I just wanna clear something up
I’m from a small town in a broken nation
I just wanna clear something up
You’re never gonna change if you don’t make some
You say you’re so afraid, and for what?
If only could make a couple bucks I’d be there
But I play it off
You’ll never see me in the room when I take off

I swear you couldn’t make it up
It’s a policy affair that no one cares about
And I swear I’m done and fed up
And no one’s ever gonna change if we don’t say sumn
Just stay off my back for one year I’m gone
Only worry if I’m wrong
You’re never gonna make it
Running round screaming in your songs
Could be wrong
By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up
I just wanna
Yeah
(Hi)
I just wanna clear something
I just wanna
(Fuck)


But you’d never know the half of what was there
If you never ask
And you’re goin through the motions as if you don’t care
We know that that’s a lie
Yea you know that that’s a lie
And I know you said it twice
Yea I know you said it twice
Well maybe I’m wrong but you said it enough
Holding the advantage in your clutch
I won’t even mention all your luck
You were only 20 holding down a family on your own
How you’ve grown

By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it 
running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up

I just wanna clear something up

Hey! It's been a hell of a year

Original song - karnaboy - my best friend @karnaboy

My Best Friend Cover

spot of sunlight

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/corefish/sos   

I need a spot of sunlight
To get a- away from life 
I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again

Fried out of my mind get it over easy
True story I run see me on the TV
In a month I'll be out of the rut
Rust covered and lust filled
Calling your bluff

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost
And you're the talk of the town in my mind
When you look my way
You split my taste in the mood
And when I take it the conflict rise
I'll just fake my life 
Fore I lose my faith in the ruse

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

You and I are out of luck we're at a standstill
Guess I'm a diamond in the rough whenever going gets to tough
Cause I just roll with the punches, throw a stone in a bucket
No my tone isn't fine but I just won't get to bluffing
I guess I'm a dope fiend and I'm waiting for nothing
I got no self esteem when I'm calling you lovely
You need a hotel somewhere else combing the cusp
It wasn't noble when you're fucking causing a ruckus

Cause if it's better than me 
I'll sever tether to breathe 
New sweater, trendsetter
Back on to the leash 
I need a spot of sunlight 
To get a- away from life 

I need a spot of sunlight 
I know that I can't escape the pain it's alright
So I'll just light another flame on the side
So I can change and turn the verse 
I guess my confidence a curse
I hate myself again
Lost without a way to find your conscience
You been in the dark for quite a while so what's the option
Proving that the mark you made on me lead me to coffins
Hurdles and the tribulations got me feeling nauseous

I think I know how to solve it
I found my head in a pulpit
A way to let go
I found a way to absolve it 
Now every time I look back
I'm seeing your ghost

lyrics :

you can't calm down
and you keep that crown for life again
this won't back down
i see you woke up
you're on your anticipation

can't erase the things you done
if everything you want now is vanish of your existence
phone hold off again
you went out insane before i lost you

cause i got this feeling in my brain
melatonin can't even get out of my head
cause i've been fucked up laying down inside my bedroom
all of your words don't mean shit
tryna cover all that pitfall

and the things that i have said
it don't matter if you gon bleed it on that red
all of the hatred that is flowing down your face
can't get rid of yourself i know you gon replace me off this time

i'll be hanging over the edge
i'll try my best to avoid all cost of your face yeah
no i don't wanna talk it again
all of the paranoia going on the space in my head
cause i know you want all that luck
face you call on that struck
now i know what you up to
and get my offer

yeah you said you wanna fuck it all up
and you said you don't want anything to do with your love
it's only me it's not us no more
never be in the end

can't erase the things you done
if everything you want now is vanish of your existence
phone hold off again
you went out insane before i lost you

cause i got this feeling in my brain
melatonin can't even get out of my head
cause i've been fucked up laying down inside my bedroom
all of your words don't mean shit
tryna cover all that pitfall

and the things that i have said
it don't matter if you gon bleed it on that red
all of the hatred that is flowing down your face
can't get rid of yourself i know you gon replace me off this time

time
i'll be fine right through my heart and my soul tonight
sharpen all your piece of knives and cut off it all what you don't want in life
i watch you fall and i'll be fine it's obvious that i'm alive
i told you so this world is so cruel

your own good

i do not want the fame for this shit 

therapy performance video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEbc1wKL0X0 shot by 4x4shotthat x shesodan


lyrics: 

fuck

I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But if it’s bout the shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
And I’m out here all alone and it's difficult

the shit I'd do for you
god knows I'd move a mountain
if we flipped the point of view
god knows you'd live without it

if you told me that you didn't care I'd believe it
if you asked how I'm doing I'm fine I'm just grieving, yeah

woke up, dreading, maybe I'm losing my head
cold and begging 
fuck your words I'll leave them read

yeah, fuck your words I'll leave them read

these days I been figuring it out on my own
minding my business
don't matter what they think cause when I speak they're listening
I think I just need to pivot to different shit
neither dying or living it could've changed my mind
I held my silence and after it 
you act like you weren't the antagonist
just one talk is enough 
hope my chest don't erupt
cause you realize that I was always someone that you can't love

fuck
I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But if it’s bout the shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
but I’m out here all alone 

and I knew that we wouldn't last but I'm trying not to chalk it up to wasted time
it's not you, it wasn't me, it was our state of minds
who's to say I'm fine?
the lines were crossed, diving us, but intertwine

the shit i'd do for you
god knows i'd move a mountain
if we flipped the point of view
god knows you'd live without it

fuck
I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But when it comes to shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
And I’m out here all alone and it's difficult

if you told me that you didn't care I'd believe it
if you asked how I'm doing I'm fine I'm just grieving, yeah

woke up, dreading, maybe I'm losing my head
cold and begging 
fuck your words I'll leave them read

performance video

spilt milk

WTML
https://open.spotify.com/track/2cfLs1P39B6QV0Hw9N7VFU?si=cb3cc103df074bb3

eternity theory

Lyrics :

Tell me things
I take care for your diamond rings
I let you know when I came back when angel sings
But I still refuse to be your king

And then I put them to the side
Bye, bye
Some old things don't last long
Pointin' up your finger to the sky
You decide with your choices to let them go

Cause, your so beautiful, it's miracle
The world's so cynical, it's difficult
To find somebody that will heal the cold
And travel the world around to feel the globe

Spinning roudabout
I just wanna be your only one for now
Callin' out my name when you scream and shout
I tell you everything, so I'ma let it out
Say it loud

Closed door, waiting for two months
Got a couple little things you could tell me
On vacation, you can move on
You can do anything you wished for by yourself

Run away baby, we escape from hell
It's a tragic story that I'll never tell
Lost all my powers, I won't cast a spell
You're doing so well
 
I know when they get close to ya
And I ain't following the things they tryna' speak to ya
And I don't trust any advice they tryna give it up
They gon' listen up when you shouted in the crowded room
They really want you mind
You don't pay any attention
Baby, don't listen to them
You're my hidden gem, only one I ever find
The diamond in the rough shining bright

But I'm still trying all my best just to be a better guy
You said "I'm okay" but I know that was a lie
Do you feel different when we fell into the sky
I don't side with them tonight
Deep down I hope that you will be alright
I hate it when you're gone
I've been tryna catch a flight
I can't be alone I need you in my life
They don't save me I cut them off baby

And then I put them to the side
Bye, bye
Some old things don't last long
Pointin' up your finger to the sky
You decide with your choices to let them go

Cause, your so beautiful, it's miracle
The world's so cynical, it's difficult
To find somebody that will heal the cold
And travel the world around to feel the globe

Spinning roudabout
I just wanna be your only one for now
Callin' out my name when you scream and shout
I tell you everything, so I'ma let it out
Say it loud

Forget the tour
They always say that less is more
You've been the best I been looking for
I'm bleeding out from the blood you pour
Put everything on to rest
Leave' em alone and my life starts to set
Those are the things that I did and regret
It doesn't matter since I won my bet

And then I put them to the side
Bye, bye
Some old things don't last long
Pointin' up your finger to the sky
You decide with your choices to let them go

Cause, your so beautiful, it's miracle
The world's so cynical, it's difficult
To find somebody that will heal the cold
And travel the world around to feel the globe

Spinning roudabout
I just wanna be your only one for now
Callin' out my name when you scream and shout
I tell you everything, so I'ma let it out
I say it loud

Bad Apple

Anything Could Be Here's debut album

Ryan Leahan, patchymate, abbot

Rock Bottom (feat. Colliding With Mars)

no ids

i don't own these tracks - nor do i profit. all credit to destroy lonely
instagram: rockstar.suicide

BAD CHOICES (feat Thadd Paris & DestroyLonely)

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90nWyCAHRHs

fuck me in the basement
where we'd make out on the couch
in our hometown sneakin' out
been a few years thinkin' bout it
didn't think you cared about me
enough to mention
our old contentions
and our relations
when what you're faced with is paramount
yeah

so maybe
you're why im out of breath
i felt myself compress
hearin' you spent your time well
and i'll savor
the time we have left babe
i'll take what i can get
knowin' all i have is time
yeah

don't know how to say these lines
wouldn't have to lie but you hate the silence
would anyone display their crimes
i wish it didn't hurt when you say you're proud of me

i'm too afraid to say i love you
i said
goodbye
too many times
and put a mask on my face when you say that you're sad to leave
and you were
my world
at the time
and i'm too afraid to say i love you

call her back
say the rest
what you left out, the non-events
apologize
no regrets
when we both know the story has
all that wasted time
agreed the weak decides
i'm here to speak with pride

I wish it didn't hurt when you say you're proud of me

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