Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

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XXI.

lyrics:
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a...
distances we're apart
i don't see how we got here
pain don't change a thing
I-i won't fade away
as long as i have you
this pain don't feel so good
i don't wanna feel this way again...
distances we're apart
i don't see how we got here
(all i wanna be is a part of)
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a part of you...
i won't fade away
as long as i have you
this pain don't feel so good
i don't wanna feel this way again...
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a part of you...
(sexy guitar returns)
I-i won't fade away
as long as i have you
this pain don't feel so good
i don't wanna feel this way again...
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a part of
all i wanna be is a part of you...
part of you
part of you...

xxx

Part of You (Prod. Razegod)

ft. @herexboy
lyrics:
(razegod)
i have nothing left, except this emptiness
i must accept, that i am just like this...
Don't say I didn't try, God damn it!
Don't say, don't say, no
I won't lay down if you demand me!
I won't lay down, lay down...
I didn't even know
I didn't even know that I had to give it all to you
(her ex)
first off -
my ex hate me, so what?
i know she go get cuffed
imma love her till dust
thats on my momma, thats on my poppa,
thats on everything that i love
i would of got her name inked on my face
show the whole world i mean what i say
then i got a friend who hate me, what?
he don't even wanna hear me talk
part of me think he want me dead
part of me thought i want me dead
want me to get on my knees?
you ain't no God to me
you is just human and flesh
u be like the rest, like period sex
(razegod)
Don't say I didn't try, God damn it!
Don't say, don't say, no
I won't lay down if you demand me!
I won't lay down, lay down...
i have nothing left, except this emptiness
i must accept, that i am just like this...
(her ex)
on top of this, i hate myself
i used to be my own friend
now when i look in the mirror
i see all the holes mistakes caused inside of my skin
regret calling me and hang up it always calls me back
why can't i relive the happiness that i once had?
when i was a kid...
now all my friends, they movin on, they havin kids...
im stuck at home, chasing my dreams, feeling like this...
feeling like this, feeling like this
i don't wanna go to sleep, especially when no ones holding me...
i don't wanna go to sleep, especially when no ones holding me...
friends become my enemies
and i trying to love
my enemies...

Don't Say Enemy (ft. Her Ex) [Prod. Tundra Beats]

Fall asleep, 
Fall in love
I’m dying, 
I’m dying young
I cant sleep, 
I cant love
yeah
I hate normal people i can’t stand em’
Last night sippin’ blood,
Throwin’ tantrums
Bad bitch she a bit too dramatic 
You’re so, 
So traumatic
Jet-set
Public is a threat
Don’t need em’
Avid blud drinker
Fuck off
Just a god in the rocks 
In ma’ docs
Believe it
Fuckin’ over thinker
Kiss me till eternity 
Kiss me your lips they’re glistening 
I love the way you hurt me
I’ve lost, 
Sight of you
Fall asleep, 
Fall in love
I’m dying, 
I’m dying young
I cant sleep, 
I cant love
Kiss me till eternity 
Kiss me your lips they’re glistening 
I love the way you hurt me
I’ve lost, 
Sight of you
Sight of you
Sight of you
Jet-set
Public is a threat
Don’t need em’
Avid blud drinker
Fuck off
Just a god in the rocks 
In ma’ docs
Believe it
Fuckin’ over thinker
Kiss me till eternity 
Kiss me your lips they’re glistening 
I love the way you hurt me
I’ve lost, 
Sight of you

impaler (prod. pharmacy)

https://soundcloud.com/lildurt96

Breathe
And as I look at the Devil in the mirror
He smiles back at himself
My father gave me this smirk that I can’t shake off my face

I’m dancing with the Devil
He’s feeding me the white wine
Looking in the mirror see his face with em iced eyes
Juggling my problems I’m the Jester stuck in low highs
Shaky but I’ll make ain’t rookie to the butterflies

I’m in trance, I’m dripping from the violence
State of mind, we might die, I ain’t mind it
I create, you define, that’s my life lived
Jester for your pain, we the same, just deprived kids

You ever talk about the trauma and the pain
With a smile on your face
Wonder why you got em curled lips
Nothing funny bout the situations weight
But you cannot take the pain
So you smile just to mind it

Next pussy boy to ask me while I’m smiling
Ima push his fucking eyes in with my thumbs and Ima like it
Ima run a fucking nail up his spine while I be sipping on my wine
BOY THIS MY FUCKING STATE OF MIND, YEAH

This a coping mechanism don’t you question me
Ima smile, while I talk about horrific things
Ima the Jester for the Devil that is within me
Coping with the shock, KNOW I SEEN IT ALL FROM A to Z

I don’t know if I should let myself bleed
My fear looks straight back at me
It’s in the spaces between the words that we breathe
It’s in the spaces between the words that we breathe

And as I look at the Devil in the mirror
He smiles back at himself
My father gave me this smirk that I can’t shake off my face

I’m dancing with the Devil
He’s feeding me the white wine
Looking in the mirror see his face with em iced eyes
Juggling my problems I’m the Jester stuck in low highs
Shaky but I’ll make ain’t rookie to the butterflies

I’m in trance, I’m dripping from the violence
State of mind, we might die, I ain’t mind it
I create, you define, that’s my life lived
Jester for your pain, we the same, just deprived kids

This a coping mechanism don’t you question me
Ima smile, while I talk about horrific things
Ima the Jester for the Devil that is within me
Coping with the shock, KNOW I SEEN IT ALL FROM A to Z

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Jesters w/ RAZEGOD (greyskies)

https://youtu.be/F11jkEVJDiw?si=TU1w9T6RTuaWf-NJ

https://soundcloud.com/lildurt96
prod (sxzu x lavender txwn)

Angels
Fallen angels
Angels
Feeding me wine
Angels
Fallen angels
Angels
Help me pass time

Dancing with the devil
She smell like flow petals
Maybe in this cruel life these devils ain’t so evil

Kindness to a devil
You might just find a vessel
Full of all this beauty, in my head I got a devil

Got a devil in my head when I’m all alone
She keeps taunting me
So it seems
That I never try to face all my thoughts alone
I was missing me

Love yourself
Love your neighbor
That’s on cult not no crusaders
Do your best to be kind
For yourself, you’ll find it better

Know you matter
Fuck the phonies
Got the cult behind me
Homies
See the greatness
In each other
Cuz the devil just a vessel
Yuh

Angels
Fallen angels
Angels
Feeding me wine
Angels
Fallen angels
Angels
Help me pass time

Dancing with the devil
She smell like flow petals
Maybe in this cruel life these devils ain’t so evil

Kindness to a devil
You might just find a vessel
Full of all this beauty, in my head I got a devil

She speaks so sweet
And I have no words
To give to her speech
Silence her curse

Help me pass the time,
I’m losing my mind
Help me pass the time,
I’m losing my mind

Take my hand,
Don’t let me die alone
In my head there’s life that you don’t know…

Angels
Fallen angels
Angels
Feeding me wine
Angels
Fallen angels
Angels
Help me pass time

Dancing with the devil
She smell like flow petals
Maybe in this cruel life these devils ain’t so evil

Kindness to a devil
You might just find a vessel
Full of all this beauty, in my head I got a devil

Got a devil in my head when I’m all alone
She keeps taunting me
So it seems
That I never try to face all my thoughts alone
I was missing me

Fallen Angels

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

Fallen Angels w/ RAZEGOD [Music Video ↓]

prod: peril (www.youtube.com/@prodperil)

я не хочу тебя разрушить ты меня прости
ты опоздала я уже остыл
это чувство липнет я снова туплю
все делаю не так, как будто стою на краю
я будто стою на краю
увидимся на улице и я кивну в ответ
но если встретимся в рехабе я не смогу сказать нет
может обсудим за обедом в тишине
как тебе сказать что я снова хочу к тебе?
будто камеры повсюду и мне нечего сказать
может стоит умереть чтобы простили навсегда
если выроню хоть слово - захлебнусь в своей крови
они уже достали вилы, ты просто молча стоишь
все хотят меня распять когда я пробую дышать
ждут когда я оступлюсь чтобы начать меня ломать
настоящая любовь это не про нас
снова прячусь в капюшоне, я скрываю свой анфас


на краю

IG: @lil_sunken_eye
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im scared

anxiety [prod. smokerose]

defilement exists because we do not know how to use the mind

Multilinear track 3/24 - Fire/Mind (Prod. Razegod)

Lyrics:
Don’t hold on, you can’t save it
Let the Fire burn now or you’ll waste it
When the light goes out I’ll find somewhere dark
That’s where I’ll stay
Don’t hold on, you can’t save it
Let the Fire burn now or you’ll waste it (I won’t waste it)
When the light goes out I’ll find somewhere dark
That’s where I’ll stay

Don’t even get me to start
Two dead friends, it hit ‘em straight through the heart
Take it all back, reliving it like its art
Break a bitch down, can’t break that shit apart
I could never be what I’m not
Coals burn hot, can’t ever run out of pot
Make it all gas, no stepping down on the red
Pulling all this flesh straight outta my fleshy head

Like I had have fuckin' guessed for you
Like I had of fucking guessed it (I won't waste)
But I never really guessed, so
Take a puff, slow your brain down

You do not know how long this life is offered to you
Why wait to find eternal joy?
Do not place external goals before the practice of
Disciplining the Mind

Don’t hold on, you can’t save it
Let the Fire burn now or you’ll waste it
When the light goes out I’ll find somewhere dark
That’s where I’ll stay
Don’t hold on, you can’t save it
Let the Fire burn now or you’ll waste it (I won’t waste it)
When the light goes out I’ll find somewhere dark
That’s where I’ll stay

x

Fire/Mind (Prod. Razegod)

@prod-mangetsu
art by bmo
DOOMSDAY CO.

Everything’s going to hell
I know,
I feel so dead

Everything’s going to hell
I know,
And I feel so dead

Vaca far away,
Load up the ak, bang bang
MIA ain’t a king with a halo
Mad government spies on me
For the crime I’m alive, wonder why, what’s to hide though?
Catch me with mangetsu
On a breakthrough 
bet the feds knew 
Where we came to yeah!
Lay low with the bankroll,
Load ma’ draco
Gotta psycho,
At the punk show, yeah!

Yeah (x16)

Been a long time since the world broken my heart
Run around town with a crown
I’m your Superman 
Gotta tech 9 she ain’t kind to your drama
I’m your life line till we die by the Vicodin

Everyone wants to go to heaven
But no one wants to die
Is it a curse or a blessing?
When they don’t say goodbye 

Goodbye (x4)

Vaca far away,
Load up the ak, bang bang
MIA ain’t a king with a halo
Mad government spies on me
For the crime I’m alive, wonder why, what’s to hide though?
Catch me with mangetsu
On a breakthrough 
bet the feds knew 
Where we came to, yeah!
Lay low with the bankroll,
Load ma’ draco
Gotta psycho,
At the punk show, yeah!

This happens everyday,
They always want there way
And no it’s not okay
You’re bringing our doomsday
With poison in our veins,
There’s demons in our brains
So don’t get in the way
Of me and my doomsday 

Vaca far away,
Load up the ak, bang bang
MIA ain’t a king with a halo
Mad government spies on me
For the crime I’m alive, wonder why, what’s to hide though?
Catch me with mangetsu
On a breakthrough 
bet the feds knew 
Where we came to, yeah!
Lay low with the bankroll,
Load ma’ draco
Gotta psycho,
At the punk show, yeah!

Cheers to the end of mankind
And I hate you all so damn much

doomsdayco! (prod. manget$u)

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