt shop@ the mall n shit
my brodie crashed so i had2 take the fall n shit
i dnt wna b responsible for all ts
i dont wna b responsible for none of ur shit

seems im@ the point of no return
i js want my bread back
labels actin fishy told em ima js go head back
im@ the crib finesse racks frm these hoes
think im fna grow
im w dori im w quinn we walk up in the spot they like oh no
shit 
they dk shit
do this4 a livin but i still cnt trust ts
do this4 my family yk this wht it is
do this4 my team btc u alr kno

i ran outta words
ran outta time
ran outta things2 say
ran outta lines
stuck in my head again think i ran outta time
id do like anything js2 go make them mine
n i did
so i got it
walk up in the party i think im the topic
wonder bout my faith why i evr lost it
wonder bout the hate why they always
why they never stoppin

n we cld all put it2 an end
but i dont evn wna b here 
i dont evn wna b here
i dont evn wna b here
i dont evn wna b here
i dont evn wna be here
i dont evn wna be here
(i cant find my strength n i h8 it
i cant find my words n i h8 it)

id rather do it on my own
ima make 2024 mine tho ig

im trying (litothedon)

my personal favorite off the EP

produced by waves

lyrics:

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
won’t let me go

I don’t wanna talk about it
I feel it wrap it’s arms around
Put its hands over my mouth
Feel the need to scream and shout
But when I try it won’t come out

Would anybody hear me?
Would anybody hear me if i tried?
If I’m screaming for my life
When I’m needing for a sign
Can you show me it’s alright?

Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)
Can you show me?
(Can you show?)

It’s been running through my head
All the things I could’ve said
If I did, you wouldn’t listen 
So I’ll save it til I’m dead

(til I’m dead- dead-)

Does it even matter anymore?
Stuck with this feeling in my core
Something that I never felt before
Won’t let me go
(x2)

let me go

2 minutes of aafdfvbcncfbreafvdsk

1. wya
2. break
3. alive demo
4. are you doing what you love?
5. listen2myvoice
6. don't worry about me
7. fear demo

don't scare the crows

brought to you by some cool cats and the vanishing act

Lyrics:

In my bed I’m wasting time and shit (oh my)
At my desk, I’m fucking tired as shit
And I’m so confused I want this shit to click
And I’m under pressure I can’t fold for shit

And I’m been running running running circles all through my head
Overthinking always gets me upset
Hypercritical it’s tough to accept
Pour my heart out onto lyrics cuz it’s all I have left

I’m so confused so confused
They Say I’ll be star somewhere by the moon 
Saying that I’ll make it, it’s too fucking soon
Just know I’m so afraid to fucking lose

Fucked up worried bout the little things
But I’m too smooth like I’m 7 with the strings
And you Hate my music but I’ll sure make you sing
Ima Rockstar with a hand full of rings on me

I don’t get I don’t get it I don’t get it all
They keep sayin I’ll go up but I feel like I’ll fall
Every time they say my name it’s some cool shit
I can’t help it thinkin it’s just some bullshit

In my bed I’m wasting time and shit (oh my)
At my desk, I’m fucking tired as shit
And I’m so confused I want this shit to click
And I’m under pressure I can’t fold for shit

And I’m been running running running circles all through my head
Overthinking always gets me upset
Hypercritical it’s tough to accept
Pour my heart out onto lyrics cuz it’s all I have left

wasting time (prod. cmb)

sorry not sorry. exiting 2020 entering 2021

thanks for a great year!


Q and Ponch on the intro.
kenna (@kenaede_) and jades on the outro


lyrics:

*a conversation about nuts needing strangulation and snapple*

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

I fucking hate this place 
Get me out get me out I have no reason to stay
I have some old friends who gon say that I changed 
But they waited til now to even mention my name at all
So fuck them And I don’t care what they think
It’s a shame. it’s their loss that they ain’t like me until now
But it doesn’t matter I don’t think I need them around anymore

I’m so sorry but you’re not what I need
I need some self love to get me on my feet
I don’t care how you feel about me so
Shut up, you meant nothing to me from the start 
x2

This is my perfect victory, that’s right I win