what do you see?

i dont know how to feel

a song about my amazing girlfriend - she broke up with me after 14 months and I want to kill myself

you're the best.
you're pretty in that dress,
it's like you must be blessed.
i love you,
i'm glad you love me too.
you are my favourite thing to view.

you must be blessed

this is my new favourite song

lyrics:

i've got words on my mind that i'm too scared to speak
and a burden that's grown these last couple of weeks
but i'm too scared to tell you what's been on my mind
'cause it's you that's been crossing it from time to time

you're the only structure that's keeping me up
you're my bones, take my heart, break my ribcage apart
'cause i'm already broken, these last couple years
have torn me and i have shed blood, i've shed tears

i've shed my old skin, i've grown something quite rough
i've grown something that shields from what people call love
and i know that you've grown this rough skin like me too
'cause i've seen you shed blood and shed tears crystal blue

i've got words on my mind that i'm too scared to speak
and a burden that's grown these last couple of weeks
but i'm too scared to tell you what's been on my mind
'cause it's you that's been crossing it all of the time

you're the only structure that's keeping me up
you're my bones, take my heart, break my ribcage apart
'cause i'm already broken, these last couple years
have torn me and i have shed blood, i've shed tears now

shed

structure - odd sweetheart (cover)

the vocals are really out of tune, i can't fix it without deleting and re uploading the song, so you have to cope 

is this even me?
it’s not what i want to be.
six, repeated three,
cursed, so my mind’s atrophying.

voice (blackhearted)’s,
not departed -
in my mind;
- can’t be discarded.
“end your life”
the voice demanded;
since i’ve not,
i’m reprimanded.
voice (blackhearted)’s,
not departed -
in my mind;
- can’t be discarded.
“end your life”
the voice demanded;
since i’ve not,
i’m reprimanded.

bloodlust, overwhelmed;
i’m starting to feel compelled.
cruor to be beheld.
brume, conceal the felled.

voice (blackhearted)’s,
not departed -
in my mind;
- can’t be discarded.
“end your life”
the voice demanded;
since i’ve not,
i’m reprimanded.
voice (blackhearted)’s,
not departed -
in my mind;
- can’t be discarded.
“end your life”
the voice demanded;
since i’ve not,
i’m reprimanded.

blackheartedly

the world wants me dead.
my mouth bleeds air.
life is killing me -
thank god, i hate this.

the world wants me dead

i’m done trying,
shes a fucking whore.
ruining me evermore,
soon there will be gore.
she’s still lying,
leeching evermore.
my head feels sore,
soon there will be gore.
this stress is so undue,
i wish i could undo,
till to speak is new,
and to her so askew.
now it’s too late,
for suicide she’s bait.
evermore hate,
worst person to date.

shut up and stop existing

since more recent times, to all but you, my thinking is blind.
you, you are my light; erase the blights; prevent the plights.

erase the blights, prevent the plights

heartbroke,
crestfell,
rest well,
see you in hell

see you in hell

see you in hell (demo)

0
-7.77

heartbroke, crestfell,
rest well, see you in hell.
i love smoking weed,
i love weed and my friend.

hate plus hate inbetween,
love’s nowhere to be seen.
don’t flinch, it’s just me;
angry, bloodlust has me.

fine for a while.
watch it punch me
right in the face.
fuck everything.

-6.5

iridescent, evanscent,
transitory, and candescent;
pride and glory, tells its story,
rubescent in its own vainglory.
whilst i lay here, all quiescent,
in the night sky’s quiet essence,
my eyes are the observatory,
damnatory, derogratory.
iridescent, evanscent,
transitory, and candescent;
pride and glory, tells its story,
rubescent in its own vainglory.
whilst i lay here, all quiescent,
in the night sky’s quiet essence,
my eyes are the observatory,
damnatory, derogratory.

iridescent, evanescent

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