In the darkness I'm a different man
I'm running from the light
And all the things I tell myself
I hate I idolize
I can't bring myself to tell the truth
But I'm sick and tired of lies
Yet I sit and I let them fill my eyes

And then I tell myself that all is well
A dangerous place to be
I keep my head in heaven
My hands in hell
And I'm somewhere in between
But if I'm honest with myself 
I should be damned as one can be
And yet I'm not
And it makes no sense to me
And yet I'm not
And it makes no sense to me

The second you turn around I nail you to the ground
I'm watching them cut you down but I don't make a sound
'Cause I'm a bastard, I'm a liar
I'm a doubter and denier
If bloody fingers aren't enough to make me sure
Then what's to be done?
What's to be done?

Our freedom is twisted, it’s tangled and tied
A distorted contraption to cover and hide
Our countless abuses, our lust and our pride
We bow to our comforts and coddle our minds

If Jesus was here for the poor and the weak
Then why is there hunger and death in the streets
While we sip on our coffee and meet once a week
Ignoring that we are his feet

The second you turn around I nail you to the ground
I'm watching them cut you down but I don't make a sound
'Cause I'm a bastard, I'm a liar
I'm a doubter and denier
If bloody fingers aren't enough to make me sure
Then what's to be done?

Doubter And Denier (Concept Recording)

It's plain and simple
It's not that hard to see
That I'm in love with you
And you're in love with me
There's something special here
And I thing you'll agree
Your beautiful lips are begging for a kiss
And I think I might go crazy

'Cause you're the melody to my love song
You're the words I choose to sing
You're more than alright to my all wrong
And the reason I'm smiling
The silver lining to my raincloud
And the hand I love to hold
You're the upside to my upside-down
And I never want to let you go

But while I'm gone 
I want you to have this song
So you can't possibly forget
That you're the one and only 

Melody to my love song
You're the words I choose to sing
You're more than alright to my all wrong
And the reason I'm smiling
The silver lining to my raincloud
And the hand I love to hold
You're the upside to my upside-down
And I never, no I never want to lose you

We both have our own heartaches
The product of our dumb mistakes
But there's no reason we can't make it through
So say goodbye to our bygones
'Cause we're so much more than the crap we've done
And I'm still head over heals in love with you
Because you're the...

Melody to my love song
You're the words I choose to sing
You're more than alright to my all wrong
And the reason I'm smiling
The silver lining to my raincloud
And the hand I love to hold
You're the upside to my upside-down
And I never, no I never want to let you go

It's plain and simple
It's not that hard to see
That I'm in love with you
And you're in love with me

Plain And Simple

I never once deserved a proper hearing
And there ain’t a bigger waster of your time
Yet here I am before you
Standing in the open door to
Ask you, pretty girl, to be my bride

I am just a product of desire
But it’s clear that you’re a product of design
Your eyes are always glowing and your hands were made for holding
And your kisses taste like sweet and bitter wine

I am not the greatest man that you will ever meet
And my bank account will never be extensive
And before you ask, my five year plan’s a mystery to me
And my ’99 Corolla ain’t expensive

But I will kiss you every moment of the morning
And I’ll hold you every second of the night
And if you’re having issues and you’re running out of tissues
Girl you best believe I’ll make it right

Now I’m going far away because they told me
Which is what I’ve always wanted, after all
Gotta test myself in fire, prove to me I’m not a liar
But dammit girl a year is way too long

I am not the bravest man that you will ever meet
My fear is often greater than my stomach
Yeah I’m scared of heights and depths and mostly everything between
I’m just a helpless human and I know it

But I will kiss you every moment of the morning
And I’ll hold you every second of the night
And if you're having issues and we’re running out of tissues
Girl you best believe I’ll make it right

I will kiss you every moment of the morning
I will hold you every second of the night
And if you're having issues and we’re running out of tissues
Girl you best believe I’ll make it right

Tissues

Come on my darling
Won't you give me a smile
Won't you take my hands
And dance for a while with me

You and I both know
We can't do this alone
So turn on some music
Kiss nice and slow and dance for a while with me

Your eyes've got a sweet sort of sparkle
Your waist feels oh so good in my hands
That red dress should be illegal
'Cause if I'm not careful
I'll never find my sanity again

I can't believe my luck when I
Wake up with you right next to me
Some say that love is made to die
But you keep me right on singing, baby

Come on my darling
Won't you give me a smile
Won't you take my hands
And dance for a while with me

Dance For Awhile

"Pretending" is a song about the hypocrisy of the Church and, more specifically, my own complacent role within it. 

I hope some day I find my way
And maybe then I'll finally understand
But until then I must pretend
That it's okay to call myself a man

Home's a feeling I don't know
But I know my heartaches bloody close
Of all the stupid things I say
I don't love you takes the cake
I'll say goodbye some other time
I'll say goodbye some other time

Nothing's ever really
Like I paint it in my head
Yeah I know it may seem silly
But all my greens have turned to reds
And when my yesterdays are blurry
And my liquor tastes like tin
I'm terrified that I just might not make it in
I'm terrified that I just might not make it in

Once again I paint my grin
Pray to God this crooked smile don't fade
Run my lines over one more time
The perfect lines that make the masquerade

I used to fall but now I'm fine
If I ignore the forest in my eyes
It's not a problem, not a bind
All denial, well defined
I'll say goodbye some other time
I'll say goodbye some other time

Midday on the seventh
And the saints come marching out
Trying to hide their secrets
With their faces full of doubts
And I'm sick of our pretending
Like our sins aren't present tense
I'm terrified that I just might not make it in
I'm terrified that I just might not make it in

Pretending

Lyrics:

*CHORUS*
-take my hand, let's run away
 hold on, please don't stray

*V1*
-the universe wont notice kid
 you're just another life doomed to the back of your eyelids
 the sun will not fail to rise, yet the stars have already died
 guess how it ends (x3)
 you know how it ends (x3)
 if this is our end and ends meet then let's put a fucking end to all'f our, misery

*CHORUS*

*V2*
-is this how it ends (x3)
 this is the end (x3)
 if this is our end and ends meet then let's put a fucking end to our misery

*CHORUS* (x2)

This Is The End

I wanna know why can’t you
Breathe out the things that damn you
Cantina wire is see through
You wear your sin like tattoos

You come and go as you may please
Your aching feet are made to bleed
You saw the sun and watched it freeze
Nothing brings you to your knees

Yesterday was too cold to remember
So I replaced the memories with Jack
Guess it’s no surprise in mid-December
But now I want the shackles back

I wanna know why can’t you
Breathe in the song that heals you
That phony smile is see through
You wear your shame like tattoos

I couldn’t recognize your face
Cause all your teeth had been replaced
I ask how are you, you say great
But all the life has been erased

Yesterday was too cold to remember
So I replaced the memories with Jack
Guess it’s no surprise in mid-December
But now I want the memories back

I wanna know why can’t you
Breathe like the God who made you
Your pantomime is see through
You wear your dreams like tattoos

Yesterday was too cold to remember
So I replaced the memories with Jack
Guess it’s no surprise in mid-December
But now I want the memories back

Yesterday was too cold to remember
So I replaced the memories with Jack
Guess it’s no surprise in mid-December
But now I want the memories back

Tattoos

In "Solid State," I explore the life of a fictional character who has given into his addictions. Originally starting as a poem from my series "Poems At Work," the lyrics dive into what happens when a well-meaning human stops fighting their demons.

Hit or miss in solid state
Another place to sit and wait 
If nothing’s missing, who’s to say
It isn’t how it was

First a feeling, then a fear
Second coming, final year
Ask your doctor, call a seer
Never had the guts

Second chances never take
Head is throbbing, belly aches
A sinner wants to be a saint
But never had the guts

Worship needles, piercing skin
Feeling lucky, deal him in
Sing a song of Jack and gin
Fuel the rot and rust

No one in the world knows disillusion 
Better than an addict trying to mend 
Losing to the tune of that last twenty in his shoe
I hope the pills were worth it
I hope the cards were worth it
I hope the booze was worth it in the end

Losing patience losing sleep
Finding serendipity
Life is still a masterpiece
But isn’t how it was

No one in the world knows disillusion 
Better than an addict trying to mend 
Losing to the tune of that last twenty in his shoe
I hope the pills were worth it
I hope the cards were worth it
I hope the booze was worth it in the end

Solid State

Lyrics:

*INTRO*
-someday, someday. someday, someday (x2)

*CHORUS*
-SOMEDAY, someday, someday (x2)

*V1*
-driving down, the 95, hot summer day in mid july
 tell myself, you'll be just fine, things will probably be different this time
 push my hate, against a fence, pressing the pain so that it might make sense
 if i give you truth then tell no lies (x2)

*CHROUS*

*BRIDGE*
-quicksand, im sinking. my love's erasing (x2)

*V2*
-breaking, my heart down, just listen closely, closely
 i give all i know how, it's still not enough now is it
 i swear i'll fucking drown, helpless and oh so lonely
 i lie on cold hard ground, let me feel just for a minute

*OUTRO*
-(same as intro)

*BRIDGE*

If I Give You Truth, Then Tell No Lies

Lyrics:

*CHORUS*
-you love yourself, no. you let yourself, go. your weak and it, shows
 entropy, entropy
 you say that your, fine. its different this, time. left loved ones be-hind
 helplessly struggling

*V1*
-i am a poor boy too my friend, you aren't the only one
 everyday i try to mend, all the wrongs that i've done
 so hey friend let me buy you a drink
 we can talk about all of the wrongs that we've made
 i swear to god i won't rest my soul
 until we hit the grave feeling whole

*CHORUS*

*V2*
-you seem lonely and lost my friend, happiness next to none
 could it be all the wrongs you've made, leaving you empty and un-done
 so hey friend lets sit down and think
 i can be your savior, i can be your saint
 in order for you to again be full
 cross your damned fingers cause this world is cold

*CHORUS*

*V3*
-it was a cold dark night on an empty street
 the man walked alone feeling incomplete
 he thought back to happy days of old
 and he fired off his pistol now his bodies cold

Tattoos

Peter Rexford

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