no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

was hopin' i could seeeee you
only if you need to come here if you wanna
baby take it farther
we touch, we turn into mirages no
i wasn't in the picture
was running from our issues
living in a bubble
we touch we turn into mirages

no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

hey!
you say your fear is you won't see my face again
i swear that you're wrong
i promise this ain't the end
i told you how i see it all as just a mirage
it's just a mirage
it's just a mirage no

no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

was hopin' i could seeeee you
only if you need to come here if you wanna
baby take it farther
we touch, we turn into mirages no
i wasn't in the picture
was running from our issues
living in a bubble
we touch we turn into mirages

Mirages

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

It's my fault you let me go

co prod gabbyyyyyyyyy

you told me to stay, when i said this town is just another circle of hell
you don’t have to break but you find yourself counting the times you fell
i and was watching all your situations barring the missed occasions with silent regret
when you said you could never love again
too many dark rooms filled with nights to forget

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want

call it what you want

you could never be wrong
cause this night will go on
and the dj keeps playing that stupid drake song

and you said
i’m just so tired of these kids going places to do coke in the bathroom and it’s like nobody wants to have fun and everyone just wants to get fucked up so

maybe i could never love again
in all these dark rooms filled with nights to regret

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want

call it what you want

i’m tired of this aggression
faking love and self obsession
nobody’s got good intentions
where’s the ending

am i lost to find consistent
when people are persistent
in their own twisted way of living
i guess we call it what we want

you had a ripped top
black jeans
oversized everything
asked me for a light and your eyes cut like a knife
said you wanted, you wanted me
but you never wanna perceive yourself
like everyone else, so baby
call it what you want
call it what you want
call it what you want

Call it what you want (co p. gabby start)

https://spiritofariel.com

we're all gonna die

10.10.22

we're all gonna die

https://open.spotify.com/track/1maP7HyVHn1FANGa0BJWOF?si=4a0c2721f7c44ad2

Maybe I am right
Maybe I'm wrong
You'll see the same thing happening if you're unaware
I've noticed a change in the state of affairs
Oh, I know
Can you believe it
It's been only an hour since you left home and
You're already thinking 'bout it
I've been on this path
Oh, let me tell you 'bout it
What's it gonna be, yeah
Yeah, this liberation I'm creating
So I'll venture now to kill off this spirit with my laughter
We're all just using this tech as a distraction
Just fucking listen to me
Can you believe it
It's been only an hour since you left home and
You're already thinking 'bout it
And courage has to be my virtue
Yeah, I'm that tragically involved
I knew this path was so dangerous
I've known since I was sixteen
This is my time
I won't pass up the offer
Okay Sage, what's the move
But if I'm keeping it real with you
I've always been steadfast
And I sense that's what screen-time is tryna erase (it's always been)
And you constantly question
If your time has been well spent
But you're lost in the feed
Do you feel that you're well fed
Just fucking break it all down
You're wasting your time
And I'm tryna kill off this spirit with my laughter
And to think I need to get it all out
(You'll find me laughing on my phone
As I throw away my phone)
I fell on my sword
And I pulled it right out of myself
Beautiful boy
I've got no protection now
Do you believe it
Open up the line to my unconscious
I feel it
And we ain't making love unless you're part of my scheming
No
We ain't making love unless you're part of my scheming
Believe it
Felt like my body betrayed me
Had to regain my trust
I'm so sick of complaining
It's all lust of result
Well, how can I advise you
I don't wanna see you grasping like them
And only look behind you
If you're gonna assimilate what's there
I know that you're trying to
I can see the fire in your eyes
Okay Sage, what's the move
But I know it has to be me
It's no mistake
So I'll venture now to kill off this spirit with my laughter
I'll break you with my craft and I
Wanted it all back but
I have to let it go for me to
(Existential)
(And say how much you love it)

steadfast

Spotify

@loginstrash
@brakence

Fall around
My instincts never kick in tryna calm me down
You can catch me in the wreckage where I'm far too proud
To look you in the eyes where I've lost your smile
(I am using my imagination)
Lost-lost your smile
Distant
Wings just lifted
Statue fixed here
I'm addicted
I could never trust you sincerely
Oh my god I don't think you love me
Be sure you sign your letters with tears please
My head is still abuzz, I breathe, I just hear

Catch me now
Would you bring me back the water if you touched the clouds?
The sunshine couldn't stop me from falling down
Oh Icarus just help me to sleep somehow
And I'll be waiting

Fall down
I had to run it back again
Fade when I cried out
I care for you I care for you
Far out, I have a choice to let you in
Not tryna fall out
(Patience, if I can't hold you, it doesn't mean that we're through)
Fall down
I had to run it back run it back run it back back back back
Cried out
I care for you I care for you
Far out, I have a choice to let you in
And bring the stars out
Think I'll find out who I am

Let go of closure fall into devotion
Flowers in this garden, bees come form an ocean
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
(Where in the world did I go)
Arms out, hold your laughter in
Thought cloud made it rain today
(Go figure)
(We cry and laugh on the floor)
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage
(I'm with you)
(You cannot catch me no more)
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
(Where in the world did I go)
Arms out, hold your laughter in
(Where in the world did I go)
Thought cloud made it rain today
(Where in the world did I go)
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
Arms out, hold your laughter in
Thought cloud made it rain today
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage

Distant
Wings just lifted
Statue fixed here
I never left you
(Athena)
Distant
(And I can't wait another day and stay begging just to go back home)
(And I could never trust you sincerely)
Wings just lifted
(All my friends becoming royalty father help me watch the throne)
(Cause I don't think I thought through it clearly)
Statue fixed here
(Stars kill my anxiety I won't fight this all alone)
(Hold me there in your arms I'm dreaming)
I never-
Burning
Don't let me go

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Being together ain't about
Being together
Girl I know I'm far
Yeah I know I'm far
Being together ain't about
Being together
Girl I know I'm far
Yeah I know I'm far
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Be-be-be-be-be

(Being togeth-th-th-th-th-th-)

Athena feat. brakence & login

WTML
https://open.spotify.com/track/2cfLs1P39B6QV0Hw9N7VFU?si=cb3cc103df074bb3

eternity theory

https://spiritofariel.com

@gordonsnyder thank you for believing in me

6.6.21

You (w/ Gordon Snyder)

Track 7
Greatest Movie Never Filmed
Ryan Leahan, patchymate, abbot , torr

Sevenpence (feat. torr)

Anything Could Be Here's debut album

Ryan Leahan, patchymate, abbot

Rock Bottom (feat. Colliding With Mars)

OCEAN DEEP

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