this is marvelous man i think you are the best emo rapper so far i listened can you reduce your upload time if you can 2 week too long :D

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Checkout my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi
and thanks to my brother WXLVE for everything.

Rivilin:

boot to face then im left to the ground
my hands are shaking now I turn around and face to the crowd
it’s like how did I get to this point without falling
always got a knife in my back im sick of crawling

appreciate everyone that’s always made an effort
just to reach out to me they say that my music is a blessing
but I just keep writing, this is how I cope yeah
not gonna falter im gonna take the future whole

yeah seeing my best friends fall to their old ways
I always got their back and they don’t have to owe me
cus they got mine when I come calling yeah
don’t bring up the past cus it’s always got me hurting

NPCs just give me the kick down
I got everyone I need here
vermin swarm 2021 gonna take it
fuck all the haters you know im not breaking

you wanna come at me and start making accusations
always had it out for me that’s an understatement
like fuck you, fuck them and everyone around me
never had my back when im sinking down slowly

you wanna kick me out the door making implications
then im forced to the ground with no explanation
like move back move in, take it, and don’t slip
cus this is all I got can I sink down below this

WXLVE:

everyone always looks up to me, 
but it feels like iam always drowning on self negativity
yeah, just walking through like yeah, with bleary eyes
im sick of constantly feeling like i need a new life

inside out i feel them haunting my dreams 
its time to sink or swim but im just tryna  wake from the demon within
im afraid these visions are real the man with no names closing in
with brothers close by side ill try not be eaten alive

$lothboi:

RIVILIN
THEY HEAR OUR PAIN
KNIVES IN OUR BACKS WHILE WE CHASE OUR DREAMS

FUCK ALL THIS
ANXIETY
PAIN AND SIN JUST FUCKING FOLLOW ME

Sick of pain, issa fuckin loop
I ain’t want to die, so I’m calling you
Just pay no mind, to my fucking moods
It’s unstable times, I CANT FUCKING CHOOSE

Why do I betray
Myself everyday
Minute I’m awake
I DIG A FUCKING GRAVE

Brothers FT.  WXLVE X $LOTHBOI

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I see you still fighting through a fog that you couldn’t seem to get through
you try to still pick me up like im just the kid who didn’t fit his shoes
I promise I would try and find a cure, im just a youth who was so ignorant I didn’t know what i put you through
I didn’t want to see that you remember me as a kid, I didn’t want to be the one who watched you enter this hell

I tore my hands to pieces trying to just dig you out alive
I never understood the words when you said you should let me die
i don’t want to give up on you, cus you were there when I needed you
but you told me time waits for no one and that includes you to

who am I that’s what you said, you couldn’t recognize me in your bed
and that same place became your grave where you saw your husband stay
you don’t remember your daughter anymore your shaking legs landed you on the floor
if I could take away the agony you know I fucking would

you shake, yeah Parkinson’s never really suited you anyway
hearts break when the ones that you love start to see you fade from old age
it’s just a game, to be trapped in a prison when the body starts to just ache
we fade when the memories of old start to chip and you lose faith

so calm down, calm down, it’s not like you remember who I am
your just a shell of the person I used to love but ill stay right by you
there’s nothing worse than being left on your own as the world just fades out
So i’ll hold my tongue, I won’t let another take advantage as you wither away

Swan Rd

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yeah crucify me stab me in the front
what was I expecting I knew you’d break my trust
watch the veil come down and cover up my eyes
would you come and save me, ill believe your lies

tell me what’s the point I feel like I’ve given up
should I call you back when I know this isn’t love
you just take advantage when im on the low
when I need you most I find myself all alone

I can feel it in my skin crawling under my eyes
its constant negativity that makes the doubt and takes emotions that I hide
until im just left feeling so numb
a delicate flower that breaks when it’s loved

im over-medicated i didn’t want to say it
because if I admit it, you just freak out and leave me here all alone
and it shows
that i don’t know how to communicate to you at all

I see you suffering, you know it’s hurting me
I ask if your ok but you just find ways to push away
all the pain
until it builds and builds and you take it out all on me

so why can’t you explain to me what you're going through
you know you're not alone
but we shut everyone out
until were drowning in our doubt

Live A Liar

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https://soundcloud.com/ripthepetals

Rivilin
yeah baby  im gone you know i don’t mess with the past
but I know you just try to hit me up and fuck with my heart
now im alone darkness seems to swallow all of me
till my room fills with light and I see you hitting up my phone

cus im chilling with the vermin swarm, drug addictions all we know
best intentions peeling back my scalp you grab a bottle and take my soul
all the money I have got spent on frivolous things
try to fill an empty void with friends and designer rings
 
RipThePetals

I've got fake friends who dip when they pop off
New friends only like me cause im Petals
I've lost too many friends to the drugs, but they give me more, when i'm coming down, just to keep me around

And i can't answer the question to why your coming back to me
Your blowing up my phone just to treat me like i'm the enemy
I'll fall in love again, just a chip in my heart
Girl you broke me apart, but i can't seem to let you outta my arms

Rivilin


so what did  you say, what did you say
i don’t wanna feel like this anymore
so why did I turn, why did we fight
everytime i seem to be just at your door

so what did you mean, so what did you mean
that everyone just wants a little piece of me
the shadows seem to stalk im out of my mind
I feel like paranoia gets the best of me

yeah so baby im gone, try to fill conversation with validation
but you just want to chuck it back in my face no imagination
yeah if you just really want to hate me
At least just say it to me face say it to my face

if you just really wanted something  yeah
why can’t you just take it and let me just fucking leave
cus it always ends up this way
two best friends fighting over someone that we wanna hate


RipThePetals

Hate me, always love it when you tell me that you hate me
On these amphetamines, you tell me that you break me
All those words you've never spoken that I can't read
I’ve been abused in every fucking way so

You cant do a fucking thing to me
I see my demons when I’m smoking weed
I think about it they look just like you, when you know the truth, come crawling back to me

INVALID FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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Rivilin

I wanna see you smile but I keep that on the low
I wanna make you mine yeah but you already know
that your wasting time yeah I take that as a blow
your knuckles hit the spine and now im passed out on the floor

you love to cut me down but you keep that on the low
you hate it when i leave but you keep begging for more
this isn’t love its fire and your burning at my soul
i try to win this time, but i keep begging for more

Ripthepetals

I’m over these meds and all the bitches in my fucking bed
I fall in love too easily
I'm over all of these texts that say you flaking to him, its so hard to say I want company

It's just another life I guess
Another fucked mistake my soul made
It's just another life i fucked up, baby im fucked up, give me a break

Rivilin

yeah it’s like my best intentions never seem to go to plan they’re just mistakes
you're just a toxin in my skin medicated to forget
im popping tags for serotonin always know it don’t work
so you lay me on a pedal stool to try make me feel like im worth it

but you know its toxic, don’t you know it fucks with chemicals
plagued with awful memories so im just forced to forget

Ripthepetals

I just wish that I was pretty as fuck, but ima jealous cunt, im throwing up in the bathroom
And no one else can compare to you, but it's not fair to you to say that i'm the one you want

I just wish that I was pretty as fuck, but ima jealous cunt, im throwing up in the bathroom
And no one else can compare to you, but it's not fair to you to say that i'm the one you want

KEEP ME ON THE LOW FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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yeah, is this just the price of existence
It’s nothing chemical I think it’s the distance
two wrongs make a right in the system 
and were both fucked in the head, what's the difference?


yeah I don’t feel the love or affection
sleep is better cus then my life is fiction
you always got time for him, 
so I sit in this dark room, steady wishing

yeah, I’ve been breaking bones to make it work
peel the fingernails you’re watching the skin burn
tell me what’s wrong? 
you’re always on ig live steady crying

yeah, maybe I was the asshole all along
watch the comments say that I was all wrong
I wish i wasn’t always alone, 
im always fucking alone, please pick up the phone

EXISTENCE; LOSING INTEREST FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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Rivilin

you know its a pity 
chin up yeah you know life’s pretty shit
white powder on my nose I said id quit 
racking up, racking up in bathroom stalls till I just vomit

I found myself in self-destruction 
pushing you away with a grin on my face
cus id rather get better on my own than drag you through hell
get caught in the tide you’ll drown in the swell

do I stay here, if I pop a few tags will I get some serotonin
what’s the point of that when I look in disgust at the mirror-like you gotta be joking
yeah if I walk away will I get better and fix my mental state
yeah you know i won’t cus i sink sink sink

RipThePetals

Tell me you love me, but you smiling more with him
Tell me you want me, but your spending more time with him
Suicide runs deep in my veins, you only call me when your high or alone, so im gone

Dirt road
No home
I felt you body and baby your so cold

Glass bones
Baby im fragile
Im crying this pillows wet, i'm trying to go home

Rivilin

even if I had 100 grand on my face yeah id still feel like shit
it’s hard to see the future right here when everything’s covered in a blanket
so’ll take some more of that oxycontin sinking below and I’ve passed the bottom
having conversations with my soul yeah he said he hated me

trapped in a dark place like im sitting in my own head looking through the mirror
my body parts moving back and forth like why I don’t control a thing
dissociated most of the time. ye like im gonna be, gonna be sick
feeling like this tunnel vision won’t ever go awa-, go away

RipThePetals

I'm a pretty crier and you a petty lier
I hate you face, but fuck I wish that it was back in my bed

I'm a lone survivor in this world so cold
I had a heart of gold, and than you sold it for prescriptions i guess

Just tell me that your ok
I promise I will let you know i’m alright

I'm alright with you and your alright with him
I’ve got these problems I gotta let go

I'm so alone
Nowhere to go

I'm alright with you
This jealousy, get the fuck out my mind

SWELL FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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Rivilin

I always see your face
when im all alone when im all alone
now the embers snuffed it fades
at the bottom of a well at the bottom of a well

now its always hard to explain what it’s like to lose a friend
if I could reach up to the stars and bring him back would this all end
cus suicides and option but where will that get me
will i come back with the same fate and be embraced by misery

so ill sink ill sink never get up I won’t leave
so ill sink ill sink i dont wanna live when you’re not with me                   
so ill fall and crash yeah this isn’t how it meant to be
so ill fall and crash yeah how did you forget about me

RipThePetals

I've sat there
With the blade on my wrist
Too many times to count

Have you ever lost a friend
The pain never ends
It always lingers on and on and on
The urge so strong, so strong

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

And I can't take it
You wanna fake it 
Well i can't relate bitch
Why would you say it was all a joke?

BELOW FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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RipThePetals

Break me down
You just wanna use me for the crown
Petals falling down, they falling

Please dont trust me I don't even trust myself, i'll crawl out this hell
Please don't curse me, i'm too weak and fragile as a well
There's way too many symptoms that my doctor was told me
Bipolar was told and now im fucked and alone

Rivilin

I say what’s wrong like all the fucking time
I see tears flood when you look in my eyes
you push away like im not worth your time
I sink into some drugs so I can hide

it never really worked out did it
you hear about me convulsing on the floor
hitting my phone yeah it’s ringing 
not gonna pick it up no no no

cus last time I did you wanted to get back with me
your boyfriend found out and now  im hated for free
remember me as the kid with brown hair brown eyes
I came a long way since birch but im feeling fucking fine

yeah I gained a few plays now your fucking with me
with my so-called friends started this and left me to bleed
watching this circle yeah leave me behind 
they want to start a band without me but this is my dream

yeah I made it here on my own
I got new friends by my side they’re not fake like them
cus I can still hear my phone calling 
your calling, yeah why won’t it end

WHAT'S WRONG FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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RipThePetals

Body so cold
I'm on the road
You wanna go home

Cocaine drip down your nose
Body feel so cold

I don't like you
I don't even see you as a friend anymore

You know when it rain, yeah you bet it gone pour
Remember you came and you claimed you’re alone

I was there when you needed help
Now i'm alone, living in this hell

Body so cold
I'm on the road
You wanna go home

Rivilin

No i don’t get this, 
when you say im a fuck up and leave me alone oh

RipThePetals

Cocaine drip down your nose
Body feel so cold

Rivilin

Where do I go from here 
when I mentally fucked and I hear your call

RipThePetals

I don't like you
I don't even see you as a friend anymore

You know when it rain, yeah you bet it gone pour
Remember you came and you claimed you’re alone

Rivilin 

FUCK FUCK FUCK

RipThePetals

I was there when you needed help
Now i'm alone, living in this hell

IMAGERY FT. RIPTHEPETALS

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Rivilin

results of mistakes always end this way
yeah always coming back at me
im not gonna just turn up to be fake
take a piece of my soul yeah it’s free

should i just flake and walk away
cus its obvious the problem is me
pushing through the crowd ye calling my name
im gonna walk away and just fucking leave

Ripthepetals

I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk
I don't really like the way that you talk to me

I don’t really fuck with you no more, we were living our life just like a sweet teen movie
Fucking in your parent’s bed, no one else had a king-sized in your crib
Playing with my chest hair, it’s 3 am and there's sweat all on the bed
I see you still like my songs when I check on my Soundcloud

I hope that you still sing along, knowing that there about you

And how I fucking despise you

Rivilin

yeah like the Truman show is my life faked
cus everyone’s like an actor
yeah so predictable they’re just gonna take
yeah take everything from me

always tried and tested guess it didn’t work out
said I wasn’t gonna pass school and I should just leave
so I packed my bags headed on my way
found someone who I thought meant something to me

no, no I guess it’s just me overthinking 
drinking until I know my liver is  sinking
it feels like I am switching rooms everything im blinking
take me to a time where I am listening to Linkin park

when I was 9 years old 
yeah imagining im on the stage with them when I saw them live
yeah a kids fantasy were always so blissful
can I turn back time

PAINT ME OUT FT. RIPTHEPETALS

Self produced / Sad  

CONTACT: RIVILINAU@GMAIL.COM

IMAGERY FT. RIPTHEPETALS

Rivilin

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