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this one means alot 2 me


you wont talk
you got soft
you wont stop
this cant stop but 
you wont come for me
your not comforting 
i cant see a thing 
you keep tellin me
ive been on my own
not so broken home
just admit you know
where i need to go
could go overseas
but you still needed me
i cant let it be 
my scars they burn too deep


you keep on saying
you wanna understand it
but when i confess 
you just get so offended
wanna take all this shit 
just to wait for the ending
im so done with your shit 
and im done with regreting
im so done with your shit 
and im done with regreting
im so done with your shit 
and im done with regreting

airborne

im done with it

Stream

everything i say

I have no motivation
So I get nothing done
I hate the mornings so i 
Sleep in way past the sun    	 
I have like everything but
I still find nothing fun, 
I really like the smell of
The world when it burns

It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm

now its only a fraction   
Of times that we had
So i turn to distractions
Whenever im sad  
It turns into a cycle
I think im going psycho
Fraid of things that i might do
Might do

Lately i just hate everyone
I hope they all run away 
I hope they somehow just trip and fall
I hope they dig their own graves 

Im a mess
Im obsessed 
with distractions all day
And when i stop  
drown in thoughts
i just break down again
(2x)

Fuck that
Ima turn this shit around
Wrote that
In december i was down
Looking back that shit was kinda rough
But now im here its kinda funny got my money up

This year ,drop whatever I wana
All my songs are kinda sad but now im tryn be funner
Theres jus this
Big fear, 
I wont do any numbers
doesn't matter anyways im already goin down under 

I
I got a present 4 u
And im not sure if you’ll like it or not
But i assure u its straight from da heart
Ok u
U make write all these songs
But im j sad 1 percent  of the time
I jus dont make songs about 99

distractions

Vocals by maxeem / cover by ekdsc (https://ekdsc.neocities.org/)
Produced, Mixed & Mastered by maxeem

ALL PLATFORMS - https://ffm.to/ichandle

[Intro]
I don't wanna end that way again
I end up wasting time
Staying far too long again
There's no one by my side

[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that it wasn't as easy as they said it is
Took a leap of faith into uncharted abyss
On my own, but for the first time
I feel new again, I've ascended into new light

[Chorus]
And I know it's not as easy as they said it was
I fell but got back up, and I'm the best I could be
Took many jabs yet prevailed
But you hurt me
Made me just better myself
Don't concern me
Say that you want something else
You'll get over this
I know me
I can handle this

[Post-Chorus]
In the dark for far too long
The darkness ended up being prolonged
I wanted more out of this song
Let me out, I waited too long
Don't wanna end up another face up on a poster
Lost all to time, lost all the faith that I had

[Pre-Chorus]
Don't wanna end up another face
up on a poster
Lost all to time
I lost all the faith I had

[Chorus]

And I know it's not as easy as they said it was
I fell but got back up, and I'm the best I could be
Took many jabs yet prevailed
But you hurt me
Made me just better myself
Don't concern me
Say that you want something else
You'll get over this
I know me
I can handle this

[Outro]

I spent too many nights
You won't see me up on that poster
I walked out the door
I don't wanna see you again
I can handle this I can handle this

LIIGHTWORK SOON :)

I can handle this

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this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

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lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

hypoxic

Set The Page

(prodheavn)
@blackwinterwells
https://app.matter.online/tracks/67750

end it +blackwinterwells

waking up early taking naps
no i can’t feel it anymore
laying on my back in the grass
wonder why i feel sore
said she wanna take a step back
but i’ve heard it all before
but i’ve heard it all before
empty only wanting more

she’s a devil
she’s a two timer
she’s a snake
she’s a fucking liar
kiss your neck 
because i’m not a biter
when she left my place i couldn’t find my lighter

i’m still down for you i’m doing my part 
but i can’t fill this gap inside of my heart
and nothing in this world can satisfy me
and i feel so selfish i want your body

but i don’t wanna fuck just wanna kiss you
i just need somebody to continue
crushed up addys placed inside my bedroom
honestly i just don’t see the issue 
just a little blood inside the tissue
i don’t wanna think because i’ll miss you
so i still i got my vices i submit to

selfish

https://open.spotify.com/album/1XWjuVYPyTieFN4M4y0Us3

art by @n9kki on ig

featuring
@p4rkr
@wido123456789

prod
@blackwinterwells

cruel w/ wido & quinn

prod me and that dude @ilypelican

looking through my head at everything I've ever done or said
I'm so annoying I hate everything I ever did
don't know why I would even tell you you don't give a shit
I finally understand the reason I don't see you
[HOOK]
you don't listen to me 
life feel like a fucking movie
I'm  thinking of ending things
maybe then you'll say you knew me
you just saying anything
don't know what you meant to me
blood all over everything
I don't want your sympathy
drag me through the dirt saying 
what happened to chivalry
I feel like your secretary
all the shit you give to me
I thought when it happened
wonder why you're picking me
I know why this happened
me and all my misery
[VERSE]
fucked up fucked up 
I get so
you're stuck up you're stuck up 
you don't know
I'm trying so hard to do this on my own
lying I said I'm good alone
stuck here and I'm faking I'm okay
I don't wanna wait another day
feels like they're lying to my face
just cant keep up I'm out of place
I know its temporary 
do it again and again
another January
I don't know how I should spend
tonight yeah more than ever
I feel like this is the end
they said it gets better
I don't know why they pretend
[HOOK]

im thinking of ending things ft 8485 (yurms + pelican)

http://therapy.rip

mgmt.polearm@gmail.com