skin (johnnyfriend)

love you mom <3
~~~~
the 17th 
was bittersweet 
never knew how long the road would be 
you looked at me
with urgency 
that you would love me unconditionally 
one eye to see, and restless feet
raise hell every corner that id peak 
oh i was so unique 
the doctor said 
"your boys a mess" 
but every time you'd come to my defense
i caused a wreck 
the school suggested
maybe sending him off would be the best 
i got in check, and fixed my head 
and we knew good things would be ahead 
look at the life i lead

now i'm singing,

mama, mama, mama,
we've been through bullshit and drama,
shouldn't really take much longer,
i'll say thank you for all the love you fostered 
can't believe i caught up
they all thought i was a goner 
thanks for making me much stronger,
couldn't have done it all without my mama

mama

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this one has a hidden meaning behind it, enjoy

lyrics:
You don't get how I really feel
It's been about a year since it all felt real
Stuck inside my head with no second chance
I wanna go back where I know who I am

Staring up at the sky so bright
But I just hate when the sun goes down
There's so many stars, I can't bear to see them all
I can't wait for the day when they fall

And I need a doctor
And now I know it I am so sure
Cause now I've fallen in love with her
And now I see why I'll stay on earth

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

Patterns, in the grass in the sky
Good karma or bad karma, I'll just drop psychs till I die
Do you really feel what I'm saying, feel like there's a ghost in your eyes
How could it come this way, to a point where I lost my mind

Back then, I wouldn't have to feel this way
Alone inside my head, and I'm asking why, and I'm asking why

And I need a doctor
And now I know it I am so sure
Cause now I've fallen in love with her
And now I see why I'll stay on earth

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

Still alive, I don't know what cured me I was hypnotized
I don't need to dream cause I can fantasize
Losing track of time
It's been about a year since I had lost my mind

still alive

other platforms

still alive (cian x 80root x heyrick)

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solve this riddle?

lyrics:
Pour up
My heart is feeling civil
Shoot my opps down with a missile
I fucking hope you feel belittled, solve this riddle

A red dot on your head
Still alive and you're dead
Remember all the times we talked then we stopped, I ain't miss shit that's facts, blocked
Sippin' on gas got kankan's wok, and your shawty is a bitch, she my fan fan shocked

I be mentioning things to you
You don't know that my heart is blue
Life's an apocalypse (Yuh)
You got to save yourself (Woah)

You don't wanna live no life where you don't got no one else to tell
How your day was, or how the time's been
You don't wanna end up like me stuck inside of my head
Yuh, reset tomorrow, all we gotta do is

Pour up (Skrr)
My heart is feeling civil
Shoot my opps down with a missile
I fucking hope you feel belittled, solve this riddle

A red dot on your head
Still alive and you're dead
Remember all the times we talked then we stopped, I ain't miss shit that's facts, blocked
Sippin' on gas got kankan's wok, and your shawty is a bitch, she my fan fan shocked

riddle

riddle (atmoz x gommii x adxn)

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lyrics:
Heartbroken, I've lost my focus
People talk down to me, and act like I ain't ever notice
Life is gray, I hope that it's not better for them
So go away, learn to be a better friend

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

I ain't trying to be mean
Ever since I met you back when i was 15
Reminisce about the times I lived on caffeine
Nowadays I see you open leave you on seen

I'm a bad guy, in a bad world
I'm becoming even worse I got a bad girl
Found my new home, it's when I'm with you
Depressed when I'm alone and that's the issue

Smoke up in my eyes, burned our ties like bridges, and the convos don't lie
I don't talk about you in my songs, I'm a menace
Fucked up then, now you fucked up everything you do
You got no life, I'm not the bad guy

What I did was right, you don't have to start a fight
I'm really a demon, I'll leave you feeling horrified
You're hateful and evil
And even worse inside your mind

bad guy

bad guy (siem spark x chris marek)

HYH feat. Alruna and Nick Ferreri

@55depths

b-side of "si tu veux" 
from the EP:
"si tu dois"

doesn't this feel wrong?

lyrics:
think i fell in love
with a stranger
but it doesn't help
because you're not her, baby
i feel her arms around me
softly
tempting
unrelenting
and her fingers run along the jeans
you got me

i feel i'm pulling apart
at the seams again
i'll give you my heart
until the season ends
i feel i'm pulling apart
at the seams again
i'll give you my heart
until the season ends

one touch
lit eyes
long nights
in her eyes
love lost
sometimes
let go
i might
one touch
lit eyes
long nights
in her eyes
love lost
sometimes
let go
i might

i feel i'm pulling apart
at the seams again
i'll give you my heart
until the season ends
i feel i'm pulling apart
at the seams again
i'll give you my heart
until the season ends

stranger (her eyes)

[LYRICS]
i don’t expect for you to notice 
skin fallin necrosis 
show up to my funeral and
bring me dead roses 
think i’m losing focus 
my thoughts are so bogus
i’m so fucking scared that
i’m stuck in psychosis 

hook:
i think i’m gonna hurt myself 
i’m fucking up my mental health 
waking up in that hotel 
crawling back inside my shell
i just wanna hug my momma 
i’m stressing over commas
smoking marijuana 
doing what i wanna
if i had the guts to do it 
i’d fucking bite a bullet 
lifeline ima pull it 
i might run away i might fucking book it

ima runaway 
baby ima runaway 
no one cares anyway 
should i go or should i stay?

everything’s blur
like what the fuck occurred 
memories that haunt me
walking like a zombie 
xanax with my coffee 
girl from texas talking 
and all the acid i ingested 
made my mind a fucking mess man 
never took anti depressants 
21 and fucking stressing 
by 22 and i’ll be resting

either in my grave 
or laid up in my place 
i don’t really care i just 
take it day by day 
working with no rest 
love my friends to death 
fucking with my boys ima put ur ass to bed

hook:
i think i’m gonna hurt myself 
i’m fucking up my mental health 
waking up in that hotel 
crawling back inside my shell
i just wanna hug my momma 
i’m stressing over commas
smoking marijuana 
doing what i wanna
if i had the guts to do it 
i’d fucking bite a bullet 
lifeline ima pull it 
i might run away i might fucking book it

Necrosis

Necrosis [prod. fuji! + heyrick!]

Apple Music 

Everything You Said

The One

[Verse 1]
I can still see the tears in your eyes,
When I broke us down with a thousand lies.
You gave me warmth when I turned cold,
Now I’m haunted by the love I sold.

[Verse 2]
I thought I was strong, but I was scared,
Too afraid to need, too numb to care.
You gave your soul, I threw it away,
Now I live with the ghosts I made that day.

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve walked through the silence you left behind,
Every echo’s a mirror of my crime.
If I could bleed it out, I would,
If I could trade my heart, I should.

[Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the hurt that burned, for love I crashed?
Don’t define me by the worst I’ve been,
I’m still learning what it means to begin.

[Verse 3]
I replay our laughter, the light in your face,
Now it’s shadows in an empty space.
I thought I knew what freedom meant,
But I lost my soul in my own descent.

[Verse 4]
You said love was patient, love was kind,
But I broke that truth, I crossed that line.
Now I stand alone, confessing my pain,
Praying your heart will say my name again.

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve faced the mirror, I’ve faced my sin,
It’s ugly, raw, but it’s where I begin.
If love has grace, then I will kneel,
To show you the man who learned to feel.

[Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the hurt that burned, for love I crashed?
Don’t define me by the scars you see,
I’m more than the ghost I used to be.

[Bridge]
I can’t erase the nights you cried,
But I can love you right this time.
Every mistake carved truth in me,
Every loss taught me how to see.

[Verse 5]
If I could hold you, I wouldn’t speak,
I’d let my silence show I’m weak.
Weak for your love, strong for the pain,
Fighting to prove I won’t break again.

[Pre-Chorus]
I know forgiveness takes its time,
But I’ll wait for you between the lines.
If healing means I lose my pride,
Then I’ll bleed it out from the inside.

[Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the hurt that burned, for love I crashed?
Don’t define me by the worst I’ve been,
I’m still learning what it means to begin.

[Bridge 2]
I was broken, I was blind,
Now I see your heart and mine.
If love still breathes beneath the pain,
Let it rise again, let it rise again.

[Final Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the storm I caused, for love that didn’t last?
Don’t define me by the tears you’ve cried,
I’m a better man with you by my side.

[Outro]
I can’t rewrite the wrong I’ve done,
But I can love you like the only one.
If tomorrow lets our hearts contrast…
Will you ever forgive me for my past?

Will You Ever Forgive Me

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