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new memories

like im running a rat race
imma kill myself so im coming in last place
why you lookin at me with your eyes in a bad way
its already autumn, i waited, ive matched my days
on my shoulders, too much weight
nothing left for me here anways
its already autumn, but im okay
with knowing ill be dead by valentines day

how is it already october

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
prod both of us as always

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later: 
slow down 
shut up 
take a picture of us 
watch her driving away
leaving nothing but dust

i know 
you dont 
really like to pretend 

you love me so let me go
??

me: 
im sorry
you know me
you expect way too much, again

you're going
still coping
i cant live my life without u in

so she'll go
on her own
and find someone else to make her smile

it makes me sick when i think of what we said
so many words i regret, but cant forget

pictures of us

w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

https://open.spotify.com/track/1k7mFKuN9e0IRK4x3yj4hf?si=72bdd279041e4a18

prod me

nothing else matters if i cant even hold u
i wanna sit beside u on the bus like i told u
i know its silly and it wont be too long
but please listen baby u know im not strong

i want nothing more than ur company
i dont care if ur asleep
i hope ur dreaming of me

dream about me

https://open.spotify.com/track/7bihXybQbiixf3heO7ZHX7?si=990c6b88d0244e46

@thaibodydump cover
prod me

take a dare
pull my hair out
in ur room
on saturday
its time to stick
im gonna lose my mind
from all of this
a whole of shit

try my luck
yea i rlly suck
u hit ur drag
i kiss ur neck
and holy god
i love the way u stare
u stare

stare (cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/777OdHEessMH3T3q20KdMC?si=a0db4adad676429d

prod me

it hasnt been the same lately
i think u like him more than me baby
im so indoctrinated
my thoughts aint been the same since

u stabbed me in my back
and left me here to bleed
im cryin out my spleen
more blood than can be seen

never the same

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5deqRcXhpxot443g7emMy0?si=NydICEOaRk296K4txYVwGA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4rUhH7hSpj0Sk41NFYbvYi

prod me ft @revivle

@requiem-for-you
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

cold winter nights
spent alone
used to sit by the fire on the phone
drinking hot cocoa
looking at our old photos
turning time into slowmo
where did it go wrong?

(where did i go wrong
dont wanna see u gone)

what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

@revivle
i spent so much time on my own
i couldnt stop you from letting me go
so many promises that you went and broke
if i killed myself then how would you know ;p

im sorry for acting the way that i did
theres just something about u that makes me feel like a kid
im calling out for you i just wish you could see it
maybe u would if you stopped fucking leaving

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone
x2

what did i do wrong? w/ revivle

sorry i killed her. (feat. kaysnoto)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7GHsBQ5oLMz6Jhq6TgzBHj?si=m6AqD8a8T5CoOFmWkkiqOA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4fE7fPBBe4x8t58IbcpFs4

prod me ft @kiheir

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

u treated me like shit
i know its not ur fault but it kinda is
i never thought that it would end like this
i never thought these words would leave my lips
but baby im cutting at my wrists
and i dont see an end to it
can someone help me
im dying
without u darling
oohhhhhh

@kiheir
and i never thought id feel this way
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
now that im seein u in the same damn place
or meeting u in these awkward ways
no one here to fill the void of my days
cuz ur gone
cuz ur gone

i needed u said ud never run away
the partys almost over i just hope that ud stay
my mind went blank ive got no words to say to u
and i doubt that u do too
ooooh i doubt that u do too
and i miss u but im glad that i met u

@requiem-for-you
saw u at that party last week
im so damn awkward u know i cant speak
but baby please
believe
that ur everything to me
x2

awkward w/ kiheir

@kaysnoto
such a silent girl
like what did i do
ya im tryna be right with u
but now your picking and choosin
ya im up in ruins
like what am i doing
like what am i doing
look at what your doing
like what am i doing (what did i do)
like what am i doing (what did i do)
look at what your doing (what did i do) 
what did i do
what did i do
what did i do
what did i do
oooooo
what did i do
what did i dooo
oh you take my soul
and your running away with it
oh you take my home
and now your stuck up and your livin in it
such a silent girl
like what did i do
ya im tryna be right with u
but now your picking and choosin
ya im up in ruins
like what am i doing
like what am i doing
look at what your doing
like what am i doing
@wasitbroken

silent girl w/wirt

frankenstein.

red wine

Gotta change my ways or I'ma end up in a ditch
I know when I fuckin' die, they won't really give a shit
If you wanna kill me, it'll be like I never exist
Make my dreams come true, that's my only fuckin' wish
I know that you're disappointed, I was hopin' you'd forgive
Why are you acting so shocked? You knew I'd end up on the list
I got something up my sleeve, it's my one last trick
Really hate my life, but I'm too scared to commit
I don't have any friends, cause I push them all away
You just wanna keep me around when you're tryna save face
I just look into the mirror and I hate my face
Layin' dead on the floor with a fuckin' blue face
I'm really psychotic, suspect of a cold case
Didn't wanna kill that girl, but she wanted me to stay
I'm a gross fuckin' creep, I wish I could be erased
But my time's comin' someday, it'll be okay

what did i do wrong? w/ revivle

requiem for you

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