suicide is never the answer. it will get better.

do drugs in public / cry in private

additional production from Mimics gate

lyrics
you would fuck with me if i would stay around
you get in my business and then i go outta town
i'm not looking for you, happy to be found
that is not my business and i'm not gon stay around
excuse me!
excuse me!
excuse me!
excuse me!
i didn't even know i let you down
got a meeting then i'll see you on the other side of town
i was looking for a minute now i’m happy in the now
didn't even know i let you down
didn't even know i let you down
got a meeting then i'll see you on the other side of town
i was looking for a minute now i’m happy in the now
i didn't even know i let you down
sorry for bringing it up
so let me kiss you just to change the subject now
and i'll make a wish
and tell you i'm in love with this somehow
if i stay 
will it tide us over through tomorrow
and if i say it back enough
will i begin to believe it's so
can you excuse me?
can you excuse me?
i didn't even know i let you down
got a meeting then i'll see you on the other side of town
i was looking for a minute now i’m happy in the now
i didn't even know i let you down
i didn't even know i let you down
got a meeting then i'll see you on the other side of town
i was looking for a minute now i’m happy in the now
i didn't even know i let you down
excuse me!
excuse me!
excuse me!
excuse me!
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"In Life I'm in Love" ...or, "Canada Songs!"
Written recorded and produced by Reserv
Featuring la la la's from Swords2 Kaiden and Swoopy
Additional production, mixing from Mimics Gate
Stories about figuring it all out

Excuse me!

Excuse me! (featuring Swoopy)

I was thinking about my whole life, and I wasn't surprised. I was running around patches of grass with those little white flowers. I'm making planes out of paper, but I folded it wrong too many times. I'm making planes out of paper, and one of these days they're all gonna fly. Can you say it again? I couldn't think of a single response then. I think I'm done with trying. I'd say I'm not a liar, but then I'd be lying. I'm making planes out of paper, but I folded it wrong too many times. I'm making planes out of paper, and one of these days they're all gonna fly.

"In Life I'm in Love"
Written recorded and produced by Reserv
Featuring la la la's from Swords2 Kaiden and Swoopy
Additional production, mixing from Mimics Gate
Stories about figuring it all out

Making Planes Out of Paper

The music in the club is turning me up, it's turning me up now, it's turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up, it's turning me up now, it's turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. 

I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. This world is like a vegetable, I'm eating all my vegetables. Wake up and I brush my hair, but I have not a thing to share. I go about the same routine, I fill myself with gasoline. I'm raking up the leaves again, the leaves that fill my yard and head. I cleaned out all the words you said, I cleaned out all the love you gave me. Have you felt the motion sickness? I think I'm getting sick of this business. I just pulled out my stitches. I just wiped off your kisses. I just wiped off your kisses, just like that. Just like that, that's okay, just like that... I'm just like that.

The music in the club is turning me up, it's turning me up now, it's turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up, it's turning me up now, it's turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up, it's turning me up now, it's turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up, it's turning me up now, it's turning me up. The music in the club is turning me up.  I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful.  

"In Life I'm in Love"
Written recorded and produced by Reserv
Featuring la la la's from Swords2 Kaiden and Swoopy
Additional production, mixing from Mimics Gate
Stories about figuring it all out

Bill Murray Movie (featuring Swords2)

featuring @sglily
produced by me (@bigdog30k)

[ buffalobang: ]
a sudden departure
could gut me of everything i knew
the night hits me harder
i bit off more than i can chew

i want you in the team
just tell me what you need
i want you in the team
just tell me what you need

ill sleep without a blanket so my fever comes back
shoulda kept me on the bench, shoulda kept me out the match
didnt have much to give but i gave it all i had
if its not too much to ask for id like it all back

i gotta stop being so timid gotta take charge
im not a good team player and i hate sports
ill take the loss again cus winnings what u asked for
you gave me words but i burnt through em right after

[ sglily: ]
u came to see me i was seated on the bench,
but its for the best, its pouring out again
its important that u know i'm not the best
but im yrs if u would put me to the test

just test me, dont forget me
i'll be on yr team, give it all until im empty

[ buffalobang: ]
ill sleep without a blanket so my fever comes back
shoulda kept me on the bench, shoulda kept me out the match
didnt have much to give but i gave it all i had
if its not too much to ask for id like it all back

Sudden Departure, Soccer Club 2

Sudden Departure (Soccer Club 2)

Sudden Departure (Soccer Club 2) ft. Sg Lily

can't get out of my head
ruminating, what do I do instead?
what's on the horizon
will leave me dead

I can't do better
there's no clear weather
mix pain and mix pleasure
I can't stop the rain

I can't look at your face
you can't be my saviour
and my love is tainted
I won't cut your wings, angel

wasted, I took all these drugs to the face
dealing with these problems and I can't fucking take it
every single memory in my head, fucking hate it
keeps me wide awake, frustrated

pills, popping all these pills
I can't even taste them
every time I sober up
I don't want to be here

feel, everything I feel
I don't have the patience
I can feel my body rot
nothing's ever sacred

smile through the pain
they don't care what I'm saying
so I never talk
see the game and I play it

and I wanna block
everything that pains me
and if it's too much
then it leaves me shaking

ask myself why I deserve this?
why would I pass on the burden?
I don't want nobody hurting
unless I'm the one that's earnt it

is it right?
I don't know
cross your heart and lie
I don't mind at all

when you're by my side
I don't know where all of the time goes
off insecticide
there's no solution for the problem

bleed out right on the pavement
can't hear your voice so faded
you want to know what I'm made of?
you want to know if I'm worth saving?

I don't want help, baby
give me lines and I take them
give your heart, I break it
all the pain, I crave it

bleed out right on the pavement
can't hear your voice so faded
you want to know what I'm made of?
you want to know if I'm worth saving?

I don't want help, baby
give me lines and I take them
give your heart, I break it
all the pain, I crave it

wasted, I took all these drugs to the face
dealing with these problems and I can't fucking take it
every single memory in my head, fucking hate it
keeps me wide awake, frustrated

pills, popping all these pills
I can't even taste them
every time I sober up
I don't want to be here

feel, everything I feel
I don't have the patience
I can feel my body rot
nothing's ever sacred

wasted

꒰ঌ ♰ ໒꒱
- lyrics -

you mark me up like a doll, so special
hold the match between our locked hands
wrung thin
stare through sunlight and trace me, leveled
flare your eyes on my back
twist me to give in

track the kill like i'm game
i'll leave no trace

tight at the wrists
too cold to resist
and you're looking out for a third strike
i'm clawing at your tone-drunk sides
by your bedpost, slept alright

track the kill like i'm game
i'll leave no trace

doll

@ reserrvv

Hold on tightly
And I'll try my best to hold on too
I'll warn you
My word doesn't go as far as it used to

I'll take five
I'll take a break, a smoke, and something dry
And one you
Or something that'll cover up my eyes

Oh, darling
Do you stay up thinking of it too
'Cause right now
I feel like the world's biggest fool

So talk to me about
Your unforgiving life
And the things you don't say to nobody but yourself
You can tell me, everything

But can you take my time
And spend it all on giving it a
Another try
Don't ask me when, or where, or why
'Cause we both know there's no way to win
Except pushing through
To the other side

But can you take my time
Givin' it another try
To the other side

Two, three, four

It's tough knowin' that you're so far gone
But I've been making do
'Cause there's always someone to meet at a bar after two

A boy like me
Might give up on a girl like you
But not me
No way, José

Hold on tightly
And I'll try my best to hold on too
I'll warn you
My word doesn't go as far as it used to

I'll take five
I'll take a break, a smoke, and something dry
And one you
Or something that'll cover up my eyes

Oh, darling
Do you stay up thinking of it too
'Cause right now
I feel like the world's biggest fool

So talk to me about
Your unforgiving life
And the things you don't say to nobody but yourself
You can tell me, everything

But can you take my time
And spend it all on giving it a
Another try
Don't ask me when, or where, or why
'Cause we both know there's no way to win
Except pushing through

But can you take my time
And spend it all on giving it a
Another try
Don't ask me when, or where, or why
'Cause we both know there's no way to win
Except pushing through
To the other side

Can you take my time
Givin' it another try
To the other side