emoPunk

Me as Songs

2023

prod river + plugp + ashens guitar :3 luv all of u u guys shud go follow dem

breathe w/ skele (river, ashens, plugp)

prod: @janeremover
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LYRICS:
i've been getting so mad at the wrong things
built up chaos got his shit and fucking left me
now i'm single mother stressing out like crazy
and i gotta feed my baby

i don't sleep enough for this
i'm way too fucking weak for more of this
it's like i'm waking up with thieves that take the piss
by robbing me of all my stableness

in fucking fact, i yelled at two sweet girls
because they talked too loud
you should have seen their faces
they looked like their dogs got put down

and I felt so bad
but i didn't apologize
i just rolled my eyes

and in fucking fact
last week i lost my shit
all cause my friend said shut up
thus, i cussed, called him a prick
i ruined an entire friend group cause of it

and I felt so bad
but i didn't apologize
i just rolled my eyes

at this rate
i'll be a monster before halloween day
just give me two days
and i'll make shit look like the rapture

i just screamed at a friend through text
then i poured gas to burn the bridge faster
there's not a king of self destruction
(so) i can't wait to become the master

the thing i feed is kicking me inside
and all i gotta do is keep giving it water so it dies
and i can't remember the last time that i blinked these eyes
i'll punch a guy in the mirror and he'll turn to 5

versions of me

you don't know how it feels
to tell my friends that i had a bad day
almost every single day

most of them don't ask anymore
they just assume that i'm not okay
they don't even stick around anymore
it's the end of the world for me

oh, when the saints! oh, when the saints!
oh, when the saints come marching in
oh, you will feel like such an asshole
for doubting everyday

oh, when the saints! oh, when the saints!
oh, when the saints come marching in
oh, you will feel like such an asshole
and they'll laugh when they sail away

it happened again prod. jane

a song ab my struggle and journey w/ identity and dysphoria :)

ty to @nclkyr for being on this with me <3

production: soma @prodsoma
mixing & mastering: orchid @0rch_id & me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

[verse]
ripped all my clothes from my closet
couldn’t bear it
tried breaking every mirror in my home
couldn’t do it
never felt quite right in this body of mine
it’s like i’m living a lie and i feel locked inside
been tryna find the answers to this all my life
but still i hide…

[pre-chorus]
i could dress like this
and i could talk like that
but it would never amount
this feeling just won’t quit
no matter what i do
it lingers back to me
can’t run away…

[chorus]
cuz every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be anymore
x2

[verse: kyra]
im scared to know whats right and wrong 
cuz everything just takes too long 
the way that everyone looks good
and im just stuck here, im thinking 
wish i could do it again and again 
i feel so amazing when im in a dress 
little do they know…
i just dont know who i am anymore

[chorus]
every time i meet my eyes
it doesn’t fit with my mind
what i feel deep inside
i just don’t know who i am
wish i could be just like her
or i could be just like him
idk who i wanna be…

[post-chorus]
i could be just like them
or anything that i want
in between or nothing at all
it doesn’t matter to me
cuz in the end, i may not know
what i really want, idk
but i finally know who i am

[outro] (avit + kyra)
who i am 12x
yeah i finally know who i am…

just like them feat. Kyra (Prod. Soma)

listen to my music :)
linktr.ee/bradenrossmusic

Lyrics:

[Verse 1]
This isn’t typical (I’m fine)
To be so cynical (I lied)
Maybe I’m just difficult (this time)
Chasing different gold for my whole life

[Chorus 1]
I don’t feel the same
Got shit inside my brain that escapes me
‘Cause I don’t know the way
I’m on display
But that’s okay when you’re right here
I don’t feel no shame
Guess I should take the blame
Don’t wanna feel this pain
I’m on display
But that’s okay ‘cause you’re right here

[Verse 2]
Yeah I’m okay when you’re right here
‘Cause I’m living off the way you been staring at me I
I promise you I’m not gonna die here
Because I really hate who I’ve been trying to be oh
Well maybe I don’t wanna follow the trends
Maybe I never wanna love you again
So tell me what i need
Promise I’ll listen
‘Cause I can’t fuckin see
All that I’m missing
No I can’t guarantee
That this’ll work
Lift me up or leave me in the dirt
Yeah lift me up or leave me in the dirt
They wanna fall in love but just to feel the hurt
And then they’ll find a way for feelings to convert
To poetry they’ll let you hear it first
(fuck)

[Chorus 2]
I don’t feel the same
Got shit inside my brain that escapes me
‘Cause I don’t know the way
I’m on display
But that’s okay when you’re right here
I don’t feel no shame
Guess I should take the blame
Don’t wanna feel this pain
I’m on display
But that’s okay ‘cause you’re right here

useless 2.0

~2300~

Lyrics:

[INTRO]
An unlikely story
Light the fuse you can't stop it sorry
I'm the cause but you choose to want me
Waste of time so don't bother calling

[VERSE 1]
Tell me you miss your old life before me
Everything seemed so complex and boring
Had to cut ties and re-write the story
I was so blind they kept trying to warn me
You're not real it's my dream
I take pills when I need to slow my heart beat
I hope you realize that you never got me
The world's yours it was never what I need

[CHORUS]
An unlikely story
Light the fuse you can't stop it sorry
I'm the cause but you choose to want me
Waste of time so don't bother calling
I'm uncomfortably numb
The cold touch of your love
I gotta to separate that part of me
It's all coming down so suddenly

[VERSE2]
I watch friends get older
Missing our lives when the fun time's over
I cannot lie I don't feel right sober
It's a fine line but I might get closer
Barely hanging on I pour my heart out
You were never one to let your guard down
Rarely ever seen i'm in the background

Of an unlikely story

[CHORUS]
An unlikely story
Light the fuse you can't stop it sorry
I'm the cause but you choose to want me
Waste of time so don't bother calling
I'm uncomfortably numb
The cold touch of your love
I gotta to separate that part of me
It's all coming down so suddenly 
An unlikely story
Light the fuse you can't stop it sorry
I'm the cause but you choose to want me
Waste of time so don't bother calling
I'm uncomfortably numb
The cold touch of your love
I gotta separate that part of me
It's all coming down so suddenly

Unlikely Story (prod. Bennykaay)

lyrics:
ashes to ashes, gold to dust
everything you do makes a fool of us
and i've been working on myself so we can get back up
and my ego way too big, think I got midas touch

i been pushing all my friends away, know that shit ain't cool
white claws crawling in my system, it's not me making the rules
and imma be in new york missing mama, tryna finish school
i dont want you thinking im okay when im losing my cool

catherine and heathcliff, they stay tatted on my ribs
cause my heart's so full of loving, but my mouth just loves to fib
and my trauma gon' repeat itself and pass on to my kids
baby, do you wanna put up with my shit and be the fix? x2

wrist been looking like picasso played all on it
she don't want me for my conscious, she just want me for my content
and my ex girl tells her family im popping
i don't like to think about it, i was probably the problem

catherine and heathcliff, they stay tatted on my ribs
cause my heart's so full of loving, but my mouth just loves to fib
and my trauma gon' repeat itself and pass on to my kids
baby, do you wanna put up with my shit and be the fix? x2

heathcliff (hallow + ria + joeboi)

produced by @deadyami

lyrics:
i'm always the person u lean on 
look inside that purse cuz i was wondering what she's on
i'm just sick of feeling nothing (x2)

i break my back and break my shoulders
u kept me together when the nights got colder
i thought i was doing better, doing good before i met her
can't learn a lesson if i'm never taught
look what we've got here in our hands 
its close to nothing
i'm only holding on if u wait for me
but don't wait for me

i wake up looking for u
ur the first thing on my mind
and if i lie to u
it would be a waste of time so i think i'm gonna treat u right

i'm always the person u lean on 
look inside that purse cuz i was wondering what she's on
i'm just sick of feeling nothing (x2)

i break my back and break my shoulders
u kept me together when the nights got colder
i thought i was doing better, doing good before i met her
can't learn a lesson if i'm never taught
look what we've got here in our hands 
its close to nothing
i'm only holding on if u wait for me
but don't wait for me

never mention me again
when ur hanging with ur friends
by the way they're wack
always talked behind my back
i thought there were 2 sides to every story
all these bitches have been busy soaking in their glory 
u been talking bout these digits u don't tote no 40s
i think lately all i ever do is fucking worry

b4 i met her (dead yami)

@n8land - my new alias. so many new things coming soon

"stretcher." is a song about a breakup. 

sonically, i wanted this song to embody the feeling of bottling up your emotions and letting all the sadness and frustration and pain overflow and explode out. the 2nd verse being a variation of the first is a representation to how there are 2 sides to each story and my breakup was no different. my ex has her story and i have mine. I can tell mine but i can only wonder what her story is like.

Lyrics:
your heart was like a berried treasure
you left mine out to rot on the stretcher.
its not as easy as the movies
i feel like shit 'cus you meant so much to me

thank you all for listening and following me through this song's journey. its been through hell and back.

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stretcher. (w/ n8land)

Work (prod. LUCAS QUINN)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6YgAX2U5lSLotA806wGZB4?si=7600c1b77d0d48a6
mixed, produced, written, and sung by me

additional mixing by @user-324006493

additional production by @haskillsdream

Electric lady
The way you turn me on (Electric lady)
Electric lady
The way you turn me on (Electric lady)

Talk to me, lady
It's our first time
I'll be gentle
Let me know
What I gotta do
To get close to you (To get close to you)

Electric lady
Can you dig it, baby?
Electric lady
Do you feel me coming in?
Electric lady
Can you dig it, baby?
Electric lady
Do you feel me coming in?

Electric lady
The way you turn me on (Electric lady)
Electric lady

You know, I get so delirious whenever you hold my hand girl
You really make me lose self-control

Shock me one more time

Electric lady
Can you dig it, baby?
Electric lady
Do you feel me coming in?
Electric lady
Can you dig it, baby?
Electric lady
Do you feel me coming in?

electric lady (out on spotify and apple music)

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

It's my fault you let me go

Gini Gini

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Whirlwind - S3RL Feat Krystal

𝔥8 𝔪𝔢 𝔰𝔲𝔪𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔰 (ಥ_ಥ)
prod @powerdolls
mixing @blackwinterwells

skinz 〚powerdoll 𝑥 wells〛

homegrown in pennsylvania
member/cofounder @anythingcouldbehere

It's my fault you let me go

patchymate