prod by. @d9smi

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Ik u wanted me
didn't think my world
would cut me into pieces
don't try to ruin things
now I'm on the ground
and now I'm looking
lifeless
I don't expect that
much from u
idk what u want me
to do
I couldn't stop
on my end
I think I'm loosing
my head
we started off
as friends
and somehow we both
ended up dead

idk why i try to lie to you
these crossing thoughts
in my brain
say im supposed to
but i don't try
try to hurt u
TRY TO HURT YOU!

hook 1x

these crossing thoughts
these crossing thoughts

Crossing Thoughts [+ desmi]

ty for 4k listens <3 pls listen on spotify too https://open.spotify.com/album/0Zu1TMGY256iat7o8KzQDF?si=svEpCWrKQpmFG-wHON6KPQ

based on the anime "our dating story"
prod me

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon
cos i noticed u started distancing
and i knew with time
you'd eventually leave me

im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
im such a jealous loser
x2

cant do what i want to do
i might die today
ill try not to lose my sanity
from the way u move
and the way u talk to those other dudes
and i hate myself
i wanna kill me too
and everyday we talk
i fear were ending soon

jealous loser

https://open.spotify.com/track/3yixaoN12otAN90qJL7LgQ?si=b45c17648c2c4ce8

ft @yukisasayaki prod me

nothing matters
i'm only after
a life with laughter
but my life is getting sadder cuz
nothing matters
my blood just splatters
my face might shatter
cuz things are getting uglier for me
my soul is incomplete
can't finish anything
i wanna fucking bleed
responsibility's not for me
pls don't think or believe
or put faith into me
i'll disappoint u n u'll leave
if only they could notice me
if only they would notice me
if only they could notice me
n see me like i see them too

i jus wish ud notice me
or showed a little honesty
ur words are laced with pity
and i know one day theyll kill me
aahhh

nothin matters u wont hold me 
i kno u dont fucking want me
say it with ur chest im 
so far from the best i 

cant believe that
u have hope in me im 
fragmented n broken
imperfect n no fun

nothing matters w/ yuki

@bloodsekai @yukisasayaki

@oxwillow cover

bloodsekai + yuki - beta orbiter

prod by me.
w/ @haunted_sad

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redize/
What a perfect way to end things
I'll end it all I can't help myself
I've been throught this before I can live without
This other bullshit

Not tryna go through all this again
You say I'm the worst but does that mean ur the best?
I can't think I'm taking sedatives to the head
I won't try to make up for the things I did

haunted/
And yeah I've been running out of time, baby
The death clock it keeps on ticking 
These emotions I have, yeah, they are livid
All these visions of my death they're are vivid
You stabbed my heart in front of me
I watched myself dying every fkn day
I thought girl that u were fkn cool :(( 
Yeah ur the one that just made me end it 


redize/
Thought I had the balls to tell you sooner
But I waited so long why am I such a loser?
I try to keep it all to myself and not ask for help
K I lied, or maybe once a few times
But it will all get better, just don't ever say never
cause there's no better endeavor in life

redize/
Not tryna go through all this again
You say I'm the worst but does that mean ur the best?
I can't think I'm taking sedatives to the head
I won't try to make up for the things I did

Not tryna go through all this again
You say I'm the worst but does that mean ur the best?
I can't think I'm taking sedatives to the head
I won't try to make up for the things I did

haunted/
And yeah I've been running out of time, baby
The death clock it keeps on ticking 
These emotions I have, yeah, they are livid
All these visions of my death they're are vivid
You stabbed my heart in front of me
I watched myself dying every fkn day
I thought girl that u were fkn cool :(( 
Yeah ur the one that just made me end it

a perfect way to end things w/hauntedsad

a friend told me to reup this so here ya go



even when u drank my blood
i loved ur every move and touch

cause its not hard to realize
that if im gonna live like this ill die
and im an angel girl living in this world
and ive been corrupted ive sinned in front of you

am i a bad girl?
even in the morning time
but

im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes

starving
starving by myself
starving and crying
im okay with it of course
it was never where
to the point when i was around
it was not going well
in fact i even felt it in the eye


im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes










angelgirl cover

i hate u go kys die die

prod. @1zakuro
lyrics

im sorry hori
hori, im sorry
truly i am
i hurt you but i didnt plan to

weigh heavy on my heart
i cant keep them hid
wish i could take it all away
if i could id change that day
all i ever feel is pain
send 10 shots into my brain
now my carpets fucking stained
i hate my life im not okay

im sorry hori
hori, im sorry
truly i am
i hurt you but i didnt plan to

if i could i would fix every scar
id bring back the trust no matter how far
hori, i hope you hear this plea
because all i want
is for you to forgive me
hori, i hope you hear this plea
because all i want
is for you to forgive me
take back the pain i caused
now im sat here broken and lost

i wish i could take it all away
rewrite the past
change that day
all i ever feel is pain 
send 10 shots into my brain

im sorry hori
hori, im sorry
truly i am
i hurt you but i didnt plan to

the words i said
the things i did
i cant beleive myself
you didnt deserve this
i know your so depressed
i know you cut your wrists
it weighs heavy on my heart
i cant keep them hid

im sorry hori (p. zakuro)

prod me idk how to play guitar sorry ://
​​​scrolling twitter every day
​its slowly making me insane
​ur fucking with my brain
​through my phone
​in the back of the class
​i feel like shit every day
​i rly just cant wait to go home
​im refreshing threads
​n my brain is dead
​i asked if u were fine
​and then u left me on read
​ive never known how
​to stop from breaking down
​a random face in the crowd
​do u see me now
​​SHES THE VALEDICTIORIAN
​​AND I JUST WANNA BE BORN AGAIN
​​IM STUCK IN CLASS LEARNING CRT
​​U MOVED ON WAY TOO FAST FOR ME

student bodies

prod @bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/album/5R4wmZWjhjhRoreGZqvqQT?si=OfiXWL1iTRWfceRxPDCJHg

fantasize your touch
i wanna feel love
distanced it sucks
i'll stay i must
we'll meet just trust
don't leave me i'll rust
wait for me im your bus
light my sky like dusk

i dont feel out of place your words make me feel at home
i wanna be stuck to you until we turn to stone
please say you wont leave
i want to be yours to keep
i'll fly out and see
what love is truly
thats if u love me
thats if u stay by me
please stay close while im low
and when im high dont go
im here for u u know
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go
just give me time dont go

just give me time

Better Off

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