if this is heaven [irby x recyclebin]

hamilton - the ugly truth

##album4 single1

You turned your location off and on, I hope it’s a glitch
That kept me up all night, I couldn’t fight the itch 
moment of weakness I think I feel like a - 
i couldn’t scream it out, I fucked up the pitch
I asked you what’s the problem
Then you made a list
I took my solemn oath
To no longer reminisce

It’s 6:30 AM
I can’t seem to go to sleep
There’s nothing I can say when I’m so hungry and weak
I let it out, I can’t speak, transcript on canvas with keys
I gotta speed up the motion my phone percentage is 3
5am on the plane, I can’t recline my seat 
i tried an everyday motion, I clutch my back that I tweaked
I tried to stretch out the muscle but it’s somewhere I can’t reach
I made an attempt to sleep
(Cramps in my knees)

I made it home I’m rotting at my desk
I can’t imagine what’s next
I start to get depressed 
Anxiety, my chest
I set too high expectations at least I try my best
I’m set on creating something that outlives all the rest
Maybe that’s why I’m stressed
I’m spending hours just scrolling instead of getting rest
I can’t put off my quest
In a space of decay
I pace around in this cave
no ideas in motion I think the cycle’s to blame 

When I can’t start my tasks
I feel so fucking useless
I used to wake up, get at it
I’m spending hours in traffic 
Most days I get so annoyed
Wish I could live life with joy

turned your location off and on, I hope it’s a glitch
That kept me up all night, I couldn’t fight the itch 
I asked you what’s the problem
Then you made a list
I took my solemn oath
To no longer reminisce

I’m rotting at my desk
I can’t imagine what’s next
I start to get depressed 
Anxiety, my chest
I set too high expectations at least I try my best
I’m set on creating something that outlives all the rest
Maybe that’s why I’m stressed
I’m spending hours just scrolling instead of getting rest
I can’t put off my quest
In a space of decay
I pace around in this cave
no ideas in motion I think the cycle’s to blame

quest

promise i'm not mad at you
but when you ask me if i'm happy my new path is skewed
intuition turns to forced reaction, so how could that be true?
and if you really wanna break it down i'm only

but i thought i wanted in
it gets me angry when i can't enjoy my time with this
but the panic closes in
i'm staring at my phone at the table, why can't i hold it in?
i'm so much more than this
i'm so much

i've been stuck in this cycle
everyday i feel trapped
i've been stuck in this cycle
everyday i feel trapped
the world had took it all away from me and won't give it back
i went and sharpened every tool i had, but wonder what lacks

sometimes i wish this shit was do or die cause i can't relax
but it's not like that
i wanna do this shit forever, but i can't hope for that
i wanna do this shit forever, i'm tryna cope with that

i put this off another day til' it became a week
i choose to scoff, inside i'm pained, inside i still feel weak
it's nine o clock, my speech is off, my bedroom walls still creak
my aim is off, my anger caused by such a minor tweak

i got so fucking frustrated i had to go to sleep
some days i wish i could spare myself from this hopeless feeling
like fuck my jaded heart
maybe there's no hope in healing
then i feel it in my gut
the tension between us

i think i'm smoking too much
or maybe just not enough
either way i'm tired as fuck
cause i can't lay down in your arms

cause i'm so overstimulated
i keep on pushing, i'm stuck
maybe it's just not enough
maybe it's only because

i've been stuck in this cycle
everyday i feel trapped
i've been stuck in this cycle
everyday i feel trapped
the world had took it all away from me and won't give it back
i went and sharpened every tool i had, but wonder what lacks

trapped

reliance

ache

snow [prod. cutspace]

every light's fate

ballerina [16kibo + leslii]

Sħiverr (Prod. Prodsewz)

No More New Friends!

http://therapy.rip

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