something for myself and my life, but enjoy :)

this is a song about butter and dairy products in general


i don't butter up
i don't lie
i just tell it like it is all the time
i don't butter up
i don't lie
i've never told a lie in my life

fuck your friends
they don't want to hear what i'm 'bout to say to you
come here ill give a clue
they'll be laughing up
they'll say get a room so we'll go and get a room
already it planned it
and i'm off a pill
when you whisper in my ear it's like asm
are you with it too?
you say that you are
well baby that's pretty fucking good for me
and that's great for you

i don't butter up
i don't lie
i'm the most fucking perfect guy
i don't butter up
i don't lie
i've never told a lie in my life
i don't butter up
i don't lie
i just tell it like it is all the time
i don't butter up
i don't lie
know you wanna catch me out, you can try

you can try
you can try

butter

you'll never get in.
-

i bet it looks good from the outside, yeah?
i just make it look like you want it to
now shut the fuck up, be a good boy, yeah?
and break all my bones to the shape of you

am i even living out my own life?
am i even doing what i want to do?
am i just walking inside the lines?
the same ones as you?
i see someone i want to be
all of those smiles look good on you
is anyone really that happy?
i’m not really asking, let me through

they make it look good from the outside, yeah
i’m begging you please just let me in
i’ll do anything, be a good boy, yeah
i’ll do anything to make me you

good boy

do you mean it?
-

yeah i guess i’ll see you
later
i already told you that i’d wait up
you can skip the hair and the makeup
you know my location it’s the same that it’s been
so i guess i’ll see you
later
yeah i know it’s late but you want to
yeah i know i’m slurring and i’m on one
you can come through when the sun’s gone yeah i guess i’ll see you
later

girl i put in mileage my whip paid up
dropped out of college, you’ll be my major
and my whole grade participation
guess i need to see you
later
whole lotta nights we need to make up
phone camera on with your waist up
i want the whole thing, do you get the picture?

omega on the wrist like i’m double o
i like my cup shaken with a double pour
she ask “what it cost” she don’t gotta know
if she ask again then it cost 10 now you know
really it was 5 but it appreciated though
work you like a 9-5 and i’m giving raises 
put you on a 401 if that’s okay with you
you can clock in clock out severance package you can pack it up

see you
later
i already told you that i’d wait up
you can skip the hair and the makeup 
you know my location it’s the same that it’s been
so i guess i’ll see you
later
yeah i know it’s late but you want to
yeah i know i’m slurring and i’m on one
you can come through when the sun’s gone yeah i guess i’ll see you
later

laid up with the pay yeah
don’t like what i say, yeah?
take back what i say yeah
yeah i got to see you
later
been a while, but i’ll wait up
been a while, but i’ll stay up
now you like what i’m saying

i’m like lewis hamilton with the pole
but you can come in first when we go
i don’t do the champagne subbin' in the dope
i won’t do a damn thing you can do it all
you want something fancy, you want something gold
tossing off the platinum go and run it up
you say “let's get real” you want something more
that’s a little more than i want to afford

so i guess i’ll see you
later
i know that i told you that i’d wait up
you can skip the hair and the makeup 
you know my location is different than what it was
so i guess i’ll see you
later
yeah i know it’s late and you want to
yeah i know i’m slurring and i’m on one
you can come through in a couple months
yeah i guess i’ll see you


leds on your skin
and the rooms burning up
this is why i wanted you
this is why i wanted you
this is why i wanted you
this is why i wanted you

later

you're overreacting now.
-

shut down, wait for silence 
wide eyes stare in blindly
it’s all in your mind
deep breath won’t solve my problem
phone ring, wait for silence
white knuckle throat throbbing
it’s all in your mind
can’t you just, like, stop it?

if you want
if you want to make it stop?
i’m wearing costumes all the time
it’s a monsoon in a drought 
forgot how to talk, how to smile
forgot how to walk for a while
walls are closing in on all sides
there’s no getting in, getting out

“if you want to make it stop
it’s all a fake, drama
take a deep breath, get calm
if you want to make it stop
it’s all a fake, drama
take a deep breath, get calm”

shut down, wait for silence 
wide eyes stare in blindly
it’s all in your mind
deep breath won’t solve my problem
phone ring, wait for silence
white knuckle throat throbbing
it’s all in your mind
can’t you just, like, stop it?

it’s all
it’s all in your mind
can’t you just, like, stop it?
it’s all
it’s all in your mind
can’t you just, like, stop it?
it’s all
it’s all in your mind
can’t you just, like, stop it?
it’s all
can’t you just, like, stop it?

breathe

and im too gone to know if im okay

so close my eyes and keep my mind opaque 
you like my smile, i love to look away
and some will come, all will go away
and the sun will come, i'll just go away

what i don't
is all i want

opaque

and sometimes you'll go away
and sometimes i want you back
but does he know where you're laying
and does he know who i am

i don't want to know

you feel so wanted
fuck him for confidence 
i'll take all that you have
you cost me nothing
i know what you sold
i'll still take you home
bent until you fold
and i'll eat you whole

and sometimes you'll go away
and sometimes i'll want you back
and does he know where you lay
and does he know who i am

i just need to know

and there's somethings meant to fade
so i'll go now

i'll go now

it comes from your head
same time, same place, you know
rewrite and start again
if i want to you'll know, you'll know

this won't fall off the page love
it's been written and played up
but i felt all that you say
i felt all that you say
it all comes to the surface
i swim under for safety
i choked on fire when i came up
i choked on fire when i came up

it's nice to pretend
jump right off your mind
all this foe or friend
tell me one more time
what's there left to hide

this won't fall off the page love
it's been written and played up
but i felt all that you say
i felt all that you say
it all comes to the surface
i swim under for safety
i choked on fire when i came up
i choked on fire when i came up

storytelling

aftertheparty ~ 5.30 (Unreleased, Snippet)

Change My Wayz

a song for a girl


my body shakes
my place, your place
it's your choice, your face
your skin, your hair
it's all over me
over me
and i finally found somewhere to be
and you act surprised when i said that thing

i guess you felt a little surrounded
i guess you felt a little surrounded
i guess you felt a little surrounded
i guess you felt a little surrounded

and the ocean talks, the waves you breathe
and the currents strong, swept away from me
and i finally found some land at sea
but i swam away to you in the deep
and i want your face, your skin, your hair all over me
over me
and i finally found you underneath
and you pull me in until i start to breathe

i guess i feel a little surrounded
finally feel a little surrounded
i guess i feel a little surrounded
finally feel a little surrounded

surrounded (2021)

i felt it all
nowhere to go now
i felt it all

new wrist on like that
new house bought like that
brand new whip like that
no brake bitch all gas
my girl need that bag
on my debit like that
on my credit like that
on my life like

i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need it all yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need one more, yeah, i just

so i
hold on until i get bored
i want you waiting up
i want you waiting for
so i
hold on until i get bored
i want you waiting for
i want you waiting for

push through the pain
peel through the past
cortisol pump
running through a pack
running through a check
running through a bag
i can feel the difference in you when you act
i can feel the distance when you're coming back
i can feel the tension picking up the slack
i wanna get high, i wanna get fucked
i wanted this but now i want that
i wanted you close and now i'm alone
pushing away the people who stayed
the people who cared, the people who made me
taking the difference and counting down lately
it's pretty easy when you've been sedated
it's pretty easy when you've been sedated

new wrist on like that
new house bought like that
brand new whip like that
no brake bitch all gas
my girl need that bag
on my debit like that
on my credit like that
on my life like

i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need it all yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need one more, yeah, that's just how it goes
i just need it all yeah, that's just how it goes

nowhere to go
nowhere to go

everything

I’ve made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgment, and I don’t expect to be forgiven. Recently on my new song “Bones” streaming on SoundCloud© I partnered with Blade: Shadow Legends© to include an advertisement in the middle of the song  for their new expansion “Kingdom of Oodath©”. I also included that if you used my code “ATP” you get a free epic champion© as part of the new player program©.

I now realize this was wrong of me to do.

While I still love Blade: Shadow Legends© and play it whenever I’m not making music, I know that I should have expressed that in a way that wasn’t intrusive to the listeners' experience. 

I have posted the song ad free as of right now. I hope you can forgive me, but I don’t expect to be forgiven, because of my severe and continuous lapse of judgment. I’m sorry.

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put that on my bones
put that on my life
put that on my bones
waist got that dual tone
get that shit to go
put that on my bones
get that shit to go
bend up with the wrist yeah i just whip my own
rolling like a stone
sippin styrofoam
jaw lock like i'm holmes
you know what the deal been
i gotta get it more
always get in more

kickin up with my bitch bad bitch you know she go
kickin up with my bitch bad bitch shes on the pole
throw a couple bills like that like that yeah
crush a couple pills like that like that yeah
going all the way down the four
jumpin up on my baby dont think just pour
i might just slide, i'mma just get you the bone
i might just ride, i'mma just get you the bone

put that on my bones
put that on my life
put that on my bones
waist got that dual tone
get that shit to go
put that on my bones
get that shit to go
bend up with the wrist yeah i just whip my own
rolling like a stone
sippin styrofoam
jaw lock like i'm holmes
you know what the deal been
i gotta get it more
always get in more

baby don't think just pour
baby don't think just pour

bones

......................................excuseme

"You should get a desk job
You should take some courses then you'll learn
Everything you didn't know
Then you can slow down what you burn
So fast
Too warm
Too fast
My God
So fast
You'll burn so fast"

throwaway/desk job

https://open.spotify.com/track/337H7R2AWIlI9s7M4ugelQ?si=Hw144VyOTiyi8xWOQvyjOQ

was very crazy when i made this

art by @rhodiumnights on twitter

IRIS

@whereisnomu very lovely song
kind of a cover of @limeboiler small version
prod @limeboiler
lol 
<3

nomu - dress (limeboiler)

don't own, all rights go to atp

https://soundcloud.com/afterthepartyatp

Aftertheparty - Ive Been Playing Clue With Your Girl And I Won (Throwaway)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wjaCJyjlyvM

wells + 8485 - weathered (tmorave) [video in description]

counting the grooves in my palms
the still in the air
the bother we knew
it's gone
it's so far gone
forget your name
it's not who you are

bother

you can say you got some more
girl that's not enough for me
and mine
oh me
and my
i can see
hit the lot (hear you lie)
whats your fee?
no that's not enough for me
and my
oh me
and my

haven't gotten your fill yet?
no i haven't gotten my fill yet,
abdul blockin uptake, take off if you gonna be upset
don't think i'm gonna forget, get four if you wanna come back
old names with the chit chat, honestly, i don't need to know that
hey man what you pullin in lately, i don't even know that
i say what it is, where it's from, what's the fee what's the kick back
i'mma keep some options open turn 2 to 20 while i kickback

haven't gotten your fill yet?
fuck around you can come and see
dhl my drugs overseas
whatever in my cup make me freeze
digging through your bag for your keys
fuck that just get back on me
and ride
and lead
oh my

you can say you got some more
girl thats not enough for me
and mine
oh me
and my
i don't see
hit the lot (hear you lie)
whats your fee?
girl that's not enough for me
and my
oh me
and my


you can say you got some more

me.my

Dont let them get to your heart, keep staring at the light and keep reaching for it. You’ll get there <3

something for myself and my life, but enjoy :)

Raylo