self produced

lyrics

just forget u ever knew me and that
all the memories i hold so fondly
never happened and that im not lonely
just forget u ever knew me

think im doing fine im over it ig
coughing up my lungs is the way i deal with stress
sorry that i vented had to get it off my chest
its been an awful while and im tryna do my best
theres sadness in the subtleties
they make it more profound
like the mound of dirty laundry and the garbage on the ground
no overwhelming darkness and no aggravating sounds
just the fact im always tired and the fact ur not around

oh so overwhelmed when the switch inside me flipped
i was breaking down so i went and lost my shit
it left me feeling drained, i wanna call it quits
im sick of being angry and im sick of all my shit

ive given up on love
ive given up on trust
ive given up on truth
ive given up on u

give.

i’ve been going insane
worrying about you everyday
and i’m not sure if i can continue 
the struggle in my brain has become an issue
and how do i know that you’re telling the truth this time
the-the-the consequences of your untold lies
will lead me to my direct demise 
will you still feel for me when i die?
cause i won’t be the one that you forget 
yeah you’ll regret
leaving me alone 
broken down on the ground
alone and forgotten 
dead and rotting 

(AUTUMN)

dead and rotting, my blood is clotting i'll
lay in a bed with a similar scent 
to the ones that are pinching my tongue
weight on my lungs
fat in my veins
begging the sun, to go away
what does he want? keep me awake 

i gotta answer questions time's creating
cold cause i'm dissociating fast

(2x)
the smoke and ash is all i need
life is fast, so leave me be

untold lies w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

blink your eyes and it's here

with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

enjoy. <3

lyrics:
out of time 
hear the buzzer sound 
guess i’m out of lifelines 
so i say burn it 

burn it down
no turnaround 
you ruined me 
it’s over now 
tried to see it, the impending threat you burrowed in my head 
had a feeling this was ending that’s exactly how it went 
so finish up the conversation 
i’ll mark the final destination 
cuz i’m not coming 
swear i’m never coming back

i’m losing touch in heat of doubt
the weight of us just brings me down
no longer stable, iron out
all u find ugly
moreover, i can’t bear to shout
my own requirements aloud
i’d rather die than figure out
what makes me ugly

out of time 
with no second chance 
feel my fate unearthed 
so i want this one to hurt 

burn it down
no turnaround 
you ruined me 
it’s over now 
tried to see it, the impending threat you burrowed in my head 
had a feeling this was ending that’s exactly how it went 
so finish up the conversation 
i’ll mark the final destination 
cuz i’m not coming 
swear i’m never coming back

spotify & apple!

burn it down w/ evan carr [immortal]

guitar by rjpasin
prod by me

open up your mind a little
see my bones r brittle
so im unfixable 
others tried
they just let go

how do i love 
when im broken
tell the same thing
im fading
that me you know
is gone now
how do i explain it 
told u everything i knew
you dont understand at all
i give you everything i had
everything i had

how do i explain this feeling
i dont know how to feel no more

open up your mind a little
see my bones r brittle
so im unfixable 
others tried
they just let go

open up your mind a little
see my bones r brittle
so im unfixable 
others tried
they just let go


they say you reap what you sow
i did so much for you and you know
im in too deep
buried in the snow
drowning in my sorrows
a pit of self loath
im shaking 
i cant stop myself
im breaking
i need your help
soul taken
im in hell
my own personal hell

personal hell

produced by cxrter & mackk
📸: hannah elkins

lyrics:
(mackk)
tell me now is this what you wanted
leaving it all behind 
couldn't ever see it before now 
i know
wanna try letting my guard down
whatever it takes
you know I'd give up my life
if you say so 

want you to be happy 
cause believe me that's what I want to
but time moves on & so do people you love
i know you had to 
come in & turn off the light now
this time just do not feel right now
consequence lead me to bleed so
this ain't that something we need no

tell me now is this what you wanted
leaving it all behind 
couldn't ever see it before now 
i know
wanna try letting my guard down
whatever it takes
you know I'd give up my life
if you say so 

(notahero)
i already dealt with too much bullshit 
don’t get me started
if i pull up and there’s nothing to drink then hero’s departed
in the back and i’m carsick
don’t speak to me i’m nauseous
i’m not toxic i’m honest
i’m not stupid it’s just that i’m modest
i will not save u i’m notahero
pulled up 4 deep singing limbo
lately i’ve been losing my mind
i’m just tryna do what’s right
i would give u my life
i would give u my heart if i had one
catch me in the photo in the background
i’m off the walls n i’m never finna come down
imma see u this sunday hit u like touchdown
and she warm like summer
eyes like sundown
all she wanna do is see me blow on soundcloud
and that’s all i could ask for
just open the back door
i keep ashing it cuz i’m nervous there’s nothing left on this cigarette
i’m tryna find my purpose

aurora (cxrter x mackk)

WAYAHEAD feat. halfhearted (prod. maysmusic)

Lavender - by Vails, The Sound Clown, Cl6udy

Voiceover anime from Howl’s Moving Castle 

Master: The Sound Clown 

(Lyrics)
Would it hurt you to call me, I’m not doing to well
I find myself in the fields Of lavender for the smell
holding on to reminders, keep me losing my self 
Is it too much to ask, im stuck hiding in my shell 

why was i attracted to ur natural scent
Have to vent 
I always wondered what it subliminally meant 
Uh
Pass these roses, let me lay my bed 
I’m hurt inside, yeah this pains intense 
I see so many changes happening around me
Like faces fade, and I see u smiling 
Your trapped inside , my mind is foggy
I’m losing trust, that this hurt is really  residing

U gave me the seed of hope
So why am I afraid to plant it 
Now I’m struggling to cope
You leaving wasn’t how I planned it
I remeber scents u gave off 
now I’m questioning the reason
left me blind, without a map
I’m changing moods like I’m the seasons 

Would it hurt you to call me, I’m not doing to well
I find myself in the fields Of lavender for the smell
holding on to reminders, keep me losing my self 
Is it too much to ask, im stuck hiding in my shell

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Lavender

shit from my heart [eezie]

Compilation of unreleased music from 2024-2025

Deposit

I Wish You Were Here

push me to the side 
i’ll wait right here 
love it left me blind
i cannot see her 
how could i miss
she’s the only thing that keeps me here 
just leave me in the ditch 
cus ur the only thing i fear 

& one day baby gonna call u my wife
hit the breaks hard close our eyes we might die
cus i just wanted to be all yours 
head in the sound i’ll never feel enough
all i ever wanted to be was ur love 

i’ve never wanted to be anything more 
x3

thank you for everything.

honey

honey (nevermadeithome)

producer 🎸 | token emo | 🖤🩶🤍💜 | 21 |
💿credits: @sewerperson @itsyungvan @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell