a cover of nxp by xowillow!!!!

spend day on computer ^_^
im such a big loser >_<`
got no job zz
dont pay rent :0
i live with my parents :PP 
in a shitty film !!! 
i don't have any skills !!!
negative!!!
negative!!!
xp!!!

got no friends D:
got no life :c
i won't have a house wife :((
always sad or angry >:(
my parents must hate me :PP 
in a shitty film !!!
i don't have any skills !!!!
negative!!!
negative!!!
xp!!!

nxp !! :P

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5VB4gmtytVPs1LrKT5vM7Y?si=30f9bb4345ad407d

hahaha imso mentally ill lol

produced by me

im callin you to let you know i need help
i wanna slit my wrist and burn in hell
(no i dont)
please save me
im callin u 2 please save me

in the back of the club just poppin drugs
in my seat thinkin will it be enough
what would u do if i gifted u a cup
full of my love
please help me im going crazy
rip to the kids that tried to save me
rip to my homies in the backseat
rip to me cuz im deadly
x2

(look at me in the eyes when i kill myself
regret everything u did but it didnt help
see u next time, rot with me in hell)

s/o kenji for original concept <3

u ruined my brain ;/

talking on the phone everynight
i just wanna vc till its bright outside
shes my e girlfriend
i dont want us to end
yeah my friends at school
they just dont understand

shes my pocket sage
play with her everyday
my friends they say im fucking lame
they cant stop me from my edate

got my pc on
esex all night long
id give anything
just dont do me wrong
id give all my time
just to make u mine
i hit up ur cord
like what we do this time
we got matching pfps
and our bios both the same
she my goth abg
i know they all act the same
when she talk to other guys
i think ima blow my brains
see her in a vc
i think ima go insane

pocket sage [+ deadyami]

prod by. @d9smi

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4en4Tfh1ZPZHuOM6BsyWgJ?si=NYQHFamGT5KdpeoI7SF4qg

Ik u wanted me
didn't think my world
would cut me into pieces
don't try to ruin things
now I'm on the ground
and now I'm looking
lifeless
I don't expect that
much from u
idk what u want me
to do
I couldn't stop
on my end
I think I'm loosing
my head
we started off
as friends
and somehow we both
ended up dead

idk why i try to lie to you
these crossing thoughts
in my brain
say im supposed to
but i don't try
try to hurt u
TRY TO HURT YOU!

hook 1x

these crossing thoughts
these crossing thoughts

Crossing Thoughts [+ desmi]

theres a pain inside my chest
only a bullet can fix
theres some thoughts inside my brain
i need some help i need one wish

i wanna see u sad
i wanna see u cry
i can tell u are a lying whore
i see it in ur eyes
why r you looking at me like ur so fucking terrified
i dont wanna hear those words no more
ill tell you all goodnight
i cant look past the words u said
yeah theyre all trapped up in my head
i cannot trust u anymore
ur sucha stupid fucking whore

(hook)

and just like that i ruined everything

tell me ill be alright
i know u came here to fight
bloodstained tears tonight
everything is out of sight

waste away
u go back to bed for another day
glass shattered hands
gonna run away
run away yeah i cant stay here
x2

u decide
u or me whos gna die
slit my wrists thats suicide
u or me can u decide

glass hands *demo*

https://open.spotify.com/track/7cB1Tn7O7MiVusAdo7cuvs?si=801c2559f2ed4c60

prod me

remember when we met
i thought u were against
everything i said
everything i did
holes inside my shirts
ripped off ur favorite bands
and i can't go back
i'm always sad

there's something wrong with me
or am i just afraid?

am i just afraid?
am i just afraid?


talking behind my back
can't hear what they say

can i hear what they say?
can i hear what they say?

i know she's mad
i can't text back
my friends or dad
im just so sad
sorry for acting out last night
that's my bad

I.S.L.Y.

prod me

im so done
with thinking that its the same
i need some change
oh yeah i need some change
spend all night
overthinking
blood pouring out my sockets
ive not been sleeping

darkness all around
left to following the sounds
and ill wallow in my tears
if i might slip and drown

im nocturnal
drink elixir
im eternally dead
i wont die in any way
try and cut off my head
x2

im so done
with thinking that its the same
i need some change
oh yeah i need some change
spend all night
overthinking
blood pouring out my sockets
ive not been sleeping
x2

i need change

@bloodsekai

staring at each other in the back of class
who would've known that tryna love wld be so bad
so my wrists bleeding on the ground no one can go help
bc no one wants to help a lonely reject
i hate the words that i said
i feel so sick i regret that
im walking in on you two
who would've known that love is so cruel

i was so infatuated w ur smell
i don't know if u can tell
but im starting to get fed up aswell
there's no going back go n stop that
i don't want ur help u already know that
i wanna cut your head off
wanna cut ur head off

i said we had something special
now my hearts on the table
i swear to god didn't mean to do this
i have the gun and i had to shoot it
you were mine, i was sad
this schizophrenia can't be that bad
suffocating, medicating
the only thing that makes me

i feel okay
i am mad
you're so angry, im so mad
i think ill kill you again

classroom romance w/ lovecupid prod bloodsekai

@bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/3yTwJwQ1pc5OoZNYorbs1P?si=74f882d670e042c9

maybe if i tried a little bit harder
id see results flow in like water
god i wish it was this easy
i just live and watch time beat me

last week i watched a long vid of social tips
i think me and u know i didnt benefit 
speaking out loud sucks it really makes me sweat
i hate being myself unless im around my friends

my lips are stapled shut
i wanna talk to you but i'd look dumb 
i wanna talk to you but i'd sound dumb

maybe i should try harder Prod bloodsekai

i'm the last guy you'll ever know
i'll cut you open and steal your soul
it's my turn today i get what i want
and i want you dead so off you go

it's time to die
you better say goodbye
you made me cry
and i'll end your life

don't u dare look at him
you only need me 
why can't you see?
what's so special about him?
i'll follow him home
with a gun on my sleeve


i'm really in a bad mood
i found him by the bus stop
pulled out my gun and shot his chest 
he was in shock
gotta hurry up and end him now before i get caught
i'm crying as his body bleeds out what have i done?

now you're next too and i know all your footsteps
i'll kill your family too i'm really upset
and when you're dying i'll lick blood off of your dress
and when you shout for help i'll whisper are you done yet?

i'm the last guy you'll ever know
i'll cut you open and steal your soul
it's my turn today i get what i want
and i want you dead so off you go

it's time to die
you better say goodbye
you made me cry
and i'll end your life

lovely homicide

rock and roller on the interwebss.

I prod most my stuff.

Crossing Thoughts [+ desmi]

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