Written by: Reapers Shadow 
Produced by: Idealism 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow 
Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Been so long since I saw you
I don't know how you are?
Or what's going on but
I wanna let you know I miss you
& I hope you're doing alright 

[Chorus]
Too much bullshit in my head 
Everyday I'm closer to the edge 
One more step then I'm off the ledge 
Just wanna lay in my bed 

[Verse]
I'm just a shadow that feels dead 
But still I know 
there's always a light 
In every Shadow
Wish I could get away 
To a meadow
Cause my thoughts are 
Suffocating me

[Bridge]
Everyday I live 
A worthless existence 
But I still go on 
To do my best 
(Got way too many plans)

[Verse 2]
Moving to another planet 
I know you haven't planned this
Why can't you move away 
To another day
I hate this place
Why can't it be somewhere else 
Other than in my head 

[Chorus]
Too much bullshit in my head
(I don't know man, It feels like) 
Every fucking day I'm closer to the edge
(I'm suffocating every fucking day 
& I don't know what the fuck to do) 
One more step then I'm off the ledge
(But for now, I'll just have to do what I can to deal with it)

One More Step (Prod. Idealism)

All Platforms - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/vil13/existentialist-feat-heylog-2
Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog)

guitar by me

lyrics:
all the letters that i wrote
all the feelings i have shown
was no where near
to convince my fear
that maybe one day u will re appear
all the songs i sat and wrote
all the words i never spoke
was not enough
i can’t discuss
anything with her or anyone
i gotta show her like the man i am
i can’t be weak, man i know i can’t
but sometimes life gets all rough
and i fall back to the one i love
i gotta show her like the man i am
i can’t be weak, man i know i can’t
but sometimes life gets all rough
and i fall back to the one i love
all the letters that i wrote
all the feelings i have shown
was no where near
to convince my fear
that maybe one day u will re appear
all the songs i sat and wrote
all the words i never spoke
was not enough
i can’t discuss
anything with her or anyone

letters

And they always ask 
How did you forget 
I didn’t choose to 
I got distracted 
and that’s my fault 
I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk 
If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call 

(brecken)
I was walking so far
Thought everything was okay
Locked in my car
All the stuff you’d given back to me
One chance now its all gone
Coulda give you the world but now i write a song
About all of the misery that me and you have come by
I don’t need you temporarily like i need sunlight
Like life forever and ever just take me back
I could write a letter cause we’re better with a gap
I thought it was all good
Gave you everything that i could
But you never gave it back to me

(halfhearted)
Tryna find my way back up
Bet you wish you never messed around
I been tryna keep my head up
But my demons keep pulling me down
I gotta get outta this town again
But you made it so i never get out
Lay me down to rest in a flowerbed
Pull my petals and my roots out the ground

And they always ask 
How did you forget 
I didn’t choose to 
I got distracted 
and that’s my fault 
I’ll own up to it like it was written on the ground in chalk 
If I controlled it from the start I think I could make that call

how did you forget ft. brecken + halfhearted  (michael harrison)

prod by i cantsleeplol
enjoy

lyrics:
i know im not amazing
i know my life is rough
but i hope my love and care for u is just enough
i know im not amazing
i know my life's a mess
but i promise ill be there for u when ur depressed
 
or maybe not
or maybe not
im getting far too attached
or maybe not
or maybe not
maybe ill be happy at last
or maybe not
or maybe not
im getting far too attached
or maybe not
or maybe not
maybe ill be happy at last

once i flip the chapter
the story of both of us
maybe ill feel better
that both of us are done
once i flip the chapter
the future of our kids
maybe ill feel better
then let go and i quit

ɪ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀᴇᴅ
ɪꜰ ᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ɪᴍ ᴘᴀᴛʜᴇᴛɪᴄ
ɪꜰ ᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ɪᴍ ᴀ ʟᴏꜱᴇʀ
ᴏʀ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴇ ᴀꜱ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ
ꜱᴛᴜᴘɪᴅ

ᴅᴏɴᴛ 
ᴅʀᴇᴀᴍ
ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ 
ᴊ

message for her

deceitful (feat. ghoul_001)

death wish (feat. kenny orlando)

bruise ft. sendflowrs

stay sober

stay sober!

whats the point of livin if ur dead before ur 23?
whats the point of moving on if you can never change the scene?
moved back home i thought that this would be the place for me,
but now this town is tarnished im belittled by the memories

reached out to you for a hand please guide me
reached out to you for a
reason i dont know i just knew you were worth confiding in
whyd they have take another one of our friends?
i dont know how ill keep doing this without joining them



im the most suicidal ive ever been in my life, and i just might commit tn (neverforever)

prod: me

lyrics:
don't talk to me like were boys 
i truly hate the sound of your voice
fists up now your scared to fight? 
your a bitch and ill say it twice
lil punk bet your quiet now your under my foot
yeah yeah yeah
oh i held back 
you knew fully that i could
such a big back 
feast on anything you would
oh dont 
take it personal
your a whore 
but i bet ya know

i hate ur voice

The meaning behind my name is "The idea of the Reaper is cool yet scary to me & I live within the shadows of everyone and everything"


I make music about my struggles, frustrations, & Passions
I play video games, watch anime, & Chill with my friends when I'm not making music

@angelsofsorrows l is my close friend and mixes my songs along with my other close friend @joshiguess huge shoutout to them wouldn't be able to pursue music without their help

One More Step (Prod. Idealism)

Reapers Shadow

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