video: https://youtu.be/0PK8Q0pubG8

maybe I don't know you
for who you are I told you
it's not that I don't love it
I'm just apathetic
lost in your eyes like diamonds
you say whatever goes and I'm with it
we're close then we're distant
your curves I keep getting involved in

it's not that I don't love it
I'm just apathetic
lost in your eyes like diamonds

if only we had known we were in it
for only a minute too long

maybe I don't know you
for who you are I told you
it's not that I don't love it
I'm just apathetic
lost in your eyes like diamonds
you say whatever goes and I'm with it
we're close then we're distant
your curves I keep getting involved in

so you hold me
in the morning
It's like my head gets dark
and the bed's on fire
when you told me
no, you warned me
of bein' too honest when you're especially quiet

hahaha... fuq!
okay, listen

so yeah I'm scared like a bitch!
this decision's hard to make
'cause either way Imma end up with a different vision
yeah your diamond eyes hit me quick
I ain't even get the chance to say
I don't want it
I was apathetic all night

Apathetic

Most earnestly, rest easy. I will not claim complete understanding but I cannot overstate my reverence. circa May 2022

stream

rainbow bridge

I can't emphasize 'Always' enough

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

It's my fault you let me go

https://spiritofariel.com

sitting in the country
grinding on my teeth
if hating is so ugly
then why you seek relief?
your lover's gon be angry
if i don't get my piece
so hold up while you're handy
and smile with your teeth

i'm into you baby
we could do it if we try
we could do it all night
and it's on my mind:
did i fuck up this time
taking up all of my time with this denial?

oh my god im so sorry the devil made me do it 
invocate the dark in me
and show me how to use it
through this second death i wake a vessel of the druid
take this cross up from my gaze
i'm wrought for absolution

i can't hear you
i started to want to change
i can't hear you
i let the seraphim slip away!

take me to the frey, take me to the grey, to the spirt
take me to frey, take my phone away
take me to the frey, take me to the grey, to the spirt
take me to frey, take my phone away

we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in denial
we're both in de-
(x2)

i can't hear you
i started to want to change
i can't hear you
i let the seraphim slip away!

take me to the frey, take me to the grey, to the spirt
take me to frey, take my phone away
take me to the frey, take me to the grey, to the spirt
take me to frey, take my phone away

we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in denial
we're both in de-
(x2)

one hundred percent you're on my mind
take your percent, not worth my time
take my day just like my life
(my life, like my life)
play pretend by my side
dig your nails in my sides
be your friend, your only friend that won't comprimise

if you tell me 'i want the truth'
you'll say that you love me and talk too cute
i'm one with your presence, i'm one with my youth
i'll settle my end just to talk to you

take me to the frey, take me to the grey, to the spirt
take me to frey, take my phone away
take me to the frey, take me to the grey, to the spirt
take me to frey, take my phone away

we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in deny
we're both in denial
we're both in denial
we're both in de-

imma let it be; imma grind my teeth
i'm a mango tree in a quantum field
i might oscillate; i might drop my gaze
i might be displaced; i am spinning plays

hahaha

//thank you christian for helping me with this one @collidingwithmars

2.6.23

Ecosystem (w/ cwm)

Track 7
Greatest Movie Never Filmed
Ryan Leahan, patchymate, abbot , torr

Sevenpence (feat. torr)

or something

SHAPE UP

1111 MUSICA - I Feel Your Pain (1111 MUSICA Sunset Breaks Mix)

A tribute to true house lovers, reimagined with the signature 1111 MUSICA Chilled Breaks Vibe.

1111 MUSICA - I Feel Your Pain (1111 MUSICA Sunset Breaks Mix)

It’s dawn on a half-deserted California beach, salt thick on your lips, footprints already vanishing under slow foam while two voices trade quiet truths. This isn’t a song, it’s a confession spoken into the wind: bodies are brief apartments, every breath borrowed, the freeway drones like a hive but the real heartbeat is the patient tide that birthed us and will swallow us again. The chorus rises like a memory you didn’t know you had (“from the ocean we came, to the ocean we’ll return”), simple, ancient, undeniable; when it asks the saltwater to learn your name, you feel it already has. Play it low in the fog, let it erase the edges, let it pull you home.

California (origins)

Lost in the Dark

show light
member/cofounder @anythingcouldbehere