(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

soul partner

produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(halfhearted)
said i wouldn’t trip 
but i miss the way it felt when we kissed and our lips touched
don’t know how you live, just admit that i’m too much
since i was a kid, hear em saying i’m a no one
i wasn't one for the games
or making a song for the fame
hop in the whip switching lanes
burden still up in my brain, break all the chains
sick of the faces around
wake up and i’m drowning
when rain hits the ground, i can’t help but feel clouded

(kiddamo)
take my sweater cuz outside is freezing
i can’t live with the thought of you leaving
but if you want you can go
i got used to the cold
i miss the conversations that we used to have on the phone
if i could rewind
re-rewind to the start
watching as the fireworks combine with all the stars
i spent my whole life wondering like “where you are”
stay where you are

(brecken)
and i been grounded, but when it rains i still think about you
still hear the sirens whenever i do sum’ i shouldn't do
yeah well that's how it goes
lying to people you love and you know it
yea all of it shows
they can see what you doing in the moment
losing my focus
i'm feeling broken
thinkin’ bout chili’s
that would be so lit
all of my homies
eatin’ tortilla chips
chips full of spinach dip
just give me a tub of it

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

(lil booj)
hey there can you pick me up 
i’m in the lost and found again 
i’ve got my only friend right beside me 
the thread i keep it tight 
i keep it on the mend 
i try to keep us safe and then you stop me 
tell me you’re sad about maybe we’re crashing out, i know 
nothing we talk about goes anywhere because i know 
sediment building up, everyone doubting me, oh no!
are you proud of what you see, now you feel it so?

(yungcray)
paranoia when i step outside 
i’m feeling like this all the time 
got no time, need to find my coat
i hope my gloves are still inside
ice heart, i know I’m cold 
yea this shit’s getting borderline
tell me that there’s more to life 
i can’t feel myself, but i’m the reason that i live like this 
gas up from the shelf, i roll it up and we don’t think a thing
i been in this maze, god this shit gon’ drive me crazy 
i been feeling different lately

(vails)
they tell me look for signs
might be written in the stars
even though they’ve realigned
i still feel like i am far away from an answer
oh i wish i had the answers
now it’s eleven fifty three
still been caught up on IG
scrolling past old memories 
of us by the tapestry in my old home
where we should of left it all alone

(notahero)
pull the cameras out
it’s been a while since i smiled
i wanna jot it down
and try to make up for the times that you’re not around
banging my windows, flickering lights
i’m being haunted by the ghost of things that i don’t like to talk about
my heart kept in a fortress but inside it’s breaking down
if i said it, then i meant it
you’d understand if you’d just hear me out
i can’t hear you my thoughts way too loud
smoking loud

cameras out! (cypher) w/ notahero, halfhearted, kiddamo, brecken, lil booj, yungcray, & vails

lyrics

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

youre tryna build me up but
i love just breaking down
i live with my head in the clouds
i need you to pull me down when youre around
ill reveal the scars on my back
im so fucked up my heads gonna explode
and maybe im okay with that
its about time ive had some relief from the plight that was bestowed upon me
for the past few months i dont even feel like me
im tryna burn the bridges ive been getting third degrees
i think im cursed or maybe i just got a new disease
either way i hope and pray that youll still stay with me
keep my hopes up, but my eyes low
and ill try to call you on the iphone but youre never picking up

youre never picking up
like this time is it really done
im still just leaking all my blood
i guess im used to all the cuts
i could never lie to you
everyday i wake up just to try for you
seems like nothing i say is getting through to you
swear to God that ill wait till i break for you
my love dont answer when im calling
i put too much on it often
please just listen when im talking
in my dreams i see us
falling down
i dont know who the hell is gonna try to save me now
oh what id do for one more night
God, what id do for one more time

save me from this hole that im dug in
walls smother, open up the curtains
dont treat me, im unimportant
take me down to the garden
leaves dry, ambers in my veins
and time becomes so complicated
it makes me cry
id love just one more try

amber w/ skele (p. acey)

allamericanwendigofreestyle (p. Pandemxnium)

yeah we never did it right
try to switch sides but its too late
take the rib out my side
every waking thought feels insane 
but i know thay im alive
been tryna find comfort in this pain
but boy its been a ride
saw that look up on ur face ur gone tonight

when a star collides
or an angel gets its wings
when the night sky’s
reflecting on to me
it’s like i couldn’t help it
you smile while you say im selfish
my bad that you couldn’t tell
when i tried to yell
i was busy breathless

we can waste time
thinking bout the past 
but im offline
since you made my heart black
and i gave my phone a crack

in the front seat of a new car
felt u cut me, got a new scar
aint it lovely when you’re so far?
family found me in the front yard 

been ashamed of the man that i was 
been off of the gram, cuz its only fake love
i came to conclusion im stuck in a rut
but im stronger than this so im not giving up

when a star collides
or an angel gets its wings
when the night sky’s
reflecting on to me
like i couodnt help it
you smile while you say im selfish
my bad that u couldn’t tell
when i tried to yell
i was busy breathless

breathless [under the maple tree]

lyrics

all my guys in different cities but im local
she rolled up the blunt but then we smoked two
she swear im a king but baby im a fool
yea i know i act a fool im scared i broke you
she tried breaking down my walls but she forgot about the moat
damn i came a long way since "white coat"
i dont have a purpose baby tell me what im here for
i put on my burberry glasses and i see more
im tryna make a song like im seymour

and they don’t know bout seymour
i feel trapped inside my room i wanna leave more
i’m drunk inside this bed im sinking to the sea floor
and every time i try i blow it like a c4
all or nothing just give me something 
to hold on to cuz i’ve got nothing else
and i got nobody else
those times i told u how i felt
all or nothing just give me something 
to hold on to cuz i’ve got nothing else
and i got nobody else
those times i told u how i felt

all my guys in different cities but im local
she rolled up the blunt but then we smoked two
she swear im a king but baby im a fool
yea i know i act a fool im scared i broke you
she tried breaking down my walls but she forgot about the moat
damn i came a long way since "white coat"
i dont have a purpose baby tell me what im here for
i put on my burberry glasses and i see more
im tryna make a song like im seymour

notahero x kiddamo - local (p. cl6udy x deadspyro)

produced by cxrter & cl6udy
mixed & mastered by backyard beetle
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
seeing faces all around me
i’m just coping in the backseat
bright stars, yeah they gleamin’
tweakin’, i just lost another weekend
everybody living like it’s so easy
then switch up on me saying i don’t got a reason
same coat, four seasons
october my reality, yeah you know i’m breezin’
let me know if i’m a burden
i don’t belong, yeah i’m certain
watching skies fade blue
am i inferior to you?

seven days and i can’t get rest
five calls, now my phone’s dead
trying the best i can
and you can’t understand
why i’m inferior to you
ponder all of my setbacks
i’m a needle in a haystack
trying the best i can
and you can’t understand
why i’m inferior to you

talking like nobody even knows me
yeah i know that you’ll forget me in the nosebleeds
rhinestone on my ribcage
all this pressure, i’m a lightweight

seven days and i can’t get rest
five calls, now my phone’s dead
trying the best i can
and you can’t understand
why i’m inferior to you
ponder all of my setbacks
i’m a needle in a haystack
trying the best i can
and you can’t understand
why i’m inferior to you

same coat, four seasons (prod. cxrter x cl6udy)

lyrics

stuck in a station 
5 minutes late but i told u i made it
deep in the mix, deep in the swamp
drink on the job, yeah i'm lit while i'm painting

i think it's getting too easy for u 
i'll go on airplane (mode) just to conform with the norm (toxic)
i can't connect all the dots in the moshpit
but baby i love it

u say i'm off
baby i'm just in that transition phase where you move through the mountains
i'm hopping i'm bouncing
i'm on this beat like a wave
i'm surrounded, by this darkness

replenish my soul, close my eyes and i spark it 
i'm feeling lifted but really i'm grounded
where's the fountain?
bags under eyes like i'm down in the dumps

really it's hard just to rid all these bumps
aged twice as fast now with what i've become

i think you're missing the point
i've got my lips wrapped around this ol' joint
walking around with these old joints
flicking my fingers with old coins

maybe you're missing the point exactly
all of my truth is foggy and ashy
show my beliefs in the worst way
i've got an-

i've got an ear for the darkest guitar
i see the words when i poke at my heart
i need to ask more questions, make less statements
i know it's sounding bizarre

figure i should do it then say it 
i've gotta make this less complicated for u
leave u on seen for a day then i call u
picking the pieces like a machine

let me come clean to you baby
i've got these doubts all stuck in my head
i was a teen slow dripping to death
so is what i'm doing a myth

missing, i'm missing (you)
the distance is killing (me)
but i'll be ok i'm a man on a mission
this pains on my hit list

maybe it won't go, maybe it won't go
but ion need to wish it 
baby the systems in place like a prison
i keep the bad thoughts away from the vision

what for?

what for? (secre x caves)

No Sympathy.mp3

therapy-sessions 5.mp3

producer 🎸 | token emo | 🖤🩶🤍💜 | 21 |
💿credits: @sewerperson @itsyungvan @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell