no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

was hopin' i could seeeee you
only if you need to come here if you wanna
baby take it farther
we touch, we turn into mirages no
i wasn't in the picture
was running from our issues
living in a bubble
we touch we turn into mirages

no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

hey!
you say your fear is you won't see my face again
i swear that you're wrong
i promise this ain't the end
i told you how i see it all as just a mirage
it's just a mirage
it's just a mirage no

no it's not to make you happy
that's not why i'm here
can you read me without asking?
can you see that i don't care??

was hopin' i could seeeee you
only if you need to come here if you wanna
baby take it farther
we touch, we turn into mirages no
i wasn't in the picture
was running from our issues
living in a bubble
we touch we turn into mirages

Mirages

https://spiritofariel.com

shh

the way you move
the lighting sets the mood
we chat like birds in June
she see me too?
it seems unlikely
or sorry that did I mistake?

wait don't miss the lights now
baby you're too nice
baby you're too nice no
wait don't miss the lights
bit me make me cry now
baby you're too nice
baby you're too nice no
you won't make me cry

what you found you were proud
now you're waning from the fear
that you sold it all for living a lie
so push me down take me out
I'm just waiting here for someone to
make me catch a glimpse of the light
yeah rip out my soul and
take the wings from a bird in flight
she lets out a roar
as golden fire ignites her eyes
she says "I need to know we're not just fucking as friends
no more pretending to love, 'cause knowin' us, if it ends it burns" and
still, I go back, no, still, I go back
still, I go back, no, still, I go back
shh

wait don't miss the lights now
baby you're too nice
baby you're too nice no
wait don't miss the lights
bite me, make me cry now
baby, you're too nice
baby, you're too nice, no
you won't make me cry

babyur2nice

I just wanna clear something up
I’m from a small town in a broken nation
I just wanna clear something up
You’re never gonna change if you don’t make some
You say you’re so afraid, and for what?
If only could make a couple bucks I’d be there
But I play it off
You’ll never see me in the room when I take off

I swear you couldn’t make it up
It’s a policy affair that no one cares about
And I swear I’m done and fed up
And no one’s ever gonna change if we don’t say sumn
Just stay off my back for one year I’m gone
Only worry if I’m wrong
You’re never gonna make it
Running round screaming in your songs
Could be wrong
By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up
I just wanna
Yeah
(Hi)
I just wanna clear something
I just wanna
(Fuck)


But you’d never know the half of what was there
If you never ask
And you’re goin through the motions as if you don’t care
We know that that’s a lie
Yea you know that that’s a lie
And I know you said it twice
Yea I know you said it twice
Well maybe I’m wrong but you said it enough
Holding the advantage in your clutch
I won’t even mention all your luck
You were only 20 holding down a family on your own
How you’ve grown

By your definitions I don’t match your perfect Image
You’re never gonna make it 
running round screaming bout your affair
I don’t care

I just wanna clear something up

I just wanna clear something up

forever yours

Leave me on my knees
Make me such a mess
And call me on discord
Yea, call me discord
Leave me on my knees
Make me such a mess
And call me on discord
Yea, call me discord
Leave me on my knees
Make me such a mess
And call me on discord

Now I’m waiting on the other line
And you call me up you save me all this precious time
When you call me on discord
Now I’m waiting for your face to shine
Now I’m sitting here drunk and we’re talking on the bathroom tile
Playing ‘two truth’s one lie’
And I admit your blue eyes they drive me insane
Never thought I’d say it but it goes two ways
Now I’m waiting on the other line
For you to call me on discord  
Call me on
Call me on discord
Call me on
Call me on discord

(Dis- dis- dis- dis-)
(Dis- dis- dis- dis-)
(Dis- dis- dis- dis-)
(Dis- dis- dis- dis-)

Leave me on my knees
Call me on discord
Call me on discord

https://spiritofariel.com

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

i want you to see me as someone you can reach when i'm in your head
i'm holding myself cuz i'm lonely as hell and i only see you in my dreams

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

i want you to see me as someone you can reach when i'm in your head
i'm holding myself cuz i'm lonely as hell and i only see you in my dreams

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

don't fret if it wasn't the world we thought it would be
don't panic if you think it's the end
we're gonna make it out taking effort one day at a time
it's gonna be ours in a matter of time
i've been dreaming dreaming dreaming

i've been dreaming of you inside my bed
if you call me up would i wake up now?
well you chose another good guy instead
and i'm over it and all of that but i miss you now

11.16.22

Buy/Support

Dream Analysis

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

It's my fault you let me go

https://spiritofariel.com

we're all gonna die

10.10.22

we're all gonna die

New Hope, Chapter I - The Great Divide

I ran home cuz I thought I was fired
And man all these joints are tired
And I said “wait” I was waiting for a serenade
Tell me everything about your damn day
Lay me out front if you threw a grenade
So why?
Do I seem distracted to you?
It’s beautiful to lay awake in my eyes

So watch it all be enough for you to take in
Watch it all be enough for you to let in
I tried to face the great divide
It only tired me out

Date of recording (11.6.23)

New Hope

The Great Divide

https://spiritofariel.com

@gordonsnyder thank you for believing in me

6.6.21

You (w/ Gordon Snyder)

https://spiritofariel.com

i can't be caught saying this with my boys in the room
but im never gonna let you go
a stupid thought's all it takes to devoid what you do
no im never gonna let you go
my love ain't the evil, i'd share my world between us
you're scared to lose that shit but i'm not
i'm yours don't you see that the space between us is killing me
i won't lose sight of my worth

full album may 21st

I won't lose sight of my worth

Seeing Double 0.o

Stephen's Eyes (Are Those Real Tears)

Light Shines In Me

suddenly i'm drowning in water in the middle of the forest
and i'm the only one in harms way
i can't tell if i'm dreaming cuz i took another substance
was wondering if it could just give me a little guidance
and it did and it really helped me out
i was screaming in my room crying out
if there was someone here to save me
a huge pretty painting on my wall that could calm me down

you talk with lipstick and your chin up cuz you're fine
and in the winter you get cozy with the guys
look who ends up empty handed, take another candid
imma get shit from the guys but all the times i told you
i'm really on my side, but you're trying to keep my hand off from the trigger

isn't that crazy? you must really hate me? but when you paint me you say i look amazing, say i look amazing

you talk with lipstick and your chin up cuz you're fine
and in the winter you get cozy with the guys
look who ends up empty handed, take another candid
imma get shit from the guys but all the times i told you
i'm really on my side, but you're trying to keep my hand off from the trigger

it kills me even slower to know that he's below her
he fulfills the role she needs in her life

He's The Reason

honey... did you hear the call?
sun is burning through our walls and money's gonna kill us all
i'm okay, won't live for long
cuz i don't have a say all i can do is find this funny... ha!

i found everything i needed in your touch
tried escaping from reality it sucked
no i'm not scared cuz you make your own luck
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
and i'm fucked up cuz all of this is made up
breathe deep, pop a psilocin and wake up
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
bankrupt

and then i wake up and i'm naked in my bed
it's another day i've dreamt of you if only i could rest with you as lovers
hiding under covers, love under the sun and the drugs 
and then suddenly i'm dreaming that we're face first in flower beds
if you think they're pretty now just wait till everybody's dead and they recover
industry gonna suffer
i wonder how a couple more bucks is gonna save us

i found everything i needed in your touch
tried escaping from reality it sucked
no i'm not scared cuz you make your own luck
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
and i'm fucked up cuz all of this is made up
breathe deep, pop a psilocin and wake up
oh i'm gonna spend all this money till i'm bankrupt
bankrupt

Bankrupt

Take In 'Reality'

Little Lies, Butterflies

New Hope, Chapter VI - Hush

Date of recording (1.9.24)

Hush

New Hope, Chapter XV - My heart could explode!
Recorded 3.14.24

need you to remember that i'm always always always here
speak from love from practice and i'm always always always here
no don't try to convince yourself that i was anybody else
baby don't you see that i'm always always always here
don't try to convince yourself that you're anybody else
i tried to believe that i was always always always always this way

i know it's not fair to you now
i went there back and proud
i feel it every time that i am always always always always here
don't try to convince yourself that you're anybody else
i tried to believe that i was always always always always this way

say what you wanna say forever now (i can't think of a better way)
(always do always do always do)

tell me what you wanna say
tell me what you wanna say wanna say wanna say wanna say
she fancy that I'm someone new
i'm here with you i'm here with you
i need you right over now (tell me i'm okay now)

say i'm okay now (tell me i'm okay now)
tell me i'm okay now (say i'm okay now)
say i'm okay now

tell me i'm okay now!

My heart could explode!

New Hope, Chapter XVII - I hope you find what you're looking for
Recorded 5.2.24

yeah
oh, new hope
yeah
oh, new hope
yeah
oh, new hope
yeah
oh, new hope
yeah
oh, new-
yeah
oh, new-
yeah
oh, new-
oh, new hope
oh, new hope
oh, new hope
oh, new hope
oh, new hope
yeah
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new-
oh, new-
oh, new-
oh, new-
yeah
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new hope, new-
oh, new hope, new-

I hope you find what you're looking for

New Hope, Chapter XX - hold It
Recorded 6.12.24

I need to say my needs, I couldn't hold It
doesn't even like something you would get, doesn't even like something you would get
doesn't even like something you would get, doesn't even like something you would get

I never knew why, I never knew why, I never knew why
baby, it seems like you don't have to try
I never knew why
seems like you don't have to try
I never knew why
baby, yeah it seems like you don't have to try
I never knew why, I never knew why, I never knew why, why
I never knew why
I never knew why, never knew why
yeah, I never knew why, never knew why
yeah it seems like you never have to try
I never knew why, no I never knew why
never knew why, seems like you don't have to try
oh,
never knew why, never knew why
oh I never seem to forget you

no I never seem to forget you
seems so grey without you babe
why does it seem so grey with you babe (no I never seem to forget you)
no I never seem to forget you (I need to say for what it was)
I need to say, I couldn't hold It
I need to say "I won't forget you"

hold It

New Hope, Chapter VIII - what do you need from me?
Recorded 2.13.24

what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need?
what do you need from me? (yeah I feel like)
what do you need?
what do you need from me?
what do you need? 
(yeah)

what do you need from me?

New Hope, Chapter IX - muck
Recorded 2.13.24

muck

New Hope, Chapter VII - honest
Recorded 2.1.24

oh, don't let em take my breath away again
oh, I'll live forever if I could, if I could
death only matters anyway 
if you have someone to share it with
promise I won't put you on a pedestal
I'll only love you forever
and the sun's getting hotter, oh
but my hope's getting bright
one day we'll have a baby, my love 
one day we'll have a baby
in each other's arms, I love you still
oh, I could look at those brown eyes forever, and see you still

only I know how to love forever
if I could love you still
and only my friends could catch a glipse of the spark
only from the start
read your funny books
and tell me everything inside them
read your funny books
and tell me fuckin' everything

i know the music ain't perfect yet anyway
what the fuck does that even mean?
i'm recording into a focusrite
to tell you i'll love forever

baby I had a dream that you and I were in a library

-st

hmm? (do it anyways)

honest

New Hope, Chapter XII - guilt
Recorded 3.14.24

guilt, nah nah nah nah no (no)
guilt, nah nah nah nah no
guilt, nah nah nah nah no (no)
guilt, nah nah nah nah no

guilt

New Hope, Chapter XI - New Hope
Recorded 2.28.24

New Hope is 20 chronologically ordered recordings from the months of November 2023 - June 2024. Made with two microphones and a focusrite, the raw records play with room feedback and tape speed to reflect the sound of grieving while falling in love. Runtime is 90 minutes and gapless playback is recommended in a setting where you feel comfortable.

New Hope, Chapter X - Just go
Recorded 2.24.24

lyrics unavailable for transcription

Just go

New Hope, Chapter XIV - orbs
Recorded 3.7.24

orbs

New Hope, Chapter V - running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
Recorded 12.13.23

no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt, no doubt
running through the park
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin home
running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
yeah
home
what is this?
what is this?
(runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin)
about me
about me
about me
cause i'm running through the park yea i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin
oh i'm runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin through the park
yea im runnin home
runnin through the park yea i'm runnin home

running through the park, yea im runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin runnin

New Hope, Chapter XVIII - gotta run!
Recorded 5.22.24
lyrics
don't you love me baby, definitely care
don't you love me baby
oh I found what I found
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
don't you love me baby, I found the key
don't you love me baby, don't you know
don't you love me baby, don't you know
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found the key, I found the key
oh I found the key, i found the way
gotta run run run, gotta run run run
oh I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
gotta run run run, gotta run run run
cause oh I found it baby, I found the key
oh I found it baby, I found the key
aura (woo)
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
aura
your aura
aura
oh I found the key, I found the way
oh I found the key, I found the way
aura
your aura
aura (oh it's time to go)
woah, woah
woah it's time to go
woah it's time to go
it's time to go
(don't you know)
it's time to go, oh it's time to go
it's time to go, oh it's time to go
oh it's time to go

that was nice

gotta run!

New Hope, Chapter II - Red Spell

spells, we were talking bout spells
oh well, we were talking bout spells
hell, don't talk about hell
oh well, we were talking bout hell

now I see the difference don't you need me to rest
I swear my intuition tells me nothin' but the best
oh I need a good c---
so take your intuition, get your fuckin' inhibition out your mind
I don't need nobody here to see me whine
I'm crying, don't you see that I was only so depressed cause the best of the people that I had in my mind
oh why?

baby this is full regeneration, not the way I ride
I'm swimmin' no regrets and babe I only see the sky
I'm wonderin' bout the
woah, nah nah nah nah nah nah nah nah standin' in the way

~

New Hope, Chapter III - Blue Spell

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
still waiting for the day to come when you say no
yeah

~

New Hope, Chapter IV - Green Spell

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

this isn't what it seems baby
I'm in a dream, and I'm doing fine
still running from the love that keeps me afraid
still loving how your hair looks when it's in a braid
fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"

fell for you when the moon hit the ground and I said "oh"
I'm still waiting for the day that you say you can let me go
I don't wait for the ways that you say "you can let me know"

don't you believe?
don't you believe?
don't you we'll be fine, love

subliminal the way that you would let me go
and the radio is running the show
I care for you I do, I do
but I only have so much for you
and I can't use all my spells


Recorded 11.7.23

Three Spells (Red Spell, Blue Spell, Green Spell)

how much longer is this shit gon' last
call me up say you're glad that I'm well
but when my gaurd falls down 
and the truth comes out
you won't be too proud of me now

see I got blood stains on my white t shirt
and growing pains when I wake up
feeling like I just got hit by a truck
and just to spare you I won't mention what would scare you
if you could be me you'd see I'm shit outta luck

baby how much longer is this shit gon' last
call me up say you're glad that I'm well
but when my gaurd falls down 
and the truth comes out
you won't be too proud of me now

you say take your time but I've had mine
no I'm not asking for yours
(midnight, midnight, midnight, midnight)

all this smoke in my hiatus I'm disassociated
this intoxicant does more than relax
cuz now I'm fucked up thinking bout regrets and what I can't change
bound like tack to the past
no these pills won't make you happy your friends can make you laugh
and your perception's really all that you have
I'll see you when I land
see you when I
see you when I land
see you when I

yeah I'll see you when I land
see you when I
see you when I land
see you when I

perception's really all that you have

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90nWyCAHRHs

fuck me in the basement
where we'd make out on the couch
in our hometown sneakin' out
been a few years thinkin' bout it
didn't think you cared about me
enough to mention
our old contentions
and our relations
when what you're faced with is paramount
yeah

so maybe
you're why im out of breath
i felt myself compress
hearin' you spent your time well
and i'll savor
the time we have left babe
i'll take what i can get
knowin' all i have is time
yeah

don't know how to say these lines
wouldn't have to lie but you hate the silence
would anyone display their crimes
i wish it didn't hurt when you say you're proud of me

i'm too afraid to say i love you
i said
goodbye
too many times
and put a mask on my face when you say that you're sad to leave
and you were
my world
at the time
and i'm too afraid to say i love you

call her back
say the rest
what you left out, the non-events
apologize
no regrets
when we both know the story has
all that wasted time
agreed the weak decides
i'm here to speak with pride

I wish it didn't hurt when you say you're proud of me

homegrown in pennsylvania
member/cofounder @anythingcouldbehere

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