a memoir of gratitude

gamble

i came a long way from you
you know its all true
i cant explain the way i felt when i saw you
yk i hate being cordial
fuck being formal
i think im sick n fkn tired of feeling abnormal

wake up
roll up
cmon bae lets go up
you pop one i pop one uhuh oh yeah just dont throw up
hmm im on some shit right now
you aint seen someone like me before
from the bottom of my heart bae i wanna ball (bald) like im amber rose
ahhh oooo
tell me right now what you thinking bout 
cause im thinking bout you with a house and some kids
get a dog get a yard so we can take em out
ahh baby im draining my bank account
if i could i would buy you the world
diamond and pearls
put that weight all on my shoulder baby i been hitting my curls
will it work out?
i been thinking to myself will it work out
idk if its me or the songs or my image or what the fuck i gotta talk bout
facts
this game ripping my heart out
i been putting in work while you call out
if i cant run it up ima crawl out
how im missing my bro but we falled out
we was on the same team but you fouled out
how you change up on me what is that about
im the realest one living without a doubt
bae dont tell me you love me just open ya mouth
aye
i fell asleep while im standing baby i took too much ima slouch
ok
and i do this for me and my family idgaf ab the clout

fuck fuck fuck
i shud prob start caring ab that
!!!!!!!

ahh
waking up wit my face down 
and my tongue tied 
all my times flied
ahh
tell me how im sposed to trust somebody else if everybody i know lies
well if everybody playing both sides guess its me myself and this gen 5
ima lone wolf i came in this world alone baby thats how im ready to die

i came a long way from you
you know its all true
i cant explain the way i felt when i saw you
i came a long way from you
you know its all true
i cant explain the way i felt when i saw you
yk i hate being cordial
fuck being formal
i think im sick n fkn tired of feeling abnormal

abnormal [p. jaechii]

walking dead [p. methboiswag]

dahmer (feat. goneafteraugust) [p. jaechii]

idiot! [p. locateemilio]

thank you for listening

Lyrics:

Tongue tied when I called your name
How could have I forgot about it
Time flies when you waste away
But I know you don’t see it
Because you build me up
Just to tear me down
All that time spent waiting for something
Because it’s all I know
Now I’m letting go
Of all that time we wasted

Who am I to you?
Just different shades of blue
Your perfect colorway
A gradient of me
You painted above you
And what am I to say?
When all the color fades
A perfect shade of gray
That turned into nothing
And faded above you

So where do we go
Now that I’m all alone just staring down at my feet
Overthinking how they got me where I’ve come to be now
Sleeping on the floor again
And wondering when the f*ck this ends
Spinning around my head
While I just keep on asking myself

Who am I to you?
Just different shades of blue
Your perfect colorway
A gradient of me
You painted above you
And what am I to say
When all the color fades
A perfect shade of gray
That turned into nothing
And faded above you
Above you…

abnormal [p. jaechii]

love jai