a hyperpop playlist that i only listen to when i cry or something like that

music that makes me inspired :D

bangers n slappers

copy

💿💞👨‍💻❤🥺

you wouldn't let it eat you whole

originally by @underscores @maxwell_young. underscores and maxwell young do not make any money from this recording. i would like to change that but honestly i dont know how mechanical licenses work and i dont care quite enough to distribute this myself

del mar county fair

prod @01kon

lryics:

you don't wanna talk that's fine
every time we call, end up on the phone all night
i think after all, every time we talk, we fight
i do nothing wrong, but i'm gonna say ur right

cuz we end up in these cycles
kiss me in between the eye rolls
my girl laughs in my face when i spiral
i know imma be a virus when i'm viral
i'll go bet all of my money on a dice roll

got no bands on me
no chance imma live til i'm 30
take a picture imma beg u not to show me
i've been drinking because no one's gonna know me

break down but i won't apologize
i get scared of what i realize
pack my things and make another life
hope my visage breaks out of your mind

sorry everyone who's ever known me
i just prayed to laura put my money on a pony
sorry everyone who's ever known me
i just prayed to laura put my money on a pony

and it hurts me every time
i feel your name run through my mind
i wish that we could both rewind
i think that i should stay inside

i bite my tongue
you bite your lip
you say we're done so i might just dip
the fight is done, the table's flipped
and no one won on a sinking ship

i-i-i don't wanna talk it's fine
because if we call it'll put me in your mind
i think after all i know that i crossed the line
and it's not your fault, i just wanna make it right

cuz i wanna break the cycle
i make jokes and you make eye rolls
i go way too far and then we spiral
i know every little thing has all been my fault
maybe some day i will seek revival

pony (prod. 01kon)

vocals by me and rouri 
art by phixel


wut do u want frm me?
i been silently waiting 4 u to leave
its a problem with u & not a problem w me
i been stuck in place, not moving constantly
u think ur safe w/ ur back trned
dnt feel surprised when this blade makes ur neck hurt
jus close ur eyes & wish 4 things to get bettter
acid lies always burning thru my sweatshirt

YOUTUBE

problem with u ft. rouri404 (yungspoiler)

9 of 10

cowritten by & featuring @cmten
mastered by Ryan Schwabe
art designed + edited by @daywaiter
original photo + concept by mars whitlock & me

~~lyrics~~

(sd)
Acting out of malice
Circle pain on the diagram
Keep it steady, cut precision from my shaky hands
I'm so caught up between what I want and who I am
You only reach out at your weakest

And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed
And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed

I think I found what you were looking for
I won't give it back until you learn to use the magic word
If you're fucking with me then I just gotta be sure
And if it's really honesty then stop faking concern
Water down the drain until I'm clean
I create the image of myself I let you see
The things that make you pretty never look as good on me
Me my eyes and eyelids are all different shades of green

And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed

And I do it right back
And I do it right back
Let it circle in my head (Let it circle in my, and it circles in my head)
Burn a hole into my bed (And it circles in my head head head head head yeah)

(cmten)
Downing the drink that you made for me
Carve a space in the walls so that I can see
I can barely breathe, I can barely breathe
When you’re not with me, when you’re not with me
Sometimes takes a little more to come apart
Waiting for you to come back in the dark now
Sometimes waiting all alone at the bus stop
I don’t really give a fuck about what you want now
Bout what you want now
Bout what you need now
Bout what we had, 2am and I’m homebound
Kissing your neck, I forget all the past
Til I stand up too fast and I do it right back

(sd)
And I do it right back back back back back
And I do it right back back back back back
Let it circle in my head head head head head
Burn a hole into my bed bed bed bed bed
And I do it right

star★☆

doitrightback

wait, don't tell me that
you think i'm too much
i'm not trying to impress you
i'm just trying to love
and i never took anything
i didn't replace
except the light in your eyes
when you see my face

so if i flinch or i cry
when you get too close
i just want you to listen
so you can know
that it's never you
it's the way you move
yet the things you do are beautiful

stay, i think maybe
you've had too much
cuz you only bend roses
when you're high or drunk
i don't know what i expected
but it wasn't this
you broke the silence in me
with your selfish kiss

i know i'm not
what you expected
but you can't prevent it
honestly
it's always the same thing
it's always the same thing

and i know that now
but i've been knocked down
and i can't get off the ground
fast enough to make a difference
and i know that now
i've been tapped out
i don't have anything to give

flinch

i ask of u to just preeeeteeeeeeeeeeeeendddddd

(lyrics)
she said "baby r u sad again"
idk,  i just feel mad again but its ok
idrc im just brittle idrc its so small i feel little

all the time when i cry ur right there
and when i die will u drop right there?
i hate the way that i feel when im with u
but idrc much when im not with u

my life is a losing battle
and i scream all the things i cant handle
i cant handle much i cant take it
and im sorry for this i wont make it

can u call me, again
i ask of u to just pretend
pretend, pretend, pretend, just pretend 
its ok, i feel fine
dont touch me
just pretend x4

(all the time when i cry ur right there
and when i die will u drop right there?
i hate the way that i feel when im with u
but idrc much when im not with u)

i hate the way u make me feel
im never right its always u
i can never relax, whats ur deal?
and i can never do much without u

can u call me, again
i ask of u to just pretend
pretend, pretend, pretend, just pretend 
its ok, i feel fine
dont touch me
just pretend x4

pretender

pretender (dead yami)

produced by me
written by me + taiyoukei
additional vocals by taiyoukei + maeEXO
mixed/mastered by me
notes: this is probably my catchiest song in a while :D i hit a creative block recently and taiyoukei helped me realize my vision with this song, i couldnt have made this without her :) this also has my best outro probably i love this outro so much

lyrics:
shrinking violet, press yourself into the corner of the room
close your eyes and take deep breaths and count to ten and meet your doom
tachycardia, your heart can barely keep moving with you
doesn't being here just make you sick?
[NOTE: taiyoukei wrote this whole verse and did backing vocals on it everyone say thank you]

i think you need to get out
you need to get out of here
cuz theyll only let you down (you let me down)
you know you should hide, they can smell your fear
just get out
you need to get out of here
cuz theyll only let you down (you let me down)
you know you should hide, they can smell your fear

sorry if im quiet, it's just hard to commit, i admit
it's gonna take a while to get used to this
scared to be a passerby, to shoot and to miss, i admit
i'm so scared, i think that i'm losing it

i just can't let go of this nagging feeling
but i just cannot grow without hitting the ceiling

i think you need to get out
you need to get out of here
cuz theyll only let you down (you let me down)
you know you should hide, they can smell your fear
just get out
you need to get out of here
cuz theyll only let you down (you let me down)
you know you should hide, they can smell your fear

you need to get out

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Everything is as I see
I can feel the earth shift around me as I speak
(Hey, hey)
You took the world away from me
Will you have my back when it crumbles on my feet

And I don't wanna be the guy
Who has to start it
But I'm not gonna let myself
Become a target
I know there's magic in the air
And I know you can feel it there
But I don't wanna disappear

If I go
Will you hold the fort down?
Will we last if I'm not around?
if I go
Will you hold your breath?
I'll do the same
'til I see you next

If I go
Will you hold the fort down?
'cause I need some time to figure
All my feelings out
If I go
Will you hold your breath?
I'll do the same
'til I see you next

This is who I wanna be
I don't wanna go
But I got to leave
It's just the way it has to be
If I leave you hurt
Out the blame on me

And I don't wanna be the guy
Who has to end it
And I swear I will do my best
To try and mend it
I know there's magic in the air
And I know you can feel it there
But I don't wanna disappear

(Can you show me how to grieve?
Why am I always so naive?
Should I bother to believe?
Or is it better if I leave?)

(Can you show me how to grieve?
I can't breathe
Why am I always so naive?
It's just me
Should I bother to believe?
I can't see
Or is it better if I leave?)

(One, two, three, four)

Can you show me where you go when the lights out
Can you bring me to the place that you hide now
Can you show me how to breathe
'Cause I'm not as strong as I used to be and

You know I can hold the fort down
But do you hold me close
When you're running around
Don't try to lie or deny it
I know where you've been tonight
So I'm asking you now

If I go
Will you hold the fort down?
Will we last if I'm not around?
if I go
Will you hold your breath?
I'll do the same
'til I see you next

If I go
Will you hold the fort down?
'cause I need some time to figure
All my feelings out
If I go
Will you hold your breath?
I'll do the same
'til I see you next

Everything ain't as it seems
Tried to change the world
But the world changed me
You left me bleeding on the floor
Lying on the glass
I can't do this anymore

But there's a couple things
About me that you'd better know
That if I find a guy like you
I'm never letting go
I'll never leave
Never cause you any harm
And the only way I'll go
Is if I die inside your arms

If I go
Will you hold the fort down?
Will we last If I'm not around?
If I go
Will you hold your breath?
I'll do the same
'til I see you next

If I go
Will you hold the fort down?
'cause I need some time to figure
All my feelings out
If I go
Will you hold your breath?
I'll do the same
'til I see you next

I know there's something left for you

caldecott (feat. Polygon Cove)

Photophobia [underscores + kaixan rmx]

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The broken glass
From the microwave
Is reflecting your glow tonight
Your eyes are telling me
That I'm alive
I hope all these beautiful memories
Aren't ruined by the clothes
I'm wearing right now
(Let your body eat you up)

I did something wrong today
And I meant it in the right way
And I don't know how to say this
In a polite way
But I'm a lightweight
And I overdose the truth

If I had it my way
I'd overdose on you
I'd tell you what I hold back
Every time I get close to you

(Is it true or does it live
In a daydream?) 

If I die tonight
Can I lay my head down
Knowing it was alright?
Lesson learned
Douleur

I could never figure it out myself
Maybe I'm the weakness
Giving you hell
Maybe I'm the void in your chest
That you've been trying to fill

And now we're breaking our hands
Just to make it work
I guess broken bones
Are what we deserve
And now I can't hold on
'Cause my grip is gone
And all I'm left with
Is silence in a daydream

If I die tonight
Can I lay my head down
Knowing it was alright?
Lesson learned
Douleur

Slow down
I can feel your gaze 
Slipping through the cracks
Along my skin as I 
Struggle to breathe
Know now
It takes a lot to walk away
It takes a lot to be the change
Every day


If I die tonight
Can I lay my head down
Knowing it was alright?
Lesson learned
Douleur

The broken glass
From the microwave
Is reflecting your glow tonight
Your eyes are telling me
That I'm alive

x2 dose

i hate how im margelia yea my insides are out
its a hard sell to pull me out of my house
i need some reassurance i wont bug myself out
when they all stare at me for wearing my blouse

yea i dont think that i can carry this weight
my teacher told me i should pull up my grades
i need some medicine, a cold mithridate
so when i walk the hallways i dont disassociate 

all my intentions, are they ever worth it?
if all i that i hope for never reaches the surface
theres a liar in me, a liar in me

i bottle my pride, and disregard if it kills me
i swallow my tongue at things that i know wont hurt me
hear a voice from within
you took a rib i never wanted to give

i need to make sure this is not a mistake
my parents tell me i should watch how i weigh
i pick some flowers from the shed that ive made
to form the crown which will keep me safe   

all my intentions, will they soon be worth it?
all i can hope for is that i’ll reach the surface
theres a liar in me, a liar in me
at least for now

callback

my best friend

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-Alow & Self Discovery - don't! (madladlibs)

i fucking hate you and you know
ive been dying on my own
and blood is dripping slow
do this on my own

fuck the bitch that you despise
skrrt off with my eyes closed
i just wanna crash
bitch i just wanna crash 

here i go
down the road
burnin slow
feel at home
black lipstick and panic attacks
stab me in back baby you dont gotta ask no

here i go
down the road
burnin slow
feel at home

(black lipstick and panic attacks
stab me in back girl you dont gotta ask no)

Crash Land! (prod. Guala Beatz)

LYRICS:

(WELCOME TO THE INTERNATIONAL BATTLE OF THE BANDS
THIS SONG IS CALLED ANTI-LOVE.)

IM SICK AND TIRED OF FEELING LIKE IM FUCKIN NOTHING TO YOU 
IM SICK OF WAKING UP WITH COLD SWEAT DOWN MY BACK
IM SICK OF FEELING LIKE HUMAN FUCKING WASTE TO YOU 

AND THROUGH ALL THE CHOICES WE MADE
YOU SAID THAT I WAS WRONG 
BUT LOOK WHOS FALLIN NOW 
ITS LIKE YOU NEVER EVEN LOVED ME
YOU NEVER LOVED ME, LOVED ME IN THE FIRST PLACE

TOLD YA TO LEAVE ME ALONE
BUT YA KEPT ON PUSHIN 
KEPT ON PUSHIN

I WAS THERE WHEN YOUR BOYFRIEND WASNT
SO, GUESS ILL TAKE A FUCKIN SEAT IN THE BACKGROUND
TAKE A SEAT WITH MYSELF

LEAD ON MISUSED
FUCKED UP ABUSED
SO TELL THE TRUTH
DID YA SHED A LITTLE TEAR WHEN YOU FIGURED OUT I REALLY DIDNT GIVE A FUCK
FEELS LIKE I NEVER KNEW YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE

PLAY THE VICTIM BUT YOURE PLAYIN WITH MY FEELINS
HOW THE FUCK DO YOU WORK IM TRYNA FUCKIN FIGURE IT OUT
THE FUCK YOU CRYIN ABOUT
YOU DID THIS ALL BY YOURSELF
TRYNA CRY FOR SOME HELP

AND I DONT WANNA DIE
YOU PUSH ME TO THE EDGE
I GOTTA CUT YOU OFF
FORE' I DO SOMETHING I REGRET

ANTI-LOVE (PROD. IMOTAPE)

OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY
OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY
DIG A MASS GRAVE FOR AMERICA
DIG A MASS GRAVE FOR AMERICA

YOU KNOW THAT I DID IT BEFORE
IM NOT SCARED TO DO IT AGAIN OKAY
BABY TRY TO RUN FOR THE DOOR
YOU WONT GET VERY FAR

THE DEVIL'S COME AND I'LL DO MY TIME
BUT BABY CANT YOU COME INSIDE
THE FEDS CANT COME CLOSE
KILLER NEXT DOOR ON MY GRAVESTONE

FUCK THAT, I DONT WANNA GO OUTSIDE
LOCKED AWAY BABY TASTE MY KNIFE
ISOLATION TRYNA SHAKE OFF MY TEMPTATIONS
MEDICATION I CANT EVEN FEEL SENSATIONS

KILLER NEXT DOOR IM THE KILLER NEXT DOOR
TASTED YOUR BLOOD NOW IM FIENDIN FOR SOME MORE
KILLER NEXT DOOR IM THE KILLER NEXT DOOR
FUCKED UP MY LIFE CAUSE IM EVIL AT THE CORE

KILLER NEXT DOOR (PROD. NEKK)

@RealmOfSemtexx
@blackwinterwells
@ripsoldat

prod soldatt

gatewayy() +semtexx, blackwinterwells

HMU to work
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boi 1 (prod scum)

screamin at the top of my lungs cause i hate you
the cops are knockin on the front door, so i blame you
a couple swings later now im in a fuckin cop car
grabbed their service weapon pulled the trigger now theyre both dead

i just took a life and i feel so good
dont fuck with me, but i think you should
my new best friend is my glock 18
my new best friend is my glock 18
melody drive
melody drive
i cant go back
melody drive
melody drive
i cant go back
i wanna go home

SHOOTING ON MELODY DRIVE (PROD. OUI LELE)

H3LL0K1TTY [FEAT. PHIXEL]

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me + jedwill
soprano vox lead : rosesleeves
verses : rosesleeves + jedwill + button maker
editors notes: this beat had a lot of renovation done to it over a while, i made almost all of these sounds myself including that cool bass :) the melody was mainly inspired by a segment in an old melodic fuckery thing i found on newgrounds i dont remember the name of, and the ending epic pad section was inspired by fka by underscores and i think the riser into it may sample it as well

lyrics:
[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[rosesleeves]
i’m so damn gone babe
take a pill to the brain
can’t help feeling lost i
guess i was made this way
it always feels the same
can’t make it go away
it-it-it hurts so bad
and i can’t make it change

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[jedwill]
Ah

You know that I miss you when I call you lately
I can never talk, I’m confusing, hate me
Why do I avoid your time
Just like I avoid your eyes
But did you catch that you just might miss it
I think about you a lot but I’ve been distant
I’m sorry guess it’s just my loss
You’re precious I should count your cost
I’ve waited long
It’s all so soft
My heart was locked
You make me calm

[button maker]
Ooh I'm lost in my own headspace
(Can't help but feel like I'm losing control) 
Ooh, Always last in the race
(I've waited so many, so many lifetimes)
And I know it may never be my time
(It's so confusing, like, headache inducing)
Ooh,  even though it's always the same
(I wouldn't have it any other way)

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[rosesleeves]
i’m so damn gone babe
take a pill to the brain
can’t help feeling lost i
guess i was made this way
it always feels the same
can’t make it go away
it-it-it hurts so bad
and i can’t make it change

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

headspace w/ rosesleeves + jedwill + button maker

“Steps" out NOW

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