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APRIL 2024

sleep #2

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w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

prod @youngburial

LYRICS
i just lost myself
inside a moment
for a moment
let's be honest

i just found
an ancient
polaroid of us
inside my broken wallet

i have found
forgiveness and
the past no longer
haunts me every moment

i just hope that you
have found your peace
because I know
that you deserve it

i reminisce
hope that-
hope that
i can find it
i reminisce
you were so-
you were so-
you were so perfect

i just found myself
in mixing medicines
i'm sleep deprived
and nauseous

i just found
a glimmer of
my sanity inside
a broken promise

i have found
forgiveness and
the things you did
in retrospect are harmless
i just hope that you
have found your peace
because I know
that you deserve it

reminisce

One Thing At A Time

Good Girl Gone Missin’

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

shivers w/ notahero [prod. artemys]

-DespairInToAshes-

completely non profit

Mastered by ztope


https://on.soundcloud.com/rgfJXSvvKTWbXqou7

the epilogue w/notahero

How I Taste

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

fight this feeling. (feat. notahero) (prod. jolst x shxde)

Switch Up

This one is extremely personal for me. Enjoy.

Stream on Spotify!

that’s about all (prod. Fantom)

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up digits hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (feat. notahero)

Mo0dy B!tch

U Decide

ENERGY

Yung Trip - Lie Again (OFFICIAL AUDIO)

taking pictures of the sunset (prod. cløud)

i know you hate when i smoke

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

tether (ft. greenwood) [triple gemini]

spotify & apple <3

Produced, Written, and Recorded by Foreign Forest
Featuring @magicmoonish

Lyrics:

[Foreign Forest]
I knew the moment we locked eyes
I want to stand by your side
Someone like you is hard to find
So can I have your heart?
I'll give you mine

[Moonish]
Right past the stars and sky
To the moon and back
Through the looking glass
How you see through me
But after all this time
My heart was buried deep
Watered with starry eyes
Love like you've never seen

[Foreign Forest]
I'd by lying if I said that you weren't on my mind
I wish that I could hold your hand in mine
Until the end of time
I'd die if I ever lost you 'cause you're my life
I wish you knew just how much love is blind
You're always there when I close my eyes
When I close my eyes

[Foreign Forest & Moonish]
I'd by lying if I said that you weren't on my mind
I wish that I could hold your hand in mine
Until the end of time

Love Is Blind (feat. Moonish)

produced by cxrter & mackk
📸: hannah elkins

lyrics:
(mackk)
tell me now is this what you wanted
leaving it all behind 
couldn't ever see it before now 
i know
wanna try letting my guard down
whatever it takes
you know I'd give up my life
if you say so 

want you to be happy 
cause believe me that's what I want to
but time moves on & so do people you love
i know you had to 
come in & turn off the light now
this time just do not feel right now
consequence lead me to bleed so
this ain't that something we need no

tell me now is this what you wanted
leaving it all behind 
couldn't ever see it before now 
i know
wanna try letting my guard down
whatever it takes
you know I'd give up my life
if you say so 

(notahero)
i already dealt with too much bullshit 
don’t get me started
if i pull up and there’s nothing to drink then hero’s departed
in the back and i’m carsick
don’t speak to me i’m nauseous
i’m not toxic i’m honest
i’m not stupid it’s just that i’m modest
i will not save u i’m notahero
pulled up 4 deep singing limbo
lately i’ve been losing my mind
i’m just tryna do what’s right
i would give u my life
i would give u my heart if i had one
catch me in the photo in the background
i’m off the walls n i’m never finna come down
imma see u this sunday hit u like touchdown
and she warm like summer
eyes like sundown
all she wanna do is see me blow on soundcloud
and that’s all i could ask for
just open the back door
i keep ashing it cuz i’m nervous there’s nothing left on this cigarette
i’m tryna find my purpose

aurora (cxrter x mackk)

Verse 1
Does heaven have wifi
I'm trying to call
Wanna come see you
But gates are 2 tall
Your hug was a drug
Now I know the withdraw
These pictures don't help
They’re just eating me raw
Are you an angel? 
Do you have cable? 
I wanna connect 
But I guess you’re not able
I wish you were
But the illness was fatal
A hole in my heart
Now it look like a bagel
I graduated but you didn’t see
And I’ll never know
It’s not a mystery 
I’m imaginating all our history
And hoping you will know all
That you meant to me, yeah
I miss your faces
I miss days when 
We would hang out 
But death had to take it
My heart has been aching
I see it all breaking
I hope you’ll come back
But I know you won't make it

Verse 2
This is hard for me
Honestly 
Got a missing part
Where my heart should be
I didn’t love you enough 
cuz I was too young
I didn’t take in all the art to see, yeah
Tell me now
What do you do?
Are you in heaven?
Is everything new?
I’m reading my Bible
And learning the truth
Hoping that I can come 
Be with you too 
Do you pray for me?
can you stay with me?
Are they games up there?
Will play with me? 
Maybe I wont ever 
Get to see you again
But if we’re friends
Will you wait for me? 
Do you talk to the angels at all?
Does God have a phone?
Does He ever call? 
I hear Him sometimes
A voice through my wall
Please know that I love you
And don’t ever fall

listen on spotify!

can't wait ft. powfu (prod. movye)

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

producer 🎸 | token emo | 🖤🩶🤍💜 | 21 |
💿credits: @sewerperson @itsyungvan @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell