backstage (brody + taylor morgan)

enamored by some petty things and i learned
it's not naturally created, knowing that hurts
praying that my back won't break, my ankles were first
hoping that i'll make it but it's been the reverse

lacking inspiration
i can't take a break, need more creations
going through some changes, maybe mutations
things that you're not fixing with some conversations

i'm gonna take it back, 'cause it's mine
you don't have to believe me, believe in me, it's fine
i've been so obsessed with my self-innovation
the kind of mine is born once in a generation

i'm gonna take it back, 'cause it's mine
you don't have to believe me, believe in me, it's fine
disappeared and faced the one inside the mirror
i tried to wipe it off but wasn't seeing clearer

i knew the truth the whole time, wanted you to say i'm right
always lost in the back of my own mind every time i close my eyes
no way to soothe my aching bones, i've been working my whole life
nothing stagnant, only want changes, i pray every day and night

i can't breathe, but you're what i need
you've got no empathy
tell me how to leave this lifetime of greed
you're tryna climb but you're not planting the tree

enamored by some petty things and i learned
it's not naturally created, knowing that hurts
praying that my back won't break, my ankles were first
hoping that i'll make it but it's been the reverse

lacking inspiration
i can't take a break, need more creations
going through some changes, maybe mutations
things that you're not fixing with some conversations

mutations

garden avenue <33333

lil bro watch outside
im a ghost I fly tonight
in the background i take it all
im taking flight
whispers tell me that ur gonna die tonight
blood moon dont get in my way when its in sight

treasure in the sky
never heard the sirens
i dont wanna die
but its so exciting
i can see you cry
i dont wanna fight it
glisten in your eye

its alright i fought for us
i cant explain
ive killed a thousand times
its so much pain
the armor im inside is stained and frayed
no matter how i try
its still displayed

lil bro watch outside
im a ghost I fly tonight
in the background i take it all
im taking flight
whispers tell me that ur gonna die tonight
blood moon dont get in my way when its in sight

lil bro watch outside
im a ghost I fly tonight
in the background i take it all
im taking flight
whispers tell me that ur gonna die tonight
blood moon dont get in my way when its in sight

try and i fall never mention
i dont think its right that i want this attention
keep it all inside think of all that im wishing
wish it all would die im ashamed of ascension

lil bro watch outside
im a ghost I fly tonight
in the background i take it all
im taking flight
whispers tell me that ur gonna die tonight
blood moon dont get in my way when its in sight

lil bro watch outside
im a ghost I fly tonight
in the background i take it all
im taking flight
whispers tell me that ur gonna die tonight
blood moon dont get in my way when its in sight

and the moon became as blood

i found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
i can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
there's so many things that i wish i could say
i guess i only wonder if you're playing it safe
everything was meant only to be, just not as long as it seemed

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than us going steady

it's such a shame how the times have changed
i renounce it all and let the feeling remain
another day, dead and gone to waste

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song

all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
and i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy

show me mercy

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than

i spent my days trying to be multifaceted
in some years i'd try to tally up the damages
i can't hope you'd take me back, i guess i'm past it
and like the other song goes, "i like to do magic"

fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
i still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
our different phases of life, i'll never blame
i light the spliff and hope the emotions fade

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song
all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

how can ever keep myself from harm?
running away to scream inside my car

MERCY

prod. flesh
master by @notluna

i 
cant go outside
and i dont know why
yeah im growing tired
of cancelling plans
it's only one night
with all of my friends
and i know it's alright to wanna stay but i
feel guilty when i dont even try
to power through and have a good time

i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone that isn't me 
yeah i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone else
i wish that i could be someone that isn't me so much, oh

edit: I've never had a song perform this well!! shoutout the algorithm gods I'm glad it's resonating w ppl :') should be on Spotify etc in the next few days!!! thank u everyone for all the support it fr means a lot to me <33

i wish that i could be someone else

prod. flesh

sample: artist vs poet - like kids

lyrics:
from the moment that I woke up
I've been tryna see the sun
gotta wait a bit it's not up yet whoa
I've been throwing bricks into the pond
I'm just tryna skip all of the upset yea
I don't get a say in what I want
but I don't wanna end up on the doorstep uh
cuz then I get stepped all on
nah n I don't wanna stress too long

I remember it like it's yesterday
I'm still in it in the memories
swear to god I'll give them everything
but they'll never take the rest away
so I'll keep chasing notes I dreamed I wrote

I take my card and receipt
pack all my things into my bag then I step out in the heat
it takes longer than I want
and though it's hard as it seems
it's only everything I wanted
everything I wanted to be

Not up yet

it's nothing new when i tell you that i've been stuck in my mind
where am i
i couldn't turn away the pain when i got stuck on a rhyme
i can't hide

and the bills are stacking as of late but everything is still fine
at least i won't die
who's gonna be there till the end when everything is alright
something i can't find

and there's been countless times i've been cast aside and replaced
i never noticed how my brain took those and tapped erase
and i can't see my growth i think i'm stuck inside my ways
feels like i'm never good enough but that won't ever change

i guess the truth was right in front of me
then it came packaged in my fate
and my whole life i tried to run away
and my whole life i tried to run away
and my whole life i tried to run away

it's nothing new when i tell you that i've been stuck in my mind
where am i
i couldn't turn away the pain when i got stuck on a rhyme
i can't hide

and the bills are stacking as of late but everything is still fine
at least i won't die
who's gonna be there till the end when everything is alright
something i can't find

HIDE

(never again)
(never again)
never again, god i'm hanging by a thread
all my life another night on the edge
i'll say goodbye now
you can cry your eyes out
i'll be alright while you're alone
tell me when, god i'm hanging by a thread
all my life another night on the edge
i don't think you get it
god you're so pathetic
crying out the exit all alone

can you tell me that you cared
every night i've been impaired
but deep down i'm so scared

i got drunk
hit a bump
why am i feeling so slump
i've been losing my shit
and i haven't slept in months
quitting weed made me dream
and i don't like it one bit
(this life's not what it seems)

i hit a blunt, i hit a bag, now what's the move
when i wake up, i don't need drugs, i just need you
woah
i just spent another night out
now i'm back inside your house
i've been so turnt up tryna fight the urge to sleep
but it's been a couple days and it's more than i can take
but i'll find a way
there's something 'bout the way that you make me feel
which path do i take
throw it all away or bury my heart

and i can't believe you actually made me bury my beliefs
i gave it all of me and sacrificed my unity
the tragic path to you and me
it's always something that's not up to you or me
it's in my head but it's not something i can see
it's only something that is slightly out of reach
it's something out a eulogy

i got drunk
hit a bump
why am i feeling so slump
i've been losing my shit
and i haven't slept in months
quitting weed made me dream
and i don't like it one bit
(this life's not what it seems)

never again, god i'm hanging by a thread
all my life another night on the edge
i'll say goodbye now
you can cry your eyes out
i'll be alright while you're alone

can you tell me that you cared
every night i've been impaired
but deep down i'm so scared

THREAD w/ lil narnia, fats’e, anxiety attacks!

guitar by 93feetofsmoke

but i don’t wanna fight the truth
it’s everything that i go through
my mistake was only learning something new
but every time i still think “what’s the use?”

and there’s no feeling inside anything i do 
no meaning inside everything that i’ve been through
my transformation’s for the betterment of you
so is it wrong to say you’re bringing down the room?

and if she calls me back
the second i put down the phone i’ll wonder where we at
cause she could leave tomorrow
“i’m never coming back”
maybe she’s worth the wait
relieve me of the weight

but if she calls me bae
then i might run away
if she goes through my phone
break it off every way
but i’ll still lie awake
i might not right away
and you could say i’m wrong
but not in every way

i’ll cut my losses but refuse to move inside your line
maybe recover through the passage of my precious time
another day another tangent of my manic plight 
maybe 
maybe it’s worth bringing the truth to the light

that you made plans with a man
surprised i didn’t ask?
cause everything he has
is nothing i don’t have

and then i had a dream
it wasn’t you and me
i didn’t have a face
fulfilled me anyway

but i don’t wanna fight the truth
it’s everything that i go through
my mistake was only learning something new
but every time i still think “what’s the use?”

PLIGHT

Lyrics_

Your voice echoes soft 
Everything comes with a cost
This life i made is tearing me apart

The years are burning away
But, i still feel the same
My bones will wither away
But my ghost will remain

I built a house of cards
Only to watch it fall
A haunting dissonance
Melodies that never resolve

The doctor gave me pills
Prescription chemicals
As i walk through the gate
I ran into a wall

Don’t go
Don’t go
I know im turning gray
But i used to be gold

Don’t go
Don’t go
Seasons change 
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Misery chose me
But baby you’re the only one who really knows me
I flew so high when i came down
I had a nosebleed 

I suffocate on the words
I can’t say
I’m choking
Memories corroding 

Its been so long since i felt like myself
Desperate for help
Are you there?
Can you hear me?

Im sick of saying the same shit in all of these songs
Ive been hanging by a thread for way too long

Don’t go
Don’t go
I know im turning gray
But i used to be gold

Don’t go
Don’t go
Seasons change 
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

don’t go

Lyrics_

Vessels in my heart detach
These drugs wont fix my feelings
Fresh wounds old scars still healing
I never thought it would get this hard

I watched it all fall apart in front of me
I lost a part of me
Im sick of dealing with these

Changes
I cant face it
A broken home they say that love is blind
The children watch their father cry

Changes
I cant face it
I think im running out of tears to cry
I’llpace around my room another night

In pain but I’ll still be there
Always my brothers keeper
Sister know how you’re feeling
Wish i could take it all away

I’ll bare the burden
I’ll catch the bullet right in front of you
I used to be gold
But the weight has slowly turned me blue

MERCY

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