your songs are masterpiece man you got talent i hope you will reach what you deserve

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Checkout my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi
and thanks to my brother WXLVE for everything.

Rivilin:

boot to face then im left to the ground
my hands are shaking now I turn around and face to the crowd
it’s like how did I get to this point without falling
always got a knife in my back im sick of crawling

appreciate everyone that’s always made an effort
just to reach out to me they say that my music is a blessing
but I just keep writing, this is how I cope yeah
not gonna falter im gonna take the future whole

yeah seeing my best friends fall to their old ways
I always got their back and they don’t have to owe me
cus they got mine when I come calling yeah
don’t bring up the past cus it’s always got me hurting

NPCs just give me the kick down
I got everyone I need here
vermin swarm 2021 gonna take it
fuck all the haters you know im not breaking

you wanna come at me and start making accusations
always had it out for me that’s an understatement
like fuck you, fuck them and everyone around me
never had my back when im sinking down slowly

you wanna kick me out the door making implications
then im forced to the ground with no explanation
like move back move in, take it, and don’t slip
cus this is all I got can I sink down below this

WXLVE:

everyone always looks up to me, 
but it feels like iam always drowning on self negativity
yeah, just walking through like yeah, with bleary eyes
im sick of constantly feeling like i need a new life

inside out i feel them haunting my dreams 
its time to sink or swim but im just tryna  wake from the demon within
im afraid these visions are real the man with no names closing in
with brothers close by side ill try not be eaten alive

$lothboi:

RIVILIN
THEY HEAR OUR PAIN
KNIVES IN OUR BACKS WHILE WE CHASE OUR DREAMS

FUCK ALL THIS
ANXIETY
PAIN AND SIN JUST FUCKING FOLLOW ME

Sick of pain, issa fuckin loop
I ain’t want to die, so I’m calling you
Just pay no mind, to my fucking moods
It’s unstable times, I CANT FUCKING CHOOSE

Why do I betray
Myself everyday
Minute I’m awake
I DIG A FUCKING GRAVE

Brothers FT.  WXLVE X $LOTHBOI

@rivilin

Lyrics

I say I'm happy but I'm not fake a smile it takes a lot
No energy feeling lost, what's the point now your gone
Plagued by nightmares where I'm shot, through the head and i wake up
Didn't think that was a dream, no I'm losing losing weak

Yeah i hear these ghost yeah outside my hallway
My windows covered in ash at the moment
I don't think ill ever escape from this
The walls start to breathe and the eyes just open up

Moving back and fourth like I'm in a body
Of some disfigured by product of hate
I guess ill make my home right here
I'm more comfortable being trapped inside then exposed
 
To the daylight of the morning
Where I hear pretty whispers just calling my name
And I wake up in a day dream
Thinking that you just went out to get coffee or you went to work

But yeah i know that it wasn't real
That's why i stay awake in the night time
So i know i don't get disappointed by the morning
When i wake and your not there

Cus you know this life gets a bit difficult at times
Yeah I don't think I'm coping i think that I'm lost
Yeah teetering on the edge of suicide
Like yeah do i do it or do i wait to die

Cus it feels like you picked out the gems from my bones
I was so beautiful now I'm empty and all alone
Cus you love to put your two hands in my insides
And you push me on the stage where I'm blinded by the light

Yeah I'm tripping on my own tongue try to find the words
Just to tell my family that im not ok, i hurt
Tell me when was the last time that anyone cared
Probably when you read my eulogy when im fucking dead

Everyone has their opinions on why i takes these fucking drugs
Yeah just to feel numb so i cant give a fuck
Im sick of overthinking about everything in my life
And you know youre fucked up too

Its crazy they don't get it
Just a-fucking-live cuz I got people that be caring
Standing on the edge and staring
At the faces warped from cries if took this step to end it

Walls be closing so I'm phoning in cuz I feel so lone
On the edge of it, cuz I'm on a binge and I know it shows
Sold my soul for shit boy this ain't a skit, man I feel so cold
Lost it in a f it, I was in a binge, can't take back those

So I live with it, and I loop a bit, and I loop a bit
Like I broken record I'm forgotten bitch
I know I got a problem, made a fucking list
Knowing I'm adding daily cuz I'm throwing fits

My mental state be going down a pit
I got a itch, which I gotta fix
Cuz I'm bleeding out from scratching all of it

These walls are closing in
Losing all my breath
Thinking did I live and life without a end

Gasping for a breath
Fighting for my friends
Fuck I gotta make it, I ain't ready yet

Gotta make amends
Cannot fly again
Off the handle, man I'm fucking losing it

Grounded by a bend
Blacking out again
Sober up until it happens all again

Fucked up I need to lay low
Beta blockers with the Faygo
Anxiety got me fucked up with these fake thoughts screaming lameo

So I close my eyes till it fade away
Open up and its another day
Another day issa another waste
Man I fucking hate, that I think this way

Losing It

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$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Losing It

Lyrics

I'd do anything for her but she refuses to realize
That's she's the one that could silence my pain

I'd do anything for her but she refuses to realize
That she's everything I've got
And the memories don't stop
When she's out of grasp i gasp for air
But i keep holding on
As my lungs just want to stop

I keep reminding myself to breathe
Cause she's the girl i never thought I'd see

Can't trust my eyes , is she real
I don't know anymore , it feels surreal

I'd do anything for her but she refuses to realize
That's she's the one that could silence my pain

I'd do anything for her but she refuses to realize
That she's everything I've got
And the memories don't stop
When she's out of grasp i gasp for air
But i keep holding on
As my lungs just want to stop

I keep reminding myself to breathe
Cause she's the girl i never thought I'd see

Anything

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prod. ocin

One more love song for you 
It’s not the last one that’s true 
I miss the last time I knew what I’m supposed to do 
One more sad song for you 
It’s not the last one that’s true 
I miss the last time we knew what we’re supposed to do 

When my heart feels cold 
When I’m all alone 
When I write my songs 
That’s when I think about you 
When my soul gets sold 
When we’re grey and old 
When nothing’s left at all 
Tell me you’ll think about me 

Tell me you’ll think about me 
I swear I’ll think about you 
No there’s no world without you 
Easy to say, there’s just something about you 
Hard to explain yeah 
You and I in the rain, yeah 
Help me fix my brain 
Before I go insane 
(x2) 

When my heart feels cold 
When I’m all alone 
When I write my songs 
That’s when I think about you 
When my soul gets sold 
When we’re grey and old 
When nothing’s left at all 
Tell me you’ll think about me

thinking about you

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walk down

Never understand me
I don’t, don’t see clearly
Cut off, won’t you don’t see
I sink, sink so deeply 

cut off where I was from, yeah I don’t really know much 
about my past cus the drugs just blurred it, 
yeah im hurting,im lurking but I don’t feel im worth it
You’re talking back to me with a blunted point of view 

but I don’t understand this you gotta speak clearly
My mind is filled with poetry but I can’t put these thoughts down to paper
I spit this out right now,
yeah my heads just a mess I feel manic all the time

So you put your fingers straight into my chest 
wrap your bones around my ribs pull them tightly and then I cant breathe
Every time I speak it’s like your name is wrapped around my lungs
Panic overload I think my brains just gone numb

I say this doesn’t feel real,
You say im insane and look at me with eyes that could kill
You say I didn’t wanna steal
It’s just about survival you know

Yeah tell me how it feels to look into my eyes
When you say you don’t recognize me and you don’t want
Anything to do with me anymore yeah
Im used to that shit when I say I wanna quit the drugs

Remember you call me at 3 am,
Stuttering your drunk you say you wanna kill yourself again
I cant deal with this, I cant take it
Your best friend was dying and I couldn’t help

Im watching depression consume me
As my anxieties got me all kinds of fucked up
Tearing at the seams, so im tearing at the skin
Watch the blood pour down to my ankles yeah I’ve lost within

YOUR EYES COULD KILL

Im lost in the way where I don’t care 
fading now I zone in and out
I zone in and out 
theirs no forgiveness in this hell

my vision gets blurred when I look down, 
im sitting on this edge as my mind fills with doubt
my mind fills with doubt
in this hell, I know im alone

my mother gets scared ye she calls me
always wondering if im home
yeah im always home
I just  don’t wanna make you cry

im losing track of medication
is what I see real is it all in my head
is it all in my head
it circles back it starts again

HOW TO STOP CARING

its temporal shift in my mindstate you’re late
im trying to debate if im worth it, I hate me
cus you wanna block me out on the daily
im come to the conclusion it’s my fault lately

your eyes now water down to your cheekbones
its a hollow heart and an empty crosshair
your bones start to crack at the pressure
when you realize that you’re alone

medicate fuck me up in a new way
disappointed yea im left in the ashtray
you know me, im that kid whos forgettable
you did something that’s so unforgivable

hesitate, kick me out in the alleyway
winters coming and im lost in the picture frame
prescription ghost, you lost your place in her heart again
WHAT DO I DO NOW

cus I don’t want to be alone
yeah im crush down, im crushed down
your burning at the ends of my soul
cus it hurts now it hurts now

sinking down into the worst of days
didn’t make sense how I ended this way
sick to my stomach yeah
I can’t bear to look at myself anymore

my mother says I was always perfect
but I don’t remember the last time I could smile

I'M ONLY TEMPORARY

wake up on the cold floor,
I feel numb, I feel close to death
with bones made of stone, yeah im not getting up
I haven’t got the strength to call and say I’ve had enough

of this bullshit that you wanna put me through, wanna put me through
wanna push me down because you hate me too, its always you
singing my name our clearly, with depression embracing me
my eyes are getting blurry Im thinking I just need sleep

yeah so wake up when you feel like your coping
wake me up when theirs no one left to love you anymore
cus you know it’s easy to throw me away

im used to it
im getting used to it
just take me apart at the spine
let me just fly away

I don’t wanna be in pain anymore
memories of your body lifeless on the floor
they always, seem to come back seem to come back
I wish I wasn’t in love

you find me at the edge of the road
I’ve given up, shits fucked, yeah im here on my own
im losing control again
im losing control again

so when will I be normal can you let me know
im screaming out your name but I know you never show
im losing control again
I wish you could speak again

bite me on the lip and push me back
you’re always finding ways to pull at my skin theirs so much tension
between us, you’re so careless,
callouses are building up on my emotions just so I can’t feel a thing

yeah I need to shed my skin, but your hooks are deep within
every song I write is still about you and I hate myself for it
cus all I do is hurt other people
I try my best to move on but it never seems to work

IF ONLY YOU COULD SPEAK

@prodby_instinct

Lyrics

I'm in trance
Man I’m walking off a bottle I might dash
I be lurking I be creeping hit tha gas
Shotty only fucking wit me cuz I'm bad
Now she mad cuz I’m slippin out tha motherfucking back

Man I’m walking off a bottle I might dash
I be lurking I be creeping hit tha gas
Shotty only fucking wit me cuz I'm bad
Now she mad, cuz she know I'm tha best she ever had

You can hate me
I aint give a fuck
Man I took the whole bottle what a fucking rush

And she still here
And we sippin yuh
And we fucking she a keeper till I fuck it up

I'm in trance
Man I’m skating off a bottle Ima dash
I might crash hit a crack going fast

And I'm thrashed
Cuz I'm smashed
I be drippin like sum WAP real fast

Yung slothy in tha back
With the homies from tha rags
With sum homies wit a strap
With no phonies and no cap

I be loyal to my fans
I ain't loyal to no bands
Fuck wit him and catch sum hands Ima square up for my mans

I ain't really give a fuck about a thing
I seen bodies overdose from a fling
I been sipping off tha Henny ima fiend
I'm a better man than I should’ve been

Why you sigh why you fly why you die
Why did no one ever see all the signs
Ima die ima die ima die
But I ain't finna let it be a suicide

I'm in trance
Man I’m walking off a bottle I might dash
I be lurking I be creeping hit tha gas
Shotty only fucking wit me cuz I'm bad
Now she mad cuz I’m slippin out tha motherfucking back

Man I’m walking off a bottle I might dash
I be lurking I be creeping hit tha gas
Shotty only fucking wit me cuz I'm bad
Now she mad, cuz she know I'm tha best she ever had

The Sin of Sloth

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Bad (Instinct & Venxm)

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

yeah I never meant to be this way
always shutting down never reaching out with the words I need to say
I could use a friend right now
I just need someone to pick me up so I just don’t drown

can’t rely on others im just let down
just pretend it’s fine until I breakdown embrace hell
I feel like I’ve been here before
never really winning just pushing on to the next day

attending funerals where I can’t remember the names
maybe ill see myself laid to rest here and then ill fade away
cus these thoughts don’t make sense to me never filled with energy
anger seems to take control when I think of my families name

no matter how much I hate you I hate myself more
just the fact that I can harbor this just breaks at the soul
so if you could tell me how to let go of this misery
would you come, would you come and set me free

im worthless, so pick me up, pick me up, pick me up, and then you say
it’s hurting, so what’s it now, what’s it now, issues seem to find me how 
im worthless so pick me up, pick me up, pick me up and light the match
im burning, just to bring me down, bring me down, I open up my souls yours now

so what did I have to say
to make you hate me and turn things this way
my heart is like a river but it’s dried up
burnt at both ends till the fire just consumes us

yeah so how do I explain to a family that doesn’t understand
the sunlight passes through the shutters burn my irises again
cus im introverted, not worth don’t wanna go outside
mind is lurking on topics ill and say im fine

you can see pass through the fake smile
Yeah would you like to understand it even if it’s for a while
it’s like there are fishing hooks inside my skin
yeah when everything is doing fine you reel me in

searching through my pockets like what’s the point there’s no money there
roll the last of my tobacco cus id rather breath it than the air
my gums are an astray why did I expect to stay
walk into another home just to be kicked out again

Worthless

Self produced / Sad  

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I'M ONLY TEMPORARY

Rivilin

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