FEEL THE RUSH (feat. J-Choppa)

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
I left flowers at your grave
As if just to say
Though you may be long gone
Your memory remains
Wish that you were still here
Wish I could take your place
But I'm in need of closure
So I've decided not to stay

They say it was an accident
You can never really plan for them
So when all your friends left mass exodus
You stayed behind like my happiness

All of the trauma she endured at your hands
Was it enough to push her over the edge
Many nights I laid awake
Soaked with regret
For the love that I had left
So today I'm leaving these

I guess that bastard got 
What was coming to him 
They read your diary and saw all the things he did 
But that won’t bring you back no
There’s no solace here in that 

I wish someone had listened 
When you said you wanted to leave 
So now I’m taking the last bus out of this town 
And I’ll keep your memory with me on the breeze

Said I'd come back for you
But I never did
I turned my back on you
I'm such an idiot
But I can't be held to promises
That I made when I was just a kid

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I've Decided Not to Stay (Prod. Horosha & Saint Tomorrow)

outta time (prod. eli)

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

OLLIE

LIL BILL | RIP JAPAN

july w/ kiddamo

non-profit soundcloud exclusive 

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lyrics:
I’ll wait 
I’ll wait 
I’ll wait 
for you
To come back 
but I know you won’t
Yeah
Shit I’m still sitting by the bottle 
My bear feet yeah held up against the cobble 
I’m just a drink away from reading the Bible 
This vodka hittin my head starting to wobble 
I didn’t give myself the blame and now I’m liable 
I just wanna be respected and reliable 
But ima ghost and im unfindable 
An the way they leave me so fast 
You’d think that I’d be unfixable 
But I feel invincible 
When I’m with you
When I’m with you 
When I’m with you 
When I’m with you 
Such a slight switch in my mood
And now I’m feeling invisible 
To you, to you, to you
Something I should be used to
I’m tryina find me a way to be fine
But every thought feel like a hurdle 
Yeahh
said she’s worried I’d hurt her like you 
But how could I hurt you when I know what you been through 
I can’t stress the way that they sayin my name they don’t know the Y is silent, like you 
Don’t worry baby I won’t ever get violent with you 
I know I’m annoying I got lots to say
I know I’m annoying I got lots to say
But I’m just showing you my true self 
I could never hide that from you 
An Now I can’t hide 
from the thoughts I have of you 
This trust no one tattoo on my arm cuz of you 
at least i guess I learned a lot from you 
If im doing the right thing 
If im
If im doing the right thing 
Will always be a question on my dome
I’m so worried of letting go
That I can’t let no body else close
I feel like I’m wasting away 
At this point you would think I just wanna rot away 
At this point you would think that I’m just gonna decay

decay (prod. king theta)

non_mi_sembra_vero RMX

twins

My Enemy

outta time (prod. eli)

Killgill (@killgill713)