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Sophmore year

Last Few Minutes Alive

tdikmasmso

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prod me and @six-days-after-christmas
featuring @six-days-after-christmas

your hair 
your smile
girl its really worth the while
i know you dont
really care girl not at all

worthwhile

NIGHTPHONE

ive been thinking bout u 
and all the things that we would do 
and it gets lonely without u 
i swear sometimes i hate u 

cus when i lay my head to sleep
its only u thats in my dreams 
and i cant get u out 
i tried so hard 
but i dont know how

i cant get you out

no one liked me anyway 
take one last look at your face 
rip your heart out of its place 
now its mine all mine to take 

leave a flower at your grave 
yeah u made ur last mistake 
walk the forest in the night 
creeping up give u fright 
i will never leave you alone 
dark night of the scarecrow

dark night of the scarecrow

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
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i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

sorry i killed her. (feat. kaysnoto)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7GHsBQ5oLMz6Jhq6TgzBHj?si=m6AqD8a8T5CoOFmWkkiqOA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4fE7fPBBe4x8t58IbcpFs4

prod me ft @kiheir

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

u treated me like shit
i know its not ur fault but it kinda is
i never thought that it would end like this
i never thought these words would leave my lips
but baby im cutting at my wrists
and i dont see an end to it
can someone help me
im dying
without u darling
oohhhhhh

@kiheir
and i never thought id feel this way
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
no one here to fill the void of my days
cuz ur gone
cuz ur gone

i needed u said ud never run away
the partys almost over i just hope that ud stay
my mind went blank ive got no words to say to u
and i doubt that u do too
ooooh i doubt that u do too
and i miss u but im glad that i met u

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

awkward w/ kiheir

https://open.spotify.com/track/5Nnwe5weuh5fyte28mcrJR?si=ea812a2a3b0c4e23

old (wujek) styleeeee !!!!! beat by me 

w/ @humanendeavour

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
migraine my head aches
ur phone contains my messages
u haven't read im dead
im being ignored again
yesterday i had the worst time
and today if i said im good
then thas a lie
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
i said my head hurts
a thousand times
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never

[sekai:]
can't get better
im stuck inside
this shitty weather
i wanna die
but when ur near me
i feel fine

[endeavour:]
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
together oh forever
your so clever yea whenever
things get better it gets better
oh however it will never
ill my blood feel it up i wanna fill it all with blood
i feel your guts i cut it up
im sorry if that is too much

together forever w/ endeavour

https://soundcloud.com/menthol100s/demos-and-then-some-alex-g

ngl i do not feel like titling these i found them on my laptop

wifiskeleton - demo #6 (it's nice to know you)

CLOWN $HOW

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Yod5zUEZ5SyNe0LTqbhVu?si=f91fced6fb2c4d31

w the boat @yukisasayaki prod me

i can't get out 
I've been feeling so fucking down
no one hears me 
when i'm clearly screaming loud
every chance i get
i mess it up without a doubt
put me in a crown
when im the worst like all around
benefit from the misery that i feel
cuz i know no one wants me around anymore
there's no mistake, i'm a waste
i'm not real
cuz that's the sense i get
i'm played with like i'm fake

im drowning in my sorrow
about tomorrow but also yesterday
i don't think i remember
it's been like this forever
I've never gotten better
at least that's on my record..
my hearts buried down
cuz no one sticks around
I've wrote my vows
to never open up
to anyone
i dont need new friends
im better off alone and dead

i cant do it
wont make it thru the day
yea ill prove it
slit my throat n decay
u want what i want
n i rlly want me dead
it mightve been from
all of the things u said
n i cant take it
the words infecting my head
i guess no one would care if i bled out in my bed
im such a loser n im always such a fucking burden
i try n socialize but i can never get a word in
n u look in my eyes n tell me that im fucking worthless
u leave me paralysed oh pls just finish me for certain

and worst of all, it's me

and worst of all, it's me (ft. yuki)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4Mkqb85Xssw7NjMCH7zDKN?si=f0939011e78b4e22

prod me w/ @yukisasayaki again yayyy

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

baby i feel like im gonna die
tell me that u love me while u look me in my eyes
notice how i see u
from across the classroom
pretend to drop my pencil
and watch it roll past u
i jus wish ud notice me
a loser with no apathy 
slit my throat n watch it bleed
if u n me can never be
i swear that ill take my life
use ur silence as my knife
so come and take my hand
i wish u could be my wife 

yea be be mine
never leave my sight
we can live together in a loop
for the rest of time
no different options
no fucking pathways
ur stuck here forever we'll never part ways 

meet me on the roof after school
i fell in love n i wanna tell u
i know we don't talk but i think ur cool
n if u don't say it back, ig death will do
i-l-y, i might die
k-m-s, suicide
it's lie after lie, but this time i might try
knife in my chest twist it right close my eyes

dating sim suicide (ft. yuki)

it's over tonight.

they'll post it online

$wag Nightmare - Mercedes

nothing seems to get my mind off of death
I guess that you can say im just a little bit obsessed
Well Im already dead so tell me how to speed the process
I don’t deserve a damn thing except to be a carcass
I tried to be a good person but im so caught up
Everyday it’s getting worse man im so fucked up
i contradict all of my words but im so tired of lust
what’ll kill me first the drugs or a barrel to my gut

farewell cruel world i wont miss you

FAVORITE EX - $wag Nightmare

when you miss me nino paid unreleased

Nino Paid - When You Miss Me

shotgun.

Grateful for it

prod me 

make everything bad
no i cant help myself
i swear i make it in the worse in the end

it takes alot to care
about my health instead
when i could just blow my brains right there

theres not a time 
where i do something right im just 
losing myself cause im always sad

do you see the signs 
that i dont like this life and
ill do anything to be myself again

i swear i make it worse in the end

Nino Paid
Suicide Shit
Sad Shit
Instagram

Nino Paid - Suicide Sh*t

prod me

Spotfiy: https://open.spotify.com/track/4a3qyrzdBP8FDRWj7suvOW?si=35znOzOnRYycEStpA--y3g

w/ odihu

@redizesux

You're looking great but I wish I never saw u
Punch your bf in the face cuz I don't time to argue 
I don't wanna see this
I'll look the other way
I feel so damn misleaded and honestly
You're better off just jumping off that bridge
So then why'd u stop 
Wanting me in the first place

@odihu

God damn girl i wish I never saw you
Wouldn't even be here in the first place
You make me cry in the worst way
I wish I could erase you
I'm stuck on you
You're supposed to be with me
Saw you in the hallway
With your new boyfriend
Everything's going good for you
I wished the same for me too

god please wipe this from my memory

god please wipe this from my memory w/odihu

prod me

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7vHdg7qWSBJekaV1Bite3K?si=vPJTCMGMTkyVvQ2UOaeXLA

Hey, I'm sorry
About what I said that night
I couldn’t stop you from running 
At your party
We might get some closure now
So can we just get to talking

I tried to get you back 
I'm drowning in your green text
And I'm just so upset