for my boyfriend, ily shy <3

prod. @jolst @pekarot_161

i dont deserve u 
but im so glad i have u...
im so glad...

i dont deserve u
im just lucky that i get to know u

i dont deserve u
im sorry fore these hoops you have to
jump through
im nothing but bad news 
you're the only thing that 
i dont wanna lose 

you're the only thing that 
ive ever cared about losing...
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant

and im sorry baby
i try to 
control these feelings in my head
but sometimes...i cant...

you've been everything to me
from way back when till now
and every message in between 

you're the only thing that
ive ever cared about losing
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant...

and im sorry baby..
i try to...
control these feelings in my head
but sometimes i cant...

(sometimes, sometimes)

sometimes i cant!
sometimes i cant!!

you're the only thing that
ive ever cared about losing
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant...

deserve u [+pekarot & jolst]

Check out the producer:
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/johnnyfriend
Beatstars: https://johnnyfriend.beatstars.com
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/c/JohnnyFriendbeats/featured
Twitter: https://twitter.com/johnnyfriend_
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Artwork Made by @devilboyxo
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Twitter: twitter.com/devilboyxo

Lyrics
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They can hardly even recognize
Piercings tattoos, my new disguise
Muttering what happened to the other guy
Thing is that they finally saw the real side
They couldn't handle that
You've changed and we want you back
I guess it didn't go to plan
But when will it ever have

Now they see me and I'm glowing
Take a picture when you're with me save the moment
Outfit dripping and my wrists frozen
I was nothing as a kid and now I own it
Surrounded by nitpick pricks that see me growing
Flex this you rich bitch I'm on my own shit
I'm talking hit me up when I've been on the road shit
And you gonna say that you knew me but you ain't know shit
I've been on my own shit, see me and I'm glowing

I'll keep screaming 'till my chest hurt
But they never even needed to say I'm lesser
I can tell from the way that they act
Cut me outta plans, leave me in the past
I'm the only one doing something that they can't
Surmount against the odds when the odds stay stacked
Difference how they treat me signing CDs like graffiti
'Cause you can't ignore me when I'm on your TV

Now they see me and I'm glowing
Take a picture when you're with me save the moment
Outfit dripping and my wrists frozen
I was nothing as a kid and now I own it
Surrounded by nitpick pricks that see me growing
Flex this you rich bitch I'm on my own shit
I'm talking hit me up when I've been on the road shit
And you gonna say that you knew me but you ain't know shit
I've been on my own shit, see me and I'm glowing

Glowing [Prod. JohnnyFriend]

love you ryan<3 talk to you soon.
beat prod by: wisssery x nihil
written and performed by: popularreject

Ryan's song (p. wisssery x nihil)

skeletons

+ spotify

skeletons (feat. kenny orlando + ezra)

prod. taurs

lyrics:
whoa
directionless, i drift away
i have to find a better way
i never wanna let it go to waste
in this dark haze
you give me a spotlight
i swear that it's haunted
i can't turn around
something in me bring me towards the sound
tryna make a little money
make my parents proud
do what you wanted
i know that it's far away
it'll take time
i step in the house 
and i feel safe by your side
maybe we can 
get out of this broken place
i cannot control the play
i just let it happen to me
maybe we could fly away
go and see the world
we can go wherever you want
yea i would tag along
even if we gotta walk
moving like a vagabond
did September like a pro
please keep the camera rolling
did you see what i just saw
i swear it's not the psychedelics
i compelled a better bidding
get too close and i get bitten
i guess i'll keep fucking with it
i guess i'm just scared
how could i compare
to anyone with better than me?
find me when everything collapses
i'm magic
and i got a spell for you
standing by the lectern
i swear that i knew her
she would play the pastor
but something brought the soul
did you get it, did you post it?
i thought i was drowning but i'm floating
tryna get a breath
you should take a rast
flashing i'm in the red
like it's ash from a cigarette
i promise you it's there and you can trust me
trust, i'm the first motherfucker that's gonna judge me
i just wanna hold it down and keep you safe when it gets ugly
when i'm done i'll hold you close and fall asleep
maybe in the dreams i have
it doesn't have to be so bad
maybe we can grow together, learn together
left the ghost to do her rest

look (taurs)

face down in this lake
but you smile now?
no face i got nothing to worry about
i need new friends
heads gettin kinda empty
short walk home but my legs resent me
ugly face
i’m losing feelings
ugly mind
now it’s getting too revealing
crashing out
there’s no one to see it
songs get dark
only some have meaning
read my words
hears my voice 
ignore my scars
i made the choice
2018 she made it worse
so unlikeable it hurts
whole personality has changed
even i don’t know this way
does no one here know that it’s fake
i’ll just adapt to you today
i’m sick of my own voice
this song has got no flow
i miss when i had school friends who’d be blowing up my phone
turns out not everyone is good
i even see that in myself
i just expose myself in words
while i’m hiding inthesnow
every song is so repetative
i’m losing creativity 
the beat is way too loud
and i’m losing my alibilties
there’s so much more to say
but i fear i’ve become villiany
an unbalance in my brain
i really wanna get rid of me

repetative [desolent]

Lyrics.
Everyone around wonder how it’ll go
Fuck idek I’ll tell you when I book this show
But imma probably push it off until it gets too cold 
When the ice on the road and the drive too slick for me to go
But still I stay in zone
I’ve been staying home 
Writing notes on the phone
Tryna further my flow 
Like I further my throw
Grow when I’m stone like I do when I bone

Like I do when I bone 
Airplane mode 
Fuck a text Ik
No votes if you say so I just won’t go
Then it’s airplane mode 
Airplane mode, airplane mode, airplane mode 
And I just won’t go

And I just won’t go
And I just won’t go
If you say so then I just won’t go
Then it’s airplane mode

What would I want to be 
If anything else I’d oughta be 
Someone else
 and finally 
Back all the way from the oddities 

If anyone one else starts calling me 
I could probably tell you imma lost cost 
See it through my life 
And it’s nonstop 
Foxtrot fought
Quietly I’m fighting in this onslaught rot
Fuck I really need to see a doc on the clock 
I don’t need the meds 
I need a buck shot cocked
Put it to my thoughts 
Where the fox forget 
And wash away the guilt 
But if I will? probably not.

Singing and vocals: trexture
Mixing and mastering: trexture
Producer: prod. sorrow bringer

Airplane mode (prod. sorrow bringer)

one man army prod v2 wa

dream

twitter

stay - ft. convolk (prod. aloneathome)

stars (feat. habition)

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